my real mother

Mother Daughter Bonding Time

I like to think that neither Star nor moon like it when anyone gets in their way of bonding.
Quick doodle I did out of no where while working on the supernova comic :P

Hey psssht hey hey guess in what fan-fucking-tastic fandom I got myself in for 3 months in already pls dont kill meh

uhm… … …the last time I was in RPF hell was eons ago (KPop lol) and I have no idea how I got from one place to another this time around…

BUT I digress! There’s this one YuzuVier fanfiction that I’ve been reading since the first day it was published on Ao3 and I adore it so much aaaaHHH WHY IS DRAWING RL PPL SO MUCH AGONY it’s always the same tredding the thin line of ‘does this look okay’ and ‘omg cringe’
Doukyuusei’s comings out

Yes I know it was Hara-sensei that KNEW first…but I’m not counting that because it wasn’t told by Kusakabe or Sajou themselves.

First coming out or more like first confessing for dating a guy made Kusakabe with his friend Tani. We don’t know nothing about Kusakabe’s family except that his sister read BL mangas. So first person for Kusakabe was his childhood friend who was part of their band ZGOG. He actually showed his interest befour in Kusakabe’s relationship with Sajou…so I think he probably just wanted to confirm that he was predicting.

His reaction was really interesting. I’m glad it was not “too much happy” reaction or like “disgusted” kind of reaction…it was very simple accepting it (more of a comfirming his expectation)…and Kusakabe’s : Are you uncomfortable? 

That made me think…a lot of guys (including my brother) said to me that it wasn’t bad, but it wasn’t pleasant either to be in a company of a gay. I will truthfully never understand that…are they afraid of them? Of course not all men are like that but almost all males that I know said that they’d be uncomfortable… I know 2 lesbians myself but it doesn’t make me uncomfortable in any way. It makes no difference to me, they are the same person that they are, it’s just their sexual orientation which should not be the reason for exposing them and then isolate them…

That’s why I love Tani’s reaction…he even pointed out that he noticed that Kusakabe never showed interest in girls…or romantic feelings in any way whatsoever..

He actually expose to Kusakabe who’s his first love.

For the Sajou on the other hand his first person to know was his mother. His family. It really touched me how he apologized first. We know that a lot of countries don’t have legalized gay marriage (that count for Japan too) or more accepting enviroment for gay people. Yes it becoming better and better but in really slow motion (let it be because of the religion or because of the people traditional characters). 

Then it depends just on a people believes or people characters how will they react. Here we see the shocking face of course…it’s the japanese community and her only son /child. So I was expecting some disagreeing from her prospective, but on the contrary we got a meeting mother-in-law, son-in-law. 

The last look in her eyes gives me belief that she’s happy for her son and that she in that moment accept Sajou & Kusakabe completely. I just noticed that they were careful around dad so I assume that father doesn’t know. 

I would love to see more of a this interactions…well, yes with Tani they did go eat out together. Just I’m glad we have opportunity to see some good confessions & reactions. Hopefully Kusakabe and Sajou have still good connections with Sajou’s mom :D :D 

So I went to see Beauty and the Beast with my mom today. I had problems with the movie (CGI hurts my eyes after a certain amount of time and I just know I’m looking at pixels) BUT SHE HAD A BIG PROBLEM WITH THE MOVIE.

There was no gay kiss.

She was pissed. My mom tracked down the guys cleaning the floors and asked if they knew why the kiss got cut. She asked the ticket seller why the kiss got cut. She wandered around a movie theater until she found a manager to make sure the theater didn’t cut the gay kiss and it was actually disney that did it.

“I specifically wanted to go see this movie so my horrific friends could eat their hearts out.” She was determined to go home and tell all of her friends that were against the gay kiss to get wrecked and she wasn’t going to have that opportunity now. 

I just trailed behind her going “I’m so sorry, I know you make the opposite of money to do this job. Please ignore her.”


Mulgrew: This one is my heart. An absolute delight to work with - as sharp as they come. A little dangerous, slightly mad.

Lyonne: Kate is a delight to work with, slightly mad. Also very sick, really likes uh ‘the finer things in life’, if you know what I mean.

Mulgrew: You are insane!

Lyonne: You are a wonder.



Come sit with me,
Even if it’s just for a while.
Nobody wants to be alone on their birthday,
Even if it’s just a lie.
Being alone doesn’t scare me,
There’s nothing I fear.
I am not alone now,
Now that you’re here.

Come sit with me and listen,
I have a story to tell.
It’s not to entertain you,
It’s not for you to get to know me well.
I don’t owe you an answer,
You don’t owe me your time.
Aber an seinem Geburtstag ist niemand gern allein.

You might have heard of me,
Or maybe not at all.
But I’m sure you have heard of my siblings,
The puppeteer, the reaper and the binge eater.
All 4 of us are nothing more than toys,
To the family that gave us life,
Only to slaughter the girls and militarise the boys.

There there no need to be sorry,
We are not even real.
My mother won’t light the candles on my cake,
My father forgot my name long ago.
Which is not even tragic,
There is nothing about me that’s real, it’s all a fake.

I am my beloved sister’s hated brother,
My second brother’s shadow,
And my oldest brother’s travesty.
I am a curse to my mother
And meant the end to my father.

Now, that’s why you’re the only person who’s here today,
And even if we are together we can’t celebrate.
There is nothing to be happy about.
The life that was given to me,
Comes with a fee and in end,
Which is nothing but death by my own hand.

So let’s not celebrate my birth today,
Let’s only look forward to the end that
Inevitably lies ahead.

—  Non Birthday poem for Washuu Furuta Souta, 28.02.2017

#enid risking her life to get to maggie on the platform #maggie making sure that enid made it to the platform safely #them both being worried about glenn #actual small family glenn maggie and enid 

  • Sana: Bro you know what I just realised
  • Momo: What bro?
  • Sana: The letter W is produced "double u." Instead of making up a new sound for the letter, they were just like ok let's stick two u's together. But when you write the letter W on paper, it isn't even two u's stuck together, it's two v's stuck together
  • Momo: [softly] fuck

Alex: “He’s lucky he doesn’t know anything. I can’t believe she’d do this. But when I found out about what she’d done, I was so sick and angry that I wasn’t thinking straight and…”

Dahlia: “Alex…”

Alex: “I embezzled the money for our apartment from her, Dahlia. She doesn’t help us with the rent willingly.. She thought I was working for a successful law firm and had earned the money myself and that’s why she set me up with Penny. When I was struggling to afford to take Penny out to fancy restaurants and buy her gifts to make us look like a real couple, my mother hired some people to look into her finances and noticed all of the transfers. She threatened me just before we left for the bar that she knew everything I’d ever done and if I followed her instructions, she wouldn’t report me for stealing the money from her.” 


UPDATE: because my mother is just to precious for this world and has slayed me with her ravings over Papa, I feel like I should bless y'all with the rest of the conversation. From pious and prude to full on thirsty Ghost trash in less than a month. My little dark heart is blessed. 🖤 @hannibalssweaters I will forever tag you in posts about my mother’s pure descent into madness.