my zine collection

Illustration for the cover of my upcoming zine, Specimens, Collections and Curiosities II. It’s like a sequel to my first zine, but it has more witchy things! I’ll have them in my shop at the end of the month, AND I’ll have them at my table at MoCCA in NYC on April 1 and 2nd. It’ll be my first time back in the city so please come say hi!

On today’s episode of “If Rae could write Symmrat fanfic worth a damn”

A small Overwatch mission in Paris wraps up well after the midnight hours and is one of the first times the team can take a breather before going back to Gibraltar. On their way back to the rendezvous, Junkrat notices that Symmetra is distracted by some signage near one of the country’s many museums. He learns that shes a huge art nerd and one of her favorite artists had an exhibition that wrapped up earlier that day. This was the last time the art would be on exhibition to the public and after tonight, will be put away to a private collection for good.

Amused and amazed by her passion for art and through a FAIR amount of coaxing, Junkrat convinces her to let him take her on a mini break-in of the museum in order to see the art before its shipped off (”For the third time, love, I ain’t gonna pocket anything! Promise! Won’t even harm a hair on anyone’s head”).

After a exhausting yet thrilling night of close-calls with guards and being able to take a quiet moment to enjoy some of the museum’s sights, Symmetra comments on how impressed she is that Junkrat can be subtle when he wants to be. She offers to return the favor somehow, someway, if they keep this little detour field trip a secret.

Meanwhile Junkrat waves it off, citing that seeing her be so passionate and feisty for things as well as showing a bit of recklessness was a treat itself, much to her chagrin.

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Today’s International Zine Month ‘challenge’ was to take a photo of yourself either with your zine, or your zine collection. I couldn’t decide which one to do, so I did both.

top photo: (part of) my zine collection. Far left: zine-related books. Next to that: Some of my favorite zines. (Featured: zines I’ve recently received that I haven’t had a chance to read yet.) To the right of the doll: zines and books I have published in the past 15 years, as well as other zines/mags/papers that I have contributed to or that have reviewed my zines. (Featured: Lost & found & ten years down, from 2009, which I have recently realized is probably the best zine I have ever done/will ever do.) Not pictured: zines I made prior to 1999, and the rest of my zine collection - those are all in boxes in my basement.

bottom photo: me, with Reckless Chants #20, the most recent zine I’ve published.

Thirty-Six Snapshots, by Kat Case.

Even more than Doris, even more than any other zine ever, this one could have been written by me and I wish it was. I have read it over and over and underlined so many passages and dogeared every other page. For a while, Kat Case had a column in Maximum Rocknroll, but that’s been a while, too, and I’ve tried and tried to find new stuff of hers since then and I’ve come up short. I just - this zine still says most things I’ve ever wanted to say, but better than (I think) I could ever say them.

The only thing I don’t agree with - upon rereading it now - is the anti-childrearing thing. I could go on a rant about this, but I’ll try to say it briefly: look, I know having and raising children isn’t for everyone. And I get that some of the whole feminist/activist/queer/punk pushback against having kids is because mainstream society tries to tell us that everyone (especially every woman) should want kids and if we don’t there’s something wrong with us. But the pushback has gone too far the other way, and I think it’s really shitty that people with kids are sort of pushed out of punk and activist circles, and that a lot of punx and activists and what-have-you automatically give the side-eye to anyone who actively chooses to have children. There was a time in my life when I said I didn’t ever want to have children, but what I really meant was “I don’t want to be like my parents,” and that is a whole different thing.

Okay, that’s over with. Other than the anti-child-having things in this zine, it all still rings true. Being a fucked-up punk rock queer girl who drinks too much? Being bitter but still romanticizing fucking everything, even the most fucked up things? Yes, and yes.

(More Kat Case on my blog: I went out last night… Joey Ramone is dead… I feel so far outside of most people’s gender norms…)