never let this go

When I wake up (idk when that will be).. I’ll be answering my tumblr questions.. creating new things, thinking, writing, more thinking and being honest w. myself.

If you’re not honest with yourself for at least a couple minutes each day then you really have some work to do. on yourself. Remember that the worst thing you can do to yourself no matter how big or small of a situation or blessing it is.. and I mean it could literally be ANY…THING… you have to have inner conversations and mental connections in order to not only let yourself know but your universal self/soul KNOW that you have the capability to let go, forgive and accept. If you’re in the best place you’ve been in months mentally/emotionally, tell yourself “I’m gonna be okay, I’m doing so great, I’m proud of myself.” If you’re afraid of what the future might hold.. it’s also ok to admit that. As long as you’re admitting those things to yourself, you’re giving both your mind and body this sense of tranquillity and trust with knowing that you’re not lying to yourself just for the sake of everyone else’s happiness. Those were simply two common examples but later on I will be writing and posting more; especially mine because I’m going through something that requires mental strength and stability, and has a lot to do with constantly reminding myself that it’s okay to feel the way that I feel right now but I can’t let my past dictate my future. There’s nothing wrong with being so happy that you can’t stop smiling from ear to ear and there’s absolutely nothing wrong with being sad and feeling confused. Your peace of mind matters. Fuck everyone else’s. You come first.
Let that sink in.

It’s been 100 days since you kissed her,
And that doesn’t matter anymore or maybe the fact that I’m still counting means that it still matters all too much

I guess what I’m trying to say is that it doesn’t hurt like a knife anymore. I can see you without wanting to run as fast as I can (I still haven’t decided whether I wanted to run to you or away from you)

Somewhere during these 100 days my body got tired of being sad over someone who doesn’t deserve my tears, who never deserved me in the first place. So maybe it does still matter, but it doesn’t hurt as much and I guess that means I’m getting somewhere

ango!! my favorite boy!!!!

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Okay back to happier (?) topics - today’s prompts were firsts/future/tears !!!! and honestly that’s probably a happy set why did I go for this even we might just never know

This is our epilogue. You stop the car and all is quiet, you give my hand one last squeeze and you let go. As endings come, this is not a loud goodbye with tired throats and doors slamming. This one is soft and quiet, the street empty from the early morning lull, I close my eyes and remember the way my heart beats while it is still close to you, because it is scary to think it might stop once I go. If hearts could talk, it is with silence and this silence is goodbye-I love you-I miss you-please don’t go. Our breaths come in steady rhythm, in my mind I play all the sunsets we shared and think, as wrong timings go, weren’t we so damn beautiful?
—  timings and epilogues // Genefe Navilon
I remember when we first met and you held my hand everywhere we went,
I knew it would hurt when you finally let go but not this much, not like this,
The thing is, you never really did let go,
You just loosened grip,
Just to make me want to hold you closer to make sure you could never leave,
You left me hanging by a last string,
You made me believe I had you but only just,
Maybe you were never the one who was suppose to let go,
Maybe it was me all along,
So I guess this is me,
Loosening my grip completely,
Letting you go.
—  Being the one who lets go doesn’t make it hurt any less.

Since Jason’s truck is still getting fixed up in the shop, they use Trini’s 1998 Land Cruiser as their transportation (She constantly reminds her friends that it’s two years older than them) and that they better respect it. Billy takes her seriously. The others don’t. Zack’s sure that Trini loves the car almost as much as she loves Kim.

  • First of all, it’s Trini’s car. after years of saving money from birthdays and a good paying summer job before she moved to Angel Grove, she bought it with her own money.
  • It’s missing a headlight and has a huge crack down the middle of the windshield. 
  • Trini threatens the boys every time they get in “Zack if you put a dent in the roof I’ll kill you” and “Jason if you make us crash you’re paying for the damages.” 
  • She doesn’t threaten Billy or Kim
  • Kim gets control of the AUX cord and is the only one allowed in the passenger seat (which pisses off Zack and he tries to take it from her. Trini says she’ll throw him out the window) 
  • They start to call her car Hulk because no matter how much shit they put that car through, it’s still in one piece (besides the missing headlight and crack in the windshield) and that it really does feel like it’s indestructible.
  • One day Kim decides to have Billy hotwire Hulk so she can take him to the shop to “Paint over the ugly grey”
  • Trini catches them and just stands there looking all disappointed at her girlfriend with her arms crossed as Billy goes, “KIM MADE ME DO IT, I SWEAR!!” 
  • Trini forgives Billy
  • She doesn’t forgive Kimberly 
  • Later that same week, it’s Trini’s birthday so Kim wakes Billy up at 6 in the morning to steal Hulk. Kim takes it to the shop and replaces the light and windshield. 
  • They drive back to an angry Trini which quickly grows into a happy Trini because, “Holy shit, both of the lights work again!!!” 
  • The next day Trini notices painted pink lips in the corner of her trunk, which she didn’t notice before. Kim just smiles from the passenger seat as she hears Trini, “Kimberly!” 
  • Hulk is the coolest car in the parking lot of Angel Grove. Everyone constantly asks Trini she’ll give them a ride. She tells them to fuck off. (They grumble when Trini lets Kimberly in)  
  • Billy buys Trini a power ranger sticker family (Even though Trini swore that she’d never put a sticker on Hulk, she does it anyways because it’s Billy and she didn’t know that people were making them into car stickers now but she thinks it’s pretty damn cool) 
  • Trini gives her spare key to Kimberly 
  • Zack tries to steal it
  • Sometimes the gang shows up to school late because, “Kimberly, did you take my key?” “What? No, Trini, I haven’t seen your key, I have my own.” Trini and Kim then start bickering about using Kim’s key and Billy just goes, “It’s in your hand, Trini.” 
  • Jason wants to sell his truck for a land cruiser 
  • He doesn’t because, “Jason if you get a wannabe Hulk I’ll cut your balls off.” 
  • It’s almost like Kimberly lives in that car. Her sweatshirts and various articles of clothing are everywhere
  • One day when it’s just Zack and Trini, Zack just holds up a pink bra. (Trini slams on the brakes in the middle of traffic just to punch him all while her face gets red) Zack doesn’t stop laughing. 
  • No matter how many laws they seem to break with Hulk, they never get caught
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TORONTO REPORTBACK:  A tiny group of Soldiers of Odin and Jewish Defence League fascists were completely overwhelmed and drowned out by antifascists at City Hall. After initially being chased out of an underground parking garage earlier in the day, the fascists later had to rely on dozens of riot and bike cops to form a human barricade to allow a second escape after holding their ground for barely an hour.

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Daisy Johnson and Grant Ward in Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. Season 4 Episode 17 “Identity and Change