Have you guys ever seen that post about how the way parents talk to their children becomes their inner voice?
That means that sometimes Zen looks at the mirror and all he remembers are his mom’s harsh words telling him he’s ugly, scolding him for not being as obedient as his brother.
That means that sometimes before he sends a picture of himself into the chat he probably hesitates, because he’s not sure if he really does look good in it. His narcissism is all just a façade to hide the fact that he’s actually so insecure inside.
That means that when you start living with him there will probably be days when he just feels absolutely disgusting, and all he does is avoid mirrors, work out almost to the point of overexertion, and you have to stop him and just assure him that he is alright the way he is.
You’ll start to wonder if the reason why he heals so quickly is because his body’s so used to it.
You’ll start to wonder what it was like before you came along. On good days he would be sweet and loving, but on the bad days he wouldn’t even want to look at you because he doesn’t feel like he deserves to. Because he’s ugly. Because you deserve better.
You’re there with him through thick and thin because you love him, and each day you just have to remind him that you love him and that both of you deserve each other.
One day he’ll learn to love himself, you tell yourself. And so you stay, because in the first place, you have no reason to leave. You’ve got a perfect man. His insecurities don’t change that. He just has to see himself as how you see him.
Just a mini-fic before I go to bed!
I’d like to dedicate this to @zens-ponytail because she inspired me with her previous post here.
If this post actually blows up I’ll do one for the rest of the RFA members + V + Saeran since this was actually really fun to make.
This is kinda random but this idea has been stuck in my head: what if mc just liked to go out and sit on the roof at night to look at the stars and one night their s/o catches them (I'd imagine Jumin would flip his Shit tbh)
need some cute ass fluff in my life so im doing this sorry
when he first finds MC, he doesnt say anything
he just stares at them, smiling
god, i am so lucky
how can just the mere sight of someone make me so, so happy?
i swear to god, i’ll never get tired of this view…
“hey there, cutie. you looked cold”
Yoosung sits down beside MC, wrapping his arms around them along with a blanket
they’re both inside the blanket together, snuggling on the roof while MC stares up at the stars and Yoosung looks mostly at them
he rests his head on MC’s shoulders and closes his eyes, soaking up the moment with them
“Yoosung? you’re not gonna fall asleep, are you?”
as Yoosung answers he wraps both arms around MC, smiling and breathing in the night air deeply
“so what if i do? even sleeping on the roof is warm with you~”
MC giggles a little and pulls the blanket over him more, resting their head on his
he sees MC and instantly has to join them
“hey baby, whatchya doin?”
he would catch them by surprise and talk in a cute voice
“oh, Zen! i was just looking up at the stars…”
“do you care if i join you?”
MC scoots over and pats the space next to them
“of course not!”
so Zen climbs out to the roof and sits next to MC, putting an arm around them and rubbing their arm in an attempt to warm em up
him and MC look up at the sky together in silence for some time before Zen decides to turn his attention to MC
after a few seconds of staring, they turn to look at Zen, too
“what is it?”
Zen looks into their eyes for a second of two, smiling, and leans forward to kiss them
MC can feel the smile in his kiss, and shudders a little when his hand touches their face
“nothing, i just wanted to do that” Zen says almost mater-of-factly through his smile, then turns back to the night sky
MC gets all flustered even though kissing Zen is something they do all the time, and he pulls them closer, running his fingers through their hair
as soon as she sees MC, she runs into her room to grab a jacket
“MC, what are you doing on the roof? do you need a jacket?”
Jaehee awkwardly climbs on the roof and drapes the jacket over their shoulders
“i was just looking at the stars, Jaehee! sorry if i worried you…”
“im just worried about you getting sick”
“i know, i know…”
they sit in silence for a few moments before Jaehee speaks up again
“you know, they way you look at the night sky is quite endearing”
MC feels warm suddenly
Jaehee scoots closer to MC, wrapping an arm around them
she quickly pecks their cheek before looking up at the stars again
oh my god, what is MC doing out there?!
they’re going to catch a cold like that!
