that autism feel when someone asks you why you’re so “weird/different/obsessive/etc.” and you tell them you’re autistic so that they will understand, but they don’t and only say “you don’t look autistic/act autistic/I have a family member who has autism and you’re not very much alike/etc.” and you don’t know how to respond so you become nonverbal and then they think you’re just “stupid.”

To some people, surrender may have negative connotations, implying defeat, giving up, failing to rise to the challenges of life, becoming lethargic, and so on. True surrender, however, is something entirely different. It does not mean to passively put up with whatever situation you find yourself in and to do nothing about it. Nor does it mean to cease making plans or initiating positive action. Surrender is the simple but profound wisdom of yielding to rather than opposing the flow of life.
—  Eckhart Tolle

it’s so hard not to be bitter about that shit like I let go of a lot of my bitterness and jealousy but I’ll never get over being shown over and over again how undesirable my body was compared to the bodies of people I got into sugaring/findoming esp when I was close to being on the street…notes on tumblr don’t translate to income so people saying shit like “YAS MAMA WHY DON’T I LOOK LIKE YOU” is so fucking empty because no one actually means it

That autism feel when you really need financial assistance because you can’t work full time or go to post secondary and you can live on your own, but the websites with resources and information are all directed at families of autistic people and helping them and “treating” autism, not giving information for autistic adults that need help.