BTS Scenario/Reaction - Jimin Self Harming/Self Harm Scars (Pt.3)

*TRIGGER WARNING* This is a very touchy topic and if you are uncomfortable with it I suggest you not to read

(DISCLAIMER: I do not intent to promote/romanticise self harming or depression. If you or someone you know is going through this please get help and my ask box is always open if you need/want to talk, both admins are here to listen)

Word count: 969

It had been six months now that you and Jimin were dating and things between you two were becoming more intimate whenever you would go over to his dorm. Although you loved these moments and were ready to go further you couldn’t help but be a bit sceptical and cautious. Your insecurities always kept you from allowing anything more than a heated make out session and yo wished you could just over come them. These insecurities triggered by the scars which you sadly had caused on your thighs resulting from your traumatic pass. Ashamed about the ugly markings on your body, it always refrained you from ever revealing yourself fully to your boyfriend. Seeing the unappealing scars always brought up past memories, memories that you tried so hard to suppress and forget, memories that made you feel like you were worth nothing. Thinking this way only caused you to wonder how your boyfriend would react if he ever saw them. Doubts would cloud your mind about if he would still want to be with someone who had repeatedly themselves because they were in a very dark place in life. Even though Jimin was an accepting and understanding, an overall wonderful boyfriend you could’t help but think these intoxicated questions. Would he still think I’m pretty with all of these scars randomly placed my body?

Exhausted but still being very excited of the idea of seeing your boyfriend, you had just arrived at the dorms after your shift at work due to Jimin texting you to stop by saying he missed you. Receiving cute texts from him always made your worst days better and you couldn’t help but hold back the smile that formed on your face. Reaching the front door, you took a deep breath, preparing yourself knowing that all the boys were going to be home and you knew how much they loved to tease you and Jimin. Turning the knob, the door opened and you couldn’t help but think how these boys were so irresponsible by not even locking the front door. Shaking your head and making your way inside, you greeted Jimin’s friends who had over time became your friends as you made your way to your boyfriend’s room, but not before receiving suggestive looks from the boys. Cheeks burning and probably flushed in a bright red shade you hurried to Jimin’s room to get away from the chuckles and whispers that came from the living room. As soon as you had entered and closed the door behind you, Jimin greeted you with a passionate kiss pressing your body gently into the back of the door. You smiled into the kiss missing the feeling of his plump lips against yours. You pulled back to catch your breath as Jimin muttered “I really missed you y/n”. Not being able to control the feelings you felt as you stared at his flushed face and now swollen lips, you reconnected your mouth with his, this time returning the same amount of passion Jimin was kissing you with. Your hands mindlessly found their way into his soft hair as he slowly lead you both to his bed, lowering you gentle onto it. 

You welcomed the soft feeling of the cotton sheets beneath you as you savoured this moment, not wanting to stop. The feeling of Jimin’s body slightly pressed against yours as his lips worked wonders from teasingly pulling your bottom lip to making light open mouthed kisses all the way down to the base of your neck was enough for you to get lost in the moment and temporarily forget about your doubts and worries. Finding the confidence, you returned the favour and mimicked his actions, nipping at his skin with your lips leaving marks randomly scattered on his collarbone. If it wasn’t for the effect Jimin had on you, you would of never gotten this far and would of bailed before you two even got to the bed but you couldn’t resist, he was too tempting. 

Things escalated quickly and you being too caught up in the heat of the moment you hadn’t realise that Jimin had skillfully been able to remove your jeans leaving your legs bare with only your panties covering your lower region. Your thoughts were too infatuated by the way Jimin and the way he was making you feel to even realise that his hands had found there way to your jeans and removed them with ease. Even though your mind was telling you how badly you wanted this, your body was saying no. You found yourself tensing up, your actions stopped and you stayed there still not knowing what to expect and feeling extremely insecure. Your once screwed shut eyes were now staring widely at him, the doubts clouded back into your mind as you tried to shyly move your body away from his. Jimin realised your sudden change in mood and halted his actions, a little worried he was being too forward with you. He found your scared eyes and immediately lifted his body away from your slightly trembling one. He didn’t want you to feel uncomfortable or unsure about what you both were doing and he respected your decisions but he was still a bit confused. You lowered your head to avoid meeting his gaze any longer and it broke his heart a little to see you like this. He could sense your insecurities and hurt in your eyes as he lifted your chin again, worried about what was going through your mind.

