It takes a form similar to a man and wraps themselves in clothes to hide the dark matter they really are, walking among the humans in their good disguise. If ever needing to ‘disappear’ they just return back in the mirror.
This thankfully hasn’t really come up yet but I wanted to throw up a quick reminder to all of you that there is never any need to feel embarrassed, foolish, or “silly” for reacting strongly to a certain subject.
If we are roleplaying something dark/sensitive/nsfw, which I may do because I like to cover a lot of subjects in my writing, please, please remember that you can back out at any time. Even if we are in the middle of writing the scene. Even if we’ve planned the scene way in advance. Maybe you thought you could handle a violent scene, but then when the moment actually came, it just really got to you. That’s ok. We’ll stop.
Your comfort is always more important to me than the story.
We can time-skip the scene. We can do a different thread entirely, if that’s what you feel like you need. Communication is key to any relationship, and that includes between RP partners.
On that note, if you read my roleplays and I haven’t tagged something that triggers you, please just send me a message. Even if it’s on anon. I’ll gladly make a new tag for it.
Bubblegum sighs and tiredly shuffles the stack of papers she held in her hands, heading toward the final household on her list. Sure, going door to door surveying people on their experiences in the community wasn’t a classy job- In fact, it was absolutely dismal- But it paid enough for her to buy necessities. …What she couldn’t afford could always be ‘borrowed’, anyway.
Irritated, Bubble steps up to the front door of the next house, cautiously eyeing the exterior through her star shades. She knocks, rocking back and forth on her heels as she awaits an answer. What kind of person would she be dealing with now…?
this is a shout out to all of my jealous rpers because i know i can’t be the only one. yeah i know you’re out there, suffering silently because you don’t want anyone to think bad of you because of how you feel. there’s a stigma around jealousy in the rp community—which is understandable. it can lead to all sorts of problems, toxic partnerships, drama, anon hate, etc. but i think for a lot of us, we know better. we know that our jealousy is our own problem and we should deal with it on our own instead of making it our rp partners’ problem. but then we don’t really have much of an outlet for our feelings, which we should. because when you break it down, feeling jealous boils down to feeling insecure. and i know we ALL feel that sometimes.
so, to al of my jealous rpers, i see you. i feel you. i know how much it sucks. it sucks when you see one of your favorite partners drift away when they become more invested in another rper. it sucks when an rper you really like and admire constantly overlooks you for their own favored partners. it sucks to feel guilty for feeling bitter towards others for this. i know you don’t like feeling this way. and if you could choose to not feel it, you’d stop. but you can’t help how you feel. and i want to tell you it’s okay to feel jealous. it doesn’t make you a bad rp partner or a bad person. it’s okay to feel however you feel. anyone who tells you otherwise doesn’t know how emotions work.
however, what you DO with your feelings is another matter. it’s not okay to be rude to rpers you’re jealous of, it’s not okay guilt trip or blame your partners, it’s not okay to try to alienate them, it’s not okay to gaslight them or otherwise manipulate them. but a lot of you already know that, and you don’t do any of that because you know it’s wrong. kudos to you for taking the high road. but still, you can’t help feeling jealous sometimes.
my advice? count your blessings. you may be feeling overlooked by some rpers, but you have others who do appreciate you and are thrilled to rp with you whenever. don’t take them for granted. love them back. understand that the rpers that you may feel are ignoring you probably don’t mean to, and are just busy or excited about particular plots/rpers, like we all get. also if you have confidantes, talk to them. unloading on an attentive ear is a great way to deal with your feelings. personally, i wouldn’t recommend doing this with the rpers you’re jealous of/for. it can make things awkward and uncomfortable and you may end up pushing them away even more. don’t make this their problem. it is yours to deal with, not theirs.
i hope this brings comfort to anyone who’s been struggling with jealousy and/or insecurity. just remember you’re not alone and your feelings are valid. love y’all xoxo