my sunshine my everything come back to me

based on this suggestions blog.  warning:  these are pretty dark/angry  &  could be triggering to some people.  please be cautious before proceeding!!

‘  all i want in my life is for my friends to be able to touch me suddenly  &  me to not flinch away without meaning to.  when will this stop affecting me?  ’
‘  all i want is to be soft  &  gentle,  but i’m made out of steel  &  anger.  maybe in another life,  i guess.  ’
‘  beauty is in the eye of the beholder,  so choose to see beauty in everything.  ’
‘  burning it all to the ground  &  force them to start again.  they made you lose everything.  now return the favor.  ’
‘  do i ever even cross your mind or do i do all the thinking of us on my own?  ’
‘  do you trust me enough?  do you trust me at all?  ’
‘  don’t you dare abandon me.  ’
‘  even after all you have done,  i will always want you fighting on my side.  ’
‘  every time i see you smile i fall in love with your brightness all over again.  ’
‘  everyone i have ever loved is long gone.  i sing to the sky alone.  ’
‘  everyone i touch gets hurt,  but i can’t stop.  i touch  &  i touch  &  i touch  &  people get hurt.  why can’t i ever stop?  ’
‘  everyone says i used to be a hero,  but i can still taste the blood in my mouth  &  still feel bruises blooming because of my fists  &  my eyes are still stretched wide  &  terrified.  ’
‘  everything i love has been taken from me.  what do i have left to fight for?  ’
‘  fall in love with someone that makes you feel strong.  ’
‘  friends are more important than any material object will ever be.  ’
‘  i am aching to hold you  &  keep you safe,  to be pressed against you so that nothing can harm you.  ’
‘  i am divine  &  you will bow before me.  ’
‘  i am fucking divine.  ’
‘  i am in control  &  i listen to no one.  ’
‘  i am not a good person.  don’t pretend i am.  ’
‘  i am not accustomed to love.  this is a learning experience.  ’
‘  i am not worth saving  &  i am not worth redemption.  let me stay in the dark.  ’
‘  i am so tired all the time,  all i want to do is rest.  ’
‘  i am too tired to deal with any of this.  ’
‘  i bow to no man.  ’
‘  i broke into sharp pieces when i broke  &  i expect someone else to hurt their hands on my edges just to put me back together.  i’m sorry.  ’
‘  i can give you your wings back  &  i can show you to fly once more,  if you only believe in me.  ’
‘  i cannot be saved.  ’
‘  i can’t ask for help because if i ask for help it hurts people.  i can bear this weight on my own.  i have to.  ’
‘  i could taste the lies in your mouth every time i kissed you,  but i loved you too much to notice.  ’
‘  i crave affection in the simplest way.  ’
‘  i deserve to hurt.  i deserve to bleed.  ’
‘  i didn’t ask for any of this so don’t you dare blame this on me.  ’
‘  i don’t care if you say my name like it’s poison or like it’s a prayer,  as long as it leaves your lips.  ’
‘  i don’t fight for you anymore.  ’
‘  i don’t want to let go of you.  not now,  not ever.  ’
‘  i don’t want to talk about it.  i don’t want to remember.  i don’t want to heal.  all i want is for it to go away.  ’
‘  i don’t want you to touch me.  please don’t touch me,  just go away.  ’
‘  i feel anger deeper than my bones.  i feel anger in my very soul.  ’
‘  i feel nothing at all,  except for when i feel everything all at once.  ’
‘  i have fallen  &  though i may miss the sky,  i belong here now.  ’
‘  i have fallen from a height your mind cannot even imagine.  ’
‘  i have no home anymore.  ’
‘  i remember collapsing in the flames with a sword in my hand  &  then i remember nothing.  ’
‘  i see beauty in everything,  but especially in you.  ’
‘  i should never have fallen in love with you.  ’
‘  i thought for a long time that i was so terrible no one would look at me.  now i know it’s because i shine so bright they are forced to look away.  ’
‘  i was so caught up in the feeling that i forgot how to breathe.  ’
‘  i will never amount to anything.  i am a failure in the worst type of way.  ’
‘  i will tell myself that the burn of my loneliness in my chest completes me  &  maybe someday it will be true.  ’
‘  if that’s what a hero is i’m glad i’m not one anymore.  ’
‘  if you ask me to,  i will set the whole world on fire,  my dear.  it’s all for you.  ’
‘  is it my fault?  it’s my fault.  it’s always my fault.  ’
‘  it’s not murder if they deserved it,  right?  ’
‘  i’m drowning in emotions that don’t belong to me,  choking on anger  &  suffocating on sadness.  ’
‘  i’m in love with everything that hurts me.  ’
‘  i’m okay.  i’m alright.  this is all in my mind.  ’
‘  i’m ready to give up everything i’ve ever had if it means someone will love me.  ’
‘  i’m so cold  &  i can’t stop shaking.  i am not who you think i am.  ’
‘  i’m so tired all the time  &  i just want to be awake again.  ’
‘  i’m tired of fighting against the pain of being forgotten.  i just want someone to remember me.  ’
‘  i’m tired of fighting everything in my life.  just make it stop.  ’
‘  i’m too tired to care.  blow up,  get angry at me.  i’m sure someday i’ll realize i deserved it.  ’
‘  jealousy burns within me.  ’
‘  just let me go in peace for once in my damn life.  ’
‘  loneliness is a disease  &  it leaves me empty  &  hollow,  like sound goes through my body  &  bounces back.  ’
‘  made of starlight  &  sunshine,  i shine brighter than they all know.  ’
‘  my anger is righteous  &  my actions are pure.  ’
‘  my chest aches  &  my lungs burn.  this sickness comes from the inside.  ’
‘  my chest hurts  &  all i need is some comfort  &  understanding.  ’
‘  my chest hurts  &  i ache to go back to the sky.  ’
‘  my shoulders are aching where wings used to be  &  all i want is for them to stop hurting.  ’
‘  pull me apart  &  piece me together in your own way.  make me perfect.  ’
‘  righteous fury throws through my veins  &  if you touch the people i love i will destroy you.  ’
‘  rise up.  you can’t keep being small when you were made for so much more.  ’
‘  say my name like it’s the only one that’s ever been on your tongue.  ’
‘  so much blood has been spilled in my name.  time to make you believe it was in yours.  ’
‘  so you’ll worry about me when i fall silent,  but not when i scream  &  plead for help?  fuck off.  ’
‘  sometimes people have to get hurt for me to get what i want.  ’
‘  stay away from my fucking friends.  stay the fuck away or so help me i will destroy you.  ’
‘  stop treating me like i’m an idiot.  you aren’t better than me in any way  &  you better remember that.  ’
‘  the bitter taste of regret is ever present on my tongue.  ’
‘  the world is spinning far too fast for me to stay on it.  ’
‘  to love them is my divine right.  ’
‘  voices whisper from the shadows  &  they fill my mind with thoughts of you.  ’
‘  what did i to wrong to be so unloved?  ’
‘  what is the point of power if i’m not supposed to use it?  ’
‘  who the fuck do you think you are?  ’
‘  why can’t i ever fucking stop crying?  ’
‘  with a new year comes new tests  &  triumphs.  let’s try to make the most out of it.  ’
‘  would it really kill you to be honest for once?  ’
‘  yes,  i remember my wings breaking  &  being destroyed.  i was powerless to stop it.  ’
‘  you are not required to love your parents,  or to even like them.  ’
‘  you can’t hate me more than i hate myself,  but you are more than welcome to try.  ’
‘  you may say you love me,  but you love only a part of me.  i am too complex for you to ever love my entire being.  ’
‘  you never fucking cared about me.  don’t fucking lie about it.  not to me.  ’
‘  you remind me of mint.  fresh,  sharp,  kind of cold,  but in a nice way.  i always knew there was a reason mint was my favorite.  ’
‘  you shine light in even the darkest parts of me.  you are my sun.  ’
‘  you should fear me,  but you don’t.  i will be eternally puzzled,  yet grateful.  ’
‘  you touch me  &  my skin burns  &  it burns for you,  always you.  ’

