never breaks even

when we came to earth the heavens designed us a special gift, an invisible energy source that would offer us secret assistance 

aries received a finely crafted and exquisite sword. it glows a ruby scarlet and its honourable to her only. it is not sharp nor deadly, but it gives her the inner courage and assertion to fight her battles despite feeling like a child being constantly berated by the world

taurus received an invisible set of headphones. they are rose pink and soft and silky, and she can put these on whenever the chaos on the world reaches its peak, when it begins to disturb her inner world, when her raw senses become too overloaded, she can go into a place of silence inside, she can turn on autopilot 

gemini received a tiny, flittering pixie crafted from the mind of hermes, she flies beside the gemini mind with a notebook quickly ascribing the gemini’s thoughts before they disappear into outer space. the notebook is then given to one of gemini’s personalities who wasn’t busy at the time so it can be remembered in future

cancer received a luminescent, delicate sea shell to wear around her neck and caress her heart, the water within this shell contains the spiritual dwelling of her supportive ancestors and guides, each who whisper her words of guidance through the sea shell, each message instantly reaching the heart its touching 

leo received a crown that never breaks or crumbles, even when she feels like she will. the crown glows a butterscotch caramel, crafted with divine royalty in mind, so that even in her darkest moments she can wear her crown and be reminded of her magnificence

virgo received a microscope that adapts into a kaleidoscope, perfect for their mutable nature, a microscope with divine contacts that conceive the spiritual harmony in all things, the microscope that envisages the solution before the problem 

libra received a sweet bottle of perfume that smells of venus cake batter, but it’s not for her, its her air freshener, a cosmic spritzer that harmonises her environment and dispels social disharmony, an aroma of peace 

scorpio received a piece of their own soul wrapped in golden parchment. this was to be accessed and acknowledged in moments of crisis. for the reminder of her immortality even when she is screaming out that she wants to die 

sagittarius received a compass pointing in the direction of their personal truth. it spins and turns, sends her on crusades then spins back around again, it keeps everything interesting, its her secret atlas 

capricorn received an intricate bracelet that is made of the same substance as saturn’s rings, so when she goes to feel her heart with her pulse, she is reminded of her golden blood, the bracelet moves like clockwork, so she always ‘knows’ the time 

aquarius received a telescope that can teleport the mind. when she is staring up at the stars at night, as she so often does, her mind can transit into the cosmos so she can hear their voices up close 

pisces received the greatest gift of all, her very own vessel adorned in glittering fairy lights, a vessel that she can board at any moment to sail freely into the spiritual seas, leaving the material world completely behind 

-C.

“How are you doing?”

The question kind of stops you. Because you’re okay. Your world is still spinning and you’re still smiling and you’re okay.

But then sometimes you’re not okay. Not even one little bit. And you don’t really sleep at nights because your bed is as empty as your arms. And there’s a space on your wall where his photo used to hang. And sometimes you can’t even eat because he’s gone and the sick feeling in your stomach just becomes a permanent part of you. And when you kiss someone new their lips are wrong and their hands don’t tug your hair and their body doesn’t feel quite right beneath your wandering hands. And sometimes you cry and you don’t think you’ll ever stop.

But you don’t say that. They don’t want to hear that. You just smile and say, “I’m okay I guess.”

—  Even when I’m okay, I’m not, 08/10/2016
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“Dear Isak. I’m sitting, now, where we met one another for the first time, and I’m thinking about you. Soon, it’ll be 21:21. I want to say a thousand things to you. I’m sorry for scaring you. I’m sorry for hurting you. I’m sorry for not telling you that I’m bipolar. I was afraid of losing you; had forgotten, that it’s impossible to lose anybody. That all people are alone, anyway. In another place in the universe, we’re together, forever. Remember that. Love you. Even.”

- Skam.

