never find someone

“I’ve never had a boyfriend in my life. I’ve never even been on a date. I feel like I don’t know how to tell whether someone likes me or not, or how I could show someone that I like him without saying it out loud.
I thought that this one guy from school liked me. We became good friends, but I really thought he was into me because he was very sweet, very respectful, very open. Sometimes I would notice that he seemed a little more interested in me than in other friends in the classroom, so I thought that it might go somewhere.
But the next thing I knew, he had a girlfriend.
He had told me a lot about himself, so I felt like I knew a lot about his life.
On the last day of class, I actually said to him, ‘Hey, I’m happy for you, but I thought that you felt this way towards me.’ I asked him if girls ever confuse his politeness and respectfulness and openness for flirtation. He said, ‘Yeah, I get that a lot.’
I don’t even know if he understood that I liked him. I didn’t say it. I just told him that I was surprised to hear that he had a girlfriend.
We’re still friends, but I try to avoid physical contact. I’m a hugger, and before I learned how he felt, I would hug him very tightly. Obviously, my intentions were different than his.
And now this has triggered all these questions for myself that I’ve been trying to avoid.
I realize that a lot of the male figures in my life left when I was young, and I’ve never had a consistent male role model in my life.
My father wasn’t around. I’m from Venezuela, so when I was eight, my older brothers, who were older than me by ten and twelve years, left and came to this country. Then, when I was finally here too, I only lived with them for a short while before they moved out again. My mom found a boyfriend, married him, then got divorced, and he left, too.
So maybe that’s why it’s hard for me to open up to men. Maybe I think, ‘What’s the point of opening up if they’re going to leave?’
I finally met someone who I thought I could open up to. It was just so easy with him. I felt so comfortable. I felt like we were meant to be. And then…
Now I’m scared that I may never find someone like that again. Will I ever find love? It just seems so… beautiful.”

(Government Center)

S/o to all the polyamorous folks who

  • recently found out polyamory was a thing
  • are in a healthy relationship with their partners
  • have been broken up with for being a “cheater”
  • are trying to communicate with their potential partner about being polyamorous (best of luck!)
  • are scared they will never find someone who understands their love for others
  • still feel guilty for loving multiple people
  • were conditioned to think their polyamory was a bad thing
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If you ran away, come back home
       Just   come   home

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wonho hyping kihyun to do kwiyomi player aegyo + skinship = a great concept [cr:kmtau]

She loves to tell jokes that she could only understand. She likes to wear a dress and sway around in her heels. Unfortunately, she can’t dance at all, but she’s trying her best to learn. She loves to observe people whenever she’s traveling and make funny stories out of them. It’s her favorite past time so don’t be shocked when she silently giggle out of nowhere.
She loves to cook, but most of the time, it tastes bad. Compliment it through eating them with her. She loves to sing while washing the dishes. Enjoy the moment because you will see her in her most real form.
She loves to listen to stories, stare and smile without any reasons. She loves to play her curly hair and when she randomly push you, don’t get mad at her because she wants to get your attention. Sometimes, she becomes crazy when she saw someone staring at you. She will hold you closer and make them feel you are hers. That’s how she is, accept her.
She loves to wiggle her feet at the bed and tell stories that she experienced throughout her life until she gets tired. She loves to trace spine and put someone’s arms around her because it gives her solace. Your arms will become her home; she will fall in love with the idea of sleep inside of them. Let her. And wait, she snores, and I could tell you, it’s cute.
She has flaws, but it differentiates her from the crowd. It makes her complete. You may not understand her every time but try your best to because she needs you. She’s maybe crazy and weird, but she’s secretly hoping to end up with you.
She’s a unique kind of star, and you could never find someone like her in this world or in another. She may not be perfect, but she’s perfectly fit for you.
She chose you over anyone else.
Love her, be grateful.
—  E.J. Cenita
V OPENING VIDEO BREAKDOWN

I am posting the ENGLISH lyrics as well as the characters that show at that point in ( )…a number following so you can see my ramble about it. These lyrics are absolutely beautiful and breathtaking. This song is beautiful. 


In search of shining ray

Daffodil swaying beneath the blaze (V shown)*1

Trying to bloom with all its might (Rika)*2

It puts in all it’s heart

This, a song of dreams sweetly sung

This, a song of memory lonely sought (Jumin and Zen)*3

Into the light the flower may flourish (Jahee and Yoosung)*4

It takes a push to make me perish (Saeyoung and Saeran)*5

Shall there be light, do forgive me

Even the act I feign to protect me

Shall there be hope, flower shall blossom

Even if surrendering my everything in whole (V)*6

Love tenderly this daffodil (Picture of V and Rika)*7


The sun is the mother of all. 


