I thought to write down the “script” to one of my most viewed videos, with 40 study tips & tricks. It’s easier to read them and pass on the word!
1. Incorporate homework and classes in you
daily planner – that will give you an overall glimpse of how your week will
be about and how much time you need to spend in your studying sessions!
2. Color coordinate classes – be it notes,
your planner, your textbooks or binders, pick a unique color for each class and
work around the hues of that color to get more organized!
3. Make your own syllabus – if your
professor doesn’t provide a syllabus for your class, try to make one before the
school year working around your given textbooks or other given material.
4. Make study guides – make a study guide
from your syllabus and draw before each topic two boxes: one for a midtest and
one for the final test. When you have one of these tests, check the boxes when
you’ve finished studying the chapter so you won’t miss anything!
5. Referenceyour material throughout – most of the times, we students work with
in-class notes, textbooks and a syllabus. Since we get small bits of
information here and there it’s important to reference every page throughout
all your material so you can quickly access your information without having to
flip endlessly through pages!
6. Keep a dashboard nearby – Whenever you
use a notebook or a binder, make a dashboard on the first page with post it
notes so you can quickly scribble any questions, homework or page numbers. When
you get home, you just need to open your dashboard and attend those notes.
7. Print any tests, exercises and exams you
can find – keep those in the end of your binder. These are perfect to
practice before exams and tests because they really reflect what you will be
tested about. Set an alarm clock for the deadline and start working on those!
8. Condense – organization disappears when
you have too many of everything. Working with more than one planner in your
life will make everything chaotic. If you think you need a second planner
because you don’t have enough space to write in the first one, it’s because you
don’t have available time as well. Don’t fool yourself and set achievable
9. Customize your textbooks – most of the
times, textbooks are formal books where information is hard to come by. Make
your own tabs and write every chapter on them so they stick out – flag any
charts, tables or graphics. Everything needs to be incredibly accessible!
10 Print a special planning sheet before
finals: Organizing your studying by chapters and/or topics before finals is
tremendously important since it lets you organize the amount of time you
dedicate to each subject,
Study Sessions and Time Management
11. Save at least one afternoon or one
morning a week for intensive studying. These is your “life-saver” – when you
get so full of homework and projects that you can’t incorporate them into your
daily academic routine, one free afternoon to organize your school life will really
come in handy! Make an appointment with yourself!
12. Prepare in advance – although most
professors may not ask you to prepare a class in advance, if you have the means
to, go ahead. Grab a sheet and make a summary of the chapter your class will be
about. Write the major topics and key information and take that guide to class.
When your professor repeats previously studied information, you will be able to
understand everything much better!
13. Never leave something behind – Even if
you have a more light class, where professors don’t request homework or any
side projects, don’t let that fool you! Be disciplined and be your own
professors! Make your own projects and learn everything you can so you can nail
those finals when they arrive.
14. Write your questions – most of the
time, in a heavy study session, we come up with tons of questions and sometimes
we just leave them behind. Write them down in your dashboard or a small
notebook and ask your professors (personally or via e-mail). You can also ask
your schoolmates in a facebook group created for that purpose!
15. Set an alarm clock and reward yourself
– even if you study during an entire afternoon your studying will be pointless
if you don’t take regular breaks. Set an alarm clock for one hour/one hour and
a half and then take a 15 minute break. Never study for more than 2 hours
straight! Even if you don’t notice, you’ll get less and less focused.
16. . Make a list – before each study session
I like to grab my notepad and write down everything that I need to do before my
session ends: the chapters I need to read, the pages I need to go through and
the homework I need to complete. Sometimes I even write theses lists when I’m
in college so I’ll have more determination to complete those tasks once I get
17 Work on the least interesting thing first.
There are always classes or projects that we like the least – and those are the
ones that we need to tackle first. You will start your studying session
concentrated, which will let you go through the worst tasks faster.
18 Print, print, print. try to print
everything you can and never study from your computer. Having your PDF files
printed at hand will let you concentrate better, highlight and write some notes
in the margins. You can take these everywhere with you and even turn them into
small guides for future classes!
