my one thing to be thankful for

anonymous asked:

So I have an aroace character. Another character falls in love with her and she doesn't with him. She never will. Now, she does come to love him. Just not romantically. (Spoilers!) He's killed at the end of the first book. This is when she finally comes to terms with loving him, and she basically cries, "I love you" to his dying body. The thing is, how can I communicate to my audience that she never had romantic feelings for him? I don't want people to think her being aro is just for angst

Thanks so much for your question, love!  That sounds like a great relationship, and one I’d personally love to see published :)

So we’ve talked a lot about romantic love on the blog – in fact, we made a recent post on the distinction of romantic love.  But we haven’t talked about how to specify platonic love over romantic, and that can be very important in modern fiction – especially in today’s fandom culture, where fans assume every two characters that breathe in a mutual direction are romantically attracted to one another.  Strong F/M friendships (and aromantic characters!) are desperately needed in modern fiction!

I have some advice for you that might help :)  Here we go…


How to Keep Fictional Friendships Platonic

  • Avoid admiration of each other’s physicality – especially involving sexualized body parts.  Friends may notice attractive qualities in each other, no matter their gender or sexuality, but these thoughts can easily confuse readers.  When observing a scene through your aromantic character’s POV, avoid dwelling on the other character’s eyes, lips, scent, muscles/curves, or any details that might be considered sexual (e.g. how their clothing hugs their body).  Some writers don’t think about how their descriptions color their main character’s image/emotions – and that’s how we get female characters who notice each other’s glistening hair and “plump breasts” but are never ever lesbians because god forbid.
  • Show your character’s discomfort at romantic advances.  Just because your character grows to platonically love their friend does not mean they’ll become more comfortable with romantic displays.  Longing looks, moments of silence or one-way sexual tension, small displays of affection like hugs that last too long or gifts (with clear romantic intention) – if the romantic love isn’t returned, those moments will be awkward, and maybe even guilt-inducing.  It’s hard when someone wants you to feel something you don’t, especially if you’re close to them.  Those moments will be there.
  • Allow your character to treat their friend with love, without expectation of anything in return.  A clear indication of love is when a person is kind/considerate or goes out of their way to help their friend – but that moment afterward, when they watch their friend smile and want a hug or a kiss or some kind of reward, turns it romantic.  Friends help each other because they care about each other; they’ve already reached the status of friendship, and they just want to maintain it.  But when you love someone, you’re pursuing something – you’re expecting advancement and change.  When your character is kind to their friend, let them do it just because that’s what friends do.  Skip the long silent moment of anticipation afterwards.
  • Keep them on a level playing field.  The easiest way to make a relationship seem instantly romantic is to typecast the characters involved – especially if they’re F/M.  Putting the woman in the “woman role” – portraying her softness, her patience, her need for protection – and putting the man in the “man role” – protective, strong, unemotional – causes readers to associate them with the stereotypical romance story.  Instead (and you should do this with romance anyway), portray them as equals and separates.  They can do things without each other.  They have thoughts about people other than each other.  They aren’t each other’s puzzle piece and the universe isn’t pushing them together.  And they aren’t Man and Woman – they’re Person and Person.  Playing up their genders (and gender roles) will not serve you in any way.
  • Let them express that they have no romantic feelings for their friend.  Maybe they say it in dialogue; maybe they say it in their head.  Maybe they show it in how they describe the other person (”tall, wears cool jackets, has a great sense of humor, awful driver,” and other non-romantic but still affectionate details).  Maybe they have a romantic encounter with that character, just to feel it out, and decide they just don’t feel anything at all, even if they wanted to.  Maybe the character outright states they’re aromantic, and that solves the puzzle for readers right there (although you may have to say it a few times).  Phrases like: “I can’t love you the way you want.”  “I feel like I’m a disappointment to you.” “I care about you a lot.” “You’re my best friend.”  As angsty or as non-angsty as you want, any phrase a whiteguy would refer to as “friendzoning” can be your ticket to an indirect expression of platonic love.
  • And specific for you, anon: when the friend dies, make sure your character only has platonic memories of them, just to make their meaning behind “I love you” clear.  Have them remember the bad jokes, or the high-fives, or the deep conversations – basically anything that isn’t touchy-feely or a stereotypical couple-thing.  Once your character drops the ILY, readers might get confused.  Make sure they leave the book with a clear image of what you intended for your characters.

