my new american life

i’m not good with money. i’m kind of good with money. i’m good enough with money to know when i’m being bad with money and feel immense guilt over it. like i pay all my bills on time and then i’m free to torture myself over every dollar i have left that i should be saving. it’s hard to tell when you’re wasting money though. like if i buy a sandwich, that’s kind of a waste of money because i technically could have bought the ingredients to make several awful, bad tasting sandwiches, but on the flip side, if i don’t eat, i’ll die. so it’s like this morally gray area. on a scale of importance how close do i put “being alive” and “being happy”? pretty close. suddenly checking both those boxes for 8 bucks seems like a steal.

i bought this jacket that was 60 dollars, but it was on sale for 42. when it came, it was too small, so i had to send it back. i still wanted the jacket, but when i reordered the sale had ended. there was another sale on, for not as much, that brought it down to 52 dollars. so at that point i was out 94 dollars for a jacket i didn’t even have. side note: i had to really talk myself out of just keeping the too-small jacket. like i don’t really order clothing online and, man, you gotta swallow some pride to be like, “look, i read the thing about how this is ‘european cut’ and chose to ignore it. this all on me. i am not european cut, i understand if wearing this tiny coat for an entire winter is my punishment.”

anyways i sent the jacket back and eventually got the replacement. it fit, so i just kind of carried on with my brand new european-cut-for-an-american life. 

today, like, weeks later, i got an email saying the jacket store guys got the too-small jacket and i’d be credited for the original 42 dollars within 7-10 business days.

and i’m so dumb all of a sudden i’m acting like i just got 42 dollars. like, no, idiot. you spent 52 dollars weirdly over the course of a month and a half. you don’t even have the credit yet. this isn’t new money. this is the ghostly wail of moneys past. but i’m still sitting there like, “look, i already processed that money being gone. like i dealt with the loss. how can you tell me that’s the same money as back then? i’m not the same person.

anonymous asked:

hi, i'm sorry for not knowing, but could you explain the posts about the us government being complicit in all the deaths from AIDS? or direct me to resources where i can find out more about that? thank you xx

First of all, don’t apologize for not knowing something!!

The Reagan administration was completely indifferent and apathetic about the AIDS crisis - after the first confirmed diagnosis and identification of HIV, (and the thousands of diagnoses that followed) the CDC was repeatedly denied funding for research. The White House literally laughed about HIV/AIDS while tens of thousands of people (mostly men who have sex with men) died around them.  

(That source is from Buzzfeed (I know), but google and you can find it sourced pretty much everwhere. The transcript comes from Shots in the Dark: The Wayward Search for an AIDS Vaccine, by Jon Cohen. )

President Reagan refused to advocate safer sex and condom use, choosing instead to press for a ban on HIV-positive immigrants entering the country, then later sexual abstinence, as the keys to preventing the epidemic (source)

AZT was developed and (successfully) tested in 1986 but was not approved by the FDA until over a year later. Then, after it was announced that AZT could significantly slow the progression of HIV, it was revealed that a one year’s supply would cost $7,000 (adjusted for inflation, this is like $15,000) and wasn’t covered by most health care plans. (source)

An absolute must read on this subject is Randy Shilt’s And The Band Played On.

There’s also a documentary about the AIDS crisis and the ACT UP organization called How To Survive A Plague, and it’s on Netflix (US).

Further reading:

im-intelligent-deactivated20140  asked:

i love ur playlist!! can you list the songs??