*1. V is alluded as a flower, in this piece. As he often calls Rika his ‘sun’ it would make sense. As much as a flower needs a sun to thrive and grow, V also needs Rika to live. Or, rather, he sees that he lives BECAUSE OF her. He is happy living, swaying beneath the blaze of her bright beams. 

*2. ‘Trying to bloom with all it’s might.’  Rika seems through the game to look a bit down on V and his dependence. To me, this comes from a point of view of someone looking down at this daffodil, watching it struggle to live and keep going but never giving up, much like Rika with V. Through her, he is trying to thrive as much as he can, by any circumstances. He puts his whole heart into loving her, because through her, he lives as well. 

*3. ‘Lonely sought’ these two characters are arguable the loneliest in the game. They both feel misunderstood. They both feel as if they will never find someone to love them. They are too complicated. Their lives are too.complicated! This line really applies to them both and it is beautiful and a smart move with this placement. 

*4. ‘Into the light the flower may flourish.’ BOTH of these characters were essentially lost. Jaehee was in a dead end job she never intended on staying at, Yoosung lost his motivation after Rikas “death.” But, with MC’s guidance…they are shown the light…and they FLOURISH. Like a flower. Make sense??

*5. This one is a bit more intense and deep. ‘It takes a push to make me perish.’ The Choi boys have been through a lot. ‘It takes a push’-could mean the push that Rika and V gave Saeyoung to go into hacking and Saeran to join the cult, leading them out of the light and into this darkness, causing them to perish. They trusted these people, and all they needed was that extra push to go into it. 

*6. ‘Even if surrendering my everything’ this is so classic V, understandable that he would be shown during this line. He doesn’t care if he loses everything he is. Like the secret endings, he is willing to die as long as he can prove his undying love to Rika. He gives himself willingly to the person he loves 

-BUT- 

*7. ‘Love tenderly this daffodil’ hurts a lot. It shows a new side to him. We usually only see V as this love addled fool. But this line. He gives himself, puts himself out there for her, and yet…he is scared. He wants a kindness in return. Please, love me tenderly…No, love [at all] tenderly. I may be devoted to you, living under you, but please, don’t hurt me. 


-The sun is the mother of all- 

Rika is the center of this entire damn game. She is. Every single character revolves around her. The plot revolves around HER. Plain and simple. Rika is the epicenter and that will never change. 

—————

And she did. She hurt him, badly. Many times. 

Chertiz, take all of the time you need. Because I want to be able to romance and heal this poor boy properly. I do. 

Girls and their Signs

“An Aquarius sat me down and she had a look on her face and I knew this was going to be serious. She was never serious, until she told me she loved me.

 An Aries stopped me when I wrapped my arms around her waist. She was not going to have it today, and I slowly just let go and kissed the back of her neck and she melted again. The fire in her eyes rekindled and we smiled.

 A Cancer called in the middle of the night, wanting to talk, and suddenly the atmosphere changed. She told me about her past, and what she had to go through and what made her become who she is now, and seeing her vulnerable I couldn’t stop myself from crying with her.

 A Capricorn showed me her scars and she laughed about it, and I knew it was forced. I reached for her hand and she slowly became a mess and apologized for staining my shirt.

A Gemini loved me so fully, that when she left she brought a piece of me where ever she may be. A side of hers will remain with me. 

A Leo came forcing herself into my life and showed me what real loyalty was, and when it was over she was proud to say that I will never find someone like her with tears in her eyes, but she held her head high and her chest out. She was proud of herself and she was right.

A Libra opened me to a world where not everything has to be spontaneous, and that everything can be so simple with just the amount of time and patience. She told me the world was ours and I believe her for it. 

A Pisces showed me how to be a hopeless romantic, and to vibe with the energy around me and not to take things to seriously. She was the half of me and she tells me I was hers.

A Sagittarius baked me tons of cake and sweets when she has time, and that was always the high light of my life. 

A Scorpio became so over protective of me and she would constantly ask about me and who I was with, but if vice versa she would say don’t worry and that I shouldn’t worry who she’s with because at the end of the day she was with me.