“What’s wrong babe?” he questioned with a look of worry taking over his features. Not being able to form coherent words you just looked away from his intense gaze and down at your scarred thighs, tears starting to form in your eyes. His concerned eyes followed your gaze and saw what was causing you to react this way, your scars. His expression soften and his heart ached at the sight of the multiple lines that were scattered across your soft skin. You felt like curling into a ball and burying yourself in your insecurities and sadness at his reaction, he was just staring and you couldn’t handle the rejection if he didn’t want to be with you anymore, but what he did caught you off guard. You felt the lightest of touches against your thighs where your scars were making tingles run up your spine. You slowly opened your tear filled eyes to see Jimin, with his eyes on your face as he gently kissed each and everyone of the marks as his eyes hold yours, love and adoration filled in them. Your heart leaped at his actions and you couldn’t hold back the tear that was threatening to fall. You were relieved to know that you worried for nothing, all those sleepless night thinking that once Jimin got to see the real you he would run. But you were wrong and you couldn’t be more happy, the man you loved was cherishing each and every inch of your body as if it was the most precious thing in the world. You loved him so much and this meant so much to you, him accepting you for who you are, accepting you and all your faults included. Jimin didn’t care that you would these flaws on your skin’ it was a part of you and he loved everything about you and these markings weren’t going to change that fact. You were perfect in his eyes and he loved you no matter what. 

“I love you no matter what y/n, your’e absolutely beautiful even with these scars”

Originally posted by bangtanroyalty

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65 Questions You Aren't Used To

1. Do you ever doubt the existence of others than you?

2. On a scale of 1-5, how afraid of the dark are you?

3. The person you would never want to meet?

4. What is your favorite word?

5. If you were a type of tree, what would you be?

6. When you looked in the mirror this morning what was the first thing you thought?

7. What shirt are you wearing?

8. What do you label yourself as?

9. Bright room or dark room?

10. What were you doing at midnight last night?

11. Favorite age you’ve been so far?

12. Who told you they loved you last?

13. Your worst enemy?

14. What is your current desktop picture?

15. Do you like someone?

16. The last song you listened to?

17. You can press a button that will make any one person explode. Who would you blow up?

18. Who would you really like to just punch in the face?

19. If anyone could be your slave for a day, who would it be and what would they have to do?

20. What is your best physical attribute? (showing said attribute is optional)

21. If you were the opposite sex for one day, what would you look like and what would you do?

22. Do you have a secret talent? If yes, what is it?

23. What is one unique thing you’re afraid of?

24. You can only have one kind of sandwich. Every sandwich ingredient known to humankind is at your disposal.

25. You just found $100! How are you going to spend it?

26. You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere in the world, but you have to leave immediately. Where are you going to go?

27. An angel appears out of Heaven and offers you a lifetime supply of the alcoholic beverage of your choice. “Be brand-specific” it says. Man! What are you gonna say about that? Even if you don’t drink booze there’s something you can figure out… so what’s it gonna be?

28. You discover a beautiful island upon which you may build your own society. You make the rules. What is the first rule you put into place? 

29. What is your favorite expletive?

30. Your house is on fire, holy shit! You have just enough time to run in there and grab ONE inanimate object. Don’t worry, your loved ones and pets have already made it out safely. So what’s the one thing you’re going to save from that blazing inferno?

31. You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?

32. You got kicked out of the country for being a time-traveling heathen who sleeps with celebrities and has super-powers. But check out this cool shit… you can move to anywhere else in the world!

33. The Celestial Gates Of Beyond have opened, much to your surprise because you didn’t think such a thing existed. Death appears. As it turns out, Death is actually a pretty cool entity, and happens to be in a fantastic mood. Death offers to return the friend/family-member/person/etc. of your choice to the living world. Who will you bring back?

34. What was your last dream about?

35. Are you a good….[insert anything you’d like here]?

36. Have you ever been admitted to the hospital?

37. Have you ever built a snowman?

38. What is the color of your socks?

39. What type of music do you like?

40. Do you prefer sunrises or sunsets?

41. What is your favorite milkshake flavor?

42. What football team do you support? (I will answer in terms of American football as well as soccer)

43. Do you have any scars?

44. What do you want to be when you graduate?

45. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?