I know that got long, but I hope these ideas help you!  I applaud you for wanting to make your aromantic representation clear, and I hope this goes well for you.  If you have any more questions, the inbox opens on Nov. 1st :)

Thanks again, and good luck!


If you need advice on general writing or fanfiction, you should maybe ask us!

anonymous asked:

blurb night request: morning after your first time w/ Shawn, and when you wake up you’re both all cuddly and entangled and warm and rosy cheeked. and you’re blushy and smiley thinking about the night before and Shawn is whispering sweet things to you

+ For the blurb night can you maybe do one where they’re cuddling and he’s shirtless and his skin is so warm and soft and like it’s all gentle touches and small kisses idk if that’s a good thing for the blurb but anyway thank you x


The sun cascading through the curtains wakes you before Shawn does. 

He’s entering from the bathroom, running his hands through his matted hair, trying to give it some volume – trying to make himself look the least bit presentable before you wake up. 

He’s in nothing but his boxers, having slugged them on this morning when he woke up before you. Had to drag himself from your bare frame, meeting the mirror with a glare because it wasn’t you staring back at him. 

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like i was talking to one if my coworkers who’s gay and somehow we got on the subject and she just pipes up w/ “i don’t MIND trans ppl i just don’t GET it.. it seems like an attention thing.. especially the nonbinary stuff that’s weird” and it’s like? Thanks For Conveying That I Can Never Be Out, Here, Especially To You. that’s neat babe!

PSA (PUBLIC SWIFTIE ANNOUNCEMENT)

Hey everyone, so I have seen a lot of talk about people feeling left out or unloved or favorites being played or people saying they’ll never be noticed or meet Taylor. Just overall a whole load of negativity and it has been bothering me a lot - not only because I know you how you feel, but also because I know we’re wrong and there isn’t enough support and positivity going around on this website. 

So I have decided to type out a giant text post regarding the way I feel about all of this, and I think some of you may find it really helpful or comforting, and some of you may brush it off.. and that’s fine as well. I just have a lot of thoughts right now, so I’m putting them into words.

1 - I’m going to start with a blanket statement that I’m sure a lot of you that are feeling upset or left out are tired of hearing but i promise this statement is true: Taylor Swift loves each and every one of us who love and support her. She does. End of story.

2 - I feel like giving up all the time, she’ll never notice me or want to meet me because I don’t post that many selfies and I don’t talk about my everyday life as often as some do, I am too insecure to post funny videos or to do a live stream on instagram. But when my anxiety settles and I take a look around - that is not what Taylor is looking for. Does it attract her attention sometimes? Yep, of course it does. But so do posts about her music, posts about how much we love her, stories of what she’s done for us, dad jokes related to her or just general freak outs when she releases a new single, a new video or even just an AT&T commercial that’s 30 seconds long.

3 - It is so easy to feel small and feel like she will never notice you because there are just too many of us - and while the fact that there are a ton of us is true, it doesn’t mean she won’t ever find you and it does not mean that it’s never going to be your time, there are people I know - mutuals, that had never been noticed by Taylor and had been here for years and randomly one day Taylor started liking all their stuff, all the time. I realize that I don’t know Taylor personally but if I know anything about the women that I have spent over the last decade dedicated to - it’s that she truly loves us and goes out of her way to find us and make sure we all feel special and loved, and she tries on a daily basis to find new blogs that have been out there rooting for her - so please just be patient - it is NOT because she hates the stuff you post or thinks your weird or doesn’t like you or just ignores you, it’s not! We’re all funny, we’re all witty, we’re all beautiful, we’re all fangirls and we all love Taylor - we all post a million things every day that she would like if she saw it. So just be patient, she’ll see it one day.