A Taurus loved me and sends me videos and music when she gets reminded of me. She would take pictures of art from galleries she visits and asks for my input of it, and we would laugh about it afterwards. She would sometimes send me pictures of me as her skin glistens like gold and she would ask me if she was beautiful even with her skin covered in scars.

 A Virgo came into my life and showed me all the 12 things I write about, and everything in her I see the opposite of me, and she was everything I could ask for. When she left the light she brought with her began to dim and I watched her love someone else, and that was the most painful thing.” 

The Signs as Love Quotes

(check your Venus)

ARIES:

“You are still my favourite yet most painful story to tell.”

TAURUS:

“In the end we won’t remember the most beautiful face and body. We’ll remember the most beautiful soul.”

GEMINI:

“Just remember when you’re ignoring her, you’re teaching her to live without you.”

CANCER:

“My parents warned me about the drugs in the streets but never the ones with with hazel eyes and a heartbeat.”

LEO:

“True love isn’t about finding someone who never lies. It’s about finding someone who honestly means something to you. It’s when you see someone and you fall head over heels over them and they take over your mind for that very instant and never leave. Perfect love isn’t about having a partner with no flaws, it’s about accepting their flaws and looking beyond their imperfections.”

VIRGO:

“People leave you out in the cold and get mad when you learn how to get warm by yourself.”

LIBRA:

“I love talking to you, … even if I have nothing to say.”

SCORPIO:

“When I die don’t you dare come to my grave and tell me you love me because those words were the only thing I would have needed to stay.”

SAGITTARIUS:

“She didn’t need to be fixed, just loved.”

CAPRICORN:

“Everything you love will one day kill you, whether it’s cigarettes, or drugs, or the boy with brown eyes, they all kill you in the end.”

AQUARIUS:

“I didn’t fall in love with you. I walked in love with you, with my eyes wide open, choosing to take every step along the way. I do believe in fate & destiny, but I also believe we are only fated to do things we’d choose anyway & I choose you; in a hundred lifetimes, in a hundred worlds, in any version of reality, I’d find you & I’d choose you.”

PISCES:

“We live in a world full of broken hearts and judgmental hypocrites.”

The Venus Sign’s Biggest Fear

Aries Venus: No one ever being able to fulfill their need for intense passion

Taurus Venus: Latching onto someone only to have them leave

Gemini Venus: Wasting their time

Cancer Venus: Not being able to love their partner the way the feel they should

Leo Venus: Giving someone their heart only to have it broken

Virgo Venus: Never finding someone that meets their standards

Libra Venus: Realizing they idealized a toxic relationship

Scorpio Venus: Letting themselves be vulnerable only to end up getting hurt

Sagittarius Venus: Their relationship damaging them as a person

Capricorn Venus: Catching feelings only to have it thrown back in their face 

Aquarius Venus: Being trapped in a relationship

Pisces Venus: Not getting the love they gave reciprocated 

Slight Changes || Park Jimin

Originally posted by lonastic

Word Count: 1.9k

Genre: Angst/Fluff


“You can’t be serious Y/N, it wasn’t even my fault.” You ignored Jimin’s voice as you stormed away from him and walked into the kitchen. The only thing you wanted to do right now was get away from him, but it seemed that no matter how far you got from him he would just appear right behind you again.

“Yes, Jimin, I am serious. What would make you think otherwise?” Your tone was bitter, anger flooding through you and exiting in the form of words. There was no other way for you to release it so you just had to deal with trying your best to stay calm and not completely flip out on your boyfriend. Jimin sighed loudly before speaking again, causing you to turn around and look at him.

“She was just a fan, fan’s get close. It’s not my fault.” He argued. You rolled your eyes, feeling more anger rise at the fact that he was trying to defend himself over this. The picture had been all over twitter and it seemed that ARMY’s were going crazy over it. They had been tweeting it at you, waiting for some kind of reaction, but you held back until the moment he got home and you could confront him about it.

“It’s your fault that you didn’t try to ask her to move, and it’s your fault that you didn’t mention me, you know, your girlfriend.” You said.

“God you always get like this.” Jimin’s tone surprised you, and you couldn’t help but feel a little taken aback by his words. There wasn’t anything about it that was very different, just a slight undertone of frustration that you weren’t used to. Jimin was always calm with you, even now while you were practically yelling at you he was keeping his normal tone.

“What do you mean I always get like this?” You asked.

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