The rain always reminded Jimin of a certain someone.
A certain someone with raven black hair that fell in perfect bangs on his forehead, big brown eyes and a smile that would always ease Jimin even when he had the worst possible day ever.
The rain reminded him of that certain someone’s voice that was like honey and Jimin could never get tired of listening to especially at the rare times he would sing a song that he had written for Jimin. And when Jimin would tell him just how much he loved the song, he would get a shy smile in return that only made Jimin fall in love even more.
“Jimin,” he heard a voice breaking the train of his thoughts. It was Taehyung.
“Your shift ended 15 minutes ago,” he said. “What are you still doing here?”
Jimin hadn’t even realized that he had been watching the rain from the window for the past 15 minutes.
“Oh, I was just…” he said and trailed off not bothering to complete his sentence.
Taehyung gave him one of his concerning looks so Jimin pressed his lips together in a smile.
“I was just um leaving,” he said as he began changing out of his uniform. There was still an awkward tension in the air as Taehyung eyed sensing there was something wrong. That was the one thing with Taehyung, he always knew if something was wrong even when Jimin didn’t tell him about it.
Jimin decided it was best if he changed the subject.
“You are coming home with me?” he asked Taehyung as he changed into his faded blue jeans.
“Uh no,” Taehyung answered. “Hoseok is coming to pick me up”
“You guys are going on a date?”
“Kinda, yeah,” Taehyung answered and it was hard not to see the smile that was on Taehyung’s face.
“Where to?” Jimin asked.
“A movie and dinner too,” Taehyung answered.
“Will you be home today?”
“Uh, probably not,” Taehyung answered.
“Okay,” Jimin said. “Have fun”
Jimin knew he could have at least tried to sound a bit more enthusiastic or even gave him a smile but he couldn’t. He wasn’t jealous by any means. It was just that love-wearied him out now. It just didn’t seem to have the same meaning it used to once.
Thankfully, Taehyung hadn’t heard as his phone had started ringing at the same moment.
He picked it up and the grin he had on his face, only meant that it was Hoseok who had called.
“All right,” Taehyung said. “I’ll be out in 2 minutes”
With that, he hung up still smiling until he looked at Jimin who was once again seemingly lost in his own thoughts.
“Jiminie,” Taehyung said. “Take care okay and eat dinner, sleep on time”
Jimin nodded listening.
Taehyung hugged him.
“I love you, okay,” he said. “See you”
And this was Jimin felt like he was a shitty friend to Taehyung. He never felt happiness for Taehyung or asked him how his date with Hoseok had been or how was he coping with classes and finals.
All he ever did was moping around.
And then there was Taehyung who had been Jimin’s rock. He had been through everything. All those nights that Jimin had cried himself to sleep, Taehyung always was there for him, making sure he slept or ate when Jimin had no interest in doing either of those things. He had helped Jimin in every possible way.
Jimin felt worthless. He was shitty at everything- from friendships to relationships.
“You too,” he mumbled.
Taehyung smiled before leaving the changing room. Jimin sighed as he took his backpack and left too.
The rain was still pouring and Jimin didn’t have an umbrella with him. He could wait for the rain to stop but instead, he chose to walk in the pouring rain. It only reminded him the happy times he had.
There was a time when the rain made Jimin happy, feel warm.
But now every time it rained all Jimin could feel was pain because it reminded him more of the dark times he had than the happy ones.
But the rain still had a special meaning to him.
It reminded Jimin of the time they had first met. It was pouring buckets that day and of course, Jimin didn’t have an umbrella even then. He was forgetful like that.
Jimin was standing at the bus stop waiting for the rain to stop, glancing uneasily at his watch every 2 minutes as he was sure he would be very late to class if the rain didn’t stop anytime soon.
That is when Jimin felt a pair of eyes on him.
Jimin looked to find a boy staring at him. He had black hair the bangs falling on his forehead as he looked at Jimin curiously biting his lower lip. For some reason, he seemed familiar to Jimin but he couldn’t quite put a finger on it.
Jimin looked away and when looked back the boy was still staring at him. Jimin who was a little uncomfortable now didn’t expect the boy to suddenly start walking towards him. Jimin’s first instinct was to move but instead, he was rooted to his spot looking at the stranger.
“Jimin-ssi,” the boy said. Jimin was slightly creeped out by the fact that this boy even knew his name.
The boy seemed to sense it and he immediately smiled a little.
