naw cuz


Jack with glasses is a weakness of mine 


Yesterday, unbeknownst to me, my WHITE boss texted me, asking if I had found any artists to feature yet.

I was like naw, cuz the model employee I am, I didn’t know that I had to find artists to feature.

So he suggested this guy I knew years ago. My response, “Damn that nigga still alive?!?”

He responds, in this order.
wow. and yes.

Then it hit me, I was not talking to a Black person. lol I was like I don’t even know who I’m texting right now. Thought it was my coworker but now it is apparent that it is not.

He was like nah. u good. and hilarious

It gets better tho.

He comes in the next day and I’m still laughing about how I texted “nigga” to my boss, and he was like, you know he was shot for real right? He almost died.

I cry laughing. No, I didn’t know that. Promise you it’s kinda a Black thing to assume someone is dead if we ain’t seen or heard from em.

Later that evening I’m talking to one of my old best friends. My Black coworker asks who I’m speaking to and when I tell him, he was like, “DAMN, she still alive?

Bible. My life.


The Next Day

“Here’s your medicine, water, and I got you some snacks.” I said to Robyn as I put the items on the nightstand.

“Thanks.” Robyn said. She was laying in bed resting just like the doctor told her to. I wanted to stay home and take care of her but she didn’t want me to miss work.

“You need anything else?”


“You sure? If you need anything I can go to the store-”

“I’m fine Chris.”

“Alright. I’m gonna leave now.”

“Okay. Have a good day at work.”

“You sure you don’t want me to stay here until Melissa gets here?”

“No, you can go.”

“But what if something happens? Then you’ll be here by yourself with no one to help-”

“Nothing is gonna happen Chris. I’ll be soon plus I’m sure Mel will be here any minute.”

“Okay, Ima head out.” I said, walking towards the bedroom door.

“Bye Chris.”

“You know I can just stay here-”

“Bye Chris!”

“Oh it’s like that now?”

“You need to go to work. I’ll be alive when you get back, I promise.”

“I’m leaving for real this time.”


“After I get my kiss.” She smiled at me and said “Come here.” I kissed her lips and she wrapped her arms around my neck.

“I love you.” I mumbled against her lips.

“I love you too. Now go to work before you’re late.”

“Aight I’m gone.” I finally left the house and made my way to work. I passed the shelter and I immediately thought of Jasmine. I know I shouldn’t be worried about her but I cant help it. I don’t know if one of Brian’s people killed her or if she overdosed or what. I hope that she’s okay but I wouldn’t be surprised if something bad happened. When I arrived at the office and got off the elevator Kelli, Sabrina, and Luana didn’t waste any time grilling me.

“Where is Robyn?” Luana asked.

“Is she okay?” Kelli asked.

“You fucked her too hard huh?” Sabrina asked while filing her nails.

“Robyn is at home and she’s resting.”

“Damn you must have put it on her.”

“Yellow nigga got skills!” Kelli said.

“Can y’all shut up? When is she coming back?” Luana asked.

“Probably Wednesday.”

“Did you break her legs or something?” Sabrina said.

“Can you be quite?” Sabrina rolled her eyes and went back to filing her nails. “She’s dehydrated and the doctor told her to rest.”

“You made her sweat out all the water in her body.”


“What? I had to say it. You know I’m the blunt one.”

“You need medication. Actually both of y’all do.” Luana said to Sabrina and Kelli. Sabrina gave her the finger and Kelli rolled her eyes.

“So you left our girl at home to fend for herself?” Kelli asked.

“Welp, it looks like I’m gonna have to take off and go take care of her.” Sabrina said, standing up from her desk.

“I don’t think so. Her friend Melissa got that covered.”

“Then I’ll go supervise.”

“I don’t think so. You need to do some work. All of y’all do. Lately y’all ain’t been doing nothing but be in my business.”

“Uh uh. Who is y’all? I’ve been doing my work. It’s those two who are always being nosy.” Luana said.

“Don’t come for me. I’m good.” Kelli said.

“And I don’t give a fuck. I say what I want, when I want and if you have a problem you can fire me.” Sabrina said, folding her arms across her chest.

“Relax, no one is getting fired. Can y’all just do what y’all are suppose to do please?”

“Since you’re begging I guess I can do a lil something for you.”

“Good, Ima be in my office if y’all need me.”

“Jerking off to pics of Robyn.” Sabrina whispered to Kelli when I walked away. Man, I hired some crazy ass people.

