my prospects

Update from Rex

- the boy is still pretty great and for those keeping track it’s been 5 months which is a major record for me

- I still hate my job. I still have no prospects. My mental health is dwindling.

- my prince of a cat is still a prince and still my fav little snuggle bug

Taako calling everyone else dust… how badly did this entire experience of staying one step ahead of the apocalypse fuck him up? Taako’s not the kind of person who seems like he makes connections easily, but I don’t think he’s unfeeling - he cares about his sister, he seems like he cares about the other members of the IPRE too just by his tone and how receptive he is when they talk to him in this entire arc. Like when he was talking to Barry, and Barry asked if he could be frank - the tone he used to answer was the same as the tone he’s often used with his sister.

How much of who Taako is now is a result of not seeing other people as people anymore, because what’s the point? How often DID he care about people in those other planes, how many people did he have to lose before he stopped trying? Was there a noticeable change, or was there an assumption that he’d always felt that way because it used to be him and Lup, because of what happened in the world with the robots? Did he warm up to the people around him, only to grow cold again?

do u ever think about how mika is probably terrified of becoming a demon but at the same time at least he wouldn’t have to hurt anymore?

Ooh, another post on ADHD that I could have written!

Tim Beshara, on what it’s like to have inattentive ADHD. Some of my favorite parts.

This description of inattentive ADHD symptoms is accurate:

Inattentive ADHD put simply, means your brain is rubbish at choosing what you focus on. It’s the daydreaming type of ADHD, not the can’t-sit-still type.It’s not that you can’t focus at all. You can focus alright, just not always on what you need to focus on. Sometimes the problem is when you get stuck focusing on the wrong things.

For people with inattentive ADHD, repetitive tasks become hyper-boring and mentally exhausting to stick with. Yet with the tasks you are interested in, you can barely notice the outside world for eight hours straight.

You also have a rubbish working memory. Your long-term memory can be excellent, but your ability to temporarily hold two or three pieces of information in your mind at any one time is limited.

Aligned with this is a deficiency in your prospective memory. Prospective memory is all about being good at remembering to remember.

you often can have a crappy executive function, i.e. your brain is really bad at directing you through a series of sub-tasks to get the main task complete. It can do each sub-task fine, but there doesn’t seem to be anyone in charge in there to lead you through the steps.

But it’s the part about the psychological impact of having late-diagnosed ADHD that hit home the hardest:

The ADHD wears you down but it’s the secondary psychological impact that hits you the hardest.   You get judged by your friends, colleagues, teachers, partners and relatives as being weak in character or lazy. … The only honest answer you ever have for giving someone about why you stuffed up is “I don’t know”.

And what makes it worse is than when you find a topic or task engaging you really can perform. Like exceptionally so. Everyone sees this and uses that as your benchmark and then assumes that when you fail at a boring task it is because you are weak-willed.

People diagnosed with ADHD later on in life, like I was, wear the scars of a lifetime of judgement from failures you can never explain. It’s genuinely traumatic.

It is big things like struggling through university and failing to have a career that matches your potential. And it is little things like forgetting birthdays and people’s names and all seven items on the grocery list to bring back from the shops.

(Finally, someone who understands getting traumatized for an hour over a minor faux pas!).

I’m also glad he mentioned the gap between what you can accomplish when engaged versus when your brain is turned off, and its psychological effects. I believe being twice exceptional (gifted + ADHD) magnifies this gap.

I have a habit of starting strong and fizzling out, in every lab job I’ve had, and many friendships. I’m TERRIFIED of not living up to the expectations I’ve inadvertently set for myself. But I also can’t stop overperforming, because if everyone thinks I’m brilliant and perfectionistic about my work, they’ll forgive me annoying eccentricities like showing up late or occasionally forgetting to turn something in. (That “eccentric genius” stereotype doesn’t just benefit men). So, constant paranoia ensues. And then people tell me I’m too anxious and need to relax. You can’t win with ADHD.