Ok but this would be a cute SU episode

And by cute, I mean SEVERE EMOTIONAL TRAUMA and shipping.

Steven and the gang bring the Homeworld Rubies back to Earth, and as revenge for the months they spent alone in space, they shatter our Ruby’s gem.

A devastated Sapphire bubbles her and carries the bubble everywhere she goes. She can’t “send the bubble home” like she’s supposed to, since Ruby was her home. She can’t get two words out without crying anymore. She misses Ruby too much.

Steven, a master of getting shattered plates to fix themselves, decides to try his luck at fixing Ruby. Surprisingly, it works- except Ruby has no memories of the war, of the other gems… or of Sapphire.

Cue a montage of Sapphire trying to flirt with a confused Ruby, and Ruby’s all like “dis is 2 homo 4 me”

Finally, Sapphire just gives up. They should have known better than to play God- er, Diamond? Who created the gems? She goes back to her room, full of old photographs and paintings of her and Ruby. Her metaphorical heart feels so heavy. She needs to be close to Ruby again… but there’s just no way. She finds an old weapon she used during the war, and she thinks it might shatter her. She wants to do it.

“Don’t do this,” Ruby says from the doorway, and Sapphire drops it. Ruby runs to her, wrapping her arms around the blue gem tightly. She still doesn’t remember, but she can’t stand to see another living thing hurt itself.

She rocks Sapphire and sings a song Steven taught her that same day. It’s her only memory, and it just happens to be a love song.

“You are my sunshine, my only sunshine, you make me happy when skies are grey…” cue duet and all that jazz.

Sapphire pulls Ruby down in to a kiss. Ruby, not much for kissing strangers, just sits there wide eyed for a second before pulling away. It seems there are gears turning in her head after the kiss, because she looks lost in thought.

“Sapphire?” She asks, and suddenly it all comes back to her. It feels like a rush of futurevision- she sees everything all at once for a moment, and then she’s back. She doesn’t even say anything before she pulls her wife in to the most romantic and gayest kiss ever, their lips locked for all the homophobes and their secretly gay tweenage kids to see.

And then we, the fandom, will rejoice, because this is the first real kiss that Cartoon Network has ever let us have.

The end???? why did I waste time on this,

People say there are other fish in the sea..I’m like “Screw you! HE was my fucking Sea!”
—  Till the day i die
Good Girl Ch 35: I Love You Nightmare

“I’m sorry, I’ll be good,” I cry helplessly. My arms struggle uselessly against the ropes holding me to the metal chair.

“We’ve heard that shit before. You are just like the rest of them aren’t you?” He sneers at me. “Just another slut who used her body to keep herself alive. You never cared did you?”

I try to respond threw my cries but I can’t get the words out.

“Did you?” He yells in my face.

“I love you!” I scream out only earning myself a hard slap across the face. I’m in shock for a minute, he’s never hit me before.

“I’m tired of your fucking lying,” Another one growls.

Kai glares down at me, “I can’t even stand looking at her. Fucking disgusting.”

Sehun appears next to him, “Not so brave now are you? What happened to not being afraid of us? I thought you loved us.”

“I did,” I mumble softly, “I do.”

Suddenly Kris is there, his loud laugh fills the cement room and it’s not as comforting as it usually is, “You do? Why? Sure we babied you for a while but you have to know it didn’t mean anything right? You were just our little fuck toy.”

Chanyeol is laughing along with him as I cry harder, “I don’t think she knew. What a dumb girl. Did you really think that we cared? We could have any girl we wanted, why the hell would we pick someone like you? A mutt?”

“You guys are being too mean,” Lay is there with a teasing pout. “You are making the little baby cry,” He mocks me.

“Daddy why?”

“We’re bored,” Suho answers with a shrug. “You knew this would happen the moment you got in our van. This could only end one way Jooyoung… your little body torn to pieces like that boy we killed for you. It only seems fair that you die the same way our dear friend did.”

“I can’t believe we killed Joon for this bitch,” Baekhyun tsks.

“Should have just let him fuck her, that could have snapped us out of her little fucking spell quicker. So much time and money wasted on her.”

Tao looks scarier then I’ve ever seen him, “At least we can get back at her a little now.”

“Who would like to go first?” Luhan claps his hands together happily.

“Me first,” My loving Xiumin appears in front of me with cold eyes and some kind of metal scooper in his hand. I remember what someone said at the meeting, ‘I heard his teeth were ripped out, along with his eyes’.

I scream bloody murder as I struggle to get away from what I know will be coming, “Daddy please! What are you doing? Don’t come any closer!”

“Maybe we should take her tongue out first, I’m getting annoyed with her fucking whining,” Kyungsoo’s harsh words make me stop and seal my mouth closed.

“I like when she whines,” Baekhyun chuckles as he grabs a fist full of my hair and pulls so hard it knocks me back on to the floor.

“Please stop,” I cry as I stare up into their cold lifeless eyes.

“Why? What could you do for us?” Chen is leaning over me.

“I’ll do whatever you want, I’ll be whatever you want. I’ll be such a good girl! I promise not to talk back or talk to any boys, I’ll do anything, just please don’t do this!” I beg.

