naturally free

okay, i don’t hate kids. i think they’re sort of funny. i like that you can talk to them like an adult and they’ll make sounds like they understand. i taught one kid “phosphorescence” and he looked at me and said, “they could just call it glowing if it means something that glows.” the kid undid the entire science community in one sentence.

but i hate kids.

or really, i hate how they’ve always been expected from me.

when i was five i was given “babies.” i hated the hardness of dolls, disposed of them for dramatic stories between stuffed animals. i knew how to wrap, feed, and care for a baby before i could spell my last name. when i was nine i was already “watching the kids”. i was only four years older than my cousins were. i wanted to go out and play. instead i was expected to have responsibility. by the time i was thirteen all of my friends had told me about how many children they were going to have in their twenties. 

my hips were “child-bearing” hips. my brother was a scientist, or a fireman, or a steamroller. i was going to make a good housewife, or mom, or nanny, or mom, or mom, or mom.

and when my body hurt, i was told it wasn’t really my body, not really, it belonged to my future children. i couldn’t cut or snip or tie anything; i was trapped by the potential energy that hung above me. a boulder, threatening. i couldn’t get tattoos, because what would i tell my children? i couldn’t kiss a girl, because what would i tell the children? i couldn’t be risky or wild or anything but a lady, because what about the children?

and when i said “i don’t want children” - not biologically, at least, not when cancer and depression and a whole other host of terrible things lives inside me - do you know what they said? “it’ll change, wait and see” “it’s not bad” “you’ll get used to it” “when you meet the right man” “you don’t want to be lonely”.

i don’t hate kids. i’m great with them. 

but then i’m told again that my life will be forfeit to them - something in me snaps angry. “wait until you have kids” “you should travel before you have children” “you’ll be more happy.” 

i hate kids! i’ve snarled. i don’t mean it at all. but god. please, leave me alone. i don’t want to be a biological mom. 

it’s like we’re born with a uterus and told “this is your whole life. your singular purpose. your job.” 

i want to be my own purpose. not here for the sake of passing genes on.

So I’m pretty sure the world is actually turning into an apocalypse movie because we’ve got:

1.) Half of Texas underwater, caused by a hurricane

2.) A good portion of India underwater, caused by another hurricane

3.) A good portion of the Caribbean underwater, caused by yet another hurricane

4.) Two more hurricanes that were created in the wake of the previous hurricane

5.) All of California is on fire

6.) North Korea has bombs

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Local Witchcraft

Every witch has a deep well of local energy to draw from in their craft. So much can be learned from what’s around you; you just need to tap into it.

Originally posted by plantrkool

  • Learn about endangered species. Take steps to protect them.
  • Learn about invasive species. Learn their properties, pull them up, and use them in witchcraft.
  • Study the plants around you.
    • Learn their medicinal properties.
    • Learn their magical properties.
    • Learn their scientific names.
    • Learn which ones are edible and which ones are poisonous.
  • Learn about local animals– which ones are endangered, myths surrounding them, etc.
  • Research the meanings behind names of towns, streets, parks, buildings, etc. There may be interesting bits of history or folklore.
  • Identify major natural forces in your area (eg: storms, the ocean, wildfires)
    • How do they affect you?
    • How can you get in touch with them?
    • How can you harness their power in your magic?
  • Research local folklore.
  • Get involved with conservation programs or environmentalist groups in your area.
  • Observe how the land around you changes with the seasons. What can you see at certain times that you can’t at others? What flowers bloom, what bugs are active?
  • Go out in nature! Familiarize yourself with the wonderful energies that surround you.

See also: 

https://rootandrock.tumblr.com/post/58725340251/books-dont-cover-everything

http://grimnirs-child.tumblr.com/post/164025583442/traditional-witchcraft-in-the-city

http://spiral-path.tumblr.com/post/159040832260/to-be-a-local-witch