negative impedance

so i don’t follow a lot of xiv blogs because this is a side blog to my main, but i still somehow am seeing so much negativity about a lot of things now that sb is close to release and i wanna just say

i hope everyone has a really good time with the expansion. unfortunately there are rude people in all places in life, but i really hope you get to enjoy the game regardless

Book of Rage

The Book of Rage is something I developed to help me manage my overtaking, all encompassing, sometimes mortally threatening, irrational action fueling, always impeding negative thoughts & moods.



What you will need:

  • A notebook or sketchbook
  • A writing utensil

Optional:

  • Velcro
  • Ribbon
  • Decorations
  • Mood stickers
  • Markers and crayons


Page One: The Mission Statement (of sorts)

Page One is where you introduce yourself to yourself, but also make a promise to yourself to heal. Page One should set the tone and inspire YOU whenever you read it.

My page one goes something like:

Hello. My name is X, but I’ve never truly associated myself with that name and have a barrage of preferred nicknames. Here are a few of them: (list of nicknames)”

“At the time of this entry I am X years old. I have BPD.”

“In this journal I will attempt to chronicle my extreme emotions, work through them, and develop a coping mechanism to retrain my thinking patterns.”

This next part of page one is very important. Please do not disregard including this next part. I have found it to be very grounding while coming up out of a serious down. Note that while I am in the serious down, this next line doesn’t help, but after I’ve worked through the bulk of the emotion, this next sentence brings me to tears with hope for myself.

“I will heal. It will be ok. I will love myself”

That was my Page One. Yours may be different, longer, shorter. It may take up two pages, three pages, half a page. The importance is in the components, which are:

  •  Solidify a sense of self, which I have done by including all my pseudonyms through the years in one list as well as including my diagnosis (which, since obtaining, has set me free to explore healing options)
  • Set a goal for the book, and get into the thinking pattern that this book is a good coping mechanism, if not a necessity, for your process in better understanding and managing yourself
  • Realize that improvement is possible, your feelings and emotions are valid, and that the future is bright. 


About the Rage Page

Now to get into what the bulk of this book will be: Rage Pages. A rage page is exactly what it sounds like, a page filled with your rage. Raging mindlessly and into the abyss of your notebook is better than raging into the real world and doing something irrational, most will agree. 

The Rage Pages have such a larger purpose, though. Not only are they a space to release your negative thoughts and feelings in a fiery spiel of “fuck it all”, but they are a space to pull yourself back together and analyze your emotions.  

Over time, your rage pages will outline a map of that part of you. Your triggers will surface and you will be able to identify them. Your worst “times of day” or “states of mind” will start to make sense. Your irrational thought patterns and emotions will begin to be able to be understood by you, and that’s important. 

 That’s what this book is all about: self learning, self understanding, self love, and healthy release of those destructive thoughts and emotions. 

So, when you’re feeling exceptionally emotional in any way and are having trouble controlling your emotions or actions, turn to a new rage page and have at. 

Rage Page Formula

Date: The date, fill this in later if you don’t know. Be sure to fill this in, as the dates are how you track your progress and growth. 

Time: Don’t feel the need to get too specific, or get as specific as you want. “Just woke up” “after lunch” “6:32pm on a Wednesday” “sunset” are all perfectly ok! Everyone perceives time a bit different. 

State of Mind: List every emotion you are currently feeling, or describe your current state of mind.

Intensity of Emotion: Feel free to develop your own actual scale, and be sure to include “numbness”. I, personally, will sometimes become so negatively emotional I become numb. The emotions are still present in a way, but I am numb to the world. I also don’t have a scale, and some of my entries are “Over 9000″ or “Like Six but Building”. As long as you know what you’re talking about, whatever you put here is a-ok

What Happened: Here’s where you let it ALL out.  Scribble. Write sloppily. Write what happened. Write everything that lead up to those emotions, write anything anyone did to you-or what you did to them. Use no censors and just go ham, let it all out. Take up six pages with “FUCKIN’ MC FUCK FUCK” if you need to, in all caps, in your worst handwriting. It’s your rage page(s) and you keep letting it out until you calm down. 

