I grew up telling myself that love didn’t exist. I grew up seeing so many marriages fall apart, and seeing so many people walk around like it didn’t bother them. I grew up in a house that always had a shaking roof, filled with curses and screams and the shatters of glass. And then you came. You came in, with your perfect family, and perfect life, and decided to turn my own upside down. You made me believe in love again, and then you showed me what it was like to love and fall in love. And then you decided to get rid of that. You took the fragile heart, that had just started beating again, and crushed it until it was just the sad remains of a relationship. You, the same person that had taught me how to love, showed me that love wasn’t real again. There was only pain, and loneliness. So, here I am. Venting out my feelings, 4 years later, over the keyboard, and cursing you and your stupid lips. Because you were the one who taught me how to love, and then once again showed me that love wasn’t real. But you know what? Maybe it is real. Maybe I’ve just been cursed, to never find love anywhere. But to me, love doesn’t exist. And thanks to you, I’m not sure it ever will.
Excerpt from a book I will never write #1051 // does love exist?
me: *takes a deep breath* me: i lo- anyone who has spent five seconds around me ever: yes, you love yin, we know, you love yin so much, she’s the light of your life, you love her so much, you just love yin, we KNOW , you love yin you fucking love yin ok we know, we get it, YOU LOVE YIN. WE GET IT.
[…] Gonzalez was born and raised in California; her father is Mexican. In an Associated Press interview, Gonzalez said she was raised in a musical household and said her grandmother loved and listened to many musicals.
“So my life was pretty much show tunes and Elvis growing up. I fell in love with music through that,” Gonzalez said.
She received much acclaim for her roles in previous musicals, including Wicked and In The Heights, where she won an award for her role as Rosario.
This opportunity has also allowed her to be reunited with many of the original collaborators from In The Heights and several cast members on Hamilton.
Besides her work on Broadway, she has also acted in TV shows including Madam Secretary and Quantico, and is working on her first solo CD that is set to release in 2017.
The actress, who is married and has a young daughter, said this is where she wants to be.
“I worked so hard to be here so there are a few tears shed at the end of the show —this is a dream role.”
I’ve reached a point where I’m not going to waste my time. I’m not going to give my energy to someone that’s not going to give it back. I don’t have the patience to put anyone else first again only to get hurt. I’m putting me first from now on because that’s the only person I can count on.