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It turns out that it/she matters to me. Leia. Unfortunately. Sometimes I feel as if I’d rather concern myself with…almost anything. But as it happens I’ve spent the lion’s share of my life, starting at nineteen and continuing forty years on jauntily in the present, being as much myself as Princess Leia. ― Carrie Fisher, The Princess Diarist

Bean counter taught me to always know my limits

Dance contest taught me that one wrong move can ruin everything

Thin ice taught me that we are only trapped by the walls we create ourselves

Hydro hopper taught me that no obstacle is impossible to overcome

Jet pack taught me that if you’re going to fly high, you have to be prepared to crash

Fishing taught me that sometimes it’s better to miss an opportunity than put yourself in harms way

Sled Race taught me that friendly competition is the best kind of competition

Pizzatron taught me that hard work pays off

Puffle rescue and puffle roundup taught me to always help those who cannot help themselves

Aqua grabber taught me that the best things in life are never going to be easy to find

Surfing and cart surfer taught me nothing. Fuck those games I never made more than 10 coins on them. What the hell can I buy with 10 coins?? Jack shit that’s what

I’m holding on,
Why is everything so heavy?
Holding on,
So much more than I can carry.
I keep dragging around what’s bringing me down,
If I just let go, I’d be set free.
Holding on,
Why is everything so heavy?
—  “Heavy”, Linkin Park ft Kiiara.
Rest in Peace, Chester ❤

it really bothers me that people think that once you’re away from the abuse, you’ll instantly start recovering. in the times i had spent away from abuse, i had more panic attacks than i’d ever had before. that was because i was in a safer place to experience the feelings i’d repressed my entire childhood. it, unfortunately, really really doesn’t just stop or get better when you’re out.

“The only time my mother spoke to us was when she was drunk. And she’d tell us we were unwanted. She convinced me to drink with her when I was ten. She told me that it would make me feel better. I started smoking crack when I was twelve. I never learned to read or write. I lost my entire childhood. My friends and I would break into cars, steal whatever we could, and use the money to buy more. It made me feel good and I wanted to feel good all the time. And nobody ever tried to stop me.”

(Santiago, Chile)

yall when i was like 12/13 i REALLY wanted to be an actress and i went to like some art school for it but i remember i was really worried if i made it big i would probably have to kiss a guy in a role and i was genuinely concerned abt that bc i didnt think i could do it

in retrospect that was gay as HELL like i couldnt have even kissed a man for sweet sweet famous actor $$$ but tweenaged me was like “i’m hetero :) i just have High Standards :) even if he was a Handsome Actor Man he probably wouldnt meet my Standards :)”

anyway if any of yall wanna reblog/reply/tag this post with gay ass things u did when u were younger but wrote off bc u were “Very Straight :)” pls do i love hearing abt baby gay things

I always forget how fucking bad the first season of Horrible Histories is like
The production value was so obviously low af they used like fruit and stuff for fake poo
In the King of Bling video u can see her leaving like it would have been really easy to make that a separate shot but nah
The cheapo intro animation
But I fucking love it bc they weren’t expecting it to be so incredibly popular and then it led in views and it got six seasons with (I think) more in production, a spin off film and it’s this iconic thing for any British kid and I just love it so much