my money is ready but not my heart

STORY TIME - I can finally tell you guys…

On Wednesday October 4th I got a DM from Taylor Nation telling me they have a special secret event they have to speak to me about (YOU SHOULD SEE MY REACTION, I WASN’T ABLE TO BREATHE ). I had to give them some information. Long story short.. we had hard time catching up so they ended up emailing me on Sunday October 8th thanking me for being such an amazing fan and telling me they have an event happening in London, October 13th. They asked me if there was a way for me to come. When I got a DM on Tumblr I literally thought she was doing an event somewhere close to me (it’s weird she wanted me in London right? I’m so far away from there) and I had my hopes so up. I thought I was going to meet the woman who means the most to me💔 I will never be able to thank my group of best friends for being there, watching me cry over it and helping me find the ways to go. They were the most supportive friends in the world, I’m telling you. But deep down I knew it wouldn’t be happening. I couldn’t just get last minute tickets and just fly to London like that. I’m a student, I don’t have much money to afford tickets & am in the middle of exam session. I also told my parents about it (I WAS IN TEARS BY THE WAY, I don’t think my parents ever saw me like that before) and told them if they’ll be ready to help me, I’d work as much as possible to pay them off. I love them they are not very supportive when it comes to those things.

I feel like my heart is broken because I know I’ll never get a chance like that again. It’s the kind of pain you can’t put into words.

But I would like to thank Taylor for wanting me there (I GUESS IT WAS HER?! I STILL CAN’T BELIEVE SHE KNOWS WHO I AM) and Taylor Nation for being so freaking nice. They told me not to worry cause they’ll keep me in mind for future events because I’m an awesome fan😭 And they even asked for my address so they could send me a gift instead☺️ They are so so nice! And I would like to apologize @taylorswift - I JUST LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND IT’S MY BIGGEST DREAM TO HUG YOU AND TELL YOU ABOUT THE IMPACT YOU HAVE ON MY LIFE, I’M SO SO SO SORRY.

I hope you’ll never forget about me and save me a hug for the tour (PLEASE!!!). I also DMed you from my @dancingswifts13 instagram a lot but you never saw. I love you and I’ll always support you I promise❤️😭 I’M SORRY.

Caffeine Challenge 23

(the challenge)

His heart is still beating when you decide you’ve spent enough time with his blood on your hands. Some things even time cannot wash away, some crimes even magic cannot wish away. There are costs to everything, but sometimes it feels as though that’s a lie we tell ourselves to make every day seem better. We paid the cost, we move on.

He stares at me without an expression I’m familiar with, the page in his hand. “This is the start of a story?” he asks, unable to see himself on a page. I don’t leave the start of stories out anymore, not after he made the crack about Twilight fanfic. But this one left itself, almost.

The sneer in his voice at ‘story’ says everything, and too much of that. You can’t be with people who don’t support your dreams, not really. He never did anything except insist that I supported mine.

We met in a too-expensive coffee shop, both on trips with other people – he with his girlfriend of the time, I with my little brother. Taking pictures of famous landmarks, and then of each other. We had a caffeine challenge, matching each other with shots of espresso. We hit it off, but perhaps only after the coffee was replaced by wine at a wine bar. It should have been a warning, but it wasn’t. He left his girlfriend for me. Gabriel sneered at that as only a younger brother can, said he’d leave me to. That false once could only be false again.

He hasn’t left me though. I’m the one who has my bags packed and ready to go in the bedroom. I wish I’d caught him with another woman. I have a gun locked away for a kiss and bang. But it’s nothing that simple.

“It was therapy.”

“Therapy.” He snorts. “You’ve wasted enough of our money on that. Those quacks get paid by the hour: their job wasn’t to save you. It was to string you along and get as much money from you as they could.”

“You cancelled it without telling me.”

“Pretty therapeutic, I say.” He laughs at his jokes. No one else does.

Magic runs in my family. I could do it. Remove his heart, hold it out, talk to him. But we only have so much magic in us for our entire lives. He’s not worth it. He was never worth my magic. Gabriel said that to me, and I never disagreed. But if he wasn’t worth my magic, how was he ever worth me? Sometimes things get so simple it’s a wonder they were ever complicated at all.

I take the paper, rip it apart, walk to the bedroom and come out with my bags.

“Hey,” he says, confused. “What is this?”

There is menace in his tone; I hope I am just imagining it. “I’m leaving. I can’t do this anymore.”

“You can’t just –.” He stands, confusion giving way to anger.

“I am.”