“I don’t know boys, do we believe her?” Chen looks to the others who are beginning to crowd over me. The group shakes their heads.

“She doesn’t sound too convincing. I don’t think her heart is in it,” Kai hums.

“I’m with Kai on this one, I think she needs a little motivation,” Kris smirks before glancing at Chanyeol who is already holding some tool in his hand.

The normally happy giant crouches down, “I’m happy to give her some. Maybe a taste of pain will give you just enough to beg better. You need to sound weaker, make us care. Cause all I feel right now is irritated by your fucking fake promises. You couldn’t be a good girl if you tried. All you had to do was need us, to listen to us, to be a good girl. You couldn’t even do that. You’re just a piece of trash.” He grabs my jaw and squeezes until I open my mouth.

“Make sure it hurts Yeol,” Chen eggs him on, “I want to hear her scream.”

“Come on beg like the bitch you are.”

“Daddy please,” My heart feels like it’s been shredded to pieces. I’ve heard people say horrible things to me before but I never really cared. It’s different now though, their words cut me deeper than I thought possible. “I’ll be a good girl!” I yell as he brings the tool closer to my teeth. “I’ll be a good girl! I promise I’ll be a good girl!” I scream and thrash as if my life depends on it. Laughs echo around me.  “I’ll be a good girl, I’ll be a good girl!”

“You better be.”

“My love wake up!” Jiyong is shaking me awake. Tears are streaming down my face as I continue to scream. I pause for a minute when I realize I’m not in the cold dark room anymore. Jiyong wraps his arms around me a pulls me close.  “It’s okay Beautiful, I’ve got you, I got you.” He rocks me back and forth on the bed. Next to me Jihyo is passed out cold, not even my screams were loud enough to wake her.

I can’t stop shaking in his arms, the tears continue to roll down my cheeks and my breathing is ragged. I bury my face in his chest and breath in his familiar scent, I need something to ground me back in reality right now. My hands grip his shirt as I get as close as humanly possible to him, thankfully he doesn’t seem t mind.

“Nightmare?” He asks when my breathing finally calms down and I stop crying.

I can’t get myself to respond just yet so I nod.

“Do you want to come sleep with me?” He offers sweetly.

But I shake my head.

“You don’t have to be brave, they told me it’s okay if you’re scared. Do you just want me to leave you here?”

Again, I shake my head.

“What do you want to do than?”

“I want Daddy Xiumin.”

Now it’s his turn not to respond.

“Thank you so much for an amazing weekend but I want to go home. I want my daddies. I don’t care if they throw me away later, I need them right now.” I’m crying into his chest again and I feel horrible for saying it to him but he isn’t what I need right now.

“I’ll call them,” He mumbles as he picks me up. “Until they get here you can come with me.” He quietly carries me back to his room and sits down on his bed where he still doesn’t let me go, instead he holds me on his lap with my face pressed into the crook on his neck. He grabs his phone off the night stand and calls them. The phone is loud enough that I can hear it but not very clearly. Whoever he calls answers on the third ring even though it’s four o’clock in the morning. The person gives quick, and almost bitter, greeting. “She wants you.” Is all he says before he hangs up.

“That’s all?” I whisper into his neck.

“That’s all it takes to make them come running for you.” We sit there in silence for a minute before he gets the nerve to ask, “What was your nightmare about?”

“They were trying to kill me.”

He chuckles humorlessly, “And that makes you want to go back to them?”

“I’m afraid they hate me, I need their reassurance that they don’t. That they still want me.”

“Would it be bad if they didn’t want you?”

I push away from him so that I’m fully straddling his lap but I’m too busy glaring at him to think about it, “What do you mean by that?”

He isn’t one bit bothered by my hostility. He places both on his hands on my face and strokes my cheeks softly. My glare softens at his actions, “I mean that would being with me be that bad?”

“Oppa,” I try to take his hands away but they won’t more.

“No, you need to hear this. You need to know how much you mean to me. You are my everything. Beautiful, you are the sunshine in my life, Tuesday is now my favorite day of the week and this will be one of the most memorable weekends of my life. It’s the first time I was able to hold you close while you slept. The first time I was able to wake up next to you and the first time I’m not worried about the time. I had you all to myself. You can try and tell me that you have your daddies and you don’t need anyone else but we both know it’s a lie.”

“Oppa please,” I beg him, I’m feeling too much right now to have him throw his heart at me. I’m not even able to hold my own without fucking it up, I can’t be in charge of someone else’s.

“I love you.”

“Oppa stop!”

“I love you Jooyoung.”

I try to fight away from his grip, his eyes are burning straight into my soul and I can’t handle it right now. I don’t know how I feel about anything other than wanting to go home and curl into a ball so I don’t have to deal with any problems for at least a few days. But he won’t let me go, he flips us over so he’s on top with that intense stare of his. My hands are pinned on either side of my head and I know it’s pointless for me to struggle at this point so I start to cry.

“I love you Jooyoung.”

“What do you want me to say to that?” I yell at him.

“I want you to admit you love me too. Say it out loud, just once.”

“I don’t,” It’s a lie.

“Say it!” His tone is harder, his hands tighten around mine when I seal my lips tight. “Why can’t you just admit it to me? Just to me! I won’t tell those fucking bastards I just need to hear it from your sweet mouth. I need to hear you say it, please my love, my sunshine, my moon, my stars, my everything. I just need to hear that you love me too.”

We just stare at each other for a minute. I can’t get myself to stop crying or to look away from him but he can’t either. His eyes blood shot from holding back tears, my heart breaks at the realization because I didn’t realize I was crushing his. I stop struggling in his grip.

He tries again, “I love you Jooyoung.”

“I love you Jiyong,” The words come out of my mouth barely above a whisper but he heard it. He closes his eyes for a moment but a handsome smile spreads across his face before he buries his face in the crook of my neck.

“I love you, I love you, I love you.” I’ve never heard him so happy. A small smile plays on my lips that try to hide but I can’t help it. I’m happy he’s so happy but I feel bad at the same time. I’m betraying my daddies, even though I’m forced into this situation, I could have gotten out of it. Jiyong would never hurt me, yet I decided to admit, to confess that I do love him. Not as much as my daddies of course, but I do love him. Our moment in broken by the sound of his phone ringing, “They must have been in town, fuck.”

He climbs off me as he grumbles something under his breath that I can’t quiet catch. Irritation is obvious in his voice as he answers the phone, “We’ll be down in a minute.” Without another word he hangs up and throws his phone on the bed.

“What about Jihyo?”

