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If You (Kim Jongin Scenario)

Anon: Exo kai/jongin scenario pls where his gf is kinda insecure of seeing him being with pretty idols and celebrities all time and to find out a him in a scandal with an idol, he then convinced his gf that it was a publicity, and so on, angsty pls, happy or sad end up to you! Thanks a lot^^

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Of course I can!!! I love angst like a lot…so expect a lot of it!!! And no problem~~ 
Should also tell you that non of these scandal events are not even close to true…I just came up with them whoops lol

xoxo





The sound of a loud bang bounced off the walls of the apartment, soon being followed by loud footsteps, stopping at the kitchen. “Y/N?!” He asked in a panicked tone before rushing over to me as I fell to my knees. This isn’t real? I thought to myself while looking at my phone. A photo of my boyfriend, Kim Jongin, with Chrystal Soo Jung, or better known as Krystal Jung from the other SM group, f(x), stayed on the screen with the article reading,

Are EXO’s, Kai and f(x)’s, Krystal finally going to tell the public about their relationship, or leave it for SM to confirm like they did with Baekhyun and Taeyeon’s? At eleven thirty-five pm last night, the two were spotted leaving a cafe near their companies’ headquarters laughing and talking pretty openly with each other. There have been a few sights of them being very close. One of them was in the SMTOWN concert a few weeks ago in Tokyo. Even though a lot of fans are outraged by this, there is a small amount that seem to like the pair.

I didn’t even want to continue reading it. When I had seen it was when I dropped the saucepan and Jongin had come running in. He had knelt beside me when I had fallen to my knees and put his hands on my shoulder. “G-Get off of me!” I demanded, shifting away and whacking his hands off of me.

I knew this would happen…It was going to happen sooner or later, the thought just kept playing in my head, making me want to burst into tears. It’s tearing me to shreds, just like paper. Each emotion, mainly sadness and anger, was just slowly ripping me and throwing each piece away, as if it was nothing but trash.

As I just sat there, refusing to look at him because I have a feeling that if I do even cast a glance at him, I’ll slap him…and I don’t want to. I could never hurt him.

“Hey…Y/N..What’s–”

“Do you love me, Jongin?” I asked him, looking down at the ground. I could feel his gaze intensify once I spoke those words and I did almost look up, but I didn’t…with a struggle.

“Of course I do, Y/N. Why would you ask that? You know that I love…” As he spoke, he reached out to touch my cheek but I only flinched away, a frown appearing on my face.

He could tell something was most definitely wrong and it made me feel bad. I shouldn’t be though. He’s the one who’s gone behind my back and cheated on me with her. 

I hated her.

“Explain you and Chrystal then…” I muttered underneath my breath, squeezing my phone in my hand in pure anger. Then, I finally looked up at him, biting my lip and tears threatening to fall. I felt my eyebrows furrow. “If you’re going to cheat of me, at least have the decency to break up with me and not let me find out through a scandal!” I snapped at him.

His eyes widen and jaw dropped slightly. Shock washed over him as I could tell he had a hard time, comprehending what I was saying. Well, he could’ve just been doing that to make him seem more ‘confused’. 

That’s what pissed me off even more. Why can’t he just own up to it?!

Rolling my eyes, I just stood up quickly, completely ignoring him now. His gaze followed me as I just stormed out of the room and into our bedroom…Well his bedroom now. There is no way I’m staying in the same house with a liar and cheater, let alone share a room with him. I heard him quickly jog to walk behind me.

“Wh…What are you talking about?” I didn’t answer him. “Y/N?” Still didn’t answer him but now I was grabbing clothes from the wardrobe.

Don’t need that. Need that. Won’t be taking that.

I turned with a bunch of clothes in my arms, to see him standing there, frowning. So is he finally going to confess? Walking past him, I grabbed my suitcase and shoved everything in there.

“Y/N.” He said sternly but I still refused to say anything. I went to grab a few of my important shoes but he grabbed my wrist and kept a tight hold. Glaring at him, I tried to shake my hand away but failed. 

