my self esteem is real bad

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I chocked laughing when I saw @sportarobbieislife’s post!! I told them I would get Bad Bradley done before I go to bed… AND I DID. I tried reblogging, but tumblr hates image reblogs and messed the sizing T-T

This is my own headcanon I thought of while drawing him, not to be taken seriously >w>;

Bad Bradely knows he’s a knock off and is proud to be number two! Actually no he suffers from crippling self-esteem issues who am I kidding, but he hides it REAL well. Bad Bradley has good posture and loves chaos and noise.

do you ever have that one OC you made when you were like 11-12 and you were still in that ‘everything has to be straight’ phase

and think back to all of the same sex “”friendships”” the character has?

and think to yourself.

holy fuck she would have been so gay for all of them what i was doing 

Reminder of the night: it’s not just romantic relationships that can be abusive, and you owe it to yourself to acknowledge that, and to get out

ABC’S ABOUT ME

Tagged by the sweet @sauron-is-a-pretty-girl  (thank you dear!)

a - age: 32

b - biggest fear: keep living for a long while

c - current time: 2:24 pm

d - drink you last had: water

e - every day starts with: coffee

f - favorite song: Symphony nº 9, Beethoven

g - ghosts, are they real: I guess

h - hometown: Araçatuba

i - in love with: food

j - jealous of: people with self esteem

k - killed someone: not yet :)

l - last time you cried: 2 minutes ago

n - number of siblings: that’s a complicated question

o - one wish: haha die

p - person you last called/texted: my friend

q - questions you’re always asked: why you think fantasy is literature?

r - reasons to smile: LOTR bad subtitles

s - song last sang: Symphony nº 9, Beethoven

t - time you woke up: 6 am

u - underwear color: white

v - vacation destination: well I’m not going anywhere but I wish I could go to Liverpool

w - worst habit: existing

x - x-rays you’ve had: wrist and back

y - your favorite food: POTATO

z - zodiac sign: Leo

I tag everyone

6/5/15

About a month ago I was feeling really down about my body and how big I’ve gotten since I started nursing school. My self esteem was low and I was binge eating like crazy because of how bad I felt (a real Fat Bastard moment, I know). And though my blood work showed that I was healthy, I wasn’t mentally healthy. I was disgusted every time I looked in the mirror, I hated my body and thus hated who I am. But I decided one thing: Life is too short to hate the body you’re in. You only get one life and it would be such a waste to not give your body the love and respect it deserves. So now I’m on a path to a more active lifestyle hoping to improve the weakest areas in my entirety. And just to be clear, my goal is not to be thinner. I’m not going for weight loss– I’m aiming for mental and physical healthiness to regain the confidence I once had in myself. On a wider scale, I’m aiming for wholeness to be at peace with myself.

Okay, real talk: I know I’ve told quite a few of you about my anxiety and self-consciousness. A lot of it stems from having terrible skin. I’ve dealt with acne since the sixth grade and it’s always been something that’s brought me down. People pointing it out, scars it leaves behind, and having kids ask me, “What’s wrong with your face?” has always been damaging to my self-esteem. So much of me wants to focus on it and it only brings me down. I’m on a journey to find self-love and peace so I’m kind of done caring. I would’ve never posted this pic even weeks ago showing all the redness and whatnot but I was tanning and felt cute so here’s to positivity. :)

I’m in a real tricky self-esteem place where my mother instilled me with too much self-worth to let me knowingly be someone’s rebound/booby prize but nobody wants me otherwise and that also makes me feel real bad? So I’m stuck but also refuse to lower my self-worth? Hey guys dating is awful and it makes me feel bad. 

being a terrible student is bad for my life/future/self-esteem/education/wallet but its great for my chill n’ neurodivergent aesthetic and self deprecating text posts so who’s the real winner here 

Confession: I’m really tired of being single and I get depressed every time I see my friends and other people happy in their relationships. Some days I don’t worry about it and on others I do, but when I do think about my singleness, it’s really bad. Growing up I was never desired by boys and I have always had terrible self esteem. Towards the end of high school I got a little prettier, started wearing better makeup, clothes, and hair.

I’m in college now and I’d call myself decent looking, I’ve been called pretty by different types of people, but I always have to question whether they are lying or not. I’ve never been in a real relationship before and I really didn’t start engaging in romantic interaction with the opposite sex until my freshman year in college. I’m now a sophomore and 19 years old, I’m still a virgin, never really been kissed or anything. The few guys I have talked to here at school made it very apparent within the first week of talking to them that they just wanted sex. Some days I’m just like fuck it, boys ain’t shit and I shouldn’t waste my time on them. But then I see my friends running around with their boyfriends of 1+ year(s) and I start wanting what they have. I want a guy to care for me, call me to see how my day went, buy me things out of pure kindness, want to spend the day with me doing other things not involving purely sex, and I just want someone to make me feel beautiful and wanted.

I pray every night for this and I ask God what is wrong with me; what is so bad about me that nobody sees me desirable as a long term, serious partner? Why does it seem so easy for other people to get into relationships so casually? Like I honestly don’t know what I’m doing wrong. I put so much effort into my appearance and I do believe that I am a good person; I have a good heart and I respect everyone.

Sometimes I just want to cry because I hate feeling like I’m doing something wrong to make me undateable, I want to cry because I feel this emptiness in me that I believe would be voided if I just had someone to love me. I hate asking my friends to hang out only to find out that they have plans with their boyfriends, and then I’m left feeling like the lonely, single bitch. 

My roommate and I are friends, but her boyfriend is always over and it hurts so much for me to see them together. He treats her wonderfully, and I’m glad that she’s happy, but i also wish I could experience the same thing. I hate spending my nights alone and every time she leaves to spend the night with him and I have the apartment to myself, I feel even more lonely and hopeless. I just feel so pathetic for being my age and not having experienced any aspect of a true relationship. I hate being told “ the right guy will come along one day” because honestly, after almost 20 years of being with out it, “one day” sounds too far away or never. 😞

Please do not ignore this.

So this was a real post made about me, and I would like to just take a moment and tell you all why this pissed me off so much.

I wasn’t mad because I’m insecure about my body or anything. I love my body, and everything on it. It’s true, my boobs are small, but that doesn’t in ANY way mean that a girl with bigger boobs (or any body part for that matter) is better than me. Stop objectifying others based on their appearances.

Also, she had the audacity to post this picture on social media, but had no intention of saying this to my face. I mean, seriously? Grow up. I don’t have time for your juvenile bullshit.

Thirdly, I had NEVER met or talked to this girl before in my entire life! The one and only reason she disliked (and still dislikes) me is solely because she is the ex-girlfriend of my current boyfriend. Again, grow UP.

As a fourth point, after I took this picture and reposted it on my instagram to show everyone VERBATIM what she said, she got ME in trouble for bullying! As a plus, the administration agreed with her! They told me that by reposting HER picture that I was disrupting her educational atmosphere. Really school system? Stop it.

So I told them that her making fun of my genetics is not only immature and low, but that it is disrespectful to ALL people with body image issues and that if anyone is bullying here, it’s her.

With all that said, I really just want to shed light on these unfortunate, reoccuring issues. If you are currently facing a bully, NEVER be afraid to stand up for yourself, and if you’re struggling with low self-esteem, let me just assure you right now that you are so much better than you think you are. You are truly irreplaceable. Genetics are a funny thing, but they literally make you unique. So embrace it. ☺

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