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ill never forget the dream i had about this show on nickelodeon that was kind of like malcom in the middle and even stevens and it was called Bitchboy Naughty and like every time they went to a commercial it would fade out w/ kids singing “Bitchboy naughtyyyyyy’ i wish u could hear this tune bc its been stuck in my head for months

if a nigga really want to fuck with you, he would. bitches be going crazy for a nigga that don’t give a fuck about them. it’s lowkey because they don’t give a fuck about themselves. love yourself first shawty. fuck these niggas. fuck these bitches too, my nigga. if you fuck with you then you wouldn’t give a fuck about who don’t fuck with you. everybody just want something from you anyways.

Falls du das liest, es tut mir Leid. Ja?
Es tut mir Leid, dass ich nicht die sein konnte, die du wolltest.
Es tut mir Leid, dass ich soviele Fehler gemacht habe, und nicht bei dir geblieben bin.
Es tut mir einfach alles Leid.
Ich weiß das ich nicht einfach bin, und ich weiß das ich viel hätte ändern können. Aber ich habe es nicht gemacht.
Wenn ich könnte würde ich es rückgängig machen, es tut mir Leid.
Tips to Survive Public High School

so brokenbieb I originally started writing this for you because of your post asking for help moving from online to public school, and then it started getting long and I realized these pretty much apply to everyone. I hope they help :)

tip 1: don’t stress too much over what people think of you. For real, don’t give the smallest of flying fucks. People will see that you’re nervous and vulnerable and use it against you. Most of the time, when you think people are judging you, they’re really not, and if they are, who freaking cares because those people are dumb. Really, who gives a shit if people don’t like you? It won’t matter in a few years. Literally no one cares how many people liked you in high school when you get to college. Remind yourself that you’re flawless and give zero fucks what anyone thinks. Do whatever you like to do and be who you want to be. As long as you’re not hurting yourself or anyone else in the process, you’re fine and other people’s opinions should not affect you.

tip 2: find people that are cool and likeable and don’t suck, and only focus on those people. Surround yourself with a few solid friends. Don’t let anyone else’s opinions about you bother you. Every adolescent is insecure and many people like to combat those insecurities by bringing other people down. If they can find flaws in other people, it gives them confidence and control and makes them feel better about their own flaws. Ignore them, they suck

tip 3: don’t talk to any straight boys. Teenage boys are gross and not worth associating with until you can determine which few aren’t trash. Until you have a sense of that, don’t even bother talking to them.

tip 4: do your homework. Homework sucks, but stay on top of it. Being able to get your homework done is so crucial. You’re at school to pass, and even if you suck at taking tests, homework will both help you learn for the tests and give you points. Homework sucks, I do 4-6 hours of it every night because I’m taking hard classes, but I deal with it. I have extracurriculars everyday of the week except Fridays, and I still get my homework done. You can do it, I believe in you

tip 5: What I’ve learned about high school is you’re not really there to learn. You’re there to get good grades and move on. I got an A in freshman biology, but I only remember like 4 concepts from that class. Learn the information you need to pass the tests, don’t worry about actually retaining anything (sorry it’s the reality of high school) because it will make your whole life harder and 90% of the information you learn is useless busywork and stuff you can just google when you’re out of school.

tip 6: Love yourself. Remind yourself how amazing you are. Take 5 minutes everyday to focus on nothing but loving yourself. It gets really stressful when you have judgmental people around making you feel bad and your parents and teachers are putting pressure on you and you’re putting pressure on yourself, so you need to make sure you give yourself breathing room. Do things that make you feel good about being you. Do what you need to do and don’t get behind, but put yourself first when necessary.

tip 7: similar to #6, take care of yourself. Eat well, sleep well, drink water, keep up with hygiene, exercise. Make sure you fit in time to take care of your body.

tip 8: there are going to be times when you feel like a failure. Life does that to you, but in my experience, public school does it to you a lot. Don’t let yourself get swallowed by self-hatred, go back to #6. You are not a failure. Mistakes are okay. You don’t have to get straight A’s. I  have a thing on my blog called a happy tag, basically full of motivational and happy and positive and loving posts, you can look at it here whenever you’re feeling down

tip 9: become friends with your teachers. Seriously, do it. If they like you, they’ll help you. Try to participate in class, it makes you look good and helps you stay engaged and in what you’re learning. Pay attention, don’t zone out and try to avoid using your phone in class for your own sake.

tip 10: dress however you want. Dress in what makes you comfortable. Don’t dress for anyone else. Wear what makes you feel good and happy, and do not let yourself give a fuck about what other people think.

tip 11: use your free time wisely, enjoy your weekends!! That is so important. You really only have to go to school 5 days a week. Work your ass off for those 5 days, and then Friday and Saturday don’t even think about school. Hang out, have fun, go with friends, chill, do whatever. If you have weekend homework, do it on Sunday. But Friday and Saturday are your free days where you just need to let go of stress and don’t even let thoughts of school cross your mind. Do whatever you want, I don’t care, just be safe and have fun. But right when Sunday night comes, get back into the rhythm of school

tip 12: don’t be afraid to reach out for help. If you’re struggling with concepts, ask questions in class. Go to your teachers when you’re confused. If you’re feeling depressed or developing an eating disorder or having issues with self harm, tell someone. Help is available, and you don’t have to do it alone. Please don’t feel like a burden, get help with anything you need. It’s so worth it to just ask for help.

tip 13: be nice to people. It’s not that hard, just don’t be mean to people. Don’t start drama. Say nice things, be friendly, and don’t be rude. If you think someone looks stupid, keep it to yourself. If you think someone looks good, tell them. Just be kind. People will be nicer to you and it feels good to be nice and it makes the whole school environment better.

tip 14: it’s going to be okay. Try to fit in time for things that make you happy. Even if it’s miserable, you’ll get through it and life will get better. It’s only 4 years of your life. Do the best you can to stay positive, it doesn’t have to be awful. You’ll be okay :) I’m here if you need anything

I know that was super long, but writing it out helped me remind myself of what I need to be doing, too. I might add more to it later, I hope this was at least somewhat helpful