4. Meeting Taylor may seem impossible now, and I am going in and out of feeling that way myself. So your feelings are completely valid and absolutely one hundred and ten percent understandable and normal to feel. BUT, please try and keep an open mind and stay positive about it. I obviously can’t sit here and say every single last one of her hardcore and casual fans will meet Taylor, because there are MILLIONS upon MILLIONS of people that like Taylor Swift. But I CAN say that those of us out here going the extra mile, those of us who have been here for long haul, those of us out here with blogs dedicated to her and living the swift lifestyle will get our day. And I swear to you - I know it in my gut - Taylor is out there trying to figure out how she’s going to make it happen. Also, Taylor isn’t going anywhere anytime soon - there is time, be patient. 

5. Seeing people meet Taylor can be hard, because jealousy is a real and perfectly normal emotion especially when it comes to something you’ve dreamed of for so long and seeing so many other people get this can make you feel so small. And then you start to feel selfish and it’s an endless battle because you don’t want to be jealous. So start with this thought process: Those fans have wanted to meet Taylor just as much as you do, and they too at one point said to themselves “she’ll never notice me, she’ll never want to meet me” but look at them now! So try to be happy for them, because they have lived out one of their dreams by getting to meet her, and that is such a beautiful thing to happen to anyone, it really is! Even though it makes me a little jealous and sad - honestly, I LOVE seeing my mutuals and even people i’ve never spoken to meet Taylor, because of first of all you have photographic evidence of people meeting the one person they’ve always wanted to meet - the person that saved their lives or made them chase their dreams or feel brave enough to fal in love, and everyone deserves the chance to hug and thank Taylor for all those beautiful things. I think about how happy I would be if that were me, and then I realize THAT’S how happy those fans are, and that is such an amazing thing to see people so happy. Just try to embrace it, try to be happy for them even if its hard sometimes. But also, realize that it is okay to have moments of sadness and doubt, but don’t let it consume you because your time will come. 

6 - Think about it this way - the more people that get to go to sessions and meet Taylor and get noticed or whatever it may be, the more room there is for you to get your chance! So be excited that people are meeting her! It means you’re one step closer to having your moment with Taylor. Seeing that she’s out there actively trying to meet as many people as possible, even if it isnt you right that moment, means that she is doing her best and WANTS to meet us. ALL OF US. 

7 - Remember to be thankful - remember that Taylor does not have to do any of this. Sometimes I think this fandom as a whole, myself included at times, gets spoiled with the fact that Taylor does all of these things for us - packages, over the top tours, ticket programs so we don’t lose tickets to scalpers, meet and greets before and after her concert, welcome us into her home, joining live streams, reblogging and commenting and liking tumblr posts, following us on social media… no other celebrity does that, because they do not have to. Taylor literally owes us nothing and yet she gives us everything. So try to stay humble and remember that… try to remember that this fandom as a whole is so blessed to begin with that Taylor is so good to us… that even if you don’t get noticed anytime soon or don’t get invited to meet her.. we still have been given so much by Taylor and she does the best that she can. 

8 - I can’t speak for Taylor but I feel like it hurts her when she sees negative posts about her not liking us or not noticing us or never going to want to meet us because we aren’t good enough. She loves all of us and you know better. You know she doesn’t want to make any of us feel left out or hurt or isolated or not good enough… she’d include every single of us if she could at one time. We just have to wait for our time. Patience is key.

I don’t know if anything I said helped, or made sense or if anyone even read this far (hi, thank you if you did) but I just really wanted to get that out there… incase anyone needed to see it. 

JUST REMEMBER THAT TAYLOR LOVES ALL OF US - ME, YOU, YOUR MUTUALS, MY MUTUALS AND SO ON. YOUR TIME TO BE NOTICED AND/OR MEET TAYLOR WILL COME. JUST BE PATIENT WITH HER, OK? SHE’S DOING HER BEST TO MEET US ALL. 