Not calm yet? Scribble circles. So upset you only can write one sentence? That’s ok. Too numb to do anything but write super analytically? Go ham. Would prefer to draw a comic or express yourself through a drawing? DO IT! Even if you need to talk about what a piece of shit you are (you’re not a piece of shit btw), do that. Write “I Suck” 40 times and draw a sad llama.

  • The point of this is to regulate yourself and your current emotion to where that emotion or mental state is not fueling your actions. Whatever you need to do with that ink to express yourself and calm down, you do just that. 

DO NOT MOVE ON TO THE NEXT STEP UNTIL YOU ARE CALMED DOWN.  IF YOU ARE STILL THINKING/FEELING STRONG EMOTIONS & CONTEMPLATING IRRATIONAL BEHAVIORS, CONTINUE RAGING. DOODLE. SCRIBBLE. COLOR THE WHOLE PAGE IN BLACK. PLAY DOTS WITH YOURSELF.  LITERALLY ANYTHING.

Emotion Analysis: Remember back when we listed every emotion we were currently feeling, or described our current state of mind? Now we’re going to go deeper into them, and figure out why or what triggered those feelings. List out all of the emotions as a bullet points. Next to each emotion, write out why you are/were feeling that, what triggered the emotion, and if you can identify the thought process leading up to that emotion, do so. 

 Over time, you will begin to see correlations between what happened, your emotions, what triggered them, and how you reacted. Your head-space should be clearer than it was at the beginning of this page, and you should be able to at least semi-rationally identify causation. 

Conclusion / Solution / Next Step: You’ve raged. You’ve ranted. You’ve let it all out, and you’ve identified the causes of your emotions to your best ability. By this point, you should be pretty calm and thinking rationally, maybe even beating yourself up. Stop beating yourself up if that’s what you’re doing. Now, we focus on what we are going to do with the information we have learned. 

Your conclusion / solution / next step should include anything you’ve learned from the experience (so long as it is not self deprecating), such as needing to take a deep breath and not respond immediately next time someone says that thing, or knowing that you just can’t drink with certain people, or avoiding a location, or eating before doing the thing.

 It should also include any solutions you have come up with (so long as it’s not harmful to yourself and others) such as apologizing, talking rationally with someone who upset you, getting ice cream, writing a strongly worded but respectful letter. 

The third and arguably most important thing is to highlight your next step, which could be a combination of your conclusion & solution, or something else all together. A next step could simply be what you are going to do next, which is vital to outline if you are feeling numb or feel as if you are shutting down or disassociating. Here is where you will give yourself a task to execute, and follow through, even if it’s to make tea and read the next chapter in your Harry Potter book.



Example of a Rage Page

Some things have been altered/cut short

Date: 8/24/2015

Time: Like 1:30 pm or SOMETHING

State of Mind: Stressed, Alone, Abandoned, Hopeless

What Happened: I was at the doctors and had to hit the “fuckyou” button on my friend, because no calls allowed, and he started acting like he wasn’t important, and I got really, really mad. I sent a lot of angry texts. 

Emotional Analysis:

  • Stressed: I had coffee, life activities like the doctor make me on edge
  • Alone: Having nobody to call when me and my one friend get into an argument, going to the doctors all by myself, not having any family living near for support
  • Abandoned: Unsure footing in current relationship, nobody to talk to when my one friend is mad at me
  • Hopeless: No help for me. No sure footing in relationship. Nobody to talk to, really.

Conclusion: I was triggered by having my feelings and thoughts assumed, and by the construed perception that my health priorities come secondary to anyone else’s needs.

Solution: It was miscommunication.

Next Step: Apologize for the barrage of texts I sent when mad (before I caught myself), work on not getting so mad in the future.



BUT WAIT WHAT ABOUT THOSE OPTIONAL MATERIALS

If you’ve gotten Velcro, wrap your writing utensil in one bit (I recommend the softer bit) and put the other bit on your notebook. Alternatively, glue the ribbon to both your book and the pen. Now your pen won’t go missing!

If you’ve gotten the ribbon and don’t want to use it to connect your pen, glue the ribbon around your notebook with the ends hanging over where it opens. Now you can tie the notebook shut to “trap the rage”- or to simply keep it shut. I bring mine everywhere and sometimes it flops open, so I’ll probably be doing this soon.

Decorations - decorate the cover and make it yours.