“Is this about that joke at the party about you being fat? I never met to hurt nobody!”

“It’s not that. It’s everything. Please move.”

He stares at me. Takes a step forward.

“Don’t.” I’ve never used magic on him. Never wasted, never spent, but I let a hint of other creep into my tone. I have Gabriel on speed dial in my pocket; if I don’t want to waste any of my magic on him, Gabriel will happily do so.

He steps aside. Slowly, not understanding. I left no note for him. I walk outside, call a call, start down the street toward the intersection.

He doesn’t follow.

I ignore the small part of me that wishes he would.

Moon, Stars, and Sun

Pairing: Spencer x Reader

Word Count: 1,577

Request: Yes.  -Leave requests here

Warnings: none my sensitive loves

Summary: Anon asked:  can you do a reid x reader where the reader has a son from when she was raped and her and spence have been dating a while and the biological father is dead and she asks spencer what to tell her son when he starts asking about who his dad is and spencer sees it as the perfect time to propose since he was planning on it anyway and the next day, emily sees the ring and freaks out with joy and tells garcia and jj and the rest of the team?

Originally posted by bau-obsessed

You curled your knees up to your chest, hugging yourself tight.  You had just gotten off the phone with Hotch, and he broke the news that Daniel Gunther, the father of your child, was dead.  He died that evening in his prison cell, and although you were relieved that your rapist was gone for good, you couldn’t help but wonder what this meant for Charlie, your son.  He was the moon, stars, and sun in your eyes and you didn’t know what you were ever going to tell him when he asked who his father was.  

Although he wasn’t old enough to understand much about it yet, you knew he would eventually ask who his real father was, since you met Spencer well after he was born.  He was bound to know that he wasn’t his real dad.

Sighing, you turned the TV on in Spencer’s bedroom.  You had moved there with Charlie a few months back since you’ve been dating for a while.  To your relief, both of the men in your life loved each other immensely, and that just gave you a truly warm feeling in your heart anytime you thought about either of them.  Spencer may not be his dad, but he was the perfect father, and that is all you could ask for.

You uncurled your legs and stretched them out in front of you on the bed, focusing your attention back to the TV.

“He’s finally asleep,” you heard a soft voice say from the door.  You looked over to see Spencer entering the room and your heart skipped a beat, the love you had for the man evident every time you saw him.  “That kid has got so much energy.”

“I know.  It’s a miracle when you get him to bed any earlier than midnight,” you said.  Your voice was softer than it usually was, and Spencer could tell.

“Hey, what’s wrong?” he asked, sitting on the bed next to you.

You shook your head and turned off the TV.  “I just got a call from Hotch.  Daniel’s dead.”

Spencer’s eyes widened slightly at the news.  “When?”

“This evening.  They found him dead in his cell.  The guards think it was a suicide,” you replied, looking down at your hands folded in your lap.

“Wow,” was all he said.  After a few moments of silence, he grabbed your hands and you looked up at him.  “What’s the problem?” he asked gently.

“Charlie.  His dad is dead.  What do I tell him?” you asked.

“Well, you don’t have to tell him anything right now.”

“But he’ll start asking questions, Spence.  He knows you aren’t his actual dad and he’ll want to know about him.  I’ve tried to come up with a million lies to tell him about his dad, and I know that when the time comes, I won’t have the strength to lie to him,” you said.  You surprisingly weren’t crying.  Your voice was soft but rushed.  He knew you were trying to be strong for your son.  That you would do anything for him.  And right now, in that moment, he knew he would do the same.  Charlie was moon, sun, and stars in his eyes, too, and looking at you in that moment, with your hair unwashed and wearing nothing but one of his t-shirts and a pair of panties, he knew you and Charlie were going to be a part of him for the rest of his life.  

“Stay here for just a second,” he said to you, getting up and walking out the door.  You had no clue what he was doing, but you watched him walk out the door and waited until he returned moments later, with a hand behind his back.  You narrowed your eyes at him as he sat in front of you on the bed, cross legged, his crazy mismatched socks touching your own bare feet.

“I get that you’re scared about Charlie, but the truth is, he’s a really strong kid.  There are plenty of things you can tell him about who his father was and what he did for a living, really the possibilities are endless.  But why don’t we wait until he is old enough to truly understand?  When he asks who his father is, just say it’s me.  Because as of right now, it is, isn’t it?  I mean you both live with me, and I love you both and I see us as a family, don’t you see us as a family?”

Tears were beginning to stream down your face as you nodded vigorously at him.  You did see the three of you as a family.