Thank you! :)

  1. All of Me - John Legend
  2. Forget To Forget You - Shakira ft. Rihanna
  3. The Remedy - Jason Mraz
  4. I’m Yours - Jason Mraz
  5. The A Team - Ed Sheeran
  6. Lego House - Ed Sheeran
  7. Your Body’s A Wonderland - John Mayer
  8. Wildfire - John Mayer
  9. Paper Doll - John Mayer
  10. Gotta Be You - One Direction
  11. No One Compares - One Direction
  12. Best Song Ever - One Direction
  13. You Sound Good To Me - Lucy Hale
  14. Knocking - Freddie Stroma
  15. Counting Stars - One Republic
  16. Demons - Imagine Dragons
  17. Monster - Eminem ft. Rihanna
  18. Best I Ever Had - Gavin Degraw
  19. I Want Crazy - Hunter Hayes
  20. Somebody’s Heartbreak - Hunter Hayes
  21. Crash My Party - Luke Bryan
  22. Merry Go Around - Kacey Musgraves
  23. Hard To Love - Lee Brice
  24. Storm Warning - Hunter Hayes
  25. Wagon Wheel - Darius Rucker
  26. White Horse - Taylor Swift
  27. Red - Taylor Swift
  28. All Too Well - Taylor Swift
  29. Play It Again - Luke Bryan
  30. I Don’t Want This Night To End - Luke Bryan
  31. That’s My Kind Of Night - Luke Bryan
  32. Been There, Done That - Luke Bryan
  33. Drunk On You - Luke Bryan
  34. She Get Me High - Luke Bryan
  35. Cop Car - Keith Urban
  36. This Is How We Roll - Florida Georgia Line ft. Luke Bryan
  37. Round Here - Florida Georgia Line
  38. Cruise (Remix) - Florida Georgia Line ft. Nelly
  40. See You Tonight - Scotty McCreery
  41. Drunk Last Night - Eli Young Band
  42. I Don’t Wanna Be Your Friend - Scotty McCreery
  43. Forget To Forget You - Scotty McCreery
  44. Blue Jean Baby - Scotty McCreery
  45. Whatever She’s Got - David Nail
  46. Even If It Breaks Your Heart - Eli Young Band
  47. Drivin’ Around Song - Colt Ford
  48. Drink To That All Night - Jerrod Neimann
  49. I Wish I Could Break Your Heart - Cassadee Pope
  50. Who I Am - Danielle Bradbery
  51. Maybe It Was Memphis - Danielle Bradbery
  52. Heads Carolina, Tails California - Danielle Bradbery
  53. The Way I Am - Caroline Pennell
  54. The Scientist - Holly Henry
  55. Anything Could Happen - Caroline Pennell
  56. Clarity - Zedd
  57. Tiny Dancer - Caroline Glaser
  58. Put Your Records On - Caroline Glaser
  59. Torn - Cassadee Pope
  60. Merry Go Around - Kacey Musgraves (AGAIN?!?!?!?!)
  61. That Don’t Impress Me Much - Shania Twain
  62. Not Ready To Make Nice - Dixie Chicks
  63. Wild Card - Hunter Hayes
  64. You Make Me Wanna - Thomas Rhett
  65. It Goes Like This - Thomas Rhett
  66. Runnin’ Outta Moonlight - Randy Houser
  67. Don’t Ya - Brett Eldrege
  68. Downtown - Lady Antebellum
  69. Highway Don’t Care - Tim McGraw ft. Taylor Swift and Keith Urban
  70. 18 Forever - Katy McAllister
  71. Here’s To The Heartbreakers - Katy McAllister
  72. Tell Me I’m A Wreck - Every Avenue
  73. Kiss You Slowly - Parachute
  74. Out Like That - Luke Bryan
  75. Doin’ What She Likes - Blake Shelton
  76. Just A Fool - Christina Aguilera ft. Blake Shelton
  77. Payphone - Maroon 5
  78. Beautiful Goodbye - Maroon 5
  79. Daylight - Maroon 5
  80. She Will Be Loved - Maroon 5
  81. Makes Me Wonder - Maroon 5
  82. Burn - Elle Goulding
  83. Sweater Weather - The Neighborhood
  84. Clouds - Zach Sobiech
  85. Love Will Remember - Selena Gomez
  87. All Over The Road - Easton Corbin
  88. Skinny Love - Birdy
  89. Summertime Sadness - Lana Del Rey
  90. Born To Die - Lana Del Rey
  91. Gods and Monsters - Lana Del Rey
  92. Tim McGraw - Taylor Swift
  93. My Wish - Rascal Flatts
  94. What Hurts The Most - Rascal Flatts
  95. We Are Never Getting Back Together - Taylor Swift
  96. Drops of Jupiter - Train
  97. If This Was A Movie - Taylor Swift
  98. The One That Got Away - Katy Perry
  99. Must Have Done Something Right - Relient K
  100. Tip Toes - Jayme Dee