Mood Stickers: Use mood stickers to express your emotions, if you can’t find the words

Markers and Crayons: To express yourself with, or to decorate your book with


I hope this helps someone! I got the idea from these anger management worksheets I had to do when in Anger Management some almost ten years ago. 

kitswulf  asked:

This research has mentioned that the classification system is based around threat to human life. Can you explain further? For instance, why is the Greek Hound Class Nu, and The Harmony Class Pi?

While there are many categorical classifications for magic-based entities, the Anders-Baal Threat Scale is considered the most important amongst them.  It ranks any magic-related or magic-based creatures or entities on a scale from Alpha to Omega. 

Starting at Alpha, which indicates absolutely no harm in any circumstance, to Omega, which indicates a treat capable of destroying all life on earth, the Anders-Baal Threat Scale offers an easy reference.  As we work up the scale we start with creatures which might, under the right circumstance, cause minor annoyance or very slight harm.  Moving up the scale we find creatures that might have a more severe negative impact under the right situation, or that could produce negative effects when long-term exposure is involved.  Toward the middle of the scale we notice a distinct and persistent possibility of harm no matter the circumstance.  We then move into creatures which are dangerous in any confrontation and can produce severe long-term harm and detriment.  Near the top of the scale encounters will likely be fatal, and surrounding effects might be observed.  Please note that these are summations and do not reflect the full spectrum of factors within each category.

No creatures in the Darkening Wood fall into the Omega category, and only one known entity fits this description.  We will not be discussing it here as it does not pertain to our research.

This scale takes into account dangers from a variety of factors, including in its base registration as pure mental and physical harm, but also dangers to biological process, long-term mental detriment (including subtle factors which negatively impede human comfort and stability), dangers to mechanical and other commercially based processes, threats to natural processes which are not biological in nature, discomfort, disease, and so on.

It should be noted that the scale uses humans as a baseline not because of a preference to their biology (although the scale is useful in reflecting dangers to possible commercial applications in various areas or around certain species) but because together as a species we are most able to communicate our needs and discomfort amongst ourselves, which can provide early warning signs of severe threats from other-worldly entities in various circumstances.

While the text given on the creatures in this brief bestiary may not detail their full attributes in relation to the scale, each has been carefully considered based on morphology, behavior, and other observed traits.

All of our rankings have been reviewed and approved through the International Liminal Discretion Committee (ILDC) before appearing here.

In the two instances of your request, both our research and the Committee found the Harmony to be a greater and overt threat owing to its sustained and highly likely sapient behavior.  The Greek Hound while plainly overtly menacing and demonstrating intentioned behavior, did not fulfill enough qualities to place it in the Pi class.

Resolving and Eliminating Core Beliefs

I intend to go into further detail on core beliefs for those of you who are interested, but for now here is a general outline. 

  1. Identify the core belief. This can be done through various exercises; one of relevance I have provided here. Core beliefs are typically rooted deep in the subconscious and require some work to unearth.
  2. Discern what contributed to the adoption of this core belief. Was it ingrained by your family/caretakers, imposed by environmental factors (such as culture), influenced by traumatic experiences, etc.?
  3. Evaluate the merit of the core belief based on what initially caused you to adopt it. For instance, if this was solely negative or impeding run-off from a primary caretaker due to their personal issues, it likely does not hold much merit. Ideally, core beliefs should serve your well-being and development. 
  4. Determine whether the core belief should be retained or eliminated based on how much merit it holds and upon personal contemplation. How does it feel to you? If it is generally conducive to your well-being and/or the well-being of existence as a whole, you may wish to retain it. If it is restricting or debilitating, it probably needs to be eliminated. 
  5. Eliminate core beliefs. Eliminating core beliefs can be difficult, even after conscious consideration and reaching the realization of how fruitless and harmful they may be. Uprooting such beliefs can take a great deal of time and effort, often requiring continuous resurfacing of their effects on emotions, thought patterns, and decision making. Exercising awareness of such effects and routinely reflecting on how to reintegrate your habits is the best way to succeed in eliminating core beliefs. 
  6. Resolve retained core beliefs. If you wish to leave a core belief intact, you might still like to alter it slightly to be more acutely aligned with your best interests– this is part of resolving. Some beliefs you may wish to retain exactly as they are, which is fine, too. However, acknowledging and understanding your core beliefs is only the first step to alleviating dissatisfaction in your life. Once you have identified/established your core beliefs it is sometimes necessary to resolve/reconcile them, meaning you must attune your actions in accordance with your beliefs.  When you hold a certain belief, but do not exercise regard for it, you begin experiencing friction and hence discontentment. Resolving core beliefs often requires evaluating your habits and reprioritizing certain aspects of your life, sometimes to very great extents. This, too, tends to entail a lot of time and effort– not to mention, courage. 
More Than You Ever Wanted to Know About Electrical Engineering, Part 29: Power Triangle and Power Factor Correction

