my sister's drawings

yesterday i remembered again how lucky i am to have supportive parents: i’ve been making stories even before i was able to write. at the time my mum wrote them down for me. my sister has been drawing since she was able to hold a pen and is now a graphic designer with a blooming business. not once have either of our parents gone “you’ll never amount to anything just by scribbling/doodling”. it has always been self evident that i will be a writer and my sister an artist and mum and dad have supported us in every way. they let my sister go to high school 600km away when she was 16!

for me, writing is a dream but I also studied to do something else to keep myself in bread and butter. i’ve been unemployed for a while now and yesterday mum asked me “darling, do you still write at all?” my mum considers my writing to be something i could actually try and get a living from. i know that not everyone has parents who think arts are a waste of time and never encourage their children in their chosen professions, but i know i am still incredibly lucky to have parents who have never even considered the option that i wouldn’t be a writer or my sister an artist. they know that’s what we have wanted to be since we were little and that’s enough reason for them to believe in us and support us.

Five facts about me

Tagged by lovely @otayurism​! <3

  1. I am physically younger than my age. I’m 22 years old, but people still think that I make less. ( @moriarty-in-straightjacket can confirm it, he believed that I was a teenager) Some people say that I have 17 for example, it varies between people, but it is extremely funny to see their surprised face when I announce my age.
  2. I never wear makeup. The only time I was put on make-up was forced by my familly or friends. I promised myself that the day I wear makeup, is the day when I will find myself pretty natural. I do not want to put on makeup and hate my face without, like my sister.
  3.  I draw / write often after midnight. And it’s not “I want to draw” no no, I suddenly have the vital need to draw. ( I often wake up at 3/4am because I draw )
  4. I do not eat a lot. I do not have a big appetite and it worries my parents and my friends, but … It’s just normal. :’)
  5. I grew up with LOTR. My godfather initiated me a lot of movie and video game. I was a fan of LOTR since my … 8? 9 years? Idk. And he had bought The One Ring. ( I always looked at it with stars full of eyes ) When I was 12, he offered it to me as a birthday present. It’s been 10 years that he’s still with me and I’m still wearing it.

I tag @cloudy-owl - @kendall-london-reagan - @moriarty-in-straightjacket​ - @octofied​ ( Tumblr does not want me to tag you idk why D: ) and… Oh @doctorangelmoriarty Happy to re-see you on my dashboard! ♡

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.