19. If you finish ahead, don’t quit.
Perhaps the time you’ve saved for your study session has come to an end way
before you have planned. That doesn’t mean you should stop right now – Take
that time to review what you’ve learned so far or prepare other classes ahead
20. Study in an organized space – make your
own studying corner – bring everything you will need, from textbooks, binders
and notebooks, to a cup of coffee and your computer. Keep them neatily
organized on your desk so everything is at hand and on sight. Put on some soft
background music (links down below) and adjust the lightning.
In class notes
21. If your
professor provides PowerPoint slides
before each class, print them (six or four per page) and bring them to class.
Write in the margins and more throughout information in the back so it’s all
condensed and tight. This is where you’ll take your notes. If you prefer to
write on lined paper, think about copying some ruled paper to the back of your
22. If your
professor asks you to prepare your class
in advance, try to make a small guide for each class. Open the comments
column in MSWord and print the pages with that column. When you go to class,
incorporate the in-class notes in that column, next to the relevant information
so everything is nice and condensed.
23 If you
are in a information-heavy class,
try to adopt the Cornell method, which is the best, in my opinion, when you
need to be a fast writer. There’s a video right here on how to use this method.
24. If you
are in a bits-and-pieces class,
which is that kind of class where the professor just gives a few key points and
then gives practical examples or makes you work in group, try to adopt the box
method – you can draw these boxes yourself or make them with post it notes –
these are way more visual and perfect to memorize information.
25. Write in-class flashcards – if you don’t have
flashcards around, make tiny flashcards on the top of your notes, where you
cover the definitions you’ve written with the name of the definition. Each time
you open your notes, try to remember the hidden definition. Automatic studying,
26. Participate in class – nothing better
than to be actively involved in your class discussion. For most of us, shy creatures,
participating can be dreadful – but once you get out of your box, you’ll see
how participating really makes you understand the subject!
27. If you
have any questions during class,
raise your hand and ask them. If your professor doesn’t like being interrupted,
write them down and approach them in the end of the class. Sometimes, the
little things we don’t understand are exactly the ones that come up on the
28. Ask for
examples. Examples are probably the
thing that makes your brain connect the information faster. If your professor
isn’t keen on providing examples, suggest your own and see if your answer comes
up right. Sometimes, examples are the thing that really makes us understand our
material and our definitions, since they transform formal information into
29. Sit at the front. It sounds too
straightforward but sitting at the front really makes wonders. You won’t get
distracted by what you classmates are doing, you will focus on the professor,
who is right in front of you and you will resist the temptation of going to
Facebook and Instagram during a boring presentation.
30. Write a
brief summary at the end of the class.
During those five minutes where everyone is dismissed and leaving the room,
write a brief summary of that classes’ key points in the back of a page – this
is fundamental in the Cornell method but can be used in any other method as
31 Skim through your material two times:
at first, you should start by studying your material starting from the end. The
last lessons will be fresh in your memory and it’s very important to reinforce
your knowledge on these while you can. In the second reading, you should start
from the beginning, as usual. It’s important to make these two readings so you
can go through the information in a much more flexible way.
32. Make a mindmap of each chapter. A mindmap is a
chart that relates key words and important information, making it easy to
understand the relationship and hierarchy between such key words. Use colors
and images to memorize your material better. Oh, and don’t forget to check out
my video on how to make mindmaps!
each of the titles and try to say
out loud its contents, explaining each concept and the relationship between
them. Imagine you are the teacher and are lecturing that subject to a crowd. If
you skip any of the subjects, do it all over again. The more you repeat, the
better you will memorize.
time for some flash cards! Write the
topic or the title on one side and the meaning or the explanation on the other.
Try to cover as many topics or titles as you can and go through your cards
while memorizing as best as you can each of the concepts. Try to do it
backwards if you have time to do so!
35. On the
day before the exam, skim through your mindmaps and flash cards again and
always try to study while talking. Saying your content out loud will force your
brain to relate information in a much more cohesive way and you’ll memorize
everything much better.
the entire exam from top to bottom. Underline or circle any important words
that you think will be crucial in you answer. After that, calculate how much
time you should spend answering each question: this simple calculation will
take only twenty seconds and will help you organize your time. Try to save five
minutes at the end for revisions.