“darling? why are you on the roof at this time of night? and in your pajamas?”
when MC turns their face is red, and they nervously pushing some loose hairs behind their ear
“oh, J-Jumin! i was just looking up at the starts…they’re so pretty tonight”
Jumin’s heart softens with MC’s words, and his concerned look instantly melts into a smile
“well if they’re as pretty as you say, i’d like to see them myself”
this is where Jumin Han, still wearing his suit, awkwardly climbs onto the roof through the window
MC giggles as they watch him
“okay, im here”
Jumin tries to fix his hair, smirking at MC in response to their joke
he takes off his suit jacket and drapes it over MC’s shoulders
he sits next to MC, hugging his knees as they stare up at the night sky
as much as he wants to join them, he just cant take his eyes off of MC for even a second
“Jumin! you arent even looking up!”
he hadnt even realized he was staring
he reaches out, pulling MC close to him and wrapping an arm around their shoulder
“i guess i just love the way the stars look reflected in your eyes”
as Jumin pulls MC in, he places a soft, warm kiss on their cheek, then nestles his head into their neck
the sensation tickles MC a bit, but they just kiss his head and continue to look up at the stars
“come here often?”
when MC turns toward the window they see Seven leaning out of it, his arm resting on the window sill
“only when there arent any clouds”
Seven climbs onto the roof as if he’s done it a million times
“i like to come out here too, but mostly just to get away from you”
MC smiles and playfully pushes on Seven’s arm
Seven responds by wrapping both arms around MC and pulling them in between his legs
he unzippes his jacket, then zips it back up around the both of them, hugging MC from behind inside the big hoodie
“what the heck are you doing?”
“you looked cold! what else was i supposed to do?”
Seven rests his chin on MC’s shoulder, looking up with them
he points out stars, planets, and constellations
he even has this cute trick where he knows where all the letters of the alphabet are in the sky, so he can spell MC’s name in the stars
after taking about stars and space and aliens for awhile, Seven decides to end the conversation by littering MC’s cheek, neck, and shoulder with little kisses
“love you so, so much. you know that, right?”
MC awkwardly cranes their neck so they can look at Seven
“i love you too, more than anything”
Seven places a small, uncomfortable kiss on MC’s lips before they turn around again, and he wraps his arms around them even tighter and pulls then closer as he returns to resting his chin on their shoulder
can u tell how much a crave physical affection? lol
You feel Zen’s fingers just freeze around your arm
Did those words really come out of your sweet little mouth?
Starts to wonder how else your mouth can amaze him *wink wonk*
jfc this kinky piece of shit is too much for me
Basically after that incident, you don’t hold back anymore
Although Zen doesn’t get used to it for a while after-all your words and appearance are so completely different, he secretly loves it when you swear
Especially when you mention body parts
Specifically when you mention his body parts
He thinks he could handle any other surprise you throw at him
You prove him wrong during an RFA get-together one day, where you all go to visit Jaehee’s cafe together since she just began to sell new things I like to believe they have their happy endings no matter what route you choose see sometimes I can be optimistic
You buy one of the fresh baguettes, eye it for a moment, then your tongue darts out and-
“Babe, just what are you doing?” you hear Zen’s concerned voice
Everyone is looking at you
Meekly, you reply “I lik the bred.”
Seven doubles up in laughter, since he’s basically the only one who gets it this nerd
Zen thinks you’re ill
You have to explain to him that it’s from a meme, and horror dawns on his face
“I’m dating a female version of Seven.”
But it’s fine, he loves you anyways, and insists you teach him about the world of memes so he can try to understand your references
Though it’s like teaching the average mom how to use a computer
No matter how many times you explain, he just doesn’t get it
Ok first off lemme just say rip Baehee
When she sees you for the first time, she is glad to see how sweet you look; your tender smile and innocent eyes wash away her stress and fatigue
That is, until you promptly grab her hand and say, “Damn, I’ve really hooked myself one bitchin’ fine-ass lady.”
