Namjoon「you always prioritize others before yourself」
- i dont think it’s wrong to be a giver anonie, but i hope you also take a good care of your well-being🤧💞 please stay safe.
Namjoon really loves your giving rather than receiving traits. He praises you from time to time, but he knows you’re doing all of those not because of his praises. It is just because you wanted to. Recently, however, he stops. He is more worried than happy when you tell him that you’re covering for yet another friend of yours this weekend.
Being an intern as a medicine student is already tough. Covering for your friend who’s also an intern means double the tasks. It means less sleep, less resting, less opportunity to take care of yourself. Namjoon has opposed your idea since the first time you tell him that you’ll be on shift for your friend. But he also knew, nothing will stop you from helping them.
“I thought you help him last week and two weeks before this?” he asked you on the other side of the phone, his voice clearly showed he’s worried.
“I got a call from him. He said he still couldn’t make it this Saturday and Sunday,” you knew Namjoon is going to be mad at you and indeed he has a point to. But you just couldn’t decline you friend’s request.
“You said you might have time for a date this weekend, Y/N.”
“I’m so sorry, love. I really wanted to, but I can’t. I promised I’ll make next week’s schedule empty.”
“I’m leaving for US next week, Y/N.” You were beyond shocked when you remember that Namjoon and the boys are going to leave for a world tour soon.
“I’m- Namjoon, I’ll talk to-“
“It’s okay, Y/N. I’ll see you at home tonight, okay?” You didn’t even have the chance to answer him as he ended the call abruptly.
You really ended up doing the work for your friend, with your mind clouded by the conversation on the phone earlier. Fortunately, you got to leave earlier that night. You took the bus back to your place. It was almost 2 when you arrived.
The apartment was dark and quiet. Namjoon had probably fallen asleep. RM came barking at you and you pet him before heading to the kitchen to cook your dinner. Instant noodle. It was your first decent meal. You checked your phone and Namjoon left several messages while you’re working. You smile to all of them while reading it, feeling guilty at the same time.
You locked your phone, focusing solely on eating your food so you can wash up and get some sleep. While you are washing the dishes, you heard another barking from RM and a pair of strong arms are now hugging you around your waist.
“I thought you went to bed.”
“I do. RM is too excited because you’re back and his barking’s real loud.” Your lips formed a tired smile.
“So, a grandma told me I’m beautiful today.”
“So, she’s flirting with my girl?”
“Stop that, Namjoon,” he never failed to make you smile, and it only makes your feel even guiltier. You turn off the tap after cleaning all the dishes, but he still didn’t let go of you.
“I’m sorry,” you said.
“There’s nothing to be sorry about. You’re just working.”
“But I promised you for a day out today and I just couldn’t fulfill a promise as simple as that.”
“We still have time.”
“But you are leaving next week and I won’t have that much time during weekdays.”
“Then we can do it after the tour, right?” Namjoon turned your body around. You could see him dimple and his soft smile.
“I am not mad at you, Y/n, you know, right?” You nodded. “I’m worried about you.”
“I’ll leave for tour next week, assuming that you might be covering for another person again. I let you, in the first place, because I was here. And if anything happen, I could take care of you.”
“But I won’t be here for quite a long time after next week.” You couldn’t say anything, simple because he was right.
“I love how loving and giving you are, Y/n, but, you are worrying me at the same time. Could you please, take care of yourself first before other?” You still couldn’t say anything. You are just not sure on what to answer him.
“We can do it slowly, you and I. It doesn’t mean you couldn’t help people anyore. It just simply means you are taking care of yourself first before other.”
“Could you do that, for me? No, for you?” You looked into his eyes. Unlike you, he was caring in his own way. You took a deep breath before nodding to his question. Namjoon brought you in for a hug, a hug long enough to cure all of your tiredness.
“I’ll try,” you mumble against his chest. You could feel him giving you a nod before he added to your sentence. “We will try.”