37. If you
are solving a written exam and not multiple choice, try as much as possible to
organize each answer in a structured way, saving two lines just to present your
line of thought and writing each different argument in a different paragraph.
Draft a conclusion at the end to underline the centre of your answer. Sometimes
softly underlining some keywords is important to make your professor notice
that you’ve correctly given importance to certain concepts.
these symbols for each question: one dot if you aren’t sure of the answer, two
dots if you are sure of your answer and a circle if you are completely unaware
of your answer. Start by answering any question with two dots; after those are
all answered, go on through the two dots question. Leave the circle questions
to the end – and ALWAYS answer them! Even if you don’t know what they’re about,
who knows if you will be able to come up with something right?
your test one final time – many times, we make a lot of mistakes under stress
and now is when you should spot them and amend them. This can be the difference
between a B and an A!
take this too seriously – school is an important aspect of our lives but it
isn’t everything. Failure comes many times and these failures can even drive
you away from something that was simply not meant to be. Don’t stress out
because everyone goes through the same!
imagine surviving a zombie outbreak with jungkook.
—obviously inspired by dead days.
the day they announced it a pandemic jungkook rushed home from school and waited for his parents to come home; they never did.
he’s among the first to realise if he wants help his best bet is to go out there and find it.
also he’s hopeless at rationing food, so he has to get moving soon.
having observed the undead from his window, jungkook knows he’ll have to kill to survive, and after seeing what they’re capable of he quickly comes to terms with that fact.
meaning his neighbour’s beagle somehow got out on day three, so on day four he drops his dad’s bowling ball from the balcony onto the head of the zombie that killed it.
and after his first kill spends the day dissociating and dry-heaving.
when over a week has passed he packs necessities and what little food he has left and straps on a few pieces of protective gear, left over from sports he’s played over the years, opting for maximum mobility.
those necessities include: all the wet wipes, antiperspirant, toothbrush, toothpaste, clean shirts, soap, first aid kit, his mother’s perfume.
jeon jungkook, nicest smelling boy in the entire zombie apocalypse.
because that’s how he clings to his humanity, to the remnants of civilisation: hygiene.
he’ll eat actual garbage but he’s gotta feel clean while doing it.
everyone’s got their Thing, and that’s his.
anyway after the chaos of that first week a deafening silence settles in the building you live in. so when you hear one of the doors to the stairwell open, you immediately rush to the peephole to see who’s stupid enough to venture into the stairwell.
of course it’s jungkook.
you go to the same school as jungkook, and while he may not know you, he has quite the reputation himself, as far as beating almost every sporting record he set his mind to goes, except archery.
when he passes by you call out to him through the door and the poor boy nearly shits himself. he’s still there though, when you open the door and tell him you know him from school.
you let him in and, much to your surprise, he seems to recognise you, he even gets your name right on the second try.
you’re in the same situation as him, all alone and beginning to lose hope that help would eventually come, you had even begun preparing to leave.
your dad had taken the bike to work that fateful morning one week ago and now you hold up his car-keys for jungkook to see, “can you drive?”
“i can try,” jungkook never got the chance to pass his test, but he’s your best bet, just as you’re his.
and that’s how you two end up more or less driving off into the sunset together, to survive another day.
“wait, was it you who dropped that bowling ball on mr. evans from 81b?”
you’re in charge of rations, because jungkook is not to be trusted around the food and he’s not too proud to admit it.
he deadass wants to go live in the mountains until all this has passed and you’re like ?? i’m not starving to death jeon forget it.
you constantly have to remind him he’s not bear grylls.
which isn’t easy because he’s somehow got eagle scout level survivor skills despite only having been camping like once when he was five.
and honES TL Y the legs on this boy, good luck keeping up with him it’d be quicker if he carried you everywhere.
on that note he carries you on his back whenever you’re tired or injured.
and he still finds time to be childish and playful.
there’s a tree in your path? you bet he’s gonna fucking climb it. passing an abandoned playground? before you can blink he’s on the jungle gym like “look at me!!!!!!”
will insists he’s “scouting.”
and it’s the little things that keep you sane. jungkook wanted to be a singer and when he feels safe has a tendency to hum and sing to himself.