Excuse me w h a t???????
Jaehee is physically unable to process what you just said
MC is that really you?!?!?!
“Jumin can really be a such dickhead sometimes. I’ve always wanted to say that to you,” you continue, scratching your head.
good job MC you just done gone and b r o k e the bae
How can someone so innocent-looking have such a foul vocabulary?
She thought the swearing was shocking enough
But boy was she not prepared for the memes
As soon as you two spot Seven, you just proceed to dab the fuck out and narrowly miss hitting Jaehee square in the face with your hand
oh no, she thinks
Seven reaches into his pocket and pulls out a few HB chips
seems like Dat Boi stashed a bag in big suit
“Bröther may i have some öats?” you say
on nO, she thinks again
bröther, I’ve already begun eating the
“I have very few
öats bröther, I must procure yours.”
Oh NO JUST WHAT DID I SIGN UP FOR??
Jaehee promptly collapses from the shock and let’s just say that it takes a while for her to recover
She has you limit your swearing to when you’re alone together, if at all possible
But she cannot hold back your occasional meme streams while working at the coffee shop
When Jumin first hears you swearing, a puzzled look flashes across his face, but there’s no grand reaction
He just accepts it as part of who you are, and thinks it’s an interesting part of ‘commoner language’
There’s a business meeting with some dudes whom you despise, mostly because of their lewd comments directed towards you, which Jumin merely brushes away
You walk up to your babe during a break
“That guy is an absolute fucking asshole, it’s a pity that you have to do business with such an obnoxious smelly ballsack.”
“Um princess he’s still here.”
said obnoxious smelly ballsack is fuming, starts cussing right back at you
You summon up all your hate for him and hiss “Cash me outside, howbow dah?”
Everyone in the room: ?????????
“MC what language was that just now?”
“The language of memes.”
*asks Seven what this language is*
“Can you please teach me how to speak it?”
Jumin’s very first meme, hear me out, is not about his gayness
It’s the heavy breathing cat
and oh my god does he spam it
So much that Zen just basically stops taking part in any chat that involves Jumin
The Memeing Ways Part 2: How to Keep a Meme Relevant by Saeyoung Choi
and actually, surprisingly enough, Jumin also becomes a memer
also becomes a meme himself
Apart from the mutual memeing in the chats, Seven considered you to be more of a demure, down-to-fuck earth kind of girl, and this idea was only strengthened when he saw your sweet looking face
As soon as you spot the tomato in the crowd at the RFA party, you dart over to his side and say
“Well just fucking bend me over sideways and fuck me twice there are so many people?!”
Seven blinks at you
A slow grin spreads across his face as he realizes o hhe’s been deceived
*pretends to be shot in the chest*
“Hmmmmmm watcha saayyy,” you sing, slowly backing away
Seven is gonna die he loves you so much???? like what she’s also into memes????
Adores your cussing, and y’all nerds start to make up your own insults, even if they really don’t make any sense to other people
His personal favorites are “white crayola” and “factory edition Vanderwood″
You guys order your very own none pizza with left beef, but it tastes to bad
What if there was an AU where MC was actually a native English speaker who had moved to Korea from England, but knew very little Korean? (She can communicate with via the app due to the built-in live translation software that Seven installed). But how do MC and the RFA deal with the situation individually? (thank you~!!)