Prescription Sleep Meds for Fibro/CFS?

Doctor appointment next week.  Flexeril doesn’t work and Marijuana gives me anxiety.  (And I’m in Oregon so I don’t need a script for it anyway.)

And PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF ALL THAT IS GOOD ONLY REPLY WITH ACTUAL PRESCRIPTION MEDS. 


Don’t make this another, how do I keep my glasses clean without getting up post, where 1/3 of the people basically responded “get up and go to the sink.”

I WILL sit and mock you with Admin E. 

Thank you!

Admin J

(I think I’m just going to edit this with what does and doesn’t work for me as things are suggested rather than try to comment individually.  Also so I can just pull up this one post if I forget to write all this down before I go in.  I’m freakin’ wiped out. )

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Hello everyone! I’m Ten, this blog’s mun, and as you can see I’m doing a small art raffle! 

You see guys, it’s been almost a year since I rebooted this blog, and everyone has been so nice and supportive I wanted to make something! 

Originally, I wanted to do it on the year anniversary, but right now I’m working on the story of this blog and, even though I have some panels done, I still have quite a long way to go. Since I’m concentrating on this, I’m not really going to be answering asks for a while either, so I’m doing this instead!

Rules

  • Since this is a thanks to all my followers, it would be nice if you guys followed me. Not necessary, though!
  • Likes and reblogs both count! Do it as much as you want!
  • Only use one account, please.

Prizes

  • First place gets a full body. Can be either one character or two.
  • Second place gets a full body. Only one character.
  • Third place gets a bust shot. Only one character.

END DATE: October 31.

Do’s: Any character of your choosing, including OCs. Only things I won’t do is NSFW and  complicated mechas. 

If there are any questions, feel free to ask!

Thank you guys!! Enjoy!!

i watched this panel of ya fantasy authors and…

  • Linsey Miller: “so the second one will come out hopefully next summer, barring any… [pauses] … murder, i guess”
  • and after getting a laugh at that line: “that’s all i’ll be saying for this panel, thank you”
  • when linsey was listing rape and sexual assault as things she wouldn’t include in her book Traci Chee immediately started waving her hand around in the air like it was a classroom and she had The Best Thing To Add and went “yeah!” when linsey said “in my book those are crimes you get executed for”
  • Amanda Foody on balancing tragedy in books: “for me, i like to balance it with Ship Trash as much as possible”
  • she’s is also an accountant who spreadsheets (and color codes!) her books so she can “straight up just line-graph my novel” (“every time i try to talk about it people gets scared”)
  • “maybe i shouldn’t kill people two chapters in a row, somebody should kiss in between there”
  • “it’s excel, but it’s like, fun”
  • Rin Chupeco describes novel writing in computer science terms and i’m Living for everyone writing books in the nerdiest way possible
  • Traci Chee about The Reader: “it’s a cowboy pirate world” which, it is
  • Amanda about her book cover: “they ask for your ideas! They didn’t take any of them, but i mean”

in conclusion: authors are great

Betting on you; Part four

Originally posted by nochuie

Group member: BTS Jungkook

Genre/ AU: Fluff, romance, angst, high school au

Summary: Four weeks was what Jungkook would get to make a girl fall for him. One week to get familiar. Three weeks to be with her. Until the bubble burst and it was all back to nothing.

Author’s note: It has come~!!! The last part :D I hope you’ll enjoy~


Week four

☑ Otters sleep while holding hands so they don’t float away

☑ Cow have best friends

☑ Rats giggle when you tickle them, but it’s too high pitched for us to hear without equipment

☑ Baby puffins are called pufflings

☑ When male puppies play with female puppies they intentionally let the female puppy win

☑ Worms communicate by snuggling

Scrolling through the list of facts he smiled as he remembered every single reaction of her. It had been four weeks since the bet started and Jungkook knew the last day of them hanging out together would be today. Today he would ask her out and tomorrow he would dump her. He would never hang out with the ones he dumped after just because it would be too much drama and he did not want that.