insists he needs less sleep than you so he always takes first watch, and when you can’t sleep you coax him into singing for you.
just kinda vocalises his way through the lyrics he doesn’t remember, because he has no way of looking them up. and also through the sexual lyrics because welp awkward.
eventually you know his entire repertoire and can even make requests.
he exercises to stay awake. like, you wake up in the middle of the night because you think you heard a zombie groan but it’s just jungkook doing sit-ups next to you.
senses you stirring and starts muttering “hundred and six, hundred and seven, hundred and-” but let’s be real he only did like, eleven.
also otherwise doing press-ups whenever he finds a flat, uncluttered surface. where’s jeon ?? probably on the ground around here somewhere like “ah, this is tiring.”
and you’re like “how?? why?? you’ve only had a can of tuna to eat in two days, where do you even get the energy??”
“gotta stay in shape if i’m gonna keep saving your clumsy ass.”
he’s so apprehensive of the other survivors you cross paths with some of them genuinely thought he was mute.
until they try to separate the two of you because jungkook is not fucking having that no way do you wanna wrestle or what
imagine you get to shower for the first time in a while and jungkook insists you go first because he’ll just use all the water, so you suggest you just shower together and make the best of what little water you have.
can’t look you in the eyes for a while after that because he’s seen you naked now and you smell nicer than you have in weeks.
imagine huddling for warmth, and cuddling for comfort.
or patching him up after another close call.
you have to be the responsible one, the decisive one, but in return jungkook will be your rock, your protector, steadfast and strong, never cracking under pressure, not even the weight of the world ending can faze him when he has you to worry about.
it doesn’t take long for him to realise that he could never leave you behind. he’ll carry you to the literal end of the world if he has to, doesn’t matter if it kills him; he’s not facing the apocalypse without you.
after almost losing you once, he confesses that the way he sees it he has no reason to carry on without you. he lives and survives to protect you.
never whines that he’s hungry or tired, because he knows you are too. he might complain that his clothes smell, or that he hasn’t washed in a while, but whenever you ask if he’s alright the answer is always going to be that he’s “okay if you are.”
Summary: You and Yoongi shared a loving relationship with one another until you both agreed to end things and pursue your separate careers. But two years later, Yoongi is a member of the ever growing Bangtan Boys, and you are a new makeup artist for their upcoming tour. Pairing: Yoongi | Reader Genre: Fluff/Angst/Smut; Idol & Makeup Artist AU Word Count: 5,434
You wish that your natural inclination toward Yoongi’s gestures, thoughts, and emotions was something you could flick off like a light switch. You wish you could turn off certain memories and knowledge, how you could tell and understand so readily about what Yoongi was thinking about.
The boy use to always be a stellar liar, able to cover up his emotions well in the form of a defense mechanism, but over the time you got to know him and date him and love him, you’ve always been unbelievably good at reading him. You understood better than most about how the air around him hung and what kind of emotions were always just brimming underneath the surface.
But you hate having that kind of knowledge now. You hate knowing that even after all this time, all this distance, after that heartbreak, Yoongi still cares. He cares so, so much, that desire swimming underneath the surface, he cares so much that the thought of you running off with Hoseok is enough to make his blood boil.
You never wished you could unlearn something more. You wish you could forget the way he looked at you that evening in Tokyo, telling you he didn’t care about you and he didn’t care about you and Hoseok when it was so glaringly obvious that he just cared too much.
That’s probably where things started to change between the two of you.
