never broke

When I was young, my heart was always on the run
But you made lovin’ fun
I never knew it could be
Now I see you from a different point of view
I feel it’s too good to be true
I found my missing piece
—  Seeing Blind
What sucks is to watch yourself slowly fall back into old habits that you’ve tried a million times to break. It’s like every time I find myself climbing out of this deep hole, I slip right back in. Why am I such a failure?
After meeting you I just don’t think there will be any other. A part of me will never be whole again. I picked up your habits, good and bad. Phrases you said became a part of me and I find myself using them in sentences. I memorized the lyrics of all your favorite songs and I catch myself singing them randomly. I smell of your scent every once in a while and I cannot help but wonder where you are, and if you are thinking of me as well. I close my eyes and all I see is you. You are in every part of me, consuming me.

“it doesn’t matter if it was a relationship or a friendship. when it ends, your heart breaks.”


- Day 26

I’m not going to write about all the times you screwed me over.
I’m not going to make you out to be this bad person.
Because at some point you were what was right for me.
You rescued me when I was lost.
You helped me win the battles with my demons.
You made me feel beautiful.
And when you looked at me, I knew I mattered.
Those are the memories I will remember you by
At some point in time, you did love me.

So no, I won’t hate you
For outgrowing me
For lying
For leaving
But I’m not going to pretend I’m ok with it either…

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-excerpt from a book i’ll never write #28

Fuck you for making me feel like I didn’t even deserve you when it’s you who doesn’t deserve me
When I first met you, I thought that you might be something that I was going to call home.
And I was right.
—  d.p.a
You’re looking through your feed trying to find posts to relate to. So you don’t feel alone. And that good feeling you get when you read one that describes exactly how much you’re hurting, a lot of people feel it too. You’re not alone. We’re in this together. It might seem tough, it might seem hard, and maybe it is. But you’ll get through the storm. You’ll come out stronger, don’t you worry.
—  LM. You’re not alone.
You are tearing me inside out and I can’t stop it because I let you in the first place