About 42 weeks ago, I totally flipped my lifestyle around. So far I’ve lost 60 pounds, dropped 5 pant sizes and 3 shirt sizes, but I’ve gained mental strength, self acceptance and self love.
People constantly ask me how I’ve stayed motivated and what I do to maintain my weight. I workout and I lift daily, I eat healthy and follow as close to a paleo diet as possible, but I cheat all the time! The difference is that I have learned about myself and my body in this process that I’ve figured out what works for me and my body type. I have become so in tune with myself not only physically but mentally that I’m more aware of what’s around me and what this beautiful Earth has to offer. Being mindful of who and what benefit me has really played a huge role in my life, and I no longer accept people who do not accept me. And that is enough motivation for me-to constantly be in the moment and experiencing life, and not only experiencing it but enjoying it. To not be so worried about unnecessary things. Before all of this, I was so caught up in wanting to look like someone else or be someone else. But now, I just want to be me and I want to push me to my fullest extent and be the best ME I can be, for you only have yourself in this short life.

I now want to get up every morning and be active and be apart of this world. I want to not only help myself but help anyone who needs it. I will not stand in the superficial stereotypes of who or what I need/should be. I do not rely on others for happiness, I rely on myself to make me laugh or if I’m in the gutter and I need to get out. I try hard at everything I do because I want to better myself in any aspect possible, because why wouldn’t I? I have one life to live, and now I have the will and energy to do anything I want to do.
I am not the person I was 42 weeks ago, but instead I am a strong, intuitive and adventurous person, and much much more. I never knew what it was like to look in the mirror and accept the reflection until now. This has opened my eyes to a whole new world. I am far from where I want to be and the things I will experience, but I am a thousand steps closer than I ever was. #myfitnessjourney #weightloss

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Every once in a while I like to take a moment to reflect on how far my fitness journey has come and conjure up where this new healthy body will continue to take me. It is a process I never want to end. I want to continually challenge myself to climb greater heights. The girl on the left was sad, depressed, lonely, confused. She knew not what direction to run in, but one day decided to just run. It’s not the destination that shapes your life but how many hurdles you’ve leapt and stones you’ve tripped over. I still don’t know where this journey will end, but I’m sure enjoying the ride. And now I’m sharing this incredible power with the world as a personal trainer, and I cannot wait to spread it far and wide. #grateful #blessed #myfitnessjourney #workinprogress #fitbride #personaltrainer #personaltrainerlife #fitlife #healthy #fulfilled #mylife #success #weightloss #weightlossjourney #beforeandafter

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I decided to take a progress photo. On the left is me at 331lbs (the day my family started our challenge), and the right is me at 289.6 (today, 3 months later)!

I have reached my first goal of a 40lb loss! My second goal is another 40lbs, bringing me down to an 80lb loss.

My ultimate goal weight is 165. So, at this moment, I am ¼th of the way there 🙂!

Early progress pic! The left was 21 days ago… change happens fast after you get over that initial bump! As hard as it was to take that first picture i am so glad i did because now i can see my progress! Still got a long way to go! :D feeling good! #fitfam #fitspo #motivation #healthyhappyheidy #progress #myfitnessjourney #focus

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Sorry fitfam 😞, I’ve been so AWOL. I left my old job, took a week of funemployment & started a new job. But guess what? My new job has onsite gyms!! Many sweaty work workout selfies coming your way 😉
#selfie #swelfie #myfitnessjourney #fitfam #fitness #fitnessmotivation #fitspiration #fitspo #weightloss #weightlossjourney #weightlosssupport #weightlossmotivation

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Maybe someday I’ll actually workout outdoors without a shirt. I’m confident, but I’m not sure I’m that confident just yet. // Not only was today a gorgeous day, it was also super freaking hot. If you’re working outside at all, remember to stay hydrated! Heatstroke is no joke! ☀️💦#ftm #transguy #trans #ftmfitness #outside #calisthenics #pullups #bodybuilding #progress #trainhard #springtime #myfitnessjourney #fitness

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Trying something new: veggie crisps…sweet potatoes, carrots, squash, tora, and green beans. 

So far, I’ve only had one and it didn’t taste bad. It was actually pretty sweet. I planned on having these as snacks, but with sticking to my eating schedule (8 am, 10 am, 12 pm, 3 pm, 5 pm, 8 pm) I feel like I’ve been eating all day and I’m just really not here for it…not today anyway. 

Prep time: 3 mins
Cook time: 15 mins
Total time: 18 mins
Serves: 8 small sandwich rounds (2-4 servings)

Paleo Sandwich Rounds require only about three minutes of prep time and compliment any sandwich filling. These also make fantastic paleo hamburger buns.


¼ cup coconut flour
2 smallish-medium-sized carrots,
¼ cup milk of choice or water
2 eggs
Salt and pepper, to taste


Preheat the oven to 400 degrees and line a baking sheet with parchment paper or a Silpat mat.

Put the carrots and coconut in your food processor and blend for about 30-60 seconds, until the mixture looks like orange crumbs. Add everything else into the food processor and blend until smooth, about another minute.

Divide into 8 parts and form into rounds on the baking sheet. If necessary, slightly dampen your hands to flatten the rounds and prevent the dough from sticking to your hands.

The rounds should be a bit thicker than ¼ inch - not too thin, or they won’t hold together.

Bake for about 15-17 minutes until slightly browned on the bottom and dry on the top. Let cool for a few minutes before removing from the pan. These are best eaten within an hour of baking.

You can make extra and freeze these! Let cool, then freeze in a freezer-safe bag.

I recommend putting pieces of parchment or waxed paper in-between the sandwich rounds to prevent them sticking to each other. When you want some, let them thaw out at room temperature then toast slightly under the broiler or in a toaster oven. You could try putting them in a regular toaster, but they are a bit delicate so just be careful.

Definitely making these Saturday

I worked it out that each round should only be 31.8cals each.


Yesterday, I meal prepped. (Among other things…

It started Friday night, I created a meal plan for the week so that I could be all prepared for my grocery shopping on Saturday. The only change I had to make to my meal plan for the week was the removal of the almonds. My meal plan for the week is no meat, no cheese, no bread, no alcohol, no nuts (husband’s not included…couldn’t help myself). 

What you see in the pictures are various stages of my meal prep yesterday. All in all, there’s cabbage soup, spinach salads, grapes (to be frozen), mangoes, yogurt, brown rice, Quaker Instant Oatmeal, a homemade smoothie (half to start off the day, the other half for post workout), hard boiled eggs and hard boiled egg whites.

Beyond shattered today

First day back to work today after 2 weeks off and my god has it taken it out of me.

People think being a nanny is easy, but no just no. Lol

It doesn’t help I’m cutting bodyfat at the moment, so I’m both underfueled and a bit cranky which doesn’t help.

As a result there was no way I could train tonight, I just wouldn’t of lasted the whole 2 hours at Krav.

It’s catch 22 of trying to lose the fat.

Less food means less energy for training, which means less training means less chance of losing the fat quickly.


Anyway I see my nutritionist Thursday so we might have to rethink somethings.

I’m thinking more little and often meals to keep me going.

We will see