“Did you know? Did you know? Did you know?” Jungkook kept repeating in different ways as to rehearse for the final one. Walking along the river in the park he looked around and smiled while picking up a pebble. “This one should do.”

Making his way to the cinema he smiled in triumph when he didn’t spot her yet. He wouldn’t be gentleman like to make the girl wait after all but most times than not was she earlier than him. Jungkook learned that the girl hated to be late, even if it was just a few minutes. Very uptight, he noted.

When the girl arrived he instantly walked up to her and showed her the tickets with a smirk.

“Now you can’t pay anymore,” Jungkook said with a grin but the girl only smiled.

“Then I’ll pay for the snacks!” She retorted making him frown.

“Fine…” he answered but smiled at her.

They opted for a big box of popcorn, sweet and salt mixed while taking frozen Coca Cola and Fanta as drinks. You could refill so why not.

During the movie he couldn’t help but chuckle silently as she squealed and gasped here and there. The movie was action packed and it made them jump out of their seats sometimes and whisper to each other to comment on high tech weapons and funny scenes.

“Thank you, Kookie,” the girl said with a smile as they were walking out and took off, strolling along the quiet streets. They had just finished the movie and with their stomachs content with popcorn and their refill of frozen drinks it was enough for the night. Even though it was very late, the lanterns illuminated their path towards her home. She had insisted on walking alone home but he wouldn’t be a gentleman if he didn’t.

“For what?” Jungkook asked absentmindedly and squeezed her hand before pulling her just a bit closer to himself, shielding her from the cold gust of wind. It probably wasn’t necessary because she never forgot the essentials; scarf, gloves and cap.

“Thank you for remembering my favourite coffee and colour and all the random stuff, thank you for taking me out to dinner, doing fun things with me. Thank you for looking at me. Thank you for making me smile. Thank you for being with me.”

Come to think of it, this was the first time he asked her why she always thanked her. His expression stayed frozen in bewilderment. Those genuine smiles, the giggles. They were all real. And so was the sadness in her eyes. The conviction that no one would’ve done what he did in a genuine act, only when it was for a stupid bet. He understood now. It was the glint of feeling like she wasn’t good enough for anyone, didn’t deserve anything. The glint of extreme self conscience and low self esteem. And his further actions would only proof it was true.

His hand twitched and found the peddle in his pocket. This was the time to ask her out before there was a possibility that she would say no to him. He had gotten a bad feeling already, a feeling like she was talking as if their time together was ending.

“Even though it was a bet, everything you did was real. So thank you for these past few weeks.”

Jungkook couldn’t hide the surprise he felt, his feet planted on the ground, his eyes widening and his mouth agape. No girl had ever noticed let alone tell him right in his face. It felt somehow intimidating, but he regained his posture and cleared his throat. The boy didn’t even notice that they had stopped in front of her house.

“Is this the moment you ask me out?” She asked quietly. The question would have sounded rather cocky, but her soft and careful voice along with her look Jungkook already knew it was a genuine question of curiosity and nothing more.

The hold on the pebble loosened in his pocket and he nodded.

“Would you say yes if I asked you? Will you go out with me?”

“Why not? We had a good time. So yes, Kookie. Yes, I’d love to,” the girl said with a smile as if she was reminiscing about the last four weeks. Her answer somehow sounded like an evaluation of how he did, if he had made her happy or not.

“I’ll see you tomorrow.”

The sudden words of goodbye caught him off guard and he could only mutter a little goodbye while he watched her walk to the door, unlock it and close it behind her when she entered. Standing in the cold he decided to start walking his way home.

What just happened? He couldn’t wrap his fingers around it exactly. She knew about the bet and still accepted him?

The walk had felt surprisingly short as Jungkook was still deep in thought. He figured that the girl felt like she was using him as well by prolonging their time together. He couldn’t feel bitter about it though since he started it.