“Let go!”

“Not until you tell me what you mean by me cheating on you and what scandal?”

“Are you serious?! Are you for fucking real?!” You lashed out at him. “Why aren’t you just telling me the truth?!”

“What truth?!”

Anger kept boiling at the pit of my stomach and was slowly rising up into my chest and throat. Then it started to mix with sadness and fear. Why fear? Well I feared if it was me who made him not love me anymore. Was I too bossy? Too stubborn? Not good enough for him? My hands clenched into fists, knuckles turning white. “The truth about you obviously not loving me anymore! I saw the article about you and Chrystal! I know that you’re dating her! It’s all over social media…” I bit my bottom lip, holding back tears so I didn’t look like the weak one. The tears were blurring my vision though, making it hard for me to see his expression. He went silent though, that’s all I know.

“Y/N…” He said quietly. His grip loosened which I was going to take my chance to grab my shoes but he just grabbed the sides of my face, pulling me in for a sweet kiss. Those are the ones he would give me on special events like Valentine’s Day, my birthday or our Anniversary. I would give them to him as well on his own birthday but usually, he was the one who initiated it and I would return.

I didn’t this time though. Instead, I started crying, much to my dismay. My first tear slid down my cheek and on to his thumb while he pulled away. Jongin kept his face close to my own by learning his forehead against mine. Now that I was crying, I could see him a bit better. His eyes were glassy and washed over with confusion (still), hurt and…Well love. I could see it. I saw it when I first kissed him but now was different. We’ve been dating for two years now and the both of us have matured…in a way. When I think about it…he has been my first everything.

First boyfriend.

First kiss.

First time.

Those certain memories flooded my thoughts, even if I did try to push them away. They weren’t necessary right now. I had to think about the present not the past.

“First of all, where on earth did you see this article?” He asked me, still holding my face and wiping away any tears that fell.

I stayed silent for a moment. “I saw it online…I was about to start cooking dinner when…I saw it on my twitter.” I answered truthfully.

He just nodded which did kind of tick me off. “Alright….Second of all, why did you believe it?”

“….” His brown eyes bored into my E/C ones, making me want to shrink back and cry some more. They weren’t intimidating. God, they were far from being that. They were, as said before, full of love. They just looked so warm and caring. “I fear that…you’ll soon get bored of me.” I admitted with a shaky breath. “I fear that you will run off with some other idol and just forget about me….”Then I let out a chuckle. “Look at me. I’m pathetic…”

Jongin’s eyebrows furrowed deeper. “You’re not pathetic Y/N. To me, you are the most perfect girl I have ever seen. To me, you are my other half and that I was destined to be with you. Fate is what bought you and I together and I would never, ever even think to cheat on you.” He paused to wipe away the constant tears that were flowing down my face as I let out a small and held back sob. “This whole scandal thing is just the media wanting to start something among the fans. You don’t have to worry about it.”

I did trust him. Publicity did always happen among famous people and I have to accept it, but there will always be that gut feeling of him not ever loving me anymore. It’ll always be there and I will not be able to get rid of it unless it actually happens, which hopefully it never will. I nodded very subtly, causing him to smile slightly. He leant in again and pressed his lips on to mine, with just a little bit more passion and force.

One of his hands slid to the back of my neck and the other one traced down my shoulder, to my waist. Then, I found myself kissing back. With him being very subtle about it, he led me to the bed and when my knees hit the edge, I fell back, bringing him with me. Once my back hit the mattress, Jongin pulled away from the kiss first and smiled sweetly, even though I could see a glint of mischief behind it. He moved his leg slightly and pushed my suitcase off of the bed before swooping in and kissing me again. His hands now slid down the side of my body as I wrapped my arms around his neck.

Soon enough, he kissed the corner of my mouth and slowly moved to my jaw and up to my ear. When he was at my ear, he kissed under it slightly before whispering,

“Tonight, I’ll show you how much you mean to me Y/N…I promise..”

