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anonymous asked:

The color of blood is related to the amount of oxygen bound to the red blood cells. The more oxygen in the blood, the brighter red it appears. As oxygenation of the blood gets lower the blood gets darker and darker. I think you are right about Lexa's blood. And your theories are the best!!

Exactly! Okay, so here is my theory about ‘safeguards’ created against ALIE (i thought of most of this while driving today. lol.): 

1) A person has to be willing to say ‘yes’ to go into the City of Light (however, a person can be ‘forced’ into saying ‘yes’ by ALIE threatening their loved ones – that is my theory to why Clarke is inside the City of Light)
2) Polis Tower has a machine that projects a frequency that surrounds Polis that protects it’s citizens from ALIE’s frequency. There is also an ‘access point’ into the City of Light in Polis Tower to conduct the Conclave.
3) Gene/blood mutation that makes a person’a blood appear black. This mutations prevent’s ALIE from controlling a person’s brain ‘completely’ and their body. 

My theory is that there is something in their blood that when it hits the air it turns a ‘darker’ color instead of a vibrant red. This ‘thing’ inside their blood prevents ALIE from controlling their bodies while their minds are in the City of Light. Right now, when a person is inside the City of Light, ALIE has complete control over their body and can kill them. But! People with this ‘black blood’ have a mutation that doesn’t allow ALIE to latch onto their motor neuron while their brains are in the City of Light. 

This ‘black blood’ is a safe guard against ALIE. The creators of ALIE saw that a side effect of the City of Light is that ALIE has control over someone’s body and can have them kill themselves. Imagine a scientist (in the past) was going through a trial run into the City of Light, and ALIE took control of his body and had him kill himself. Maybe that is why Rebecca has this face in the trailer:

…maybe she just witnessed her creation kill someone. So, they started to create a ‘gene mutation’ to add to the human genome to counteract this. People could go into the City of Light and ALIE wouldn’t be able to control their body while they were there, they would also have control over their mind while in the City of Light. This is also a safeguard so that in case ALIE somehow got ‘free’ and ‘enslaved’ all the humans, there would be these people that would be able to fend off ALIE’s control and shut her down. There might be a ‘lever’ or thing inside the City of Light that has to be found in order to destroy her. 

However, the gene mutation wasn’t complete before ALIE escaped. It is a recessive gene that only is activated in a few people – with varying potency. So, certain’s people’s blood would appear black, but they wouldn’t have enough of this ‘mutation’ to counteract ALIE. ALIE would still be able to control their bodies or their mind enough to override it and kill the person. So, this is the purpose of the Conclave. The Nightblood is sent into the City of Light, via a machine inside Polis tower, and they are tested to see if they have enough of this mutation to be a Commander. 

Inside Polis tower there is a machine that is able to connect a person to the City of Light via ‘hard wire’ (think about electrodes being placed on the person’s head. Actually, this facility that you see behind Rebbecca might be a room inside Polis Tower and this might be where this ‘machine/computer’ is at.) Titus might be a buyer of technology that Emori mentioned to keep the machine running. So, Titus conducts the Conclave on a Nightblood to see if their blood has enough of this mutation to fend ALIE’s control off. Now, they can still look like they are in physical pain because ALIE can still attack the pain centers of their brain – but not enough to make their body ‘give out’ or die due to pain. The Nightblood either pass the Conclave or ALIE kills them because they don’t have enough of the mutation in their blood.

I have theorized that maybe Clarke is looking at Aden in pain or dead because he is in his Conclave. Titus is wearing warpaint because the Conclave is a ceremony and Grounders wear warpaint during ceremonies. I have also previously theorized that the reason why Trikru warpaint is black, is because of this ‘black blood’ is superior idea. 