Before he had realised, he was staring at the ceiling as Jungkook laid in his bed thinking about tomorrow. Tomorrow he would break up with her. He should’ve been relieved, happy even by the fact that everything was in the open. She knew about the bet and didn’t make a fuss so she would also know about the breakup that would follow. The girl wouldn’t bother him anymore after like so many girls had done because they wanted something serious with him or they were simply too selfish and wanted the guy for their own.

Without reason he fell asleep with his shoulders not lighter but with a heavy heart instead.

The day came too soon and lunch even sooner for Jungkook. He felt just weird to dump someone who already knew it was going to happen.

Walking casually, passing by tables, he sat down on the familiar spot and smiled up at her silently, his eyes barely lifting from the floor. Was a greeting appropriate now when all he wanted to say was; ‘this is the moment I’ll dump you.’ It sounded cruel, yes, but so was this situation no matter in what way you looked at it.

“It’s over,” Jungkook said softly and looked at her for the first time that day. They stayed silent and looked at each other what felt like so long but it soon got interrupted when she blinked and glanced away. The girl nodded at his words and smiled at him once again.

“I know,” she replied and he could see the glint of sadness again. The girl chuckled in hopes to lighten the mood before she spoke up again. “Don’t worry, I deleted your phone number and such so I can’t contact you even if I wanted to!”

“Yeah, that’d be a bother. Thanks,” Jungkook chuckled along nervously before silence enveloped them.

During the lunch period he had stayed with her, eaten with her in the surprisingly comfortable silence, just bathing in the familiar bubble that they created when they were together. Because it would burst after and when it dissolved it won’t ever come back.

A ring of the bell and a short goodbye was all it took for it to end. It was abrupt just as fast the decision of his friends made him go to her.

Standing up, the loud sound made him look down and he found his phone on the floor as it had fallen out of his pocket. Picking it up he picked up the other small object that had dropped as well. Examining the pebble he put it back in his pocket and looked at his phone screen to look at the time. His eyes moved just a bit lower to read the note he had saved.

☐ Penguins only have one mate and they ‘propose’ by giving them a pebble

anonymous asked:

Idk if you usually do fic recs but I noticed you answer a couple questions about fics earlier. I'm a new Jikook shipper and was wondering what fics you would recommend as must reads for newbies like me. Hope this isn't an annoying ask. Thanks (:

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trust me, dear, asks about jikook are never annoying and i am always happy to recommend fics!!! also WELCOME TO JIKOOK HELL YOU WILL NEVER ESCAPE THESE BEAUTIFUL BUSAN BOYFRIENDS NOW

okay but seriously

Riptide by peppermint_wind (THIS ONE THOUGH SERIOUSLY)

Picture (Not Perfect) by Nochucomethru

Him by PinkBTS

these things take forever (i especially am slow) by bookworm1805

Pink Lemonades, Tattoos and I Love You’s by sunrr

Blow Me Like Your French Horn by ohdizzy

Take a Bite of My Heart Tonight by MotionlessMuse

Tastes Like Victory by eumorious

all of these are pretty lengthy except the fourth one but like if you take the time to read these you’ll have a pretty steady foothold in the jikook fic world i think lmao and i’m always here to rec more when you’re finished i’m trash pls don’t hesitate to ask for more i love talking about jikook i’m so weak for them

I think one of the best things about last night being in Taylor’s home is that she had all the quotes scattered around that we were was able to memorize and she had these large boxes of 365 quotes around the house.

A lot of us were looking at them and we started to cry over some of the quotes and sayings. We needed to see some of those words at that moment and it really helped me to open my eyes to some things in my life.

Thank you so much for that Taylor

For more homeless!zimbits love...

It Ends Like This by LadyJanelly

This is one of my favorite little AU fics and I adore it. Please read. Please comment. It’s very likely ‘Don’t You Look Charming’ would not exist if I had never found LadyJanelly’s fic when I first got into the fandom last year ❤️❤️❤️

((Also thank you to @gutsybitsies for re-finding the fic 😘))

uheuhe

Deep sea things and jellyfish and giant squids and oarfishes. And mola molas. All those weird looking invertebrates are pretty cool too.