Fun story

A few years ago I saw Owl City in concert, and since we got there a little late (we forgot the tickets and didn’t realize till we were almost there) we were in the back. As the opening act was finishing, I glanced around and saw a guy standing a few feet away wearing a hoodie and a backpack who looked exactly like Adam Young. After staring at him for a few minutes like the awkward middle schooler I was, he noticed. He looked panicked so I turned back to the stage. After Days Difference finished and Owl City started to get ready, a guy wearing the exact same hoodie and and backpack walked across the stage. Of course, I freak out to my sister because there was that chance Adam Young had only been a few feet away from us. The next, my sisters boyfriend at the time, who happens to look like Adam Young, was over. He was wearing a similar hoodie on. To this day, I have no idea if Adam Young was standing behind me, if my sisters boyfriend had been there, or if I was just seeing things.

anonymous asked:

Today my brothers girlfriend came over and saw the lock screen of my phone and asked if it was my boyfriend and I panicked and said yes since it was a picture of Luke and now my family wants to meet him and I'm just like... lol... me too but now they think we're dating hahahahah. my life.

hahahahahaha, ok me. That’s great you’ve made my day 

anonymous asked:

Babe please you have to try and calm yourself down, do something you love or distract your mind with some music!! Please, over thing and panicking in this situation isn't going to help you with anything xx from personal experience, once my boyfriend told me he was going out with no drinks and no girls and there was, he only said it was because he didn't want me to freak out about it and overtaking, like you! not excusing what he's done but maybe he's looking out for you in the long run! Xxxx

Yea I know he will say that as well, but he knows it breaks me even more when I find about it later on but I did ask him directly and he said no girls no drinking, I’m not sure what to do I just can’t seem to stop crying and I know it’s so bad because I might overreact and overthink but thankyou so much xx

After today

I just don’t think I’m cut out for this new responsibility at work. I freaked out over a little mistake I made (which was something my mangers were afraid of) & had to deal with a rude customer so yeah. Epic fail. I just wish I could be calm, cool, and collected all the time. Each time I break down is a step backwards which is not what I want.

In other words, I just want to have my shit together all the time. No more break downs, no more panicking. I want to be something anyone (mangers, friends, boyfriend, future patients) can rely on. I want to be STRONG.

anonymous-understatement asked:

Hey. It'll be ok. Just try to breathe and find one thing to concentrate on. Also there's no shame in asking the person next to you to scooch over as far as they can to give you room to breathe.

I did. I told my boyfriend to scoot a little and he understands thank god so thirsty panicking everywhere

Today, thinking no one was home, I decided to be a little frisky with my boyfriend. I guess I was being loud and woke up my sleeping autistic brother the room over. Halfway through, he burst through the door, panicking. He thought I was having another one of my asthma attacks. FML

So during school last year I was on tumblr (before they banned in from our internet) I was scrolling through my dash when I came across many selfies of Luke. I tapped on one and smiled. Then some girl came up beside me and sat down, her eyes grew big, she said in a high pitched voice “Ohhh who is that?” And then she proceeded to rub her greasy finger over my screen. I panicked and said “Uhm my boyfriend!?!?!?!?!?” She nodded.
I guess she hated me or something cause now she’s telling everyone that I’m dating this Lucas guy.
SHE LITERALLY DOESN’T KNOW WHO 5SOS IS HAHA OMG

WWHAT DO I DO EVERYONE IS ASKING WHO HE IS OMG IM DYYING

SHOULD I TELL OH MAH GOUSH HAHA

I was twelve years old
When he struck up a conversation
And talked for an hour
In a stream of ones and zeroes
Until I had to get offline so mom could use the phone.
We talked again and again
He couldn’t get enough of me
But then I found out
He was twenty six
With a child half my age.
But he told me he loved me
It was the first time anyone had
So I told him I was sixteen
And that I couldn’t wait to be in Georgia with him.
Twenty six. I was twelve years old
And my secret boyfriend was twenty six
And somewhere along the line he became friends with my mom.
She encouraged my secret, made ways for us to talk
But it felt so wrong.
I tried to break up over the phone and he cried.
He was making plans,
Preparing to board a jet plane to my door
And I panicked
And began ignoring his calls
And threw away the gifts from him
And mom yelled that I was being irrational
But he was twenty six
And I was twelve years old.

