Alec, who had his brother, his parabatai sentenced to prison for the rest of his life.

Alec, who’s sister was possessed by a demon and would have killed him if it wasn’t for Clary.

Alec, who was possessed by the same demon as Izzy and killed Clary’s mom as the two were reconnecting.

Alec, who is scared shitless and blames himself for something that he wasn’t able to control.

Alec, who probably hates himself that he couldn’t stop him.

Alec, who can’t forgive himself even when Clary herself knows it’s not Alec’s fault, but the demon’s.

Alec, who used to suspect how Izzy feels and now knows and feels guilty.

Alec, who is so vulnerable and seeks out comfort with Magnus because he feel safe with him.

Alec, who also understands that Magnus is also hurting and is there for whatever Magnus may need from him.

Alec, who doesn’t discriminate and accepts Magnus sexuality with no buts and only responds with “You say what you feel”

Alec, who looks like he got a gift for Magnus to make sure that he’s the only one who’s hurting because he can deal with that, but not with someone he cares about feeling how he feels.

Alec, who can’t seem to catch a break but also doesn’t push Magnus away because he promised and he will always keep his promises.

And Alec, who deserves so much more and will always be loyal and will forever take care of everyone he cares about before himself

I just need to hug Mycroft. He has had to live with the knowledge that his sister killed a little boy, traumatized their brother, plotted to kill Sherlock (those drawings were the stuff of nightmares), burned down their home, and would have to be locked away for the rest of her life for everyone’s safety. And then, to spare his parents further pain in a logical, but misguided, way, he had to tell them she died. And he lived alone with the knowledge that she lived…and even existed.

He couldn’t kill the governor and threw up when he watched the man shoot himself.

Then he tried to make it easier for Sherlock to kill him over John, because he believed it was all his fault (a little bit true) and because without John, he knew Rosie would be an orphan and Sherlock would destroy himself over what he had done.

He cares. So much. And tries to hide it because he believes all that his heart has done has brought pain to him and his family.

I just need to hold him.

  • what she says : i'm fine
  • what she means : ahkmenrad died 4000 years ago, killed by his own brother who wanted to take the throne of egypt from him. according to the way kahmunrah talked about the tablet in the second natm movie, i guess he never had it before, so that means ahk had it the whole time. which basically means he was magically brought back to life every night, in his sarcophagus, trapped, probably wondering why he wasn't reaching the egyptian afterlife, all alone, until his doom was discovered 4000 years later. then he was on display in cambridge for a few years in which i dare to hope he was able to stretch out for a bit, before getting transferred to the national museum history to get entrapped for 54 more years of screaming in agony to only get deliberately ignored by the other exhibits. he's been banging on that lid for four millenaries without anyone coming to him, desperate about getting out the thing so much so that he was probably high on adrenaline caused by fear the whole, which is even more obvious according to the force the lid has been threwn off with when larry cracked the padlocks open and the FIRST THING HE SAYS AFTER THOSE FOUR MILLENARIES OF LONELINESS, FEAR AND ENTRAPMENT WAS "YOU WOULD NOT BELIEVE HOW STUFFY IT IS THERE" FOR FUCK'S SAKE HE MADE A FUCKING JOKE DESPITE EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED TO HIM BEFORE RUSHING WITH LARRY THE SECOND HE ASKS HIM TO HELP THE VERY SAME EXHIBITS WHO LEFT HIM SCREAMING ALONE IN HIS DISPLAY ON PURPOSE JEEZ