If someone punches you in the stomach,“ he says, “it’ll hurt whether you were expecting it or not. So if the person you love stops loving you back, you’re going to feel the blow even if you saw it coming.
S.Z. // Excerpt from a book I’ll never write #195
I hate you so much and I have to keep reminding myself that
We’re not in love we’re not in love we’re not in love
Love only works if the other person feels the same way back and you don’t
You really don’t
SHE’S USING HER ALTEAN POWERS TO HIDE HER ENTIRE IDENTITY!
Now okay this entire time I’ve been wondering:
How does no one including her own son not recognize her??
“No one comprehended that the experiments of my mother, Honerva, could never be undone. I had a secret team construct this inter-reality gate on the rift, where her work began.”
SO HE THINKS SHE’S DEAD
But why wouldn’t he recognize her right?
BECAUSE FOR ALL THESE 10,000+ YEARS SHE HAS BEEN HIDING HER IDENTITY!
And just look ather expression. She is shocked to see her real face after so long.
Clearly getting her memories back in season 3 has changed her perspective on a lot of things.
It’s like she was almost reborn again
“No one can completely wipe a memory away. There are always remnants deep within to claw out.”
BUDDY SHE IS SPEAKING FROM EXPERIENCE HERE
This could be foreshadowing to Zarkon possibly remembering some day through some sort of experience, considering he clearly didn’t remember even after she woke him up with her power drawn from those memories.
But back to the scene revealing her real identity:
Her pupils are shaking, her eyes are blood-shot, and she looks very distressed!
The amount of stress on her body over 10,000 YEARS is obviously going to take its toll on her. Her body is most likely permanently damaged from what happened to her when she was on her death bed.
Even if it is not the most noticeable thing happening in the show, she is clearly drawing back to being more Honerva than Haggar.
(Honerva was clearly crazy too and was a “science or death” woman but she was at least a little more sympathetic(?) as Honerva)
So I just wanted to point this out since I have seen absolutely no posts about this meanwhile I was screaming when it actually happened.
Theory time: so it’s clear that Zarkon(and everyone else in the universe) believe that Honerva died 10,000 years ago.
And as we’ve seen here, the purple/blue skin look and glowing eyes are part of an Altea transformation that she did to hide her identity.
Maybe when she woke up from being dead, she decided that the loss of his wife is exactly what zarkon needed to rule his empire with proper authority, considering he risked everything to try and save her she was obviously his weak spot.
So she wakes up before him and decides she’s going to be Haggar, the High Priestess of the galra empire, here to advise and help zarkon in anyway possible. And then over those 10,000+ years she forgot who she was, what with being swept up in the Druid magic and quintessence.
All she knew after a certain point was that she was Haggar. She clearly did not remember Lotor being her son until she gained her memories back. And it’s stated she didn’t realize zarkon was her husband until they came back.
So yeah this post is long sorry about that. Happy Season 4 Day everyone!
But if we don’t, this is how I want you to remember me:
I want you to remember me curled up, listening to the sound of your heartbeat and tracing maps across your skin. Remember me laughing at your jokes, even the stupid ones. Remember me in hysterics for absolutely no reason and in tears because one time you made me so sad neither of us thought I’d recover. Remember me brave, that time you held my hand and I thought I was going to die; remember me scared and gentle and delicate and breakable - only for you though, only for you.
Remember me happy, and all the ridiculous ways I tried to get your attention. Remember the way I was too stubborn to talk to you and how absolutely insane it drove the both of us. Remember all the firsts and how they were so delightful we went back for seconds and thirds and fourths. Remember the songs you couldn’t stop listening to and the childish dreams you allowed yourself about the future. If it’s any consolation I allowed myself to have them too.
If it comes to it I don’t want you to remember the ending.
Remember the beginning. Remember the first time you knew.
S.Z. // Excerpt from a book I’ll never write #132
The bitterest tears shed over graves are for words left unsaid and deeds left undone.
“She never knew how I loved her.” “He never knew what he was to me.” “I always mean to make more of our friendship.” “I did not know what he was to me till he was gone.” (x)
listen guys I know this quote of the day probably doesn’t say anything about s13 but I can still use it to my advantage to doodle angsty shit (and please excuse the crappy photo my phone also broke and I can barely see anything on my screen)
“Magic made everything feel so impermanent, it was easy to forget that some things, once changed, could never be undone. That not everything was either changeable or infinite. Some roads kept going, and others had an end.”
I feel so sick and I’m gonna pretend that it’s because of the alcohol and not you, and the fact that the lips on my neck tonight weren’t yours.
Everything I did with him should have been you, and now he’s attached and I’m still hurting and everyone’s cheering because someone else just took off their top , and all I can think about is how fucking in love with you I am, and how if you were here maybe I wouldn’t be sitting in a room with a bunch of half naked drunk teenagers,
And I guess I kept hoping you’d turn up and we could talk about the future and how you want to die just to find a way to come back alive again
But you never did turn up,
So I let him do what he wanted to do to me,
Because for once I just wanted to feel some affection,
Even if it wasn’t from you.
You knew this was a bad idea. Going to Harry’s house this evening, when you know full well you’ve been slowly growing feelings for him. Feelings for your friend, one of your best friends, feelings that shouldn’t be there.
You’ve been friends for years, but now he’s around more and you’ve spent more time together, you’ve began to feel that warm tingle inside your belly whenever you see him. You have to suppress a smile whenever anyone mentions his name to you. When you see a text from him you all but scramble to pick your phone up and reply immediately. You’ve fallen for him. And that is why going back to his house, just the two of you, is a bad idea.
You’d been out that evening with a small group of friends for dinner and drinks. Catching up, laughing and sharing bottles of champagne. Time had flown by and you’d all been saying your goodbyes before you went to call a taxi.
“You can’t get a cab all the way back to yours at this time, love. It’s bloody miles away.” Harry mutters, leaning over your shoulder to see the taxi company’s number on your phone.
“Don’t have a lot of choice, do I?” You say, turning round to face him.
“Come back to mine, I’ll drive you home in the morning.” He says so casually, not knowing the feelings you’ve got festering deep inside. You feel your stomach twist into a tight knot that feels as if it could never be undone, no matter how hard you try. You want to say no, because you know spending time together alone in such close proximity would just make matters worse for you, make your feelings grow more, even though right now you don’t think that it’s possible. But you know if you say no that he’d fight it, and right now you’re too tired to fight anything alongside the internal battle you’re fighting with yourself.
“Alright then, cheers.” You politely smile, despite your hesitations, before saying your final goodbyes to your friends and go with Harry to where his driver is parked.
I’m so drunk and all I want is you
I thought alcohol was suppose to make you forget,
But all I can do is remember
Remember you holding my hand whenever I was scared,
And kissing on the ghost train.
It will always be you
Summary: This is like the second installment of me writing angsty Calum because I love that so much and idk why?? So it’s hard to make a summary but it’s basically Calum being really sad over Y/N leaving after a fight and trying to cope with all his emotions at once.
a shaky breath escape his lips once he forced his eyes to glare out of the
window. With one single glance towards the wrong direction he knew he wouldn’t
have been able to look away from it again.
time. He didn’t have the power, the control or the mentality to do it.
I found you in the afternoon, sometime in the heat of sun. Regret is but an afterthought when a deed can’t be undone. I’d never felt so sunken - like my insides were carved out. Who knew you, all of a sudden, could diminish all my doubt?
The seas couldn’t claim her, chains couldn’t bind her, and she will never be undone.
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