  101. Chevy Van - Eric Church
  102. Fast Car - Boyce Avenue
  103. Runaway - Darin
  104. Here Without You - Three Doors Down
  105. Unbeautiful - Leslie Roy
  106. Say You Like Me - We The Kings
  107. Seriously - Katy McAllister
  108. Use Somebody - Kings of Leon
  109. Guy Who - Julian Vernard
  110. All of Me - Jasmine Thompson
  111. Wrecking Ball - Jasmine Thompson
  112. Falling In Love At A Coffee Shop - Landon Pigg
  113. The Boy Who Never - Landon Pigg
  114. Keep Looking Up - Landon Pigg
  115. I Think About You Everyday - A Rocket To The Moon
  116. Baby We’re Invincible - A Rocket To The Moon
  117. Vanilla Twilight - Owl City
  118. The Saltwater Room - Owl City
  119. Fuzzy Blue Lights - Owl City
  120. The Technicolor Phrase - Owl City
  121. Don’t Know Why - Norah Jones
  122. Radio Song - Days Difference
  123. Lilac Wine - Miley Cyrus
  124. Breakeven - The Script
  125. For The First Time - The Script
  126. Like We Used To - A Rocket To The Moon
  127. Boats and Birds - Gregory and the Hawks
  128. Our Last Night - Better Than Ezra
  129. No Surprise - Daughtry
  130. Come On Get Higher - Matt Nathanson
  131. Love Is An Opened Door - Frozen Soundtrack
  132. Hey Jude - The Beatles
  133. The Way You Do The Things You Do - The Temptations
  134. THE SAME SONG UGH WTH but better quality
  135. Gotta Be Somebody - Nickelback
  136. Summer Of (19 You + Me) - Dan and Shay
  137. A Thousand Years (instrumentals)
  138. Best Day of My Life - American Authors
  139. Pompeii - Bastille
  140. Tonight You’re Perfect - New Politics
  141. Seven Nation Army - Melanie Martinez
  142. Dollhouse - Melanie Martinez
  143. Cough Syrup - Melanie Martinez
  144. Drive By - Train
  145. 50 Ways To Say Goodbye - Train
  146. Can’t Be Broken - Twin Forks
  147. Where It’s At - Dustin Lynch
  148. Get Me Some Of That - Thomas Rhett
  149. Hope You Get Lonely - Cole Swindell
  150. I Hold On - Dierks Bentley
  151. West Coast - Lana Del Rey
  152. Sing - Ed Sheeran
  154. Ain’t It Fun - Paramore
  155. Team - Lorde
  156. Glory and Gore - Lorde
  157. Luck - American Authors
  158. Believer - American Authors
  159. What Would You Do (Cover) - Bastille
  160. Anna Sun - Walk The Moon
  161. Safe and Sound - Capital Cities
  162. Song About A Girl - Eric Paslay
  163. Storyline - Hunter Hayes
  164. Springsteen - Eric Church
  165. Keep Them Kisses Comin’ - Craig Campbell
  166. Helluva Life - Frankie Ballard
  167. Beat This Summer - Brad Paisley
  168. She Cranks My Tractor - Dustin Lynch
  169. Lovin’ You Is Fun - Easton Corbin
  170. Dust - Eli Young Band
  171. Give Me Back My Hometown - Eric Church
  172. That’s Gonna Leave A Memory - Easton Corbin
  173. Run - George Strait
  174. You Think You Know Somebody - Hunter Hayes
  175. Anywhere With You - Jake Owen
  176. The One That Got Away - Jake Owen
  177. I’d Want It To Be Yours - Justin Moore
  178. Point At You - Justin Moore
  179. I Like The Sound Of That - Rascal Flatts
  180. Call Me Up - Thomas Rhett
  181. Ain’t Worth The Whiskey - Cole Swindell
  182. City Lights - Tim McGraw
  183. Friday Night - Eric Paslay
  184. Alone With You - Jake Owen
  185. Kiss Me - Lucy Hale
  186. Bartender - Lady Antebellum
  187. Ready Set Roll - Chase Rice
  188. Red Dress - Lucy Hale
  189. That’s What I Call Crazy - Lucy Hale
  190. Afire Love - Ed Sheeran
  191. Ain’t Nothing About You - Brooks & Dunn
  192. A.M - Chris Young
  193. Bang Bang - Jessie J., Ariana Grande, Nicki Minaj
  194. Water - Brad Paisley
  195. Latch - Sam Smith and Disclosure
  196. Burnin’ It Down - Jason Aldean
  197. Break Up In A Small Town - Sam Hunt
  198. Raised On It - Sam Hunt
  199. Leave The Night On - Sam Hunt
  200. Shake It Off - Taylor Swift