“I’ll take care of her, don’t worry. You just go home and go back to sleep. I’ll see you on Tuesday,” He sighs. He heads to the door but stops when he doesn’t hear me following. “Don’t want to go anymore?”

“I didn’t really have time to think of what I’m going to say to them.”

“What do you mean?”

I sigh, “I don’t know how to tell them that I had a nightmare where they tried to kill me.”

“Be a big girl and tell them just like that.”

I shake my head, “They don’t want me to be a big girl, I don’t want to be a big girl anymore.”


I cut him off, “In my dream I told them I would be a good girl.”

He scoffs at me, “That was a dream.”

“No! You don’t understand,” I snap at him. “I can tell in real life that they are getting tired of my attitude. All they need me to do is need them, to listen to them, to be a good girl. If that’s all it takes to get them to keep loving me, I’ll do it.”

He doesn’t say anything for a minute. His phone goes off again but instead of reaching for it, he reaches for me. My legs are around his waist as he picks me up like a child.

“Oppa,” I question.

“If you want to be little, I’ll treat you like you are. You had a nightmare, act like it, they’ll worry over you like they want to.” He carries me to the elevator and holds me the whole way down. My face is buried in the crook of his neck when we reach the first floor. As soon as we step out of the elevator I feel them crowd around us but I can’t get myself to look right away.

“Is she okay?” Baekhyun worries. Kyungsoo and Lay’s voice echoes the same worry as they ask a dozen questions about what could be wrong with me. The empty lobby is soon filled with their familiar warm voices.

“Where is Xiumin?” Jiyong asks.

“He had to stay behind, why?” Kris’s voice is suddenly cold. I can feel him right behind me.

“She asked for him.”

“I’ll take her,” Kris eagerly places his hands on me.

“Is that okay?” Jiyong asks me.

I nod meekly, both nervous and excited to be back with them. Without much of a fight Jiyong hands me over to Kris. I latch on to him, not even giving him a chance to look at my face before I hide it in the crook of his neck. He smells like firewood and his clone that I love. God how I missed him, I missed all of them.

“She’ll be really tired. We didn’t get back till about two hours ago and her and Jihyo were messing around for about an hour of that before they passed out,” Jiyong tells them.

“Did she tell you what her nightmare was about?” Luhan wonders.


Season 4 Finale Predictions

Wow!   Are we really here already?  As I did last season I’ll do my finale predictions as well as items we might see carry on into Season 5.  I don’t think I’m going to do as good as I did last season but here we go!

I’ll go under the thing because it got long.  I’m going dark at 4 pm MST so any asks I don’t get too before then will have to wait until tomorrow. 

I’ll see you all on the other side!

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A lesson or a blessing

For every lie that escaped your lips; violence in the shape of question
I thank you.

For every laugh that left your mouth, a mockery of everything I am; everything
I stand for,
I thank you.

For every twisted paradise you made with your paintbrush that could only
ever paint pain,
I thank you.

You are the reason I live with my
pockets full of sunshine,

You are my hardest lesson and my strongest goodbye,

You built me up to watch me fall
and now I’m flying-

I owe you nothing but silence and ash,
for you killed parts of me that will
never come back.

But I thank you.

BTS Reaction to their girlfriend coming home drunk

but she doesn’t drink often

Anonymous requested: “Hello , could you do bts gif reaction of their s/o comming home drunk ( she practicully never drinks & she doesn’t like alchochol ) thank you so much .

A/N: ay team lw amirite; enjoy ^^


You trudge inside Jin’s place, barely able to make it to the couch and you couldn’t even close the door all the way. “Jinnie!” You call for your boyfriend.

Though he’s right in front of you and you didn’t even notice, “Yes Jagiya?” He says in an upset tone. “Care to explain why you came home quite late?”


He briefly inhales and that’s all it took for him to realize the amount of alcohol you consumed. He sighs and goes to the other room to fetch you a glass of water. “I know this rarely happens, but we’re talking about this tomorrow morning.”

Originally posted by bwibelle

Yoongi doesn’t typically wake up to external noises, but you on the other hand was extremely loud opening the door, entering, setting your bag down, and closing the door- slamming it. He woke up completely and made his way out of his bedroom to find you.

“Yoongi!” You yell out to him. Hic.

“Jagi?” He replies and you run straight into his arms, wanting a great hug.

He looks down at you and pats your head. You meet his gaze halfway, “Hi Jagiya~”

His confused expression fades into a blank face. You never called him Jagiya before. It’s always Yoongi-ah, yeobong, or “bae” if you feel like you want to annoy him. “You’re drunk.”

“No I’m not!”

But he then smells the alcohol lingering in your breath.

He sighs and pushes you away, walking back into his bedroom already knowing that you’re going to follow- and you did as expected. You have far too much energy, and he’s going to have to think of a way to keep you occupied. Possibly with TV or by late drunk talks; except, you’re the only one drunk here and Yoongi’s just getting entertainment

Originally posted by jiminnejams

Hoseok paced the living room in anticipation of when you’re going to come home. It’s your birthday night and he prepared drinks since you never drank before, and who else would be better to experience the very moment with none other than your boyfriend? Or so he thought.

You come in and Hoseok immediately greets you. You look up at him with a great smile, “Hi Hobi~ My sunshine, my ray of light, my everything!”

You twirl into his arms and laugh. He grabs onto you and walks you over to the couch, “Jagi! You drank without me?”

“We can still drink!” You comment.

“No,” he lays you down, “we won’t!”

Originally posted by bangtanbighit

Namjoon was in the middle of reading a new book he started as he waited for time to pass by for you to come home. You swing open the door and yell, “Joonie! I’m back~”

“Welcome back Jag-” He looks up and sees you struggling to walk, looking drunk out of your mind. “I think I see why you don’t typically drink.

You laugh, “What are you talking about?”

He sets his book down and walks over to help you into the room, “No more drinking for you.”

Originally posted by bangtangirl-cutennes-v

Jimin was startled when he heard you call out to him as he took a shower. You kept knocking on the door until he answered and Jimin grabbed his towel that was hanging on the rack to wrap it around his waist.

He opens the door and you go into his arms, digging your face into his chest. “You smell nice,” you tell him as you sniffle, “so good. I love you.”

Jimin’s arms are up, unsure of what to do and has no clue why you’re acting like this. He hears you sniffle again and feels something wet drip down his chest. “J- jagiya? Are you crying?”

His arms wrap around you and he pulls you in an embrace. No response. Jimin calls out to you again, “Jagi?”

Your arms fall to your side and now you’re just leaning against Jimin unconsciously.