Aw I’m glad you like my work anon, thank you! <3 Unfortunately I’m not taking requests anymore, but thanks for suggesting!

anonymous asked:

do you know of any way I can make myself look taller? i'm 18 and 5"2 - i've accepted i'm probably not gonna grow anymore, but my height is the main cause of my dysphoria and even one or two inches would be enough. thank you! (apologies if this has been answered, i checked out your dysphoria link and faq and i couldn't find anything)

Lee says:

Peecock Height Increase Insole type of things can help you appear a bit taller, besides wearing shoes with thick soles, or combat boots with a bit of a heel. There’s more on that in Appearing Taller: About Shoe Lifts and Shoes with Built-in Lifts.

anonymous asked:

one of my closest friends is a baby butch lesbian and she's the sweetest thing, I don't know why people think butch lesbians are anything but like?? a blessing?? tbh I was just trying to pull up some nice lesbian things for her and I saw your masterpost for positivity things so hopefully I can send some her way. thank you for all of your lovely work, I hope you're having an awesome day!

:)

favrielle  asked:

I have a mighty need for Kastle + 28, please!

SO HAPPY YOU SENT THIS ONE IN. :) Thanks so much, I really hope you like it. This one’s for the Kastle fam in celebration of that trailer (and what I am now affectionately calling Facegate 2k17. WE ARE BLESSED).


things you said in the dark

Sometimes, late at night when her eyes itch with exhaustion and the words on her screen become a jumbled blur, sometimes, she thinks of home. The most recent memories are transparent as glass but her childhood is a series of fragments, fuzzy at the edges - rain on the breeze, gingersnap crumbs, Kevin laughing over his shoulder and running ahead, always just ahead -

And this, plucked from the haze: Penelope Page hunched over the kitchen table in the middle of the night, crying.

(Karen remembers standing very still. It’s not until her mother glances up that she realizes she’s been holding her breath.)

Mommy? she says, uncertain, wide-eyed.

Go back to bed, sweet girl, Penelope answers, and her smile is sad. Everything’s alright.

—–

(Karen has to laugh, now. It’s always easier to lie in the dark.)

—–

She doesn’t remember falling asleep. All she knows is that she’s covered in blood that’s not her own, hot and wet and sticking to her palms, under her nails and in her lungs -

She wakes gasping. A firm hand is at her shoulder and she jerks away from the contact, blinking rapidly against the darkness.

“Easy,” a familiar voice rasps, “easy, shhh, you’re okay.”

Her pulse is thunder in her ears. “Frank?”

“I’m here.” He’s perched on the edge of her bed, little more than a shadow-smudged silhouette but she knows he’s looking at her, feels the weight of his gaze like an anchor. She sits up, balls her fists around her sheets to keep from shaking.

“I woke you,” she says.

“Nah,” Frank says. “I was already up.”

Karen hugs her knees tight to her chest. “This is a bad idea,” he’d said earlier tonight when she told him he could stay, but he hadn’t left. Part of her now wishes he would have, because this complicates things, because she’s ashamed that after all these years she’s still torn from sleep by dreams of her brother. (Because she can still feel his fingers grasping at her shoulder, pulling her from nightmare to reality -)

That’s when the words spill from her lips faster than she can think. It’s an unfair question but she asks anyways, because Frank never lies to her. “Does this get easier?”

He doesn’t ask what she means. He knows.

“No,” he says. “But it doesn’t need to. You’ll push through, learn to adapt.”

Karen sighs. “And if I can’t? I’m not like you, Frank. I’m not -”

“You’re right,” he says low in his throat, reverent. “You’re better.”