❝ i play to win. ❞ ❝ this is my curse. ❞ ❝ wait for me! ❞
❝ your mother would’ve been proud of you. ❞
❝ let us hope for a different outcome. ❞
❝ sorry it’s such a mess in here. i-i wasn’t expecting company. ❞
❝ this is going to make you feel better. ❞
❝ the true enemy of humanity is disorder. ❞ ❝ a steady blade balances the soul. ❞ ❝ this is just like old times. ❞ ❝ even here i feel an outcast. ❞
❝ think you can do my job, do you… ❞
❝ all eyes on me! ❞
❝ ooh, this is my jam. ❞
❝ got your aim from your mom, i see. ❞
❝ i’ll feast on your soul. ❞ ❝ cheers, love! the cavalry’s here! ❞ ❝ our paths cross for now. as to the future, we shall see. ❞ ❝ we could’ve built an empire together. ❞ ❝ ah. just setting foot here sets my soul at ease. ❞ ❝ this time, stay down. ❞
❝ can i get your autograph? ❞
❝ why are you so angry? ❞
❝ ever get that feeling of déjà vu? ❞ ❝ i am a different man now. i am whole. ❞ ❝ over my dead body. ❞
❝ i’m on top of the world! ❞
❝ i’m patched up. ❞
❝ kids today with techno music. you should enjoy the classics, like hasselhoff. ❞
❝ what’s wrong? don’t you recognize me? ❞ ❝ aren’t you warm wearing all that? ❞
❝ can’t stop, won’t stop. ❞
❝ i’ll race ya! ❞
❝ mock death at your own peril. ❞ ❝ this time, i will finish the job. ❞
❝ death is an illusion. ❞
❝ look at this team! we’re gonna do great. ❞
❝ i am beyond redemption. ❞
❝ it looks like we will be working together. ❞ ❝ you’ve rescued me again. ❞
❝ i will not be defeated so easily. ❞
❝ treasure? s-sure, i don’t know anything you’re talking about. ❞
❝ so this is what has become of you? a pity.❞
❝ you’re so amazing! you inspire me. ❞ ❝ i miss him greatly. ❞ ❝ there is nowhere to hide. ❞ ❝ whatcha’ lookin’ at? ❞
❝ woo, nothing’s gonna stop me. ❞
❝ that was your dream, not mine. ❞ ❝ what you call freedom is an illusion that causes more harm than good. ❞ ❝ hehe, there’s something on your dress.. ❞
❝ you have been judged! ❞
❝ i have the upper hand this time. ❞
❝ traitor! ❞
❝ you will never amount to anything! ❞
❝ i’ve got my eye on you. ❞
❝ lot of memories of this place. they weren’t all bad. ❞
❝ the heart of a man still beats inside of me. ❞
❝ stay out of trouble. ❞
❝ step into my parlor said the spider to the fly. ❞
❝ one shot, one kill. ❞
❝ don’t think i’m happy about that. ❞
❝ now this place? makes me wanna be an atheist. ❞
❝ our world is worth fighting for. ❞
❝ you haven’t aged a day. what’s your secret? ❞
❝ ooooh, shiny! ❞
❝ oh, did that sting? ❞
❝ heroes never die. ❞
❝ where does it hurt? ❞
❝ you’re just a no-good bully. ❞
❝ i’m a one-man apocalypse. ❞
❝ you should look somewhere else. ❞
❝ you said you would arm wrestle me. nervous? ❞
❝ i learned that from my brother. ❞
❝ i hope nobody saw that. ❞
❝ on a scale of one to ten, how is your pain? ❞
❝ i’m not a miracle worker. well… not always. ❞
❝ this was once my home. no longer. ❞
❝ sorry! sorry, i’m sorry. sorry. ❞
❝ i remember being here. it was good for my tan. ❞
❝ wish i’d practice my japanese more, konichiwa! ❞
❝ you need a time out. ❞
❝ you might not want to tell your friends about that. ❞
❝ guess we know who’s really on top, don’t we? ❞
❝ with every death, comes honor. with honor, redemption. ❞
❝ a punishment for your crimes. ❞
❝ i will be on my best behaviour. ❞
❝ you think there’s something worth stealing in that temple? ❞
❝ people should be free. ❞
❝ you were never my equal. ❞
❝ death walks among you. ❞ ❝ last i checked, i didn’t ask for your opinion. ❞ ❝ you can’t be serious. ❞ ❝ they’re back. ❞ ❝ armor? how positively primitive. ❞ ❝ now this is my kinda city, everyone’s free to live as they choose. ❞
❝ you need a time out. ❞ ❝ die! die! die! ❞ ❝ to think i would have to work with a street ruffian. ❞ ❝ death comes. ❞ ❝ one of these days someone is gonna to put an end to you. ❞
❝ that which doesn’t kill you…makes you stronger.. ❞
❝ well. you sure take to this bad guy thing easily, don’t ya? ❞