“…Jagiya?” He pushes you back and you fall in his arms, knocked out cold and drool dripping from your mouth. He looks back down on his chest and realizes what that liquid was, “Agh, Jagi! I just took a shower! Wait, did you drink for once?”

Originally posted by holdmettightbts

You interrupt Taehyung and his anime time by jumping right in front of him, blocking the view of his laptop. “Taehyungie!” You laugh, “Talk to me!”

“W- what? Jagi, when did you come home?” He asks, surprised.

“I said talk to me!” You try to gently hit his face, but miss.

He leans down to smell your breath- alcohol.

“Aish, Y/N you know how I feel about you drinking.”

“I’m sorry.” You pout.

He remains silent and pauses his anime, moving you to the side of the bed so he can properly take care of you.

Originally posted by jinssmile

Jungkook is in the middle of a game while you spam the doorbell. Angry, he left the game server and swings open the door with force. You fall into his arms and he starts to worry, “Babe?”

No reply. You’re knocked out cold. “Baby, are you okay?” He tries to pull you up, but fails. Instead he carries you bridal style on the couch. He sets you down and moves the hair out of your face. “I guess good night.” He kisses your forehead and smells something. The strong scent of lingering alcohol. “Babe?!”

He pulls himself up and stares down at you, this is the last time you’re drinking without me with you.

Originally posted by holdmettightbts

23 days left of school….. the kids are already insane…. it’s already 90 degrees…… teachers have run out of things to teach….. we have resorted to movies and building towers out of uncooked spaghetti noodles and marshmallows….. i’m looking forward to summer and everything but i’m going to miss all of their little sunshine-y faces so damn much???? then i get to see them come back as 7th graders in september and they’re going to grow up before my eyes and i’m going to cry the heaviest tears!!!!!! 

i’m too emotionally fragile for this hahaha

anonymous asked:

sara/leonard or sara/oliver


okay so, first of all whoever sent this is a heathen. i know i asked for this but i also did not a s k for this. kudos to you for fucking with my life because this is the hardest thing i’ll ever have to answer. but i love you for it, you’re my sunshine, thank you so much.

secondly, i’ve given this so much thought before this was even in my inbox because, ultimately, they’re both ridiculously valuable to me && my daughter for reasons i haven’t been able to find the right words for. if i had to choose one ship it’d have to be sara && oliver. without a doubt, oliver is sara’s home. she always comes back to him. through everything, through every one, she finds herself coming back to him. he’s lost her so many times && vice versa. 

none of this makes any sense. oliver && sara. that’s all.

Steroline Drabble- Warm Me Up

Prompt from akward-ray-of-sunshine : how about Caroline coming back from a hard day at Whitmore at the Salvatore house and Caroline talks about annoying people at the school while stefan makes a hot chocolate for her. :) (my first prompt)
A/N: Don’t know if this was what you were looking for but I tried my best! Enjoy and send feedback :)


Long classes, boring teachers, annoying classmates who seemed to know just about everything in every class.  Another terrible day at Whitmore.  Caroline and Bonnie were constantly at school and studying hard, and usually they went to visit Stefan and Damon on the weekends at the Salvatore house, but Caroline couldn’t take it anymore.  So she went on that insanely cold Tuesday afternoon to see Stefan.  

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Fall Out Boy- Folié à deux sentence starters
  • "I'm coming apart at the seams"
  • "There's a hole where something was"
  • "Don't worry. You'll never remember your head is far too blurry"
  • "Hey doctor I'm certifiable"
  • "What a match, I'm half doomed and you're semi-sweet"
  • "Boycott love."
  • "Detox just to retox"
  • "I don't care."
  • "As long as it's about me"
  • "Say my name and his in the same breath, dare you to say they taste the same"
  • "Pull a breath like another cigarette."
  • "Pawn shop heart tradin' up."
  • "The best of us can find happiness in misery"
  • "Hell or glory, I don't want anything in between"
  • "They always bring up how you've changed"
  • "We didn't come to compete"
  • "Never the same person when I go to sleep as when I wake up."
  • "You could have knocked me out with a feather"
  • "I know you've heard this all before."
  • "But we're just hells neighbors "
  • "I must confess I'm in love with my own sins"
  • "You can pretend you don't know you're a legend"
  • "Head like a steel trap"
  • "I don't just want to be a footnote in someone else's happiness"
  • "Does your husband know the way the sunshine gleams from your wedding band?"
  • "Does he know the way, of the crickets that would convince me to call it a night"
  • "I will never end up like him"
  • "Behind my back I already am"
  • "Tempest in a teacup"
  • "Peroxide princess, shine like shark teeth"
  • "Sometimes I wanna quit this all"
  • "Besides, the dollar is down"
  • "I wanna scream I love you from the top of my lungs, but I'm afraid someone else will hear me"
  • "My mouth got going "
  • "And I asked him it back would bring our luck back"
  • "You can only blame your problems on my world for so long before it all becomes the same old song"
  • "I can't explain a thing"
  • "I want everything"
  • "Oh baby, when they made me, they broke the mold."
  • "I will never believe in anything again"
  • "Kick drum beating in my chest again"
  • "I love the mayhem more than the low"
  • "Change will come"
  • "I got troubled thoughts and the self esteem to match."
  • "You'll never catch us"
  • "Let me be"
  • "This flag says I still want you back"
  • "They say the captain goes down with the ship"
  • "If home is where the heart is, we're all just fucked"
  • "I want it so bad Id shoot the sunshine into my veins"
  • "I can't remember the good old days"
  • "It's kinda funny the way we're wearing anchors on our shirts"
  • "My mind is a safe"
  • "My body is an orphanage"
  • "Milligrams in my head burning tobacco in my wind."
  • "Chasing the directions you went"
  • "You're a bottled star"
  • "You shine in the sky"
  • "Are all the good times getting gone?"
  • "I've got a lot of friends who are stars but some are just black holes."
  • "Being anchored just feels like a curse"
  • "I'm not a crybaby"
  • "I'm the crybaby"
  • "Romancandle heart keeps us far apart"
  • "Hate me baby maybe"
  • "I'm a piece of art"
  • "My friends all lie and say they only want the best wishes for me"
  • "Oh baby you're a classic"
  • "But you'll be fading soon"
  • "I can make your heart slow"
  • "Wish hard enough I can turn it to what I like"
  • "I'm a young one stuck in the thoughts of an old ones head"
  • "While all the others were just stirring awake I'm trying to trick myself to fall asleep again"
  • "My heads in heaven"
  • "My soles are in hell"
  • "Let's meet in the purgatory of my hips and get well"
  • "Hurry, hurry !"
  • "What makes you so special?"
  • "I'm gonna leave you"
  • "I'm gonna teach you how we're all alone"
  • "I'm alone, all alone"
  • "If we don't medication, won't sleep for days."
  • "I'm a sunshine machine"
  • "Have you ever wanted to dissapear?"
  • "Please take me back."
  • "I'm astray dog sick"
  • "Please let me in"
  • "Don't let the doctor in I wanna blow off steam"
  • "It feels like fourteen karats but no clarity when I look at the man who would be king"
  • "We won"
  • "Wishes bounce me weightless"
  • "Infrared scope on pointlessness"
  • "Oh hell yes"
  • "I'm a nervous wreck"
  • "I'm the last of my kind"
  • "Knock once for the father"
  • "The drugs just make me reset"
Fight Song ~ Part 9 ~ I Don’t Care