“I…I am a student at the University too,” he said. “I’ve seen you around and that’s why I know you”
That’s when Jimin realized why this boy looked so familiar to him.
“Are you the one who sang at the festival that night?”
“Yes,” the boy said with a shy smile.
“Oh, that was amazing,” Jimin said. “The performance I mean”
“Thank you,” the boy said with a small smile.
There was a moment of silence until the boy spoke up.
“You don’t have an umbrella with you, right?” he asked.
“Well I am going to Uni too,” he said. “We can share”
When Jimin didn’t reply the boy’s face faltered a little.
“If you want to,” he added in a low voice.
“Yeah, sure,” Jimin said with a little smile.
The boy smiled back as Jimin got under the umbrella which thankfully was big enough for the both of them. It was cheesy too, Jimin thought as he had seen a lot of couples sharing umbrellas but Jimin tried not to think about it. Getting to Uni without being soaking wet was his priority.
They were quiet and it was frankly awkward so Jimin decided to speak up.
“What’s your major?” he asked,
“Music,” the boy answered. “And you are a major in theater? If I am not wrong”
“Yes,” Jimin answered. “How do you know?”
“Oh, I watched one of your plays,” he said. “That’s how I know you”
“You are really good at it,” he said.
“Thank you,” Jimin chuckled.
There were on the campus of the University and it had almost completely stopped raining now.
“Thank you for sharing your umbrella with me,” Jimin said.
“Oh it’s no problem Jimin-ssi,” the boy said with a big smile.
Jimin smiled back before walking away when he realized he hadn’t even bothered to find out the name of the boy.
“Wait,” he called out.
The boy stopped looking back.
“What’s your name?” Jimin asked.
“Jungkook,” the boy answered.
The rain falling made Jimin feel icy cold but Jimin had grown numb to it as he kept on walking.
Since his car was in the garage, he took the bus to work and back home but today he decided he would walk all the way to home.
He had convinced himself it was because it didn’t make sense to get into the bus as he was already soaking but Jimin knew that it was a lie.
He was purposely walking out in the rain because it reminded him of Jungkook.
And that was the only way he could relive his memories with him.
Jimin was terribly lonely and he hated how he clung onto everything that reminded him of Jungkook. Even though he had promised Taehyung he had deleted all of his pictures there were still some that he had managed to save in his phone because Jimin could never truly forget Jungkook.
And he still wore the oversized gray hoodie that Jungkook had left behind at his flat and he had cried so many times in it that it didn’t even smell like Jungkook anymore. But Jimin still kept it.
But out of all things that reminded him of Jungkook, the rain was the one which hurt him the most.
Every time it rained outside there was a rain in Jimin’s eyes too.
They had their first kiss the day it had rained a lot.
Jimin and Jungkook were making their way back home after they had gone bowling together and Jungkook had managed to win all games and he was being very smug about it and rubbing it onto Jimin’s face.
“Since you lost, you are paying for dinner,” Jungkook said.
“Yeah, fine,” Jimin grumbled.
It had been 4 months since the pair had met and they had hit it off instantly becoming good friends. Jungkook hung around Jimin and Taehyung’s flat a lot and Taehyung seemed to like him a lot too.
But when Jungkook would leave Taehyung would endlessly tease Jimin about the way they looked at each other.
“Friends,” Jimin would say. “Just friends”
“You never look at me like that,” Taehyung said.
“You are just seeing things,” Jimin said. “I am pretty sure Jungkook isn’t even interested”
“Does that mean you are?” Taehyung asked.
Taehyung would just laugh.
“So where do you wanna eat?” Jimin asked Jungkook.
“A five-star restaurant,” Jungkook answered. “But since you are a broke college student I am happy with sushi”
“All right sushi it is,” Jimin said and Jungkook smiled making Jimin’s heart flutter.
It had been doing that a lot when Jungkook would smile at Jimin or even when their hands brushed against each other.
Jimin knew he was being stupid.
He felt a drop of water on his face followed by another one.
“It’s raining,” Jimin said and he felt his hand being grabbed as he was dragged under the roof of a convenience store.
Jimin’s heart fluttered yet again.
“We should have gotten umbrellas,” Jungkook said.
“Yeah,” Jimin sighed. He was hungry but now he was stuck waiting for the rain to stop which by the looks of it wasn’t gonna happen anytime soon.
They waited for another 10 minutes before Jungkook grumbled angrily.
“Hyung,” he said. “Do you hate being wet?”
“Not really,” Jimin answered. “Why?”