Polis Tower is a safe guard itself. The machine inside of it sends out a frequency that creates a force field around Polis and it’s inhabitants. Maybe the [!] that is marked red, is pointing out to ALIE that there is a threat inside Polis tower. This threat is this machine. ALIE needs to disable it, but she can’t control the bodies of people to disable it due to this frequency that this machine gives off that disrupts her control. She needs people to be willing and wanting to destroy Polis and this machine. So, she needs the Skaikru to attack Polis, or she needs Azgeda to take control of the tower and disable it. Azgeda or Skaikru taking control would also lead to them killing all the Nightbloods and future Commanders that could destroy her, due to their superior blood. 

I think that if a Nightblood that passes their Conclave, they become ‘soldiers’ that go into the City of Light (via this machine) and try to defeat ALIE from the inside. Commanders are nightbloods that are able to resist ALIE’S control better than most. Commanders go into the City of Light to find a way to defeat ALIE, due to them having more of the antigen. Maybe this is why Titus has been fleimkepa for 4 commanders. Maybe the Commanders before Lexa didn’t have enough of the mutation in their blood and ALIE was able to kill them after they went into the City of Light a certain amount of times. MAYBE this is the significance behind Lexa’s tattoo. Maybe she adds another band to her tattoo after she has completed a successful ‘mission’ in the City of Light. 

 Lexa is ‘special’ and as Titus said, “No one has done what you have, we are so close to our goal”. This ‘goal’ might be referring to defeating ALIE. I think that this statement isn’t referring to Lexa creating peace between the 12 Clans…we are just supposed too think that that is what Titus was referring to. But, at the end of the show we would see that he was talking about defeating ALIE instead, and we just made an assumption.

NOW!!!! Let’s think about Lexa’s line to Titus “Clarke’s special” “You’re special Heda….no one has done what you have.” Catch that? ‘no one’ Clarke: “I am no one”. There is something inside of Clarke that isn’t this mutation, but allows her to also fight ALIE’s control “No one Clarke has done what you have.” Clarke and Lexa are both ‘special’. This might be a stretch, but what if Clarke and Lexa TOGETHER are able to defeat ALIE because of their ‘real human connection’– their love. Love is not weakness; it is a strength. That would be paralleling season 2 beliefs with season 3. This (’no one’/’special’) would be AMAZING foreshadowing. And I honestly wouldn’t put it past the writers.  

Wow, okay idk if anything I just wrote made sense. So, in conclusion, their blood looks black because when their blood is exposed to the air, it doesn’t turn red. Due to this mutation it overrides the ‘natural’ reddening of the blood looks black instead. Their blood INSIDE their body is still very much a dark redish color like most humans. This is why they don’t have weird colored skin and have a normal complexion. AND you have to remember that this is a Sci-Fi show. 

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14 year old eto and touka
Tbh instead of touka I wanted to draw eto when she went to the ccg herself (i wanted to draw her clothes because they look so comfy) but then I saw touka in the new chapter lol
Like seriously am I the only one who really really LOVES toukas hair?
Also etos hair is short again and that’s 👌👌👌👌👀👀
I have a thing for short hair I guess

I feel like it’s a testament to my lack of geography knowledge that after nearly 2 years of working at my current job I only realized today that it’s round the corner from one of my favorite fish and chip places.

Remedy Part 6

Where my demons hide

Part 1 - My heart will always remember you

Part 2 - Only a wish

Part 3 - To be what I hate

Part 4 - A change of fate

Part 5 - Was it love or just a dream?

Summary: (Y/N) realizes she is in love with Steve, but she knows it’s a love that could cost more than a broken heart if she doesn’t learn how to control her powers. For this reason, she decides to take Dr. Erskine’s job offer.  

Warnings: I’m not a biologist so maybe wrong terms -lol, Howard Stark

The next morning I sat in the back seat of the cab that drove me to the place Erskine had told me to be. All I had was a little card with the address leading me through Brooklyn’s neighbourhoods and a sentence on the back that made no sense to me at all. “Nothing is what it seems to be” I repeated the words again and again, but there seemed to be no solution to the riddle.

I nervously bit my lip while we drove past the alleys, diners and parking lots and I couldn’t find words that came near to describe how I felt. A mixture of excitement and scepticism if something or someone was really expecting me in this ordinary part of the city.