Originally posted by d-i-s-a-p-p-e-a-r-s

Warnings: Depression, attempted suicide, hallucinations

Pairings: Steve X Reader X Bucky

Word Count: 2704

Heavy Trigger warning!!!

Hallucinations, attempted Suicide, Depression, and Vomiting…


When we pull up outside my house I throw open my door and practically run into the house and instantly start to search for a bottle of anything. I needed something to forget the pain. Something to drown my sorrows. Something to make me feel numb. I throw open the liquor cabinet doors and grabbing the closest bottle twist the cap off and bring it to my lips. I take three big gulps before I come up for air the Whiskey burning as it settles in my stomach. I kick my heels off and setting the bottle down momentarily I pull my coat off and toss it onto the floor. Grabbing the bottle I stomp up the stairs and reaching my room slamming the door behind me as I walk through it.

I take another gulp before I set the bottle down and reaching back unzip my dress and toss it in the corner of the room. I grab the bottle and walking into the bathroom, turn the shower on and climb inside. The power was still off so no doubt it would be cold; but that was what I wanted. I wanted to be numb. At first the cold water stings my skin but soon I can’t feel it anymore. I bring the bottle to my lips and take another gulp. I hear the sound of doors opening and closing and my heart clenches.

Frowning I bring the bottle to my lips and just start chugging. After a few gulps I pull the bottle from my lips and glare at it. “Stupid girl,” I say to myself as I lean my head back making the icy water pull the curls from my hair. I run a hand through my hair before I turn around and place my face in the ice cold water streaming from the shower head. I look down at the shower drain and clench my jaw as I see the makeup wash away. I set the bottle down on the shower rack before I bring my hands to my face and start scrubbing roughly making the makeup instantly disappear.

After a few seconds I turn the water off and grabbing the bottle climb out of the shower and walk to the mirror. I stare at my reflection for a moment and silently fight the urge to punch the mirror. My lips are bright blue and my skin is a pale white. I stare at my eyes for a moment before the familiar sight of Devlin catches my eye. I slowly turn toward him and holding my arms up say, “Is this what you want? Me, a train wreck, borderline suicidal, inches from just walking out into the night like this and not looking back?”

“You know me all too well.” He says as a smirk crosses his lips.

“I should have just let you do what you wanted to me.”

“Oh?” he says raising an eyebrow.

“Yeah,” I say as tears fill my eyes. “I should have just lain there and taken it.”

I’m glad you finally see it my way kid,” He says as he stands and walks over to me. I stand there unmoving as he reaches forward and runs his fingertips from my lips to my chest. He stops as a shiver runs through my body. “What’s the matter, Cold?”

“Nope,” I say as I bring the bottle to my lips and down a couple more gulps.

“Then do it,” He says pulling his hand away from me and sitting down on the window seat.

“What?” I say surprised as I raise an eyebrow.

“End it,” He says folding his arms over his chest. “It’s what you want right? To be free from all the pain, the heartache, and the memories,”

“I want numbness,” I say as I grip tightly to the bottle making my knuckles turn white.

“Then end it,” He says leaning backwards in his seat. I walk over to my door and locking it turn back to the window. I feel sadness wash over me as I walk over to the window and leaning forward unlatch it and right as I start to open it someone grabs my hands. I stare at the hands blankly before I follow them to their owner.

“Come on sunshine, you don’t want this.” Duggan says making tears fill my eyes.

“I want to be with you,” I cry out as I tighten my grip on the window pane.

I know you do, but I want you to live.”

“What about what I want?” I cry out as I feel my knees buckle underneath me.

“I know it hurts but that’s how you know you’re alive.” He says as he kneels down next to me. “Listen to me Sunshine,” he says as he reaches up and placing his fingers under my chin lifts it enough to stare into his eyes,“I love you, you are my Sunshine, and I want you to be happy but if you do this then you won’t be happy.”

“I’m so lonely grandpa; I don’t know what to do anymore. It hurts so much.” He instantly pulls me into his arms and I clutch tightly to him like my life depends on it.

“It’ll be okay Sunshine, you’ll be okay.” He says as he rubs my shoulders.

‘I miss you,“ I say as I clutch tightly to him.

"I miss you too, but please be strong for me. I want you to be happy.”

“Oh come on old man you know what’ll make her happy,” Devlin says and clench my jaw. “Come on kid, open the window.”

“Sunshine, do not open that window,”

“I can’t take this anymore!” I cry out loudly and grip tightly to the sides of my head as my grandfather and Devlin yell back and forth at each other. Tears stream down my face as I sit in the floor my legs pressed up against my chest as my lips tremble from the cold. “It hurts, everything hurts; I want it to end! Please just make it end!” I yell out as I start to pull at my hair their arguing only getting louder.

Opening my eyes I look over to see the bottle and instantly reach for it. Grabbing it I quickly bring it to my lips and start to chug drowning the voices out making everything quiet. Suddenly the bottle slips from my hand and crashes onto the floor making it shatter. I feel numbness overtake me and my eyelids grow heavier until they close completely. I hear people cry out my name but I can’t move.

It’s quiet, so quiet.

Everything’s calm and peaceful. 

No more Devlin, no more pain, no more tears, just quiet.

It’s warm, so warm.

“(Name)!” Steve cries out from somewhere in the darkness making my heart rise in my chest.

What’s going on?

“Come on (Name) you need to throw up!” Steve’s voice says again and I look around.

Why is it so dark? Where is everyone? What did I do?

“Follow my voice Stark, come back!”

Bucky? Steve? What’s going on?

I suddenly feel something go down my throat and my eyes instantly shot open as all the alcohol I had drank comes back up from my stomach.

“Good girl, come on just keep at it.” Bucky says as he rubs my back while Steve holds my hair.