Rock On 

For the times when you just wanna get up and dance


 I made this mix a while ago for the lovely Chris 

Stutter >> Mariana’s Trench

Say It, Just Say It >> The Mowgli’s

Sunshine >> Matisyahu

Anna Sun >> Walk the Moon

Things We Lost in the Fire >> Bastille

Miss Jackson >> Panic! at the Disco

A Love Like War >> All Time Low

San Francisco >> The Mowgli’s

Ain’t No Rest for the Wicked >> Cage the Elephant

Tonight You’re Perfect >> New Politics

Lay Me Down >> The Dirty Heads

Haven’t Had Enough >> Mariana’s Trench

Best Day of My Life >> American Authors

New Perspective >> Panic! at the Disco

Friday I’m in Love >> The Cure

We are the Tide >> Blind Pilots

Diane Young >> Vampire Weekend 

for summer 2014; a playlist for those long summer days when you feel invincible [listen]

i’m ready AJR // hit it American Authors // summer vibe Walk off the Earth // sun shy Dresses // oceans Coasts // san francisco The Mowglis // on our way The Royal Concept // riptide Vance Joy // time to pretend MGMT // lets go Matt & Kim // over & over Smallpools // golden Parade of Lights // techno fan The Wombats // tonight you’re perfect New Politics // best day of my life American Authors // yes yes The Colourist // on top of the world Imagine Dragons // i wanna get better Bleachers // mason jar Smallpools // sleeping with a friend Neon Trees // geronimo Sheppard // young hearts Strange Talk 


a mix for new beginnings. 

make it great, make it mean something.

01. It’s Time; Imagine Dragons 02. My Body; Young the Giant 03. Anna Sun; Walk the Moon 04. Tongue Tied; Grouplove 05. Shark in the Water; V V Brown 06. Anything Can Happen; Ellie Goulding 07. If So; Atlas Genius 08. Sex; The 1975 09. Fall Into These Arms; New Politics 10. Best Day of My Life; American Authors 11. Helena Beat; Foster the people 12. It’s Alright; Matt and Kim 13. Carried Away; Passion Pit 14. Electric Feel; MGMT 15. Hurricane; MS MR

[L I S T E N]


the song is completely amazing!! just imagine how it’ll be in live:

Joe on the lead guitar, doing this amazing “surfing” chords

Andy completely insane on the drums, in the end i think there will be an insane drum solo that will rip our throat apart

Pete is on the bass, will headbang with Joe and will play perfectly


THIS ALBUM WILL BE AMAZING AND IF YOU SAY IT’S NOT FALL OUT BOY THAN YOU INCREDIBLY WRONG!!!!!!! go listen again to 27 and W.A.M.S. and other amazing songs from Folie A Deux. this album is a little bit more electronic, but it still the same and loved FOB.