Just this morning I awoke from a deep sleep and Steve was gone, only leaving a little note that gave me his promise we would see each other soon. I noticed that I felt somehow different the moment I had opened my eyes and found myself on my own, thinking of a dream that I couldn’t ban from my mind.

My gloved hand moved to my head and my fingers carefully massaged my temple and I rested in a moment of silence between the sound of traffic and the rather loud humming of the car.

It was a dream- so real, the words he had spoken… telling me he loved me and then, when I woke up I knew I was in love with my best friend.

I knew it when I remembered the way he looked at me. The way I missed him in every minute and with every breath I took. Could I really feel like this? I closed my eyes and felt desperate far away from him.

He was my best friend and feelings like these were exactly what I had always been afraid of. I hid my feelings deep inside my heart. It was the warmth of a sweet hurtful love that I wasn’t allowed to feel, because I needed to protect him.

Someone like me would only hurt him sooner or later, I reminded myself and I still knew that I couldn’t stop the unfortunate love that made me feel like crying.

I would hurt him and Bucky because I was too dangerous.  I realized that my only hope was in the hand of Erskine… I had to learn how to control it.  

I stared outside the window, watching people walking on the street and I suddenly asked myself if maybe somewhere… there was someone like me. A mutant like me who tried to hide what separated him from all the others. Maybe it was the man with the newspaper in his hands, or the child in the arms of his mother.

I frowned as the cab suddenly stopped at a place I wouldn’t expect anything special at all.

“Sir, is this right?” I asked the driver and he lifted an eyebrow as he turned around on his seat. “This is the address Ma’am. Do you want me to drive you somewhere else?”

“No… no thanks“

Absent-minded I grabbed the money that I owed him for driving me to an ordinary antiques shop and I stepped out of the car. I had been here a few times before, never really paying attention to the dark shop with heavy curtains and shaded lamps.

Was Erskine kidding me, I asked myself and looked around. I searched for at least something that told me I was really supposed to be here. There were just kids playing on the street and this inconspicuous shop.

Nothing is what it seems to be

Suddenly I felt two heartbeats winding up a bit and I knew the persons they belonged to must have noticed me. I stood in front of the dark shop while I took a slow breath and saw in the corner of my eye two smoking men watching me closely.

Guards. Why should an ordinary antiques shop need guards?

I suspiciously narrowed my eyes at them and then pushed the door open to step into the house, deciding not to pay attention to them.

And I was hardly inside the dusty room full of antique furniture and old objects as an old lady with grey hair came out of the back of the shop. “Oh, the weather is really nothing today.” She said in a friendly way and I opened my mouth to reply something I would have said for usual, as I hesitated and remembered the awkward sentence on the back of the card Erskine had given me.

Suddenly it made sense. “Nothing is what it seems to be.” I finally said the code word, hoping I had said the right thing and licked my dry lips as she nodded once with a little smile.

“Dr. Erskine is already expecting you Miss (Y/L/N).” She said and seemed to press some sort of button behind her desk.

 I didn’t even wonder why she knew my name, though all this secrecy made me distrust everything in here. Nevertheless I decided to get further involved because it was already too late to turn back.

We stopped in front of a big bookshelf, but before I could ask the lady what we were doing here, it swung open and revealed a corridor full of people behind the secret door.

I stunned in surprise and I didn’t even notice the lady had already left me. I had never expected this shop was in truth a secret base.

The security man watched me as I took a step inside before the bookshelf closed automatically behind me. I saw a man with neatly combed black hair and a moustache, busily walking around the corner and he immediately stopped as he noticed me.

First he gave me such an awkward and surprised look that I felt like an intruder, but then he seemed to recognize me and he started to smirk, pointing one finger at me.

“Are you (Y/N)?” He asked and slowly started to walk towards me. He eyed me from head to toe, leaned his head to the side and I couldn’t ignore the feeling I had seen him before. “I already asked myself if you would ever come, but the doctor was so concerned-“ “Excuse me, do we know each other?” I lifted my chin, interrupting him and he gave me a small laughter as he stood in front of me.