“Well, then let’s walk in the rain,”
“Are you sure?” Jimin asked.
“I am starving,” was all Jungkook said as he stepped out and began walking. Jimin followed.
“Where’s the restaurant?” Jungkook asked.
“About 10 minutes away,” Jimin answered.
Jungkook just nodded as they walked only to find the restaurant was closed.
“We walked so much for nothing,” Jungkook groaned.
“I guess,” Jimin said.
“I am still starving,” Jungkook said.
“Well how about we go back to mine and I’ll make some ramyeon for you?” Jimin said.
“Sure I love your ramyeon hyung,” Jungkook smiled.
“Well then let’s get a taxi,” Jimin said as Jungkook nodded.
They got a taxi back home and by the time they had made it to their building it was raining even more.
Jimin opened the door to the flat and turned the heat on as soon as they got in.
“We should change first,”
“I’ll give you Taehyung’s spare clothes,” Jimin said. “His will fit you better”
Jungkook nodded as Jimin went inside Taehyung’s room and found a T-shirt and a pair of shorts for Jungkook.
“Here you go,” he said and a few minutes later Jungkook came out of the bathroom dressed. It was the first time Jimin had seen so much of Jungkook’s skin exposed and his eyes lingered for a few more seconds than what would be considered appropriate and he forced himself to go the bathroom instead.
He took a quick hot shower and changed into dry clothes while he found Jungkook seated on the couch watching TV.
“I am making the ramyeon now,” Jimin said.
Jungkook just nodded.
“What? You won’t even ask me if I need help” Jimin said.
“You lost all those games,’ Jungkook said. “It’s only fair you make me dinner at least”
“Fine,” Jimin huffed as he went inside the kitchen and started making the noodles. Now, Jimin was never a master at cooking but he prided himself on his ramyeon making skills and he had garnered quite a few praises from a lot of people.
Jimin was done pretty soon and he took the pot of steaming hot noodles outside in the living room.
“Ramyeon’s ready,” he said.
Jungkook sat down immediately smiling as Jimin served him the noodles.
He took one big slurp and hummed in satisfaction.
“It reminds me of my mom’s cooking,” he said making Jimin laugh.
Since they were both ravenous, they ate the ramyeon in minutes and followed by dessert which was some ice cream that Jimin had found in the freezer.
“Where’s Taehyung hyung?” Jungkook asked.
“He is with Hoseok,” Jimin replied.
Jungkook nodded as he looked at his phone.
“It’s 10; I think I should leave now,”
“Have you seen the rain outside?” Jimin asked.
“Yeah, it’s almost like a storm,” Jungkook said.
“You should stay here,” Jimin said in a quiet voice.
“What?” Jungkook asked raising his voice.
“I said you should stay here,” Jimin repeated regretting what he said.
“I um I guess,” Jungkook said.
“You can sleep in Tae’s room,” Jimin said.
“But before that, we can watch a movie,”
Jungkook nodded with a smile.
After a 15-minute long argument, they both settled on watching Toy Story.
They had just as much distance between that would be okay for friends to have between them and Jungkook’s hand was between them.
Jimin was tempted to hold his hand but he knew better than that but what he didn’t expect in a million years was Jungkook resting his head on Jimin’s shoulder.
Jimin’s heart stopped as Jungkook expression didn’t even change. Jimin didn’t dare move. He was hardly even watching the movie anymore, his eyes on Jungkook who seemed engrossed into what Woody was planning next to get rid of Buzz Lightyear.
They stayed like that right until the end of the movie and when it was finally over Jungkook moved his head stretching his arms over his head.
“I can literally watch that movie a million times and I wouldn’t be bored,” Jungkook said.
“Hyung, you okay?”
Jimin nodded again.
“You are sleepy, aren’t you?”
“Uh no not at all,”
“Me too,” Jungkook said.
Jimin nodded again.
“I have a question,” Jungkook said.
“It’s um a bit weird,”
“Oh that’s fine,” Jimin said. “You can ask me anything”
“Have you ever kissed a boy?” Jungkook asked looking at Jimin.
When Jimin was in high school, he still dated girls and he had kissed 2 of his girlfriends. But by the time he had started University he had come to the realization that he was anything but straight. And when he had told Taehyung about how he thought he could be gay, his best friend thought the best way to know was to drag him to a gay bar and that was possibly one of the worst experiences Jimin had ever had as some stupid drunk guy had kissed him right on the mouth with no warning. Taehyung had since then never took him to a gay bar and nor was Jimin interested. He had enough of it for a lifetime.