❝ aren’t you supposed to be dead? ❞
❝ i’ll tell you my secret if you give me your coat. ❞
❝ sleep. ❞
❝ never liked you much. ❞
❝ never leave a teammate behind. ❞
❝ together we are strong. ❞
❝ you won’t get rid of me that easily. ❞
❝ i don’t even think children are afraid of you. ❞
❝ i taught you everything you know. ❞
❝ it’s hard to just sit around knowing there’s someone out there that needs to be blown up. ❞
❝ i’ll put an end to your sad story. ❞
❝ you havin’ trouble keeping up? ❞
❝ i have destroyed more of your kind than i can count. ❞
❝ it’s a perfect day for some mayhem. ❞
❝ we’re all soldiers now. ❞
❝ give me your best shot. ❞
❝ you knew exactly what were you doing. ❞ ❝ knock me down, and i’ll keep getting back up. ❞ ❝ you always did have a high opinion of yourself. ❞
❝ i’m not a young man anymore. ❞
❝ still trying to play hero? ❞
❝ i sometimes wonder if your height is why you’re always in such a bad mood. ❞
❝ this is no place for children. ❞
❝ the world could always use more heroes. ❞
❝ looked in a mirror lately? ❞
❝ Me one, bad guys zero. ❞
❝ i’m gonna have to shoot you down. ❞
❝ this old dog has learned a few tricks. ❞ ❝ another one off the list. ❞
❝ i love your glasses, so cute! ❞
❝ if at first you don’t succeed…blow it up again! ❞
❝ that’s for my family back home! ❞
❝ i’ve got you in my sights. ❞
❝ i’m the one who does his job. i’m thinking… you’re the other one. ❞
❝ you weren’t given those guns to toss them away like trash. ❞
❝ i will protect the innocent. ❞
i hope you fall in love with someone who always texts back and never lets you go to sleep feeling unwanted.
i hope you fall in love with someone who holds your hand during scary movies and gets silly with you.
i hope you fall in love with someone who sees galaxies in your eyes, music in your heartbeat and rhythm in your movement.
i hope you fall in love with someone who makes you smile and laugh on easy days as well as hard ones.
i hope you fall in love with someone who kisses you in the rain and loves you in the cold.
but overall, what i hope for is for you to fall in love with someone who appreciates what they have and will never leave you behind in pieces. i hope they see you at your best and your worst and has loved you through all.
i hope you are happy and loved. sorry i can’t do that.
Characters: Y/N (reader), Dean Winchester, Sam Winchester, Amara (mentioned), Charlie Bradbury (mentioned), Charlie (OMC), Castiel (mentioned)
Pairing: Dean x Reader
Warnings: fear of loss, abandonment, pregnancy - I don’t know SPNish stuff.
Word Count: 3000ish
A/N: This is 1 out of my 13 entries for @mamapeterson / @mrs-squirrel-chester’s Album Fanfiction Challenge where I chose the album “Smoke and Mirrors” by Imagine Dragons. The song prompt for this fic is: The Fall
Frozen. Everything around you was completely still, and you saw nothing but the man standing in the doorway to your bedroom. The world around you stopped. The smell of death and blood hanging in the air wasn’t apparent to you any longer. You didn’t feel the cold night air biting your skin. You barely heard the voice roaring through the room asking if you were okay, if you were all okay.
A sharp cry sounded through the house, and you snapped back to reality. You broke away from his gaze, sprinting through the room past the tall brown haired man in the doorway. Sam. The man that had been like a brother to you. The man you had confided everything in, everything except the thing that had mattered the most. You ran down the hallway with his voice ringing after you, insuring you your son was okay. You knew that Sam had checked on him before coming to see you. Of course you knew that, but you still had to see him with your own eyes. You had almost lost your heart tonight, what was left of it anyway. It was held by your son, Charles Dean Y/L/N. Charlie for short. Named after your late best friend and his father.
