my psychopath

what absolutely terrifies me about Tumblr is how they have managed to romanticise Eddie Gluskin; he killed and dismembered so many patients, making them all his ‘wife’ and somehow he becomes this cutesy gay guy with a ton of fanart and fanfic and people are ok with it?! this terrifies me. it absolutely terrifies me.

I think I want to be a….Sugar Baby. but idk….I was looking at some blogs and there were girls my age and a little younger just living life….
I mean I’ve been joking about having one, and being a spoiled girlfriend to some college professor around the house, since I was like 15 without really knowing what I was talking about and my mom never rebuked me. So I don’t think she would have a problem with it…

Every time I think about it in depth though, I think I’m going to meet up with a psychopath and my life will turn into a Criminal Minds episode.

And I have no idea how to be spoiled and I have a hard time trusting men AND I don’t like using people…

Idk


And I can be really manipulative, convincing and I’m a great liar. Which tbh scares me, because I’ve been bottling up those “bad” traits and in this line of work those traits are needed. I don’t want to loose myself and become something I’m not…or unleash who I really am.

Also I have a hard time accepting gifts and complements and attention… *Tyler the, Creator voice* ” I’m a fucking walking paradox…”

But it is interesting to say the least. And I would be lying if I said I didn’t see myself doing it. The obvious reason would be for college and to be debt free…


If I did do it, hopefully I’ll find a platonic SD…look at me using terminology n shit lol

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Female Psycopaths in Film

“Isn’t it time to acknowledge the ugly side? I’ve grown quite weary of the spunky heroines, brave rape victims, soul-searching fashionistas that stock so many books. I particularly mourn the lack of female villains — good, potent female villains. Not ill-tempered women who scheme about landing good men and better shoes (as if we had nothing more interesting to war over), not chilly WASP mothers (emotionally distant isn’t necessarily evil), not soapy vixens (merely bitchy doesn’t qualify either). I’m talking violent, wicked women. Scary women. Don’t tell me you don’t know some. The point is, women have spent so many years girl-powering ourselves — to the point of almost parodic encouragement — we’ve left no room to acknowledge our dark side. Dark sides are important. They should be nurtured like nasty black orchids.”  - Gillian Flynn

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I need you to promise me something. Of course. If I do go dark side, you gotta take me out. What do you mean? Knife me. Smite me. Throw me into the freaking sun. Whatever. And don’t let Sam get in the way because he’ll try. I can’t go down that road again, man. I can’t be that thing again.

Dean to Castiel
"The Things We Left Behind" 
Supernatural 10x09