It seems like a lot of stuff is coming to light about the male YouTube population. I’m not glad that it’s happening, but I’m glad people are talking about it, because it needs to stop. I hope this post will contribute to that.
I was coerced into having sexual contact with Alex Day.
I met him when I was 17 and a fan of his videos, and after talking online for less than a month he invited me to stay over at his place. I was initially adamant that nothing would happen between us and he initially agreed, but continually expressed a disregard for that further into our interactions.
Once we were sleeping in the same room (as what I thought of as “just friends”) and he woke me up by kissing me and touching me sexually.
I’m going to repeat that: I was asleep, I had fallen asleep stating my desire to have no sexual contact with him, and he woke me up by violating those wishes. I know for a fact I’m not the only girl he’s done this with.
He cheated on his girlfriends with me multiple times, and with several other girls (that I know of).
When sitting next to him, he would tell me I wouldn’t be able to turn my head towards him without him trying to kiss me. I’d sit in the same position until my neck hurt and then he’d try to kiss me anyway.
Once, he complained to me “Can we skip the part where you say no for an hour before anything happens? It’s tiring.”
I never had a sexual interaction with him where I fully consented without having to be convinced by him for a long time before it happened. There were a lot more instances of this than mentioned above.
He managed to convince me that this was a mutual thing. In hindsight, it definitely wasn’t. He messed me up deeply on a mental level. I wanted to please him because he talked a lot about how as soon as someone in his life did something he didn’t like, he would cut them out completely.
I understand this post won’t hold much weight because I’m not ready to have my identity associated with this. It’s taken me a long time to come to terms with it and I don’t want to be pulled back into a place where I have any interactions with him at all.
I don’t want to take this further. I just wanted my word out there in the hopes that other people who have been abused emotionally, sexually or physically by these people who have a great deal of influence over a large number of teenage girls won’t be as afraid to come forward. It’s time to stop letting things like this happen.