“W-w-w-what h-h-h-happened?” I ask as the black specks quickly leave my eyes making me realize I was now in the bathroom head in the toilet as more vomit spews from my mouth.

“We heard you crying out and came running.” Steve says making you slowly turn to look at him his eyes filled with worry and panic. “When we found the door locked we panicked,”

“Sorry about the door,” Bucky says and I chuckle slightly as I say, “W-w-what is it with y-y-y-y-you and doors Barnes, w-w-w-w-what did my doors ever do to you?”

“They wouldn’t open that’s what!” He says and before I can reply more alcohol comes up my throat making me throw up in the toilet.

“What happened?” Steve asks and tears fill my eyes and I wipe my mouth as I say, “I just wanted it to be quiet. I couldn’t take the voices and the pain anymore.”

“So you were gonna kill yourself?” Steve asks and I stare at the toilet.

“At first yeah,” I say as I wince at the pain in my stomach, “Then when grandpa Dum showed up I knew I couldn’t but I just wanted it to be quiet. He started arguing with Devlin and I just couldn’t take it.” I say as tears fall down my cheeks. “I wish this would all just end. I’m tired of the voices; I’m tired of seeing things that aren’t there.” My stomach churns and I upchuck into the toilet.

“Bucky go get her some water and bread, she’s gonna be here for a while.”

“You gonna get her some clothes?” Bucky asks and Steve nods. Bucky pats my back one more time before he stands and heads down the stairs.

Clothes? I glance down to see that I am still in just my underwear and I instantly cover myself. Well this is awkward.

“I’ll be right back,” Steve says as he stands and walks into my bedroom to find me some clothes. I pull myself from the toilet and pushing myself to my feet find that I can walk. Sort of. I stumble into the bedroom and staring at him say, “Why didn’t you guys just let me go?”

His back tenses as he says, “What would Stark say if you had died?”

“Good riddance,”

“No (Name) he wouldn’t!” Steve says sternly making me jump slightly at his words. “Dammit (Name) is that all you think of him? He’s your father,”

“Then where was he when I was dying?” I cry out. “Not just a few minutes ago but when I was child, the night my innocence was taken from me. The night I put a bullet through Devlin’s head and his blood splattered all over me. huh? Where was he then?”

“You can’t hold that against him (name) he didn’t know you were alive.”

“You’re right,” I say as I hold my hands up in surrender. “Oh wait you’re always right, You’re Captain fucking America!”

“(Name) this isn’t you.”

“Isn’t it though?” I say as a chuckle escapes my lips.

“You’re still drunk, you need to calm down.”

“And you need to go to hell,” I say as I look around for anything I could throw at him.

“What the hell did I walk in on?” Bucky says as he stands in the doorway glancing back and forth between me and Steve.

“Glad you could join us Soldier,” I say making him raise an eyebrow at me. “Please for the love of god explain to me what I have done to make you both hate me?”

“What? We don’t hate you.” Bucky says as he furrows his brow at me.

“Well then why did you avoid me and pull away from me?”

“You were on a date (Name),” Steve says making me slowly glare at him. “Don’t you think it’s bad to flirt with someone else in front of your date?”

“Seriously?” I ask as a chuckle escapes my lips. “You’re talking about Blake right?” They nod and I instantly fold my arms over my chest as I say as calmly and angrily as I can, “He’s gay you assholes!” They both stare at me wide eyed and I roll my eyes. “He’s in a relationship with Mikey; he just can’t let people know because around here everyone is extremely prejudiced, like deathly prejudice.”

“(Name), we-” Bucky starts but I quickly hold up my hands silencing him.

“Just don’t okay,” I walk over to him and taking the water and bread from him and place it on a nearby dresser say, “Thank you for your help, now please both of you get out of my room.”

“Wait, why are you the only one allowed to be angry?” Bucky asks and I glare at him.


“Yeah,” he says as he folds his arms over his chest and stands tall in the doorway.

“Because that’s how it goes,”

“Then why did you lie to us?”

“What the hell are you talking about Barnes?”

“You lied about not liking us, but at the bar we heard you talk to Blake about us.”

“You heard that?” I ask my arms falling to my sides as I stare up at him in shock.

“We heard everything,” Steve says and I feel a knot well up in my throat.

“And?” I say as I gulp down a breath of air.

“We understand you don’t want to ruin our friendship but you really couldn’t. Buck’s my brother, I trust him completely, and I know that even if you decide to pick him it wouldn’t change that.”

“If you were there then you know I can’t choose. I just can’t, I like you both.”

“We know,” Bucky says as he reaches out and places his hands on my shoulders. I look up at him as he offers me a reassuring smile.

“I-” Before I am able to finish speaking I run back to the bathroom and throw up again.

“Thank you for not puking on me!” Bucky yells out from inside my room and I roll my eyes. A few seconds later I see someone place a shirt and Pajama pants down next to me and I slowly glance over at them. Steve offers me a soft smile and my eyes soften.

“I’m sorry about what I said,” I say as Bucky walks in with the water and the bread.

“Don’t worry about it Stark,” Bucky says as he plops down in the floor next to me and hands me the glass of water that I instantly attack, gulping it down in seconds. As I finish the glass I sit it down beside me as I lick my bottom lip.

“Who would have thought water would taste so good?” I say as I wipe my mouth. Bucky chuckles and I look over to see him smirking at Steve who mimicked his expression. “Um can I get some privacy?” I ask I grab my clothes. They quickly nod before jumping to their feet and walking out of the bathroom and into my bedroom closing the door in the process. Although unknown to me the door didn’t exactly close all the way.

Clothes in hand I push myself to my feet and let out a sigh. Placing the clothes on the sink I reach around and start unclasping my bra. Pulling it from my body I drop it down onto the floor, I’d pick it up later. I glance at the mirror to see a bruise now appearing on my stomach and I shake my head. Bucky didn’t need to see it; it would only make him feel like shit. I gently run my fingers along ther bruise as a memory appears in my mind.

“Who’s that grandpa?” I ask as I point to the picture in my grandfather’s old scrapbook. It was an older picture of all of the howling commandos standing next to each other.

“That’s Sergeant Barnes, better known as Bucky,”

“Bucky?” I say as a chuckle escapes my lips.

“Yes ma'am.” He says as he pulls the photo from the book and holds it closer for me to see. “He was a good man, and a good friend.”

“What happened to him?”

“He uh,” he pauses not sure how to continue; “He fell off a train, and ended up asleep.”


“Yeah,” I look up into my grandfather’s blue eyes to see a melancholy look in his eyes and I offer him a reassuring smile.

“Don’t worry he’ll wake up, I promise.”

Oh how right had I been?

