I think I want to be a….Sugar Baby.
but idk….I was looking at some blogs and there were girls my age and a little younger just living life….
I mean I’ve been joking about having one, and being a spoiled girlfriend to some college professor around the house, since I was like 15 without really knowing what I was talking about and my mom never rebuked me. So I don’t think she would have a problem with it…
Every time I think about it in depth though, I think I’m going to meet up with a psychopath and my life will turn into a Criminal Minds episode.
And I have no idea how to be spoiled and I have a hard time trusting men AND I don’t like using people…
And I can be really manipulative, convincing and I’m a great liar. Which tbh scares me, because I’ve been bottling up those “bad” traits and in this line of work those traits are needed. I don’t want to loose myself and become something I’m not…or unleash who I really am.
Also I have a hard time accepting gifts and complements and attention… *Tyler the, Creator voice* ” I’m a fucking walking paradox…”
But it is interesting to say the least. And I would be lying if I said I didn’t see myself doing it. The obvious reason would be for college and to be debt free…
If I did do it, hopefully I’ll find a platonic SD…look at me using terminology n shit lol