46. Are you reliable?

47. If you could ask your future self one question, what would it be?

48. Do you hold grudges?

49. If you could breed two animals together to defy the laws of nature, what new animal would you create?

50. What is the most unusual conversation you’ve ever had?

51. Are you a good liar?

52. How long could you go without talking?

53. What has been you worst haircut/style?

54. Have you ever baked your own cake?

55. Can you do any accents other than your own?

56. What do you like on your toast?

57. What is the last thing you drew a picture of?

58. What would be you dream car?

59. Do you sing in the shower? Or do anything unusual in the shower? Explain.

60. Do you believe in aliens?

61. Do you often read your horoscope?

62. What is your favorite letter of the alphabet?

63. Which is cooler: dinosaurs or dragons?

64. What do you think about babies?

65. Freebie! Ask anything interesting you can think of.

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☝ - How tall are you?

✔ - Sexual Orientation

🚬 - Do you Smoke?

🍷 - Do you Drink?

♒ - Do you Take Drugs?

😳 - Age you get mistaken for?

💉 - Have Tattoos?

✏️ - Want any tattoos?

✂️ - Got any Piercings?

✌ - Want any piercings?

👌 - Best friend?

♥ - Do you like anyone?

🎤 - Top 5 favorite bands?

🎶 - Top 5 favorite songs?

😒 - Biggest pet peeve?

📝 - Story from your childhood.

💬 - I wish…‼️ - Something you’ll change?

💦 - What makes you horny?

🌟 - A wish you’ll wish for?

🔥 - Something spicy you like?

👃 You hate the smell of ….

👊 - Something you hate?

🚶 - Are you single?

💬 - Can we text?

💌 - Fan mail me?

💍 - Marry me?

💘 - Be my tumblr crush?

💭 - Favorite foods?

☀ - Story about your day.

💘 - Top 5 celebrity crushes?

🎥 - Top 5 favorite movies?

📺 - Top 5 favorite TV shows?

✏ - Random fact about yourself.

✈️ - Where are you from?

🚀 - Where do you wanna visit?

😍 - Do you have a crush?

😷 - Something you hate eating?

🙈 - What makes you shy?

💃 - Can you dance?

💏 - Do you love anyone?

👟 - Favorite shoe(s) to wear?

🌴 - A island you would visit?

🌎 - A country you would visit?

🌀 - Favorite type of weather?

🔮 - Do you believe in luck?

📱 - What kinda phone do you have?

📅 - Favorite time of the year?

📚 - Career goal you want?

🍴 - Favorite food(s) to eat?

🍭 - Favorite Candy?

🍇 - Favorite fruits?

🚘 - Dream car(s)?

🚔 - Have you ever been arrested?

🚑 - Have you ever driven in an ambulance before?

🎫 - Do you have a license?

🚼 - Do you have or want kids?

🔞 - Are you under 18?

🐶 - Do you own a pet?

😔 - Something that makes you sad?

😡 - What pisses you off?

😏 - What turns you on?

😈 - Are you a freak?

💪 - Do you work out?

the signs as taylor swift lyrics that spoke to their soul

aries: i’ll spend forever wondering if you knew / i was enchanted to meet you

taurus: you’re still all over me like a wine-stained dress I can’t wear anymore 

gemini: we need love / but all we want is danger

cancer: just because you’re clean / don’t mean you don’t miss it

leo: rain came pouring down when I was drowning / that’s when I could finally breathe

virgo: so I’ll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep / and I feel you forget me like I used to feel you breathe

libra: in the middle of the night / when I’m in this dream / it’s like a million little stars / spelling out your name

scorpio: and for once you let go / of your fears and your ghosts

sagittarius: we blocked the noise with the sound of ‘I need you’ / and for the first time I had something to lose

capricorn: i’ve been spending the last eight months / thinking all love ever does is break and burn and end / but on a Wednesday in a cafe I watched it begin again

aquarius: we learn to live with the pain / mosaic broken hearts

pisces: you tell me about your past / thinking your future was me

tomeandflickcorner  asked:

How about 1, 4 and 9 for the fic writer asks, using whichever fic you'd chose for #1?

Yay!!! Thanks for the ask!

1. Of the fics you’ve written, which is your favorite and why?

This is SOOOO hard for me to answer. I love so many of my fics for different reasons, and honestly it changes daily based on my mood. I would have to say that right now… The Legend of Captain Killian Jones wins out. I’m still riding high on the experience of writing it and the feedback I’ve received from it. So we’ll go with that… but ask me this again tomorrow, and you’ll probably get a different answer!

4. If you could change anything in it, what would it be?

I don’t think I’d change anything in it, but there are things I would have liked to flesh out a bit more. (but seeing as how it was only meant to be a 6k one shot, that grew to ~25k… I had to cut off the muse at some point).