So even though the kiss was technically the first time Jimin had kissed a man he didn’t count it as a kiss.
“No,” Jimin answered.
“Oh,” Jungkook said. “Me neither”
There was a long pause and Jungkook spoke up again.
“Hyung,” he said. “I have another question”
“Can I kiss you?”
When Jimin didn’t answer Jungkook knew from Jimin’s eyes that it was only because he was at a loss for words so Jungkook leaned in and pressed his lips onto Jimin’s softly, his hands had snaked in around Jimin’s waist and Jimin’s were around his neck as their kiss deepened. Jungkook’s lips moved perfectly against Jimin’s and his lips tasted like strawberry and Jimin wished he could keep kissing Jungkook but they broke away soon.
“Hyung,” Jungkook said. “Can we sleep now?”
This was the last thing he had expected Jungkook to say right after they had kissed but Jimin nodded as they got up from the couch and Jimin walked into his own room.
“Hyung,” Jungkook said again. “Can I sleep in your room?”
Jimin nodded and Jungkook smiled as he made his way to Jimin’s bedroom and lied down along with Jimin who turned the night light on and lied down as Jimin looked at him and wordlessly kissed Jimin again.
“Good night hyung,” he said.
“’Night Jungkookie,” Jimin said.
They did nothing that night except for sleep together and the next morning both of them avoided all questions Taehyung had for them who had found Jungkook spooning Jimin but when Jimin looked at Jungkook he just winked at Jimin.
They both knew something had changed that night.
Jimin relived all of those memories in one go and he could feel a stabbing pain in his heart.
He remembers how he felt that night, so in love.
He felt grateful that it had rained that night because if it hadn’t then Jungkook would have never stayed and they would have never kissed each other.
Jimin couldn’t even imagine that happening.
It was no surprise that it had rained on their first date as well. It was 3 weeks after their first kiss.
Jungkook had gone all out and shelled out what meager savings he had from his job as a server at a local diner and decided to take out Jimin to a meal in an Italian restaurant. And this was all after Jimin had repeatedly told him not to spend too much.
Jungkook could have taken him to McDonald’s and Jimin would have been just as happy if that meant spending more time with Jungkook.
Jimin was dressed in a white dress shirt and black pants along with a black blazer and he had taken more effort into styling his hair.
Jungkook had dressed identical and Jimin could hardly take his eyes off him as they sat down to order.
All Jimin saw was the exorbitant prices and he ordered the cheapest one and Jungkook asked for the same.
“So do you like it?” Jungkook asked.
“It’s so fancy,” Jimin said.
“Of course it is,” Jungkook said.
Jimin rolled his eyes and Jungkook grinned.
The waiter soon returned with their plates and it was just salad but it still tasted really fancy to them but it hardly even touched their stomachs but it definitely emptied Jungkook’s wallet.
“I am still hungry,” Jungkook said as he stared at the empty bowl in front of him.
“Me too,” Jimin sighed.
“Let’s go to McDonald’s,” Jungkook suggested.
“Sure,” Jimin said. “But I’m paying”
They left the restaurant and it was raining but this time neither of them groaned or waited for the rain to disappear.
They ran straight into the rain laughing as they did. They might have looked slightly out of their mind but hey you only have one life. You might as well live it.
“You know Jimine,” Jungkook said. “I have always hated the rain but not anymore”
“Why?” Jimin asked.
“I think rain is our lucky charm,” Jungkook said. “We met for the first time when it was raining and then when we kissed it was raining too and look it’s raining now as well”
“Yeah,” Jimin said. “I think rain is our lucky charm”
Jungkook grinned as he came towards Jimin and as the road was thankfully fairly empty Jungkook twirled around Jimin a bit before hugging him.
“I feel like we are in a movie,” Jimin said as Jungkook rested his chin on the top of Jimin’s head.
“Only this is real,” Jungkook said as he kissed Jimin’s head.
Jimin only smiled as he looked at Jungkook before leaning in to kiss him.
Jungkook kissed him back and they kissed for a while until Jimin broke away.
“Come on, Kookie we have greasy burgers to eat,” he said laughing.
They had walked into the McDonalds soaking and got a lot of weird looks as they ordered two cheeseburgers and large fries.
They got a taxi back to Jungkook’s flat and after changing they ate their food and then just snuggled up on the couch together.
“So did you enjoy today?” Jungkook asked.