We’ve spent some time talking about power factor as basically a measure of efficiency for a circuit - the amount of power we put into a circuit that we can get to do actually do work for us. We’ve shown that a power factor closer to 1 results in fewer losses and a more efficient system. Knowing this, it makes sense that there are circumstances where it may be necessary or desirable to alter a circuit’s power factor. 

Let’s visualize this in a slightly different way. We know that in an AC circuit, we’re generally dealing with complex power, S, comprised of real power, P, and reactive power, Q, and that the power factor is the ratio of the real to the complex power.

We can represent this graphically as a right triangle with S as the hypotenuse, P as the base, and Q as the height. Since the power factor is the ratio of P to S, it will be the cosine of the angle between them.

This visualization is called a power triangle. It can be a helpful way of quickly getting an intuitive handle on the situation you’re dealing with.

Anyway, we’ve established that in an ideal world, we want the power factor of our circuit to be close to 1. Since the power factor is the cosine of φ_z, that means we want the angle φ_z to be as small as possible.

There’s two ways we could do that. We could make P larger. That would make for a long, skinny triangle and decrease our φ_z. But remember, P is the real power we’re consuming. If we’re after efficiency, increasing P is the last thing we want to do.

The other thing we could do is reduce Q, our reactive power. This doesn’t change the amount of real power being consumed at all, so this looks like what we want.

How do we accomplish this?

Remember that reactive power is power that’s tied up in energy storage elements - that is, inductors and capacitors. Remember also that inductors and capacitors sort of work in opposite directions - conditions that will charge a capacitor will discharge an inductor and vice versa. A positive impedance means a lagging power factor, which means an inductive load, and a negative impedance means a leading power factor, which means a capacitative load. As with impedance, a capacitor will have negative reactive power (or it will supply reactive power, if you prefer to think of it that way) and an inductor will have positive reactive power (or it will consume reactive power). What this means is that you can change the value of Q, and consequently, the power factor, by introducing additional capacitance or inductance into your circuit.

Today's Horoscope
  • Aries: Things have gotten troubling for you in this past week, but keep persevering and DO NOT GIVE UP. There is someone who is relying deeply on you, and you just need strength.
  • Taurus: Things are okay for you, if you look at it with the right perspective. Opportunities are abundant and on their way, keep your eyes open.
  • Gemini: Your love life is going all sorts of ways right now, but just let it. Don't try to control things too much, let your impulses control you for a little.
  • Cancer: I know it's been really difficult to really take things on with a positive mindset, but your negativity sometimes impedes on your ability to get stuff done. Try and meditate just a little before doing work tonight.
  • Leo: Congratulations, you're in for a big surprise soon. Do that thing that you've been contemplating over, take a chance. It's really going to be worth it.
  • Virgo: Don't let your vices control you today. You're a strong person, and you're letting the wrong things get into your head. Breathe, breathe, breathe.
  • Libra: Treat yourself well tonight, your struggles are almost through. Relax in the bath or comfort yourself with something warm don't let the challenges wear you down.
  • Scorpio: Love is in the air.. or so you think. Don't be afraid to let people go if they're hurting you beyond your comprehension. You're worth more than what they're giving you.
  • Sagittarius: Do something whimsical, you're in need of something new in your one-track life right now. You can do it.
  • Capricorn: You've lost something that you love recently, and its going to be okay. You're about to discover some strength within yourself that will help you mend your own wounds.
  • Aquarius: You've done something right recently, and maybe you don't realize it, but it will truly benefit you in the future. So breathe, take it in, and smile.
  • Pisces: Someone admires you, and you're oblivious to it. Be sure to smile at everyone and make yourself known, you never know when someone will approach you.