need to be perfect

So I just watched the National Theatre Live’s trailer for Angels in America and I can already tell that I’m gonna be disappointed as fuck by Andrew Garfield. (and I don’t care if this shows up in the tag his fans can fight me bc i’ve loved this play for longer than he’s been considered an A-list actor)   
Like yeah, Prior, as an ex-drag queen, should be a tad flamboyant, but it should feel… organic. That inflection of the voice should feel natural, which it does not coming from him. And the flamboyancy, the fabulousness shouldn’t overshadow how bitterly sardonic and angry he is. This is a man who has been dealt a death sentence, and who is now hearing voices, seeing weird visions and ghosts, he doesn’t know what the fuck is going on, but he puts it best when he says, “I can handle pressure, I am a gay man and I am used to pressure, to trouble, I am tough and strong” (last scene of Millennium Approaches) Prior sees his strength as not something coming from his own individual self and psyche, which is how Garfield sees it, but as something that he is because he is gay. For Prior, him being gay and him being strong are synonymous.
Like, as LGBTQ+ people, we are told over and over by society that because we are gay, because we are a “counter culture” that we are weaker than our cisgendered heterosexual peers. Tony Kushner sees that and says “fuck no, we have taken this hateful world that we have been dealt with and we have carved out our own piece of it with blood, sweat, and broken beer bottles, and that has made us stronger than you” 
And Andrew Garfield, as we can tell from this interview where he talk about Prior, does not understand that, in fact, I don’t think he understands Prior at all.
Like I can get why they felt the need to hire a pretty-boy celebrity- a very heavy, very American, very gay, and very very long play like this one could potentially be a hard sell. But Prior Walter should never be played by a straight, big-name actor. 
(Plus, as someone who goes in and out of the hospital, sick, short of breath, wheezing, and going blind Andrew Garfield certainly does not look it. And no one say “it’s hard to make people look that kind of sick on stage” because I saw Falsettos twice and you are wrong) 
Fight me.       

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Movies Meme: [1/5] Animated Movies → Mulan (1998)
↳ “I’ve heard a great deal about you, Fa Mulan. You stole your father’s armor, ran away from home, impersonated a soldier, deceived your commanding officer, dishonored the Chinese army, destroyed my palace and you have saved us all.”

Season 1 Bashir: This is BRILLIANT, gonna practice RUGGED FRONTIER MEDICINE and have ADVENTURES and do THRILLING HEROICS and PULL MORE TAIL THAN JAMES T. KIRK

Season 4 Bashir: Have been officially dumped by everything in a skirt on the station. Adventures are scary. Major Kira is scary. Captain Sisko’s shiny bald head is scary. Also am fairly certain I want to fuck a lizard.

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Am I still thinking about that one AU? Yes, definitely

Me handing in my senior quote:
  • Me: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f5Zedh_5DDM&feature=share
  • My teacher: "Veronica.this is a link to a Kpop M/V"
  • Me: ..."MONSTA X needs their first win fam"
  • My teacher: ...