30 minutes later

I have been answering phone calls and emails for the past half hour and I was already bored. Work is no fun without Robyn. She’s usually in my office with helping me with my work and keeping me company. I wish I could have stayed home one day to take care of her. Ima have to put her in one of those baby carriers you wear on your chest and bring her tomorrow. I decided to call her cell phone and check on her. It rang a million times before she finally answered the phone.

“Hello?” I heard her groggy voice say.

“Are you okay? Are you sick? Do I need to get you some med-”

“No..Chris I’m fine.”

“Then why do you sound like that?”

“Cuz I was sleeping and you woke me up.”

“Im sorry. You can go back to sleep.”

“I’m up now. What do you want? It better be important.”

“It is.”

“Okay, what is it?”


“Bye Chris.”

“No wait!”

“What? You don’t want anything.”

“I just wanted to check on you and…I wanted to hear your voice.”

“Aww that’s so sweet.”

“Is Mel there yet?”

“No be she texted me and said she’ll be here soon.”

“Good. Everyone was asking for you.”

“Ugh they’re so nosy.”

“Luana was just worried about you. It was Kelli and Sabrina who thought I dick you down into a coma.”

“That sounds like something Sabrina would say.”

“I came up with that myself. Sabrina said I made you sweat out all the water in your body and that’s why you’re dehydrated.”

“Oh my god! I can’t deal with her.”

“She’s the blunt one.”

“Always has been.”

“Ima let you go back to sleep now. I’ll be home soon. I love you.”

“I love you too.”

I haven’t seen Chris in a month and things have been pretty crazy since then. I haven’t run into Brian or any of his boys, thank God, but I ran out of money because I spent it all so I could shoot up. I already felt the withdraw symptoms coming on and I wasn’t liking it. How the hell am I suppose to get my fix now? I thought about getting more money from Chris but I know he wont give it to me after I up and left like I did. But I want I need more so I guess it wont hurt to try.

I’ve been to his house once before and I think I have a pretty good idea on how to get there so I started walking. It was about 10 in the morning and there was people everywhere in the streets and on the side walks trying to get to work. I remember when I used to work. I hated it until I got that check in my hand. Now look at me, strung out and begging for change. I think I was almost to Chris house when a random guy started yelling at me.

“Hey sexy!” He called out. I ignored him and kept walking. Me? Sexy? Maybe a few years ago. He has to be blind if he thinks I look sexy when I haven’t changed my clothes or showered in a whole month.

“I’m talking to you!” The man yelled out again. And you’re gonna keep talking and Ima keep walking. I picked up the pace a little and I was almost off the block when I felt someone grab my arms and pull me into an alley.

“I know you heard me calling you and you wanna try to act like your ass can’t hear me!” The man said, slamming me into the brick wall. It wasn’t until I looked at him for a few seconds that I realized that he was one of Brian’s helpers. Shit, I’m screwed.

“We’ve been looking for you for the longest time. Where the fuck you been at?”


“Stop stuttering bitch!” He yelled before he slapped me hard and I fell to the ground.

“I’m s-sorry.” I cried helplessly. I was in so much pain I could barely move. I wanted to scream and yell so I could get someone’s attention but when I raised my head there was no one in sight.

“Wait til Brian find out I found your whore ass.”

“Please let me go. I won’t tell-”

“Shut the fuck up!” He kicked me in my stomach and I screamed in pain. “Ima call him now.”

“No..please-” I managed to say before he grabbed my hair and punch me in the mouth and slammed my head down on the pavement.

“Didn’t I tell you to shut the fuck up? See you don’t listen and you know what happens to tricks who don’t -” He stopped mid sentence when Brian’s booming voice came through the phone.

“What’s going on Joe?” Hearing his voice made me cringe.

“Guess who I found. Lil Golden Barbie herself.” Joe said with a chuckle.

“Where’d you find her?”

“She was walking around Manhattan and I caught her ass.”

“Good work.”

“Thanks boss. What do you want me to do with her?”

“I’ll take care of her when you bring her to me.”

“Alright. I’m on my way now.”

“Lemme talk to her real quick.”

“Okay here she is.” Joe put the phone up to my face and I heard him breathing heavily in my ear.

“Well hello there Jas. How have you been?”

“How the fuck you think I’ve been?” I snapped. I know I shouldn’t get smart with him because that’ll only make things worse for me but at that moment, I didn’t care.

“Ooo I see you’ve gotten a little fiesty. Ima have to break you out of that.” Brian said menacingly

“Why can’t you just let me go?”

“Let you go? You belong to me. Why would I let you go?”

“I’m not your damn property.”

“Calm your ass down before I slap you again. You’re gone for a month and you forget how to talk to your boss.” Joe said.