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there’s a good reason these tables are numbered honey, you just haven’t thought of it yet // panic! at the disco

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Blond Skywalker genes, the secret’s out thanks to the little Matt the Radar Technician incident…

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Falling in love starts with, “Who the fuck is this?” - Louis CK

i’m actually sobbing tbh i can’t believe i never knew how tall eeez is (or is it eaze? the little boy who travels w/ tyki in any case i’m too upset to check) 

he’s 110 cm. 3'7. and he weighs 19 kg. that’s like 41 pounds. he’s like eleven and he is t i n y and i’m so upset tyki needs to take him and put him in a big house where he can grow and not be homeless and near death and god just let this teeny child rest

pumpkin-pixie99  asked:

Jamilton!

anon said:  Jamilton? For the ask thing. Thanks! & @daremeidareyou said: Jamilton

  • Who said “I love you” first: Thomas says it first on accident. It was basically a slip of the tonuge. He had known he loved Alex for a while but would never admit that. It was basically giving Alex ammunition to fuck with him. But Alex made him coffee one morning and it was actually terrible (it was bitter and exactly how Thomas thought Alex took his coffee) but Thomas had just woken up even though Alex had apparently been up for hours. So he just accepted the coffee with a quick peck on the lips and it felt so easy and domestic it only seemed natural to follow it up with an ‘I love you’.
  • Who would have the other’s picture as their phone background: Thomas has a picure of Alex as his backgroud. The picture is of Alex somehow managing to balance on a horse and writing on his laptop. Thomas is constantly amazing by Alex’s ability to literally never take a break. Even while on vacation. Alex doesn’t have a picture of Thomas as his background but that’s only to annoy Thomas. Also because he loves the pic of his and the squad that is his background.
  • Who leaves notes written in fog on the bathroom mirror: They both do. Alex leaves morning notes for when he rushed out the house early. His notes consist of ‘Have a good day, dickhead.’ and ‘Remember not to be an asshole.’. Thomas leaves notes for Alex at night. Sometimes Alex gets home late from work and Thomas isn’t always in the mood to wait up for him. So he takes a shower and leaves a note in the mirror before he goes to bed like ‘Make sure that you’ve eaten today.’ and ‘Take a shower before you climb in bed next to me, you little gremlin fuck.’
  • Who buys the other cheesy gifts: Thomas is a rich trust fund baby that blows his money on the most unneccessary things. He buys Alex really random things like a typewriter and a quill with authentic parchment. Then he buys them matching rings that say ‘To Infinity’ & ‘And Beyond’ which is almost too cheesy for Alex but he also loves it.
  • Who initiated the first kiss: Alex does. They aren’t dating yet and have yet to even admit their feelings for each other but one day they’re debating. Not arguing, which is weird, but just talking out an issue they disagree on. Maybe it’s because they’re both too tired to fight or neither can rationalize a reason to argue that day but they are getting along. They have an entire conversation and it’s intellectually stimulating without raising either man’s blood pressure. Then on their way out Thomas kinda stumbles into Alex and Alex nearly topples over but they somehow manage to stay upright. They do end up almost tangled together and their faces are very close to together so Alex just closes the distance and Thomas starts kissing back and they don’t stop till they pass what’s considered acceptable in public.
  • Who kisses the other awake in the morning: Alex kisses Thomas awake. Thomas hates it and loves it. He really can’t get enough of waking up with Alex in his arms, kissing him awake, being surrounded by him but he does not appreciate being woken before the sun comes up and having to feel the warmth of Alex’s body leave his arms.
  • Who starts tickle fights: Thomas does when he wants to distract Alex. Like sometimes Alex is sulking on the couch and Thomas doesn’t like seeing him sad so he starts to tickle him until he starts laughing out loud. Or during a thunder storm when Alex is not scared but upset and Thomas just goes in to tickle him. Alex comes to expect the tickling when he’s feeling down and can almost be cheered up at the thought of it.
  • Who asks who if they can join the other in the shower: Alex doesn’t ask, he just joins Thomas in the shower. This is on the weekends when neither have to go to work and they can actually spend time together outside of a professional setting. Thomas doesn’t mind. He prefers not to waste the water and Alex contends that they’re saving water taking a shower together but Thomas insist they spend more time in it together than they do apart.
  • Who surprises the other in the middle of the day at work with lunch: Thomas has to drag Alex to lunch in the middle of a work day. Thomas knows that Alex will not eat unless reminded and even when remided he will forgo eating in order to work.
  • Who was nervous and shy on the first date: Neither is shy but both are nervous. Thomas and Alex don’t know why they’re even on a date or where they are going. They had a one-night stand which led to a conversation which led Thomas to asking Alex out on a date. Thomas took Alex to a fancy french restaraunt. It starts off awkward until Alex brings up an upcoming vote in congress and neither can give up a good debate and they spend most of the dinner discussing various things they disagree on and finding things they do agree on.
  • Who kills/takes out the spiders: Alex kills all the spiders because Thomas is unabashidly afraid of them. Thomas yells for his ex-military, silver star holding boyfriend to come kill the spider and Alex is fine with killing them but it is annoying to have to get up from his desk to kill them,
  • Who loudly proclaims their love when they’re drunk: Alex is a rowdy drunk and hangs off Thomas just ranting about how much he loves Thomas and even though he talks a lot of shit about Thomas, he’s like the best boyfriend ever?? And how lucky he is to have Thomas??? Thomas records this.