it’s always hard to learn a new language, but it’s also very funny to watch xD
I’m trying to learn korean too btw so if there’s any mistake please correct me x’)
- “jagiya, neo neomu gwiyeoptta”
- sometimes Zen uses phrases like that and you have no idea what he’s talking about
- sure he’s helping you in your Korean language but he will never translate that phrase for you
- so you decide to use the app in secret and you’re so embarrassed
- it means “babe, you’re so cute”
- oh wow the Korean language suddenly becomes 100x more interesting to learn
- he’s the best in English and he has no problem becoming your Korean teacher (that means you don’t have to use Seven’s app because Jumin’s all you need)
- he’s so good at it and you can’t help but marvel at how fast you’re picking up things
- but you’re still weak in learning the difference between formal and informal
- so when you thank him, you said “gomawo seon saeng nim”
- “it’s gomawoyo seon saeng nim”
- he’s strict but that’s what makes the learning process better
- he picks up English in university so he knows how to converse with you in English
- but sometimes he just wants to speak to you in full korean because he’s much more comfortable in Korean than English
- so when you want to say anything in Korean, you use Seven’s app
- it’s very accurate and you two speak so animatedly in English and Korean respectively
- it’s funny for others to watch but it does the job
- she needs to know English to become Jumin’s assistant so she’s able to talk to you in English
- but sometimes there’s just certain things that you want to say and you can’t express yourself properly so you decide to use the app
- turns out the app has more “features” which “enhances” what you say and the built-in voice is Seven doing a “cute” voice
- Jaehee immediately hates it
- well, the app doesn’t matter Jaehee can teach you much more better
- doesn’t let you use his app whenever you’re around him
- because why use an app when you have the real deal!
- he does the live translations using a funny voice to translate both Korean and English and you can’t help but laugh
- the other RFA members mock Seven
- is he even teaching you Korean or just having too much fun
- but whatever it is, learning a new language with Seven is definitely the best
can i request rfa helping MC out of a really tight dress but then transitions into xtra spicy jalapeño rough sex? ;o; omg i feel kinda shy requesting nsfw -runs away into the abyss- PleAse dOnt FinD mY tUmblR mOm
GUESS WHO IS BACK AND BETTER THAN EVER ;D someone out there but not me I’m trying to get back into the groove of things lmao :,) sorry y'all I’m a bit rusty 😩
He notice you were taking a long time in the bathroom but he was hesitant of checking up on you because he wanted to start learning to give you space. He finished taking of his suit and he was laughing to himself because you always made fun of him for taking forever to dress. He was getting ready for bed and he just left himself with his briefs on waiting to cuddle with you :3
“NNnuuuUUGHH JUMIN HELP ME I CAN’T BREATHE” holy mother of god.. He was scared because he thought you were dying D: he didn’t even open the door he just kicked it down worried what was happening to you. When he saw you in the middle of the bathroom hallway *best believe this man bathroom is like a fucking house* he just chuckled because the zipper was out of your reach. He enjoyed seeing your struggle but you gave him those adorable puppy dog eyes with your beautiful (e/c) that he finally made his way towards you. He gripped your shoulder firmly giving you a sense of security that he was going to help you in this predicament
You moved your hair out of the way and he gently tugged the zipper making it glide towards the floor… he notice you didn’t wear any underwear. He was feeling the blood quickly go towards his cock making it want to plunge himself inside of you. “Babe.. um.. Why.. aren’t you wearing underwear?” You had a tint of pink forming across your cheeks nervous of the truth you were going to tell him “ I was um uh hoping we could fuck at the grand opening party but… i notice you weren’t in the mood so.. Yeah” You closed your eyes afraid of his answer but you felt his fingertips slowly tracing your spine… making his way to your ass giving them a good squeeze. You felt his body heat spreading around you. You leaned back onto his chest and he leaned towards your ear “ My dirty dirty girl–slaps your ass– Im going to make it up to you. Bend over over” It was your instinct to follow his commands because god you love it. He got his cock and smacked it on your ass and you already felt your clit become sensitive. Shit this man had too much power over you. He was teasing your pussy by rubbing his cock against your folds and you decide to wiggle your body trying to get my friction “Fuck baby, my princess is needy” He slammed himself in you giving you deep and fast strokes. You kept yelling harder and harder till he picked you upped and took you to the shower. He turned on the shower head and placed it on your clit and continued fucking you. You were fucking gone. You were dead, done, bye, anti bonjour
Yall fucked for a good hour and yall knocked out on the bathroom floor.