I had intended to give David and MM more of a role. I was going to dive into Emma’s background more. I had some notes for Part 2 that would have included flashbacks of when Killian was corporal in 1817 and again in 1917, to mirror the flashbacks of Part 1. 

Stuff like that. 

But I’m happy with it as it is and have no plans to go back and alter it.

9. Which idea came to you first?

Being that it was for CS Halloweek, the idea of Killian as a ghost was the first thing, but i didn’t want him to be dead, hence the curse. I think some initial notes of how and why he was cursed came first, then I started a list of things that one would experience if Captain Jones was haunting the place…

  • His scent
  • Object manipulation
  • The sound of a piano playing
  • Feelings of being watched
  • Henry seeing him

This was honestly all I had when I mentioned it to Salem (@artistic-writer), and wasn’t even sure I’d write it. Then she took these half-assed ideas and made two stunning pieces of art and I couldn’t NOT write the thing.

I mean COME ON!!!

Y’all totally have her to thank for this thing existing!!!

I wrote this scene in Part 2 based on the original she showed me of this pic. I had the scene planned, but it was going to go a completely different way! Then she had no option but to make the art for it, too!

Thanks for your ask!!!

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P.S. The last piece of art I’m putting under the cut, because…well… its a man’s bare ass. But its awesome ;o)

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Don’t Freak II

Originally posted by kings-of-my-heart

Steve Harrington x Reader



Y/N sniffled as they continued to walk down the dark, tree lined road they had been on for the last hour. Steve looked over to her.

“Are you still crying?”

No,” Y/N huffed.

“I mean, it’s fine if you are,” Steve tried to say nonchalantly.

“I know that,” She bit back a little too aggressively.

“I wouldn’t think any less of you for crying,”

“I’m not crying, Steve!” He held his arms up in surrender.

“I’m just saying,”

“Don’t you ever get tired of ‘just saying’?” She turned the upper half of her body towards him, but kept walking.

“Don’t you ever get tired of shooting everything down?” Steve did the same.

“Don’t start,” Y/N pointed at him.

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Today is my birthday!

Originally posted by butteryplanet

So send me everything…

And I mean…


I don’t care if it’s a moodboard of one of my fics, a pic of Chris or Sebby’s bum or just a quick message to say congratulations. Be creative! Go wild! Birthdays are very special to me, so I wanna make the most out of my personal 24 hours of fame.

There will be a birthday celebration, too, as well as a 2k follower celebration. But since I am spending my birthday in Stockholm, I won’t be able to post anything until I get back.

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cargetaway  asked:

do you know when the pop up merch will be available on her website????

Yes, they said that the merch is only temporarily exclusive and that it will appear on and be returnable to her website once it gets released there (in about a month I think?) I don’t think the free tote bag or the Taylor swift now guitar picks will go on the website though, as those are att items

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  • 4. Describe your bedroom
  • 5. Single or taken or...?
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  • 7. Art or music?
  • 8. Dancer or singer?
  • 9. Favorite candy
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  • 11. How many people in your family?
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  • 15. Turn ons
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  • 20. Has something irritated you recently
  • 21. Are you a good public speaker?
  • 22. Sexuality
  • 23. What would you do with £1000000?
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  • 27. Got a nickname?
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  • 29. What are you up to tomorrow?
  • 30. Hidden talent
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  • 32. How many languages can you speak?
  • 33. Last dream you had
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  • 36. Find the nearest book, open it and and post the first line you see.
  • 37. Do you get on well with your family?
  • 38. Favorite movie quote
  • 39. Ideal holiday destination
  • 40. What is your purpose in life?
To all you new writers out there

So there’s a high chance not many people will see this post, but I’m going to make it anyway. If you’re a new writer, or someone who is struggling with writing, or simply sad no one has stumbled across your master piece feel free to hit me up and talk to me.

I’ve been there, I AM there. I know what it’s like to put so much effort into something (five and a half years and counting!) and have a lack of people interested. I know what it’s like to have your in real life friends uninterested even after they’ve promised a thousand times to read your stuff.

I know what it’s like. I also understand that it’s super scary to be judged, and critiqued, I know as a teenager your writing probably sucks and you don’t know how to get better. I’ve been there too. The story I started five and a half years ago was atrociously written, but I’m 20 now and I got better.

So, for anyone who wants to talk about their own writing, their own novels, who want some critique or advice, even beta reading, hit me up. I know what it’s like to feel under appreciated, so I want to make sure you guys don’t feel that way! I can’t promise to check out everything, because I’m busy and have my own novels I need to work on, but if you need to chat I’m all yours :)