nails by bowful

i’m in my prime,
not withering and old.
but i refuse to play
your wicked games any longer.

i know this tether is unbreakable,
but you make me feel like i’m interchangeable.
you drew a target on my heart,
when did this become fatal attraction?

i don’t have the strength,
the energy,
nor the patience
to be held hostage by your love.

so baby please don’t despair
when i say that
i’ve found the courage to
let you go.

you were never meant to be tied down in the first place.

—  believing i could love you was my mistake, c.j.n.
Happy headcanons!

Just a few. No angst here 😊😊


* Robert always gives Aaron a kiss goodnight. This has however led to many an accidental kiss on the nose (or the eye on one occasion) or trying to reach out and find the other man’s lips but actually jabbing them in the face. The room is surprisingly dark once the lamp is off…

* Aaron makes a cuppa for Robert on a Sunday morning and takes it up to bed. Sunday is the one day that their alarm doesn’t need to be on and Robert takes full advantage of it. Aaron makes him a cup, climbs back into bed and wakes him up with kisses. They then spend the morning in bed and have to wind up remaking the tea anyway.

* Rock Paper Scissors is a regular occurrence in their house, the boys started it, then Liv joined in. Now it’s how nearly all decisions are made in the Dingle/Sugden/Flaherty household.

* Sometimes Robert is stopped in his tracks by how much he loves Aaron. When he sees him in their kitchen, stood by the counter making a cuppa or reading the paper as he eats, even unloading the dishwasher, he just stares at him and has to walk over and kiss him, just to make sure he’s real. That he’s his.

* Aaron’s guilty pleasure is twiglets. He can eat an entire family size bag in one go. It’s…haunting to watch. Robert doesn’t like them. He made the mistake of telling Aaron that because now Aaron will eat them then try and kiss him. Robert hates him when he does that.

* Robert has playlists on his iPod for Aaron and Liv. So whoever is in his car, they have music to listen to.

* Liv is a Green Day fan- as is Robert, they have been known to rock out.

* Robert babysits Jack and Sarah at least once a fortnight. He wants to be a presence in their life now that Andy is gone. One time Aaron took Jack to the shops to get some food and when he came back; Sarah had painted Robert’s nails and put bows in his hair. Aaron still has the photo on his phone.

* Robert can draw. Really well. He’s been known to doodle random things, he supports Liv’s love of art, buying her art things for her birthday and Christmas. It’s a little bond they have.

* Aaron likes to lie between Robert’s legs in bed; his back to Robert’s chest and the man’s legs around him. Robert made a comment once that it reminds him of an otter…then made a comment about how Aaron was his favourite rock. Aaron couldn’t help but roll his eyes but he did secretly like it.

* Liv set a rule that no sex was allowed in the house, anywhere that she might eat, sit or do anything else. She’s accepted it happens in the shower but they’re not allowed to talk about it.

* Robert cried at The Walking Dead. Aaron would’ve laughed at him but he was caught crying at a football game once so he keeps it quiet.

* For Halloween, Robert dressed up as a walker and Aaron dressed up as Negan. It was a surreal scene to walk in on when they snuck to the pub bathroom and had sex.

* Aaron decided that they need to work on the garden, to have something they can spend time in. If they thought that Liv was a moody teenager- they had no idea how bad Robert was when he was forced to a garden centre.

* Aaron and Robert still make sure they have one night just for them, empty house, at least once a month. They love their little family and their life, but we all need alone time.