“Oh, how rude of me.” He replied and cleared his throat. “Allow me to introduce myself. Howard Stark, one of the Strategic Scientific Reserve founders, inventor and pioneer in technological innovations and owner of Stark Industries.” I smiled with narrowed eyes and looked at his schmock face as I accepted the hand he was offering me and let him kiss it with a smirk on his lips. What a braggart.

“Oh, the Mr. Stark” I replied politely. So that was why I thought to know him. There were posters of him and his coming future-expo all over the city. A multi-millionaire and playboy; everyone knew he was the best engineer in the land.

“Please, call me Howard. It’s lovely to finally meet you after the doctor had told me so much about the talented person that will join our little project. I wonder which hidden secrets you have, to make him argue with the colonel about you.”  He said with a deep voice and he still would have held my hand if I hadn’t pulled it back.

“Well I hope he didn’t tell too much about me?” I asked not showing that I was slightly worried, but Stark chuckled.

“What he didn’t tell was how ravishing you are. Luckily you have found me Miss (Y/N). A charming young woman like you deserves special attention.“ He said with a playful wink and I showed him my most unimpressed amused smile. I lifted an eyebrow and forced myself not to roll my eyes. I didn´t want to get into his flirting, though he was really forward.

 “Thank you, but I think I don’t need a special treatment today” I answered in an arrogant tone and was contend as Stark pouted in amusement, hummed thoughtfully and laid his hand on my back to lead me down the corridor.

“Then not today, but don’t worry (Y/N). I will show you the way around and I can promise you one thing. You will be amazed by what you’re going to discover.”

We came into a large hall full of devices, blinking lights on machines and my mouth dropped. “Miss (Y/N), welcome to the SSR.” I looked down from where I stood with Stark and saw people in lab coats working around a strange machine in the middle. With Erskine between them, grinning as he noticed me.

“Look who decided to come!“ He yelled, placed his hands on his hips and a few people followed the direction he was looking at. I couldn’t help but smile back.

“It seems the priority of keeping this secret to the world wasn’t an understatement, doctor.” I took the stairs down until I finally stood in front of him and shook his hand. “As secret as a hidden base needs to be. I see you already got to know Mr. Stark.” He said and I lifted one corner of my lips towards Stark and then looked back to Erskine.

“So tell me doctor, what’s so special about Miss (Y/N) besides her talent to make a gentleman feel unneeded?” Howard asked and I huffed as Erskine started to smile.

“I’m convinced that her knowledge and ability will open a complete new perspective on the development of the serum. Her scientific contribution will be of great importance for the project Mr. Stark. She is the best in her subject.” We gave each other a meaningful look that only we two could understand.

Against my expectations, he didn’t tell anyone about what I was and I could pretend to be a normal person for a little longer. Not the mutant everyone would be afraid of. Someone with normal human instincts would be suspicious and afraid.

Some of these people in white lab coats were looking at me and I felt the distrust of a few against me. Only Erskine really knew me here and from what Stark had told me, he even risked problems to hire me.

“Miss (Y/L/N)?” Suddenly Erskine looked very serious. “I have to show you something” He told me with his thick German accent and my smile froze as I followed him upstairs again. Stark stayed behind, but his eyes followed me until I disappeared out of his view.

“You were right.” Erskine pushed the door open to a room that seemed to be his office and gave me a file. He crossed his arms and watched me as I opened it and gasped.

I frowned, looking at the picture of a man who I recognized immediately. “He’s the man on the street, the one-“ “Who’s death you saw… He’s dead.” Erskine completed my sentence and I turned around to see if someone was listening.

“I want to find out how you knew that.” He added and I gulped heavily.

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“This is fascinating!“ Erskine muttered under his breath whilst pressing his eyes on the eyepiece of the microscope in front of him.

