never getting over these feels

I have never been happier than the moment your name was mentioned and I realised I had fallen out of love with you. Finally, it was like I was finally free of the chains I had tangled around my head and heart.
—  Getting over you was the best thing that happened to me.

…..Do you ever just get overwhelmed with emotion over Stanley Pines

Because I was rewatching Dreamscaperers and Gideon Rises, and just the facial expressions of Stan throughout half of Gideon Rises kILL ME.

As soon as Gideon gets a hold of the deed of the shack, you can clearly see Stan’s face of absolute shock - unable to process the situation that he’ll later realize in the first half of the next ep that all he’s been working for for the past 30 years will be all lost. And I’m positive that this crossed his mind as these events occurred. I mean, he was always going down in that basement to try and work on that portal. 

And the thought doesn’t cross his mind that he’s just lost all of his possible chances of saving his brother until he’s confronted by Gideon in Gideon Rises, and at the time isn’t able to stop him (along with the help of the kiddos and Soos). I mean…just look at his expression below

And then his posture changes as the thought just…sinks in…

And the fact that he’s been kicked out of his home (not the only time he has…*cough s*…yeah..) and has to send the kids back home doesn’t help with the fact that not only has he failed his brother, but he also failed with being able to take care and financially support his niece and nephew. I can only imagine how Stan must’ve felt during this little period in the show, and it just…k i l l s m e. 

I mean, just look at how he acts around the kids before and after they get on the bus. I’m sure those thoughts of being a failure are hitting the poor man hard:

He even states that he’s hit rock bottom. Someone please give this man a hug.

But the rush of utter joy and relief he gets when he sees through Gideon’s tricks and finds a way to fix things. He now has another chance to keep working on getting his brother back (and he does get the kiddos back as a result of his actions of revealing Gideon as being a fraud to the town, even though at the time he doubts he would, as they’re on the bus heading back to Piedmont. But what luck that everything in the end turned out great for him, eh?)

He’s so overwhelmed with joy that he just kisses Abuelita without even thinking. He’s just so hung up on the thought that: Hey, I have a chance to keep going. To get Ford back.

Sometimes you realize how lonely you are when its 2 a.m on a school night and you can’t stop crying over his favorite song. sometimes you realize this when its 4 p.m on a Sunday afternoon and your mother just baked you cookies and there is sunlight hitting the windows at just the right angle to warm your skin and you are smiling and laughing until suddenly there is a hole in your chest because the chocolate chips are the same color as his eyes.

you think you are over him until someone says his name and you are fourteen again, carrying your heart home in your backpack because he didn’t want it.

this kind of pain will always surprise you because it won’t always be there. you will get used to feeling alive until it comes back and you can’t quite remember how to deal with it.

i hope you remember how you felt alive before you met him.
i hope you feel that way again.

—  it won’t hurt like this forever– lily rain
I just can’t seem to get you out of my head and it’s driving me crazy. Letting go of you is harder than I thought it would be. All these memories keep popping up in my head; over and over again. Everything just seems to remind me of you. It’s exhausting, but eventually I’ll get over you. Maybe not tomorrow, but I’m sure it will happen one day.
—  L.N.
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Maybe a relationship is just two idiots who don’t know a damn thing except the fact that they’re willing to figure it out together.

You know that last post got me thinking: what is up with the these alleged fans who don’t think Star Wars is funny? Don’t get me wrong: I absolutely am here for the Skywalker Family Drama (because hello I have a pulse) and the Kenobi Sads and the Lore but like…at the end of the day? Star Wars is ridiculous! It’s so delightfully humorous. How do people not see this?! Who are these guys and why don’t they want to actually have fun with any of this nonsense?

You love somebody, right? you love them so much that you would die for them, but maybe they don’t love you back. and every time you look at them it’s like you’re drowning, like you are standing on the edge of a cliff and they are about to push you over, like giving all the best pieces of yourself away only to find they don’t mean a thing.

you would sell your love to the first person who looked at you if it meant you wouldn’t miss him anymore.

you think you’re better off without a heart but you are wrong. love doesn’t always give you back what it stole, and you might not be like you once were but that doesn’t mean you can’t love again.

you are so wrapped up in the ways he doesn’t love you that you can’t look around and see who does.

—  Excerpt from a book I’ll never write– Lily Rain
You’re making it very hard for me to get over you.
—  things I’ll never say to you #11
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Isak og Even  💚

Honestly, the feeling of finally getting over someone you never thought you’d be able to get over is so beautiful. You feel so free and refreshed. It literally feels like new beginnings. And you know what’s even better? When they randomly cross your mind or you experience something that faintly reminds you of them and there is no emotion. It’s like this neutral feeling–no good or bad emotions arise. You’re just in a state of acceptance. And it is the acceptance of what came to be that gives you peace of mind.

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Theirs was the love that was meant to be, but wasn’t meant to last.