I smirk as I reach out and pulling my shirt over my head, run a hand through my hair. Reaching back to the sink I grab my Pj pants and quickly slipping into them let out a sigh. My stomach churns and I quickly move back over to the toilet right as another fit of vomiting occurs. “(Name)?” Steve says as he knocks on the door.

“Yeah?” I groan out as I pull some toilet paper form the roll and wipe my mouth.

“Can we come in?”

“Yeah,” He opens the door and I slowly turn to see that both he and Bucky’s faces were flushed and I tilt my head. “What’s up with you two?”

“Um the uh,” Steve starts but his face just turns redder.

“What Steve is trying to say is that the door didn’t close,”

“And?” I ask clearly not understanding.

“We, uh saw, uh everything,”

“Everything?” I ask tilting my head. He motions to my body and my face instantly turns bright red.

“OHMYGOD why didn’t you say anything?!” I cry out which instantly resulted in my vomiting again. “You know what never mind, I need to lay down.”

“Here I’ll help you up,” Steve says as he instantly moves to my side lifting me up with ease.

“Thank you,” I say as my head suddenly starts to spin. Shaking it I reach out for the wall and find two sets of hands instantly grabbing me and helping me toward my bed. When we reach it Bucky pulls the blankets back allowing me to crawl atop of the bed. I snuggle down under the sheets and reach out for Captain Ameri-bear and Bucky-bear. I feel them place the covers over my shoulders and I let out a content sigh.

“I don’t think we should leave her alone,” I hear Steve say and I listen quietly as I stare at the wall.

“I agree but what are we gonna do? After all that’s happened tonight I doubt she wants to share a bead with us again.” Bucky says and I roll my eyes.

“If you two are that worried about me then just get in the dam bed, I’ll worry about the results later.” I say as I close my eyes.

“Are you sure?” I hear Steve ask and I let out an annoyed sigh.

“Yes, now shut up and get in the bed; my head’s starting to hurt.” I reply making Bucky chuckle.

“You heard the lady Rogers,” Bucky says as he walks over and plops down on the side of the bed he used the night before making me glare at him as my head starts to pound.

“I will kill you Barnes,” I say making him smirk.

“Yeah, yeah, night Stark.” He says as he leans back and placing his hands behind his head closes his eyes. The bed sinks down behind me and I suddenly become overly aware that Steve is lying behind me.

Not now hormones I’m tired.

“Night Barnes, Goodnight Steve.” I say as I clutch tightly to my stuffed bears.

“Goodnight (Name).” He replies his voice sounding almost like a lullaby.

I’m gonna hate it when I wake up.

Will Continue in ~ Happy Birthday

It has honestly warmed my heart reading your guys’s stories about Andrea so I just thought I’d post about how much sunshine she has brought to my life too. Back in June 2014 I was going through kind of a rough time, I’d been really sick for a while and my friends weren’t being very nice to me and the Taylor concert was all I had to look forward to whilst waiting for the school year to end. 

So come the second night of the red tour I was so fortunate to meet with and have time with Taylor, she was absolutely incredible of course - so sweet, beautiful, and kind. Everything people say she is. I was watching the show afterwards and ran with my friend over to the B-Stage. Andrea spotted us immediately as we were all lit up and rushed over to us with her arms outstretched. 

I had taken a selfie with her before State of Grace and she said that she wanted to stop and talk but it was too busy to do so at the time and that she was so glad she had found me and my friend again. She embraced us as soon as she saw us and gave us both kisses on the cheek, she thanked us profusely for loving her daughter and watched with us in awe as Taylor performed. She asked us if it was okay if she would sit with us and watch the B-Stage part of the show and of course we said yes. 

She sang every single word. Taylor sang You Belong With Me, Long Live and Sparks Fly and she kept looking at us and making eye contact and adorable hand gestures during all of the songs and was laughing at how hard we sang the lyrics to Long Live. She said that we were going to love the new stuff, and we thanked her for giving birth to such a beautiful human - to which she laughed and said it’s all down to Taylor herself. She said she was so sorry she couldn’t give us Club Red (there was no CR that night) and I told her it was fine because I had a meet and greet. She apologised to me for not being able to give me a gift I was not expecting to receive, how amazing is she? 

Andrea lit up my life for the period of time I spent with her, I was so fantastically happy having just met Taylor and watching her perform Long Live - meeting Andrea, someone whom I have looked up to as well for a long time was just perfect. 

It was so clear where the kind, generous, warm and loving sides of Taylor came from after meeting Andrea - she treated us like her own children and mothered us so perfectly even in just a 15 minute interaction. She was so thrilled to be with us and share an experience that she knew for us was so defining. Singing with her is a memory I’ll never forget and I’m so saddened to hear that she’s going through something that no one as beautiful as her should experience. I wish her every health and happiness, and I’m sure that her family are coming together to support her in the best way they know how. 

'Caught in the Rain'

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summary: rain can be interpreted in so many different ways, even by members of the same band

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  • I swear the clocks today are ticking two seconds forward, and then three seconds back, because whooooooa. Slowest. Day. Ever. 
  • I have this coming Monday off because I worked both days last weekend, and I am so, so, so excited. I have zero plans, but whether I end up doing everything, or nothing, it shall be glorious. 
  • I’m volunteering tomorrow morning for Project Sunshine with Swarovski Crystal to help make Christmas ornaments with children with cancer. I’m really excited for it.  
  • My blog is getting a makeover (wa-hoo! About time) and I can’t wait to see the final thing go live. 
  • I haven’t painted my nails this whole week! That’s a record for me, but I saw my nails were getting slightly yellow (ewwwww) so I’m giving them a little breather. 
  • Tonight my friend Angela is coming over to my apartment for wine and dinner and girl time, which is particularly excellent because last night I super cleaned my apartment and did three loads of laundry. 
  • Therapy is amazing. So fantastic, in fact, that I look forward to it each week. However, although it’s not really a ‘however,’ but I googled my therapist earlier this week. Bad freaking idea. As she’s friends with a girl from my old university who I really really really never liked. Hmm. HMM. It was so weird seeing her with this girl, and knowing she knows all my secrets.
  • Work is quiet today, which is awesome, and I sort of feel lost being between projects right now.  As y'all probably already know, I absolutely love my job - being a Product Manager, and am thinking about doing a vlog post about how to get into it, and my story of getting here. 
  • It’s that annoying time of year where I want to put up a Christmas tree, and decorate my apartment, but it’s too early. Booo. 
  • It snowed yesterday. !!!. 
  • And holy hell, how has this blog post only taken up 6 minutes of the day. 
  • 2 hours n’ counting…