send me a ship

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Dear Newbies 2017

If your pred is mean/difficult/unresponsive:
If you can’t talk to your Regional Representatives/Block Leaders:
If you have no connections in your prefecture yet:
If you’re feeling crappy/culture-shocky:

My ask box is always open and always has Anonymous options turned on, and I’m not gonna judge you. If you chat me through the message feature on Tumblr, I’m gonna respond to you.

If you’re in a situation where you don’t feel right, or good, it is okay. That happens sometimes. And if for some reason you’ve found my blog and you’re lookin’ for a little sympathy, it’s more than okay to reach out.

I mean it’s ALSO really okay to message me to gush about how happy you are, how excited you are, about the good things happening. But I know sometimes the tough things are the ones we have trouble discussing. So y’know. Whatever you wanna do!

Her womb smelled like it was burnt.

(Translation of the message with Ayato, Touka, and Yomo. Please feel free to send me a message for any corrections!)

The children who were meant to be born, died. The vision of the future convulses.

Someone declared that they’ll crush only half of the broad bean.
The gene is in a severe bipolar state.
The nucleic acid sequence having no recollection of its own actions.

All of the fingers that were supposed to be connected from start to end, are scattered around; it’s annoying.

If you look closely at the knot, you can see that it can be surprisingly easy to untie.

I was always asked to keep the switch.
Go forward.
Go back.
Stop.

I can hear my voice from the mouth.
That voice gave me a feeling of discomfort and it had become extremely disgusting but, no one noticed that and everyone was under the impression that it was indeed, my voice.

Sin is irresponsible. I’m getting tired of being forgiven.
My shoulders have even forgotten about my legs.

I open the door with the side of my arm.

The path that I should’ve advanced in is gone and darkness pulled onto the horizon that lay right beneath it.

“Come on, come on! Come on, come on!”

Go forward.
Go back.
Stop.

I can hear my voice from the bones.

“Did you know that our voice is the mixed voices from dad and mom? No wonder it’s so disgusting.”

I pinched my nose and jumped down without a pause. Just like how a child would when jumping into a pool.

Even the never-stopping rain,
even the never-breaking night,
even the never-ending agony.

It’s surely there, it’s just that it wasn’t there until now.

Falling down, falling down.
It’s as if right has become left.

And on the brink of collision, I recall Björk’s song,

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Graphic: @myqueenyoursavior (Thank you!)


Time for some fun speculation! It looks like the Evil Queen’s sleeping curse may have a surprising twist.

Snow White had been asleep from before Emma was transported to the wish realm. Charming refused to wake her up before he’d found a solution to the ‘Gideon problem’.

Right after Emma defeats Gideon, David gets caught up in seeking answers about his father’s death. After he faints, Hook tells him to kiss Snow and get some sleep, but David refuses.