I stared at the slim ampoule of the blood test he had taken from me and I folded my arms, waiting for his evaluation. “Miss (Y/L/N), your blood effects the cells in every way. It’s healing the tissue symbiotically and works at the same time aggressively destructive.”

He grabbed a pipette and let a drop of liquid fall between the two glasses. “Like a virus, nothing I have seen before. Not in my entire life.”

He turned at the little wheel to regulate the focus of the microscope and gasped again. “Fascinating” He repeated. “What does that mean? It doesn’t explain why I saw this man’s death.“ I said while I leaned at the table of his small office and saw nothing but a simple red drop of blood with my bare eyes.

“I must confess, I have not figured out yet how this is related with each other. But for now, come and take a look for yourself” Erskine simply replied and pointed at the microscope, inviting me to make my own opinion.

So I slowly walked around the table and looked through the oculars in curiosity, seeing something that was indeed fascinating.

I saw the unknown tissue and my own little white blood cells which seemed to be completely out of control and have a conflict between destroying and healing it. Like if they wanted to kill and keep it alive at the same time. It looked violent and definitely not normal.

“In my theory there is a way we can extract the positive effect for the serum so that the test person can survive the operation unscathed. Which wasn’t possible until I found the code to extreme fast cell reproduction in you.”

I hummed thoughtfully, paying full attention to his explanation as weird and complicated as it sounded.

 “According to that-“ He continued. “the virus will attack the object’s DNA as well as his whole genetic code and rewrite it. Mr. Stark’s Vita Rays will stimulate the growth in the body for a successful result. So his metabolism will be quicker than everyone else.”

 “You said we Dr. Erskine?” I asked him interested and saw him nodding in a good nature before I started to study some of his complex mathematic formulas.

“I hoped you could do more than just to be at our disposal for your blood.” “For example?”

“Be a part of the plot (Y/N), we could really use someone with your ability and knowledge in the SSR.” Erskine looked determined and I knew he didn’t make jokes, but we began to smile at the same time. “When do we start?” I finally asked as I looked up from the scientific notes on the desk. Erskine grinned.

“But who would sign up for this voluntarily?” I asked him and chuckled ironically when I found the drawing of two models of a human body between his notes. Most of them were written in German and I couldn’t understand it, but it was clear to me where Project Rebirth was going. One was small and normal and one was supposed to show the result after the operation. Truly a super human being.

“It would have to be a totally reckless person with no sense for danger at all. I assume he would die sooner than really accomplish what you are intending to do.” I said.

Erskine grabbed a piece of chalk and pointed it at me in excitement like he wanted to prove me something. “We both know what you are able to do and you saw which opportunity we have with the key to your DNA. Combine it with the serum and we can create the first super soldier in the world. You know it’s possible.”

He drew a quick sketch on the black board, showing two cells. Each one different, but in fact able to create something new together.  

“Didn´t it ever cross your mind to analyse your own blood before?” Erskine asked in wonder and ran a hand through his grey beard. He quickly made notes for my file.

“As weird as it sounds, but no. I did not regard it as absolutely necessary.” I answered calmly, plucking the hem of my long glove.

To my surprise Erskine put the pen down and started to laugh. “Not necessary?“ He repeated and coughed. “If I had been you I would have made numerous of experiments on myself already.”

I looked up and took a heavy breath, suddenly feeling anger boiling up inside me.

 Nobody would experiment on me, that was the deal. Nobody. “Seems I was too busy taking care of other people and save their lives. Safe them from death!” I said slowly and hostile, not breaking eye contact. I saw the worries in Erskine’s eyes and he raised his hands in excuse. “That was not what I meant.”

I was getting angry and I knew I was scary when I got angry. “I have enough experience to know what my actions can cause. You have seen it yourself” I said to him in a too loud voice- but this was my weak spot. My fear… where my demons were hiding.

“(Y/N), I know you would never want to hurt someone.” “I don’t?” I asked in outrage and took one step closer to him. What did he know? He knew nothing about me!

Erskine grabbed his forehead and I was shocked as I realized that I was the reason why he was in sudden pain. I stopped immediately with causing him a headache.

With big eyes and open mouth Erskine stared at me with excitement. “Was that you?” he asked and I panted. “I’m- I’m so sorry. I didn’t want to-“ My eyes nervously jumped up and down but he interrupted me.

“Can you do that again?” I gasped. “But-“ “Try it!” I was confused why he was so happy about the fact I could hurt him with only my will and I shook my head.

“No…” This was new and it was wrong. It was madness and it was the second time since I had met him that I was able to do something I had never done before.

“You are developing your powers” Erskine said, but I felt like the walls were coming closer and it became hard to breathe. “The man on the street… and now this. Telepathy in physical extension and you know what I think? This is just the beginning of what you could do. You are meant for something bigger (Y/N).“

“I don’t want to know what I could do more! I can’t control it Dr. Erskine. I’m leaving, you have my blood. I’m not a help to you anymore.”

 I couldn’t stay any longer. I grabbed my coat and stood up.

“You can learn to control it.” He said behind me and I hesitated with my hand on the door handle.

I breathed slowly and lowered my eyes. “How?” I asked with a shaky voice.

Erskine made a step towards me and his voice sounded soft and determined. “We’ll find a way” 

I bit my tongue and stared at the floor. “If you knew what I have done doctor, you wouldn’t trust me. I don’t even trust myself. Who has the right to decide whether to heal people or end a life?” As soon as the words escaped my lips I regretted them.

“End a life?” He repeated confused and I thought he had finally realized that I was a threat to everyone. I didn’t want to tell him that. That wasn’t the plan.

 “I was nine” I finally said with a dark voice and turned around to face him again. “When I killed my father.”

First Erskine showed no reaction, but then folded his hands in front of him and sighed deeply. “Aren’t you afraid?” I asked and it sounded more threatening than I wanted it to be. But I had to know if I could really trust him.

“How did that happen?” he replied carefully.

I didn’t even hesitate; I pulled off my black glove and showed him my arm. “This happened” I answered cold as ice and watched his eyes widening as he saw my arm which was covered with scary violet veins from my fingers to my elbow.

“May I?” He asked breathless and I nodded once as he took a loupe out of his cupboard. “I didn’t want to do it.“ I said and frowned a second later. Or did I? “They appeared out of nowhere and they stayed forever. Reminding me every day that I’m a murderer.”

His warm fingers carefully lifted my wrist and he looked at every inch of my arm as if it was fragile like glass. “Still want me in your team doc? Now that you know what a monster I really am?” I asked under my breath and I lowered my eyes.

“I have never been so sure about something.” Erskine looked at me with compassion and patted the back of my hand with a comforting smile. “It doesn’t matter who you used to be or what you have done. Important is who you decide to be.” He said with a low voice and I smiled in a sad way.  

“I believe you have a greater power in you than anybody could ever dream of. A power-“ Erskine made a pause and sighed as he shoved his glasses up his nose. “that is stronger than anything humanity has ever seen…”

To be continued… 

A/N: I know what you’re thinking… :D  Where the heck are Steve and Bucky?? Well to answer your question, not in this part but there are big big Bucky feels in the next part. He gets his orders and it’s going to be very sad because both the boys are in love with the reader…

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my skin is bad but at least my mood is good ^^ // tagged by @oo-ji and @jihhoon 

tagging: you!!! yes you!!! the person reading this post!!! idk sometimes i wanna tag some mutuals but i’m shy :c SO whoever’s doing this tag me in it so i can reblog <3

i’ve been basically saying jvr was my fav leaf ever since grabo got bought out but the dion trade made me realize jvr isn’t my fav at all. it took dion getting traded for me to realize he was my fav leaf. it bothers me that leafs fans didn’t appreciate him but even i didn’t fully appreciate him and it took me watching the senators game last night to confirm that. it crushed me. it looks so wrong. it feels so wrong. and i miss him so much.