“It was the best date ever,” Jimin said and Jungkook gave him an ear to ear smile.
“And you are the best boyfriend ever,” Jimin said as he kissed Jungkook.
“Boyfriend?” Jungkook asked in an unsure tone.
“We have been practically making out for 3 weeks now and you took me to a fancy restaurant today,” Jimin said. “I think that makes us boyfriends”
“Oh yes,” Jungkook said. “We’re boyfriends”
Jimin just grinned before kissing Jungkook again.
Lucky charm? Jimin lets out a hollow laugh.
There was a time when rain meant only happiness and kisses but now it didn’t.
Now it served as a painful reminder. Because now every time it rained Jimin could only think about the day it had all went down.
Jimin never expected to be the fighting kind in a relationship but petty arguments were a regular thing with him and Jungkook.
Arguments that would sometimes lead to full blown fights that would mean either of them would storm out and then sulk for the next few days before either of them swallowed their pride and said sorry.
Jimin knew fights were healthy for a relationship but to this extent? He wasn’t sure.
They fought about every little thing but that one-day thing had blown out really bad.
Jimin loved Jungkook more than he had loved anyone but that didn’t mean he wasn’t annoyed by the fact that Jungkook was jealous of every male and even female friend he had because for some twisted reason he believed that they were all hitting on Jimin which wasn’t the case but that didn’t stop Jungkook from worrying.
When Jungkook was inquiring him about one such friend he had seen Jimin talk to Jimin had lashed out at him and said every bad thing he had felt about the other in the most hurting way possible as he saw Jungkook’s eyes glisten for a moment.
“You know what,” Jungkook said. “I fucking hate you Jimin,” he said as he stormed out of Jimin’s house and walked into the pouring rain.
Jimin realizes that he doesn’t remember that day as well he remembers all the happy memories.
Maybe because he had tried to suppress it and tried to forget about it which was clearly unsuccessful.
The rain wasn’t the lucky charm it used to be, nor did it remind him of happiness. No, the rain meant that Jimin relived the day Jungkook had walked out on him.
That was 3 months ago but even when it rained now, Jimin cried locked into his room. A lot of things reminded him of Jungkook but nothing compared to the pouring room.
He was crying even now but thankfully no one could see his tears in the rain.
He had reached his house where he would continue to mope around but in private and maybe eat a dinner of microwaved leftovers and that is if he could make himself to do it.
The rain hadn’t stopped at all and it looked like one of those heavy showers that lasted over a day.
A whole day that reminded him of Jeon Jungkook.
Jimin reached his building and as he walked to his flat he heard a voice. A voice that was all too familiar. A voice that he had grown to love but now even listening to it made his heart stop.
“Jiminie,” it said.
Jimin turned around. He felt like he had officially lost his mind and that he was seeing Jungkook everywhere but no there he was standing in front of Jimin wearing a black hoodie that was concealing his face.
“I know,” he began. “You probably hate me”
Hate him? Jimin laughed internally.
“But I have to say this,” he continued. “I am sorry Jimin. I am really really sorry”
When Jimin didn’t say anything Jungkook continued.
“I am sorry for being an ass and leaving like that and never calling you again it was all my fault and I regret it so much because I have been so lucky to have you and I was being a jerk to you even though you deserve so much more. You are my everything Jimin and you are the best thing that has ever happened to me”
“All I wanted to say is, I love you Jimin. I love you so much. I love you more than I think I have and I ever will love somebody,” he said and he sniffled. “Please forgive me. I understand if you don’t but give me one chance Jimin and I promise I’ll make it up to you”
Jimin was rooted to his spot as he looked into Jungkook’s eyes.
Jungkook seemed to sense it as he gave a little nod and began walking away his head hung low.
“Wait,” Jimin said weakly.
Jungkook instantly turned around and he found Jimin running towards him throwing his arms around him.
“You idiot,” Jimin muttered as he felt tears at the crinkles of his eyes. “I love you”
“So you forgive me?” Jungkook asked.
Jimin nodded smiling a little.
“I can’t believe this,” Jungkook said. “I don’t deserve you”
“Shut up,” Jimin said as he kissed Jungkook. God, had he missed the feel of Jungkook’s lips on his.
Jungkook kissed him back and they stood there kissing for the longest time neither of them wanting to stop when Jimin finally pulled back to catch his breath.
“Look it’s raining today as well,” Jungkook said.
Jimin just nodded with a grin as he leaned into kiss Jungkook again.
Maybe, the rain was still their lucky charm.