I was sixteen years old
When I fell in love for the first time.
He dated everyone but me
But I waited my turn
And he came around
The car parked on the side of the street
And our lips met,
His having kissed my best friend mere days before.
Euphoria.
My mom despised him.
We had to find ways to meet up in secret.
I’d wait for hours in the parking lot behind the movie theater
To see his smile for just five minutes.
To kiss his root beer flavored lips just once.
To lay my head against his chest, smell the popcorn in his shirt for a moment.
I was sixteen years old,
We were a fire that burned itself out.
I was in love, I suffocated him
And he left my ashes to the wind.

I was seventeen years old
Desperate for love
And trying to find it behind denim and boxers
With a face I’d never met
His veins laced with drugs and misdemeanors.
All decisions are rational at three a.m.
So I let him touch me in ways I hadn’t been before
Until it hurt
Until I got scared.
I tried to get him to stop
But he wouldn’t.
That was the first time.
I was eighteen years old
When I found myself in a familiar situation.
I’d cheated on a man who loved me so much it hurt
So I needed an escape
With someone I barely knew.
Someone I could trust.
I wanted him to know me,
I wanted him to adore me like I adored him
And we ended up between the stiff sheets of the hotel
Until it hurt
Until I got scared.
I tried to make him stop
But he wouldn’t.
My mom called me a whore for having so many boyfriends.
She didn’t even know the half of it.

anonymous asked:

hi i'm currently having problems with my boyfriend, we got into a big argument last night over some misunderstandings which was really bad. now he is telling me that i need some time to myself but now i'm panicking that he may finish with me? he has deleted most of his social media accounts and his snapchat score has increased which means he has been talking to other people. i don't want to come across as clingy to him but i'm so scared that our relationship is over :(

i know it’s hard but try not to stalk his snapchat score (if you need to maybe temporarily just delete the app). all relationships have conflicts at some point and overcome them so don’t jump to the worst conclusion just yet. wait it out, keep yourself busy. and then take it from there when you’re speaking properly again. it’s all you can do!! take care 

Kissed my boyfriend and then Pulled back and saw blood like, ALL over his face an panicked because he’s been sick all week. Then realized I got a random nose bleed right when I kissed him. And got my blood. All over his face. Fml

phoenixsepticeye asked:

for the birthday thing: September 6th

September: Would you rather be inside or outside?

It depends on the season/weather - if it’s winter I’d rather be inside, if it’s summer I’d rather be outside like 24/7. Sadly, I don’t have many friends and I’m too anxious to just walk around on my own so yeah. :c

6th: Share one time that you let someone down.

Oh man, I kinda did this a lot. Probably still do. But one of the times that I can remember is when a friend was supposed to come over to my place so that we could Skype her long distance boyfriend and his friend for the first time ever (that friend is now my boyfriend), because her parents didn’t know about him back then and my parents are pretty chill with internet and stuff. So we set up a date, and when that day came, in the morning I freaked out and panicked so I told her she can’t come over because my mom doesn’t allow it or whatever. She was extremely disappointed and sad, her boyfriend was upset, the friend was upset, basically I let down a bunch of people. The main reason why it happened though, is because of my anxiety - I’m absolutely terrible with video chatting and stuff like that, and whenever I have to Skype someone I almost get a panic attack.Still, I feel super bad about what I did, but hey - in August her boyfriend is coming to visit her for the 4th time, and mine’s coming to visit me for the 1st time so everything turned out great! c: