my-mother-raised-me-to-be-admired

anonymous asked:

My question isn't about the specifics of your practice (that is private, much like anyone else's) but how you came into it. I know for me, I was exposed at an early age, and have grown and garnered my methods along the way. What got you interested? What made you decide your path of practice/belief/whateva?

My mother is very witchy. My earliest memories are laying around in silk tents and playing with bells while her and her friends did Tarot readings. She was always into fairies and garden magic. When I was born in Germany, she used to go sit in fields of flowers with me and do spells…There are some really amazing photographs of her that my father had taken during that time.. I always admired her for raising me the way she did, her sister also largely contributed to who I became.

A conversation in Leipzig

Professor in Leipzig: you are young enough to have three more children.

Me: If I ever get married again, and if my husband wants children, because the only case I might consider having more children is if he really wants that, he has to sign extra paperwork other than the marriage papers, that he will be a wonderful husband and father and that he will guarantee that I will not raise a child on my own again. He will have to sign these papers every year, and he has to love me a lot, and also sign that. 

Professor (laughing): You are a very strong person. I have always admired single mothers, but a successful woman like you, that is a lot of strength!

Me: Yeah…………….. But I don’t want to be strong. I didn’t want to learn the lessons I learned. I would have been very content without having to be strong (and I am very fragile inside).  

Professor (later in the conversation): You are a free spirit I can already tell.

Me (lowered my gaze and smiled, as I was caught by surprise as to how often I hear that from people who barely know me): True, I guess? (And I never understood how and why most people are not like that.)

Professor: And the father of your child, did you marry him? 

Me: Yes I was married to him.

Professor: When did you do all that? I am assuming, and that is only because I know you already had a postdoc… I am counting, 28?

Me: I am 34. 

(Photo: At Fuller Pool in Ann Arbor, Michigan. Right before I travelled to Europe.)

My mother deserves everything good in life. I could never hesitate if she needs me. She has conquered so much in life & I admire all that she has done and face in this world, she inspires me in many ways. Through all our battles, we make it through together. A mothers love for her child is like nothing else in this world. She gives us constant love, she gives us her soul and she gives us her time. I naturally return it always, because I love my mother. Not for the things she’s done, but for who she is as a person, and how she raised me and my brother.

anonymous asked:

Tell us about your relationship with Lica and with Roxy

Roxy is a good friend. She’s a sweetheart, someone like her only comes along once in a good while. She’s practically mothered me the past few days being ill. I don’t know what I’d do without her.

As for Luca (thank you for clearing that up), he’s my older brother. He was there for me when my dad was too busy to play when we were kids, talk about the more important things growing up, making sure I wasn’t being a complete idiot when I was a teenager. He practically raised me himself, and I don’t know if I can ever repay him for that. Don’t ever let him know I said it, but I really admire him. I’m lucky to have him as a brother, or just to have him in my life at all.

There are many things I could say that I believe in. Throughout my life, I have come into contact with many people, ideas and situations that have caused me to think and rethink about many of my beliefs. Of all the things I believe in, one thing that has never changed and that has never failed me from my childhood until now, is the strength of my mother. I’m sure that being strong is something that many young women just like myself admire about their mom. Moms in general tend to be pretty amazing individuals, most of the time. However I feel especially fortunate to have been raised by a woman who is such a great example of strength and love. She has overcome many odds and survived many challenges, while showing so much strength and determination to be successful.

One area where I’ve seen her show the greatest amount of strength is emotionally. Growing up in Haitian culture, showing emotion isn’t common and being strong during difficult times is what is valued. My mother isn’t the type of person to wear her heart on her sleeve. Honestly, I think I can only remember two times I’ve seen her cry at all. I remember one time when there were a lot of things going on in our home, including her divorce from my father after about 15 years of marriage. Her stress level was at an all-time high and there were many other difficult things that were happening at that time as well. She just got completely overwhelmed and had to be hospitalized. During this time I was so worried and scared because I’d never seen my mother hurt so badly. It was confusing and so hard to watch her go through that. I wanted to be strong for her but with everything I was feeling I was incapable of supporting her the way I wanted to. Just like always, even at her lowest point, her strength was exceptional because she was comforting me the way I wish I could comfort her.

The other time I witnessed my mother breakdown emotionally was when her brother died. This was very tragic to my mother because they had a very close relationship. He had been sick for many years and it seemed that his health was improving, so it took us all by surprised when he suddenly took a turn for the worse and passed away. Even though we were all deeply sadden by his death, my mom felt extremely lost and discouraged because he was so special to her. Through it all, she could still be found cooking legume, (a popular Haitian dish), cleaning the house, and comforting all our family, friends, and loved ones. 

Other people may believe in stuff like true love, happiness etc., but I believe in my mother. I believe in her because every time an obstacle comes her way she overcomes it, nothing stops her. She’s strong and courageous through everything, and when I look into her eyes I see the woman that I hope to become.

anonymous asked:

The Empress, The Lovers, Strength, Death, The Devil, The Star, The Sun

  • The Empress: A woman you really admire

My mother. She had to raise me all by herself with no support from anyone and that takes a lot of strength and dedication.

  • The Lovers: A person who makes you very happy

My happiness doesn’t derive from others. Although that Dorian boy I met a while back made me happy that day I was showing him around town.

  • Strength: Something you struggle with

The opinions of others. Their opinions of my passion usually result in me either physically injured or emotionally drained. 

  • Death: Someone you really miss

I can’t help but miss my father. Well, I’ve never met him, but I miss the thought of him. When I was little, my mom told me he’d come back one day, so I created this image of him. I wish he really was that person. 

  • The Devil: Who you talk to when you’re dealing with big issues

No one. People usually don’t understand or care.

  • The Star: Someone you consider perfect

Savannah. She’s virtually flawless, or so she appears to be.

  • The Sun: Your happiest memory

It was my eighth birthday, when I got my first deck of tarot cards. 

maria-eve-salivan asked:

6,9,20,37,50. Also, hey there and I love your blog and fuck that dude, you'll find someone who deserves to have you!

6. What are you excited for?
I’m excited for college to start! It’s a new chapter in my life and I can’t wait to see where it takes me :)

9. Is confidence cute?
I think anyone that isn’t afraid to be who they are is beautiful. People who think for themselves, stand up for what they believe in, and believe in themselves are really admirable. As long as they don’t cross the line between confident and cocky, then hell yeah it’s amazing.

20. Are you starting to realize anything?
That my mother’s negative perceptions of me aren’t what everyone else sees. And that my parents, who are nowhere near perfect, do everything they can to raise me while internalizing their own feelings to do it.

37. Do you believe in love at first sight?
No, I believe love grows and that it is earned. You can’t love someone until you understand if you can accept each part of them. All of which takes time.

50. Ever used a bow and arrow?
I don’t remember the scenario or when exactly, but when I was younger I remember trying it out and failing miserably because I was too weak, haha

Thank you for all of the fun questions! :) And thank you so much for saying that, it really means a lot ❤️ if there’s one thing I know, never be anyone’s second choice.