“Naw, it’s cool Joe cuz Ima make her pay for her mouth when she gets here. Bring her to me now.”

“Will do sir. We’ll see you in thirty minutes.” Joe said before he hung up the phone. “Get the fuck up cuz I’m not tryna carry your funky ass.”

“Aahhh shit!” I cringed as I got on my hands and knees, trying to push myself up.

“Hurry the fuck up! I ain’t got all day.”

“Maybe if you didn’t beat me I’d move faster.” I felt dizzy so I wasn’t trying to move fast and lose my balance.

“You complaining about a couple punches and a kick just wait until Brian gets on your ass.” I was propped up on my knees when I got the perfect idea.

“Wanna make a deal?”

“Deal? What you think this is?”

“A perfect time for you to get some free head.”


“You make Brian go easy on me and I’ll suck you up.”

“Are you serious?”

“As a heart attack.” Joe stared at me and thought for a couple seconds before he said “Aight, I’m wit it but you gotta give me the top first. I don’t wanna get the boss to let you get off with a slap on the wrist and you don’t hold up your end of the bargain.”

“I understand.” And that is exactly what I wanted him to say.

“Let’s get in the car.”

“Why? We can do it here. No one’s around.”

“Alright then, get to work.” He pulled down his pants and pulled out his four incher. It took everything in me not to laugh. I’ve seen a lot of dicks in my life but I’ve never seen one this small. “Are you gonna suck it or are you gonna stare at it?”

“Oh shit sorry.” I said quickly.

“You good. I know it’s not everyday you see a dick like this.”

“You got that right.” I mumbled before I took a deep breath and took all of him in my mouth.

“Fuck, yeah just like that.” I sucked harder and he grabbed on to the back of my head.

“You like it?” I asked him, looking deep into his eyes.

“Hell fucking yeah.” He closed him eyes and lead his head back.

“You’re gonna like this too.” I said before I bit down on his dick hard. Joe let go of my head and screamed while I got up as fast as I could and took off running. I looked back to see if he was chasing me but he was laying on the ground holding his dick.

“I’m gonna get you bitch!” He yelled and I laughed to myself. One thing being a prostitute has taught me is that niggas always let their guard down when head is involved. I stopped running after a few blocks to catch my breath. I hope Chris is home when I get there.


I just got off the phone with Chris for the third time and I was starting to get annoyed. It was nice to know that he cared about me and was worried about my health but he is doing a little bit too much. To top of my frustrations Mel still isn’t here yet. She told me she would be here soon almost an hour ago. I’m glad I’m not dying cuz I’d be dead by now. I was in the living room eating popcorn and watching a movie when the doorbell rang. Look who finally decided to show up.

“It’s about time you got here-” I started to yell when I opened the door but then I saw that it was Adrienne.

“Adrienne, what are you doing here?”

“I overheard Chris telling Mijo you were sick and I just had to come see you.”

“It’s nice to see you again. Come in.” I moved aside so she can walk in and I took my place back on the couch.

“Are you alright? You feeling okay?” Adrienne asked, putting her hand against my forehead.

“I’m fine.”

“You sure? I can go get you something if you want.”

“I’m goos. I just want to relax.”

“Okay. I got you.” Damn, she was just as bad as Chris. “I can’t believe Chris left you here all alone.”

“I’m grown. I can handle myself.”

“I know but anything could happen to you and he wouldn’t be around to help.” She moved closer to me and I could smell the mint on her breath.

“You’re scaring me now.”

“I’m not trying to scare you. I’m just saying.”

“How are you and Mijo doing?”

“We’re alright I guess. The wedding is in June so we have eight more months to go.”

“I can’t wait. I should have my baby out by then so I can put on my freak em dress.”

“Ooo someone is hype!”

“I know it’s your wedding and all but if I do upstage you I apologize in advance.”

“It’s cool. I’m not gonna hate cuz you look good. You always look good.” Adrienne said before she put her hand on my thigh. I smiled awkwardly and moved her hand off me.

“So…um are you having a bachelorette party?”

“Yeah, it’s gonna be the night before the wedding.”

“What do you have planned?”

“I just want to have something small like a dinner or something but Mijo is so determined to have strippers and I know he’s gonna get one no matter how many times I tell him no so I wanna have a stripper too.”

“Hey, I’m down for that.”

“I could always hire a stripper but I really want someone else to do it.”

“Like who?”

“You.” Her hand was back on my thigh again and my heart started beating fast.

“What are you-” I managed to say before I felt her soft, plump lips on mine.