The man you had never thought you’d see again stood in the doorway when you turned around with your son in your arms. You knew he was coming, but seeing him stand merely feet away from you still made your heart leap out of your chest. You had no idea what to do or say. This was your decision, and now you were going to have to face the consequences of it. His eyes weren’t on you. They were fixated on the baby in your arms. This had not been the way it was suppose to happen. This was not the way you had wanted him to find out.
I hope you fall in love
With someone who always texts back and never lets
You fall asleep thinking you’re
I hope you fall in love with someone
Who holds your hand during the scary parts of
Horror movies and burns
Cookies with you when you’re
Too busy dancing around the
I hope you fall in love with
Someone who sees galaxies in your eyes
And hears music in your
I hope you fall in love with someone who
Tickles you and makes you smile
On hard days and on easy
But beyond all that I hope
You fall in love with someone
Who will never leave you behind
And who will never take you
For granted, someone who
Will stand by you when you’re
Right and stand by you
When you’re wrong,
Someone who has seen you at your worst
And has loved you
I hope you fall in love
With someone who
Kisses you in the rain
And hugs you in the cold and
Wouldn’t have you any other
Characters: Dean Winchester, Winchester sister!reader, John Winchester, Sam Winchester, Jess Moore [mentioned briefly]
Warnings: Violence, a bit of a language, John’s A+ parenting, implied verbal/physical abuse, sort of bad mental health (I don’t really know how to describe it)
A/N: We made it to the last part! Thank you all so much for reading this & all the nice comments <3 So, it might seem odd to post two parts within two days, but it’s just because I promised you last week to post the finale early this week. And then it turned out to be so long that I had to split it into to two, and I didn’t want you to feel played, so I decided to do it like this, to sorta keep the promise :)
”YOU!” Dean screams, his finger threateningly pointing at John, who scrambles to his feet from where he’s sitting, backing away, hands in the air.
You come to a stop, staring at the situation forming in front of you not knowing what to do. On one side is Dean; the older brother who always has looked out for you, and you can tell he’s doing this for your sake. On the other is John; your leader and biological father who you should trust and listen to. Shouldn’t you?
You are frozen. Paralyzed. Your eyes travel to Dean, who’s angrier than you think you’ve ever seen him. His usual bright, gentle eyes glimmer dangerously, and his freckled face is twisted into pure rage.
”What did you do to her!” Dean roars inching closer to John, who continues backing away.
Looking at you as if they know that the other part of your heart is walking, living and breathing above you.
They said his cries could be heard at the bottom of the sea when he knew of your death by Hector’s hand
and you placed your hands on your heart, so that it would not hear it.
You wonder what grief can do to the dead.
You wanted to end a war, or maybe to be reflected in his light,
To know, just for a second, what was so great about glory,
If it was worth leaving love behind.
You never knew of glory, but you know the price of it;
A spear in your chest and a love that is endless, even in the darkness of the underworld,
Because you love him.
You love him and you wish him every luck the Gods can grant him, you wish he went back home to have a long life and all the love in the world, you wish the war has ended and no blood stained the battlefield after yours.
But in the end, you would endure a thousand spears more to have him with you, in this dark and quiet world,
he would be light enough.
You wish him glory and to be remembered, for his name to be sang until it becomes a litany on the lips of every man.
But when you look at the doors of the underworld, at those strong and eternal pillars, you sing
“Please, come to me.”
You wonder if being a hero is just a pedestal on the golden throne of grief.
You see the battlefields again and he is everywhere, wounded, dying, and you are not beside him.
His name haunts your heart, it’s a scream in all the places of your body he used to touch with such devotion and softness
Patroclus, Patroclus, Patroclus
You see him falling, wounded, and you know in every shattered part of your soul that it is your fault, the fault of your blinding rage, of your godlike pride.
You let him go to his death in the name of your glory, you traded a lovely reality for a vain dream.
Patroclus, the one you loved above all, now ashes in the wind, the weight of his absence is tearing your chest open because
You love him, you loved him, you will always love him because his love was sweet as figs, the best part of you, the only thing you cherished,
The one thing you left behind.
You want to go back, to change the past, to bury your stubbornness and pride, to never be so blinded by such trivial things, to hold him close and never let him go.
But you can’t.
Godlike Achilles, you can’t change the past, and when the fatal blow comes your way, you do not move-