They’ve moved closer together; Karen can see the outline of his face, hear the hitch of his breath as he exhales. Her skin burns where his fingers dug into her shoulder and her chest aches with the force of her heartbeat and somehow it’s not enough, somehow she needs more, so she leans in and presses her lips to the soft corner of his mouth -

He rocks away like she’s slapped him and the sudden blossoming of space between them hits her like a gut punch. “Shit. Shit, I can’t, I’m sorry -”

Pain swells in her throat; she chokes it down. It’s always easier to lie in the dark.

“Me too,” she says into the darkness.

—–

He leaves. It doesn’t take long for her to go back to sleep after he’s gone. She’s beginning to recognize the silence he leaves behind.

Frostbite

A/N: Please forgive me, honestly i have no idea where your first request went and i am so sorry, thank you so much for re-sending it in bc i love this idea! please let me know what you think <3 (also i’m sure Tae’s parents are lovely people but i needed them to act like this for the plot to work, okay? also i literally googled my heart out but i couldn’t find his parents names anywhere? so i just made these ones up) On another note, I love this idea so much that I wanna make it into a series, so it doesn’t quite fill your request yet, (seriously nonnie please please pleaseee message me so i can personally thank you for this lovely thing)

Pairing: Reader x Taeyong

Request: hi i sent in a request a week ago i think? kind of like a taeyong being jack frost type of thing and he’s scared of loving someone until u come into his life? if possible thx love <3″

Word Count: 1.6k

Warnings/Genre: it’s a lil angsty. I put these in pretty much every piece i write but i swear, i swear a lot, so it’s in the writing, and obviously it’s an au where nct doesn’t exist (sorry if you wanted it to be)

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anonymous asked:

Since it was revealed that you were gonna write R&G, I just picked up Hawkeye to see your work and can I just say that I ABSOLUTELY LOVE IT!!! I feel kind of stupid for not starting on it earlier. Kate is just the cutest thing, I love everything about the series. It’s probably one of my favorite things that I’ve read, it’s really enjoyable! I can’t wait to see her and Laura interact in the next issue!

OH! Thank you so much! Yeah, KATE IS THE LITERAL BEST. I wish I could write her forever. Thanks for reading. As a thank you, check out this panel (which is a bit low res and not print ready!) of Kate and Laura from Hawkeye #12 (out next month!) And I hope you like Rogue & Gambit! :D

(Art by Michael Walsh, Colors by Jordie Bellaire, Letters by Joe Sabino)

drawacloud  asked:

I kinda need a mini master post on special interests. Are they similar to obsessions with compulsion? Are there things like "this is my SI from when I was 5 I'm not really into it any more," and there's the ones that are just always there and others that are really strong but fade quicker etc. Thanks this blog has been very helpful.

We are planning on writing a full masterpost on special interests at some point, but for the meantime I shall address the specific points you have raised here.

Special interests are very different from obsessions and compulsions. Obsessions are very distressing whereas special interests bring joy. We explain some of the differences between autism and OCD in this post. When I am engaged with a special interest I feel pleasure and excitement. It can fill my whole brain so that I feel like this is the only thing that matters (in a positive way). When I am battling with obsessive thoughts they can also fill my whole brain, but in a negative way; I feel anxious and distressed and I cannot think about other things (although I would far prefer to).

Both special interests and obsessions affect how I view the world. To me it feels like I look at the world through the lens of my special interest because I am always looking for it, it is a point of reference that I use to understand the world, whereas with my obsessions it is because I cannot escape them and they occupy my mind.

It is worth noting that I am using “obsession” as it is talked about in OCD, but there are other ways of using the same word. You may be interested in reading The Obsessive Joy of Autism by Julia Bascom where she describes the intense joy she gets from stimming and special interests.

Special interests can change over time. People can have a life-long special interest, interests that last decades, or special interests with a much shorter lifespan.

For some people special interests can lay dormant, where an old special interest has been replaced and no longer has the same place in their attention day-to-day, but sparks joy and interest if it comes up again. Sometimes once a special interest has passed it remains a ‘regular’ interest. For other people once a special interest has passed it is no longer of any interest to the person. Of course, you can get a combination where a character has some interests which disappear completely and others that persist in a lesser state.

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