The next scene is the next morning when Regina gives Robin clothes and then right after we see this conversation between Regina and Snow. It’s a bit out of the blue but our minds fill in the blanks. We assume David has changed his mind and woken her up, maybe left a video explaining what happened and that she went to Regina.

At that point, it’s not that strange, she could go see Emma later. Except she doesn’t. The next thing we know, it’s the same morning and she’s back in asleep as David gets up. Soon after we’re drawn into his mission again.

Now hold up. This is Snow White the Maternal we’re talking about. Her daughter went to a wish realm, came back, almost got killed by Rumplestiltskin’s son - honestly, the one that left her pregnant and incarcerated wasn’t enough? - and she is only spending time with Regina? Emma’s life is still in danger. Snow has been asleep for a long time and now she’s already turning in after being awake for only the night? Not even trying to go see Emma?

Then there is Snow’s video message. No mention of Emma, no mention of him not waking her up for such a long time. It’s the first time she has a chance to say anything to him about everything that’s going on, but the message could be that of any other day… She loves and misses him. 

Then there’s David. He didn’t seem like he was planning on waking Snow up. He was on a mission, both to stop Gideon and now he had an extra mission to figure out what happened to his father. He had two missions now and no solutions. He knew that if he woke up his wife, he wouldn’t have control over when to continue or whether she’d react like him. Trying to solve things before waking him. By showing him as he fainted, we were reminded that he didn’t have to wake Snow in order to sleep…

So maybe all he did was get some sleep without waking Snow up. Maybe he simply watched an older video first thing in the morning because he misses her? We never saw him wake her up or vice versa. We never got her response to the events of the past days. All she talked about was Robin Hood, which shouldn’t exactly be her main concern.

So the alternative explanation is that we were shown where Snow or Charming go when they are sleeping. We know they are under a sleeping curse and we know that sleeping curses send you to a physical place that is also very real - Henry got burned by going back to the burning room. So what if the Queen twisted it up so that a parallel universe was created where the circumstances were exactly the same? As soon as Snow White falls asleep, she wakes up in a Storybrooke where Charming is asleep. There is never a break, they can’t even dream about being together?

If that’s true, then the last scene could have taken place in the real world or in the parallel dream universe. David tells Hook he’s overdue to wake Snow - again suggesting she may have been asleep longer than since the morning - and the next scene we see Charming asleep and Snow once again talking to Regina. Either Charming got home, woke Snow and then Regina came over, or we switched to the dream world where to Snow it looks like Charming is asleep. Confusing much?

So, why is all of this so important? 

…because we have a musical coming up, of course! There are a few Buffy references on Once Upon a Time, so Buffy’s ‘Once more with feeling’ is bound to come up, especially since they took Willow & Tara’s line “I will always find you.” and made it iconic on Once. One of the funny little jokes of that episode is that the very first explanation for their vocal predicament during the song “I’ve got a theory” is immediately the right one. 

…so why wouldn’t Once Upon a Time use the second explanation offered by that couple they already like so much? (If anyone writes a meta on evil witches, midgets or bunnies being the cause, I’ll be over here, tag me.)

If without knowing it, we switched to the perspective of the dream world, with no way back to the regular world if the curse ends up being broken while we are on the inside. Could we get stuck in a world that is biased towards Snow, since she was the first one to fall asleep?

…and wouldn’t that make an awful lot of sense that a wedding between Emma and Hook took place because Emma is in a world where she is literally living out her parents’ dreams instead of her own?

The wish realm was a place without the Evil Queen, where Snow and Charming had control over their kingdom, but also over their daughter.

Emma didn’t like the person she was there very much and Regina points to one specific aspect of the white princess that sums it all up.

…so if on top of a wedding everyone also bursts into song, shouldn’t that finally start clueing people in that we are in a world that’s a little biased? That’s a little Snow and a little Charming and a little bit too far to be comfortable?

Emma & Regina would agree.