Zen: *shout out to pandora for playing grind on me c:*
You saw this to die for dress but it only had a size *one size smaller than your normal size* and you were like fuck it i’ll just suck in. You bought the dress and forced your way into it because you wanted to look good as Zen’s girlfriend. It was a bit of pressure always having paparazzi, and crazy fans but you didn’t care you loved him but there was always this voice in your head that you must look beyond presentable at all times.
You legit slowly waddle your way to the theater sit waiting for one of his musicals to start. You decided not to sit in the front because you didn’t want to ruin the dress because you felt like your body was going to burst out of it any minute and just imagine the zipper hitting zen and ugh.. Just no.. When the musical was over you notice Zen kept looking at crowd for you and you decide to go backstage quickly to his dressing room waiting for him. The short walk was hell you felt like you were gonna die. He notice you seemed stiff??? So he ran to you and picked you up and kissed you “My queen how did i do my darling! And why didn’t i see you in the spot i always reserved for you?” you just kissed him deeply to shut him up. He finally took you to the dressing room and he was trying to unzip your dress but he couldn’t find the zipper. He put you down and you knew the fucking zipper just exploded somewhere and now you are stuck and you were gonna cry till this fucking sex god ripped your dress and your panties, unhooked your bra, pinned you against the wall, spread your legs and put one finger inside your pussy. “Baby look at me please–fingers faster– I love your shape and I’m in love with you now promise me you wouldn’t hurt your body but sucking yourself into that dress baby because 1) i care for you and 2) *brings your body closer to him and picks on your legs up to give better access* your ass looked so perfect baby that so many men were looking at you and i don’t like that baby want to know why?” You were in fucking heaven. His bulge was grinding against you and you were thrusting yourself on it giving yourself more pleasure “because you are fucking mine and right now i’m a bit thirsty” He picked you up even further and your back was against the wall and your legs were on his shoulders and he was licking your pussy as if it was an oasis. You had nowhere to hold onto but the fucking air so you just grabbed his hair and made his tongue go deeper into you.
“ (y/n) do you need help with that my life?” Jaehee slowly made her way towards you and brushed your hair out of the way lovingly. You always loved how Jaehee always had so much passion with everything she does. From the way she walks to the way she sleeps. When she sleeps, she has this scrunched look in her eyes as if she was doing reports in her dreams. You just wished… she was a bit more rough when it comes to you to being intimate. You were lost in your thoughts when you realized you were already naked in front of Jaehee and well she has always seen you naked but this time she was more in awe. You looked like a complete goddess to her and she had to show the world that you were hers. She grabbed your hand and led you to the bed. She kissed your forehead and you grabbed her hair and guided her face towards your lips. The kiss was full of hunger and Jaehee was already feeling her sex become wet. She wasn’t use to the roughness of the kiss but she wanted to give you what you craved. She grabbed your tit and massaged it gently and gently brought her mouth closer to ear and bite it gently. Your senses were going crazy because holy fuck she is doing it and well you couldn’t take the agonizing pain anymore.
You lowered yourself on the bed and you saw the expression on her face changed dramatically.
She was trying to figure out what you were planning to do and you just guided her hips upwards and you kept going lower. You saw your love turn redder than a tomato and she was realizing you were insisting on her riding your face. 2 mins later she came lmao
This poor bean was grateful you went to an event his coffee club was holding. It was rather an important event because some near by coffee shops were considering sponsoring the club so they can go on a trip to italy to learn more about the coffee culture over there. You knew he was going to be nervous, so you went with him c:
The event was suppose to last 3 hours but since many sponsors came it lasted about 6 hours and you guys were exhausted. He really felt bad because he knew you were tired but you were pulling through for him. When it was finally over, he told you to go back home but you refused, instead you helped him clean up the mess and he just wanted to show you love D: when you two got home, you went to the bed and you were too tired to move. Yoosung took of your heels and massaged your feet in silence. He thought you were asleep but you were just enjoying the damn massage. You stood up a bit so yoosung can take of your dress, which he did…. With many conflicting thoughts.. He then offered you a back massage and when he went to go get the lotion you were already but naked waiting for him. He just chuckled and gently massaged your back. Your pleasured moans that were being caused by his hands made him have a little problem. He was getting turned on knowing you were feeling good because of him.
