my-girlfriend-<3

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night โ€”
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we wonโ€™t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
Iโ€™ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldnโ€™t have sent that message.
You shouldnโ€™t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didnโ€™t.

Saturday 8:49pm
Iโ€™m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl youโ€™ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if itโ€™s because youโ€™re trying to replace me.
I canโ€™t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.
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so i heard that the sun and the moon are girlfriends

(i wonder if they meet in twilight or dawn)

Looking back, I canโ€™t remember the truth. I blew everything out of proportion so I could feel the hurt and betrayal and write about it in vivid detail. It was my own method of torture. My own undoing; and I enjoyed every second of it.
—  c.j.n.