HCs about the citizens in Natsume’s town
  • At first only the older generation was really talking about natsume. gossiping like and wondering if he be a strange one like Reiko
  • That is until the Fujiwaras start their non-stop commentary on their new son
  • Touko to the neighbors: “oh Takashi-kun is so sweet did you know the other day he picked me the most beautiful arrangement of wild flowers!”
  • Shigure to his co- workers at lunch: “ah look at this figurine Takashi-kun made on our trip the other day. He really is talented”
  • “The other day Takashi- kun did all the laundry for me! He said I should take a break once and a while”
  • “Takashi truly has added a liveliness to our home. like he’s filled in a gap me and Touko haven’t even noticed. I’m very thankful for him.”
  • The Fujiwaras are basically the town’s “couple goals” so the fact that Natsume did not make their lives harder but instead gave them a new well of happiness is something everyone can agree is good.
  • Then there are Natsume’s classmates:
  •  the people gush about how cute he is but also mysterious
  • Everyone is used to him being quite or sleeping but they will joke for hours when he gets sassy (Nishimura is usually victim to this but its so interesting coming from Natsume he doesn’t mind that much)
  • So parents and older siblings will get either over detailed descriptions of Natsume’s beauty and grace
  • or a play by play of his latest sick burn
  • Natsume buys manju buns so often he slowly built a relationship with the shop owner and staff
  • Natsume is usually pretty good with remembering facts they have told them about themselves so he’ll ask for updates with every visit (how was your university exam? Did your sister have the baby yet? Did you perfect that new recipe?)
  • They all find the quite Natsume boy and his oddly fat cat very endearing
  • The other regulars at the shop will greet him and ask him how his school life is going
  • townsfolk also see Natsume walk around with NATORI FREAKING SHUUICHI!
  • which is pretty damn impressive
  • They all also see Natsume “Cats Love Me” Takashi 
  • basically all cats, owned or strays, just approach him easily and he can’t help making happy cooing noises at them 
  • Natsume also will just help people. whether it be related to youkai or not he’s just always willing to offer a hand.
  • Overall by the end of his first year with the Fujiwaras the entire town knows who he is and opinion ranges from “quite and polite” to “a quirky boy but is very endearing”

Seriously, a couple of months ago I would have gladly gotten rid of the Vegas Golden Knights and their weird name but now it’s like, their prospects are adorable, their Twitter is a gift, Marc-Andre Fleury looks so happy and smiley and APPRECIATED and their jerseys are SPARKLY and I feel genuinely excited for them?!

So apparently Jungkook has a personal Instagram

This is the instagram account in question (Update: I guess I will update this for those who find this post days or weeks after. The account was a fake, it was found that this person has created fake accounts before. As you can see they have deleted their account, this is mainly because they had 100k plus followers, most followers from a popular bts info youtuber who made a video about it but without doing real research and having the comments disabled so most people believed it was jungkook’s real account and were DMing it. I think the main reason for deleting the acc was probably that the studiobillybean instagram were they stole the location pictures from ended up finding out about the fake account and in turn started posting BTS pictures. Shortly after the fake account deactivated their account. 

It’s sad that there are people who create accounts like this, there is another fake jungkook acc that posted an instagram story pretending to be jungkook singing but in fact it was an audio from an old bts radio interview. There’s also a fake Yoongi personal Acc. I have learn’t alot and I won’t be making a post like this again anytime soon…. I have come to realise that some army’s are just…..sPeCiAl.) 

it has 6 posts, apparently Wkskkk on the hangul keyboard is equivalent to Jeonaaa (i don’t know korean so…) the account has also written I miss you on Jungkook’s brother’s post of the dog. (I’m not going to lie, I have written I miss you Jungkook, when he hadn’t posted a selfie in a while so…yeah)

But note, the I miss you on the dog is kinda important, remember that.

Before I did some searching, they were a few things that didn’t add up. 

1. Jungkook is the member who is least active on social media so for a member to have a account like this, Jungkook would be the last person I would think.

 2. Let’s assume Jungkook has a personal account like this, he has a high definition camera that takes high quality pictures.

Exibit a: Taken by Jungkook.

Even if he used his phone, the pictures would not come out that low quality. So, my conclusion before searching was that maybe it’s a member of staff with a bad camera. Oh, how wrong I was….

Firstly, I image searched the pictures posted and let’s start with the Puma pictures.

These are the ones posted on the instagram account:

When I imaged search the second picture I ended up on this website. 

 It has a lot of pictures on the day when they were shooting for puma.

Notice the difference in quality, these pictures are hd, so i’m guessing the person used a filter.

Let’s talk about this jikook post. The exact same picture can be found on Bon Voyage 2.

This is selfie Jungkook himself hasn’t posted in full quality we only have this preview. This would explain why the picture is posted 4 times, because it’s small and why it’s in black and white.

This picture we have all seen it. They put a filter to make it look low quality.

Heres a better quality version.

Now I’m going to move on to the picture of the dog.

This to me, looks creepy because from my prospective it looks like a picture taken from outside a door or window..i don’t know. I google searched it and there was no match found. So, this could mean there is a picture for this dog somewhere it just wasnt found by google image search or maybe this is the only actual picture taken by this person of the dog. Remember that post where his person said I miss you on Jungkook’s brother’s instagram. That was a picture of the same dog. 

I searched the other pictures of the wall, buildings and stuff but there were no matches found there. This was the only match found and it was other korean instagram’s of sorts. 

Edit: All the pictures of the wall, tree and with the radiator are all taken from this instagram account. 

So, I would assume this person is Korean but I don’t think it is Jungkook nor a member of staff. Just a fan of Jungkook. But you never know I could be wrong. This is just what I found. 

(I’m going to tag @kookminworld0507   and @myriam1457-blog  because I wouldn’t have even known about the acccount if it wasn’t for your posts. 

Also, i do believe that BTS members have personal social media accounts it’s just I highly doubt this one is actually Jungkook’s.