Yoosung started to work on your lower back and your moans were getting louder. You were wondering why he doesn’t become a massage therapist but then you wanted his hands to yourself. You were trying to see how far yoosung can handle so you kept telling him to go lower and lower till he reached your ass. He even massaged your ass and you were hoping for a happy ending till you felt his slender fingers playing with your clit. You were breathing heavily until he stuck a finger inside your pussy and you gave a small sudden shriek. He just smirked and added another finger. He released his fingers from within you and motioned you to lay on your back. While you were positioning yourself, you felt his thumbs put a bit a pressure on your hips and suddenly you were jerked towards him and while you were recollecting your thoughts, you felt his teeth gently pull your pussy lip. You saw lust in his eyes and your juice was running down his lips gently, “let me take care of you and only you tonight (y/n), because you been a good girl for daddy”
You. Were. Fucking. Shook.
you dragged him shopping with you and he usually loved it because he can find outfits to dress in but this time you only stayed at one store ._. And the store only had your size and not his but he was trying to make the best of it :D So he helped you pick out dresses to wear and he was happy seeing your eyes light up
You were took about 8 mins trying on each dress but you were taking a bit longer and he got worried and he snucked in the dressing room whispering your name in a high pitch voice till he heard you say here. You unlocked the door and he noticed you were struggling to take off the tight red dressed he love on you. He went in and locked the door behind him and unzipped you. He notice the marks from the last good fucking yall had disappearing. Unconsciously, he was tracing the bite marks and hickeys with his fingertips reminiscing about you two fucking like animals. You were staring at his face from the mirror and you were getting the same flashbacks “ fuck me saeyoung” he turned you around and kissed you deeply. Your tongues were dancing in perfect rythm while your hands unbuckled his belt and pants. You needed him in you. Not some lovey dovey type of shit. You needed that hard core sex, the type of fuck that makes you feel like you two are animals. He gently pushed himself in you and he let out a small roar.
You thanked god for birth control while he was biting your shoulders and sucking your neck. He was hitting the good spot and you two forgot you were in public till you heard secuirty coming in. LMAO
ohhh, look a headcanon/scenario post! :D this was a whole lot longer than i originally planned, but oh well!! i played around with each of their stories, so i hope you don’t mind <3 <b>you can find JAEHEE, JUMIN and 707′s under the cut! if you have any requests, feel free to shoot them my way. anyway, i hope you enjoy!
RFA + THE MOMENT THEY REALIZE THEY’RE IN LOVE
Yoosung thinks he’s sick.
His heart starts palpitating, his palms
grow sweaty and he’s so out-of-focus that he’s losing his streak on the LOLOL
leadership boards. He downs a cup of coffee, glaring at his bedroom clock,
which stared back with a 22:12pm in bright blue lights. It’s way too early to
be feeling tired, he thinks.
He sighs, exiting the server and
letting the game’s background music blast through his computer’s speakers. He
places a hand to his neck, feeling for a warm temperature, only to end up
confused as he realizes he’s not even remotely feverish. Worriedly, he calls
her up, sure that she would know what’s up with him.
“Hey [Name],” he says, going back to
his desk to take another swig of coffee. He joins another server, hoping LOLOL
would help calm his nerves. Why was he always so nervous when he was talking
with her? He prattles on about his supposed “symptoms” as he patiently waits to
be connected to the server.
