more like BOYS BE ATTACKING OUR ENTIRE SELVES AND OUR POOR HEARTS WITH THIS NEW COMEBACK THAT WE DID NOT EXPECT AT ALL LORD HAVE MERCY ON US ALL HIDE YOUR WALLETS UNDER YOUR BEDS THIS IS NOT A GOOD TIME TO GET THEM OUT SEVENTEEN WHAT IS THIS.
tomorrow i’m gonna try to give my dad a note explaining everything that’s been going on for the past few months. me feeling depressed and suicidal, everything. i don’t feel comfortable enough actually talking to him about it, but i know that i need to let him know in some way, shape, or form, or i’m never going to get help. it’s going to be hard but i know I need help. kind of scared for his reaction, but what’s the worse that could happen right?
Before the fic I just have to say, anon, you literally made my entire day! I am still giggling over the fact that you not only called me Sally (idk why that just makes me happy) but you also called me ‘fluffy jikook queen’ and I love that so much OMG!!! It feels like an accomplishment. In fact, I love it so much that I legit saved it as a url. So, I was thinking about changing my url to something Jikook related anyway so, to people that read this, what should my new url be: fluffyjikookqueen or jikookiejar? Please message me, anon or not, if you have an opinion (please help I can’t decide).
Thank you so much anon, you made my day, I hope you enjoy this fic!
Jeongguk doesn’t understand Jimin. He’s rejected Jimin at least five times now. Why won’t Jimin just give up? Of course, if Jeongguk was going to question that, why couldn’t he just kiss Jimin on the cheek and be done with it? It wasn’t that big of a deal. But Jeongguk isn’t stupid. He’s been rejecting Jimin for years now, knowing that if he gave in, even just slightly, he’d be unable to stop himself from wanting more.
He hates the way he feels when Jimin gets flirty with him: nervous, out of his element, giddy, unsure, happy…
He also hates the way he feels when he sees Jimin flirting with other people: like he’s not special, like Jimin really doesn’t like him that’s just the way he is.
Jeongguk shakes his head and resolves to forget about it. It’s his birthday, after all. He rounds the corner to the kitchen and stops short when he sees Jimin…with Yoongi’s lips attached to his cheek.
“Victory!” Jimin shouts, jumping up, fists in the air. Yoongi rolls his eyes at him, giving him a look that’s part exasperation, part amusement.
“Shut up. I just felt sorry for you.” Yoongi mumbles and turns back to Namjoon and Hoseok. Taehyung high-fives Jimin and they start dancing around the table. Jimin spots Jeongguk standing in the middle of the hallway and stops.
“Ah, Jeongguk-ah! See, at least someone’s willing to kiss me.” He sticks his tongue out teasingly, but Jeongguk just feels like throwing up.
“Anyway, Seokjin hyung’s almost done with your birthday dinner.” As the words leave Jimin’s mouth Seokjin walks out of the kitchen with a platter of food that looks delicious, only, Jeongguk suddenly doesn’t have an appetite anymore. He sits down and smiles anyway, not wanting to worry anyone.
The dinner goes smoothly and Jeongguk takes that to mean no one notices his internal crisis. He excuses himself back to his room after an appropriate amount of time and slips into the dark room, falling face first on his bed. He sighs heavily into his pillow.
“That’s a big sigh for someone who’s supposed to be celebrating his birthday.” Jeongguk freezes and lifts his head to see Jimin leaning against his door frame, smirking at him.
“Why are you in such a good mood?” Jeongguk mumbles, head falling back to his pillow.
“Cause it’s been a good day Kookie! Up until now.” After a beat of silence Jeongguk feels his bed dip.
“What’s wrong?” Jimin smooths his hand up and down Jeongguk’s back. Jeongguk instantly relaxes against Jimin’s hand. Jeongguk stays silent and Jimin starts to think he won’t speak.
“Hyung, why…why do you want me to kiss you so much?” Jeongguk’s voice is muffled by his arms. He refuses to look up even as Jimin’s hand stills on his back.
“I…I like you, I guess. You’re really cute when you get flustered, you know that?” Jimin huffs out a laugh and Jeongguk can feel it on the back of his neck.
“You want me to kiss you because…you like me? You like Yoongi hyung then too?” The words come out of Jeongguk’s mouth before he can stop them. Jimin’s quiet for a moment, and then Jeongguk hears giggles.
“What, are you jealous? He only did that cause I wouldn’t stop complaining about you Kookie. God, I can’t believe you’re actually turning twenty today, there’s just no way.” Jimin smiles at the back of Jeongguk’s head. Jeongguk squirms under his hand.
“Make me.” Jeongguk turns around and narrows his eyes at Jimin.
“Oh with what? A kiss?” He teases. Jimin looks as if he’s thinking about it, then nods.
“Preferably.” Jeongguk, in a moment of bravery, wraps his arms around Jimin’s neck and pulls him down.
“Okay.” He giggles against Jimin’s lips but then Jimin bites down on his lip teasingly and he gasps. Jeongguk’s hands run through Jimin’s hair once, twice, three times. He sees why Jimin loves doing it. His hair is so soft.
Jimin pulls away gently and Jeongguk whines.
“No, come back.” Jeongguk makes grabby hands and pouts as Jimin moves to sit back up. Jimin laughs and covers Jeongguk’s hands with his.
“Now who’s greedy huh? If I’d known this would be your reaction, I would have let Yoongi hyung kiss me ages ago.” Jeongguk’s eyes narrow to slits.
“Don’t even. Besides, it’s still my birthday.” Jimin smiles and crawls into the bed beside Jeongguk, wrapping his arms around him.
“Happy birthday Kookie.” Jeongguk leans down and presses a small kiss to Jimin’s cheek, making Jimin flush.
When you like to buy second hand textbooks from the 80s for the brilliant grammar exercises but they stopped making the cassettes 20 years ago and now you can conjugate in the imperfect subjunctive but not actually understand ‘hello’