“Sounds like you’re in love,” she
suddenly blurts out. He almost sprays his coffee all over his computer at those
words. He can tell she’s joking. She was joking, right? Right? He tries
to come up with a reply, but all that comes out of him is a strangled sound. He
hears her laughing from the other end. “Ohhh, bulls-eye! Who’s the lucky
person? Is it me you’ve fallen for?”
Yoosung’s eyes widen at this, and his
heart feels like it’s about to burst out of his chest and start tap-dancing on
his desk. He’s stunned to a silence; his mind is racing, wondering whether or
not to confirm her statement. Well, that would certainly explain why he always
felt so worked up around her. Before he could even answer her question, he
hears her awkward laughter on the other end of the phone.
“Hey, I was kidding! Playing some LOLOL
might calm your nerves, but I suggest not staying up too late. It might
actually be a fever, after all.” Yoosung manages to quickly blurt out an
apology as well as a thank you, before wishing her a good night and ending the
call without waiting for her reply. He leans back on his chair, staring at the
cream-colored ceiling above him.
It’s when he places both of his hands on
his chest and feels the rhythmic thumping of his heart. It’s when he tries to
steady his breathing, and when he finally does, he remembers what she said and
wheezes. It’s when he realizes that he knows the answer to her earlier
question, but he was too shy, too scared to actually answer her. It’s when he
makes a promise to tell her, face-to-face and unabashedly, one day. Yoosung’s
eyes linger to his desk clock.
It’s at 22:17pm on a LOLOL-filled
Tuesday night that he realizes that he’s completely, head-over-heels in love with her.
Zen can’t sleep.
He’s lying in bed, positively tired
after a day’s work. He knew he did well earlier, yes, but his own
self-reassuring thoughts did very little for his nerves. Ever since the whole
hacking situation, he’s been on edge during his performances; he can’t help but
be upset at himself for not giving his all for his audiences.
Despite being an “egotistical prick”,
as Jumin calls it, he was often hit by waves of doubt during these late
sleepless nights. His self-reassuring thoughts began to shift into ones of
doubt, pushing him to twist and turn in his suddenly uncomfortable bed.
Was he a genuinely good actor? Did
people watch his musicals for his talents or for his looks? Would he ever be
more than just a handsome face up on the stage? He was jolted back to reality
by the sudden ringing of his cellphone. He begrudgingly reached out to view the
caller ID: [Name].
Without a second thought, he
immediately answers the call. Her cheerful voice was tinged with a hint of her
own weariness. He feels his heart begin to swell, savoring the way her voice
says his name. “Can’t sleep either?” he says, genuinely happy to find her
calling him out of all the other RFA members.
“Yeah,” he hears her say. “I was hoping
you were awake. I’m glad I was actually right.” His chest tightens at this, and
he can’t help but smile at the thought of her thinking about him at such an
hour. He finds a sort of solace in her, thankful for her constant presence
amidst all the happenings in his life.
The two converse, and he finds the
weight on his shoulders gradually become lighter. His heart is both calm and
erratic, and he finds himself laughing together with her, despite being miles
apart. When he hears her congratulate him for the show he put on, for being
such an amazing actor on-stage, for doing so well, even if he may not believe
so, he almost starts crying.
“You’re doing so well, Zen. I’m sure
all your fans can agree that you’re doing so much more. I mean that, truly. If
you ever need anyone to talk to, I’m here. So is Jaehee and the rest of the
RFA,” she says from the other end of the line, and he allows himself to think
that she means it. No, he knows she means it; it’s in the way that she speaks
to him that he knows she’s saying nothing but the truth.
It’s when she says her good night that
he catches himself almost saying it. He purses his lips, blundering out a good
night of his own before slamming the END CALL button. It’s when his eyes shoot
wide open, and he feels a ditzy smile gracing his lips. It’s when his
self-doubting thoughts are replaced by thoughts of her. He brings his pale
hands to his hair, and he can’t help but marvel at how much she affects him.
It’s when he catches himself thinking
about her in wonder does he realize that he’s crazy about her.