“And I think the best way to secure that picture,” he said, bringing forward his hidden hand.  He was holding a small red velvet box.  “Is to ask you this question.”  His voice was shaking, as was his hands as it opened the box to reveal the radiant cut diamond ring.  You brought your hand to your mouth, hiding your shy smile.  “Y/N Y/M/N Y/L/N.  Make me the luckiest and happiest man on earth by allowing me to be in you and your son’s lives for the rest of mine.  Will you marry me?”  Tears began to fall from his eyes, too.  You looked at the ring, small and delicate, but bright and beautiful.  All you could manage was more nodding and a choked out yes.

The smile on Spencer’s face was priceless.  In a hurry, he took the ring out of its box and put it on your finger, holding onto your shaking hands with his.

“I love you so much, Spence,” you said through the happiest tears you’ve ever cried.

“I love you, too, y/n,” he replies in a croaky voice.  He pulled you into his arms, enveloping your body in his.  And that night, without the words, Spencer showed you just how much he loved you.

“Briefing in five,” JJ said, passing by your desk that Monday.  You and Spencer kept quiet over the weekend, keeping the news of your engagement to yourselves and Charlie.  Going into the bullpen that day, you managed to keep your left hand occupied as not to notify anyone of your news just yet.

“Hey, y/n.  I heard about Daniel,” Prentiss said, coming up to your desk.

“Yeah,” is all you said.  I mean, what could you say.  Without thinking, you ran your hand through your hair, flashing your ring to a gaping Emily.

“Um, what is that?” she asked.  You quickly hid your hand behind your head.

“What is what?” you asked nervously, pretending to scratch.  For a profiler, you were bad at lying.  Emily grabbed your hand and pulled it to her, eyes widening at the diamond upon your finger.

“Oh.  My.  God!” she yelled just as Garcia walked by.

“What are you screaming about that I am not included in?” she asked.  Emily shoved your hand out to let Garcia get a good look at it.  “Oh my god!” she said, grabbing your hand too.

“Guys, please,” you said grinning.  “We need to get ready for the briefing.”

“When did this happen?” Emily asked with a smile.

“Friday night.  He said he was going to do it later this month but he just couldn’t help it I guess,” you told them, grinning even bigger.  

“Aww.  My heart is so happy for you two,” Garcia said.  Her eyes were still on your ring, probably calculating how much money it costed.

“Am I interrupting something little ladies?” Morgan said as he walked up to the group.  Penelope grabbed your hand and stuck it out to him.

“Reid proposed Friday.  You’re boy didn’t even tell you, did he?” she asked him with a smirk.

“Guys, we need to- oh my god,” JJ said.  “Did Spence propose?”

“Well, I guess the cat is just totally out of the bag,” you said with a roll of your eyes.

“What are you guys talking about?” Everyone turned their heads to Spencer, sitting at his desk with a fresh cup of coffee, oblivious.

Gingerly, you hold up your hand to flash the ring to him.  He pressed his lips together in obvious embarrassment.  You shot him a look of apology as you knew he wanted to be the one to tell everyone.

“How did you propose to your girl without telling me?” Morgan asked, but he was still smiling.

“Guys,” you all heard Hotch from the briefing room.  With that one word, everyone straightened up and made their way to the room where him and Rossi were waiting.

“JJ, mind telling me why all of you are late?” Hotch asked, handing out the files for her in frustration.

“Pretty boy asked y/n to marry him,” Morgan answered for her.  That made Hotch look over at you and Spencer in surprise.

You shrugged and held up your hand once again to show David and Hotch the diamond.

“Well, I say that as soon as this investigation is closed, we celebrate with a few drinks and dinner,” Emily said taking a seat.

“Congrats,” is all Hotch said to you two, but you could see the hint of a smile on his lips.

“I’m buying,” Rossi added before turning to the board to listen to JJ for the briefing.  You looked over at Spencer with a wide smile, and he smiled back at you, grabbing your hand across the table to hold.

You were absolutely the happiest woman on earth.

Famous Romans as Dril Tweets
  • Livia: i pay good money to load my sons bag with treats, and if Erasmus Infowars Copfucker wants to devour them in the university library, so be it
  • Ovid: if youre one of the guys who blocked me on here, i Forgive you, and im ready for you to unblock me now.
  • Cicero: in the midst of jade helm 15 and high gas prices. a good boy looks to the stars and asks where have all the angels Gone ...............
  • Claudius: startling how im the only person on this site with an actual human soul. you would think the other guys on here have one, but no
  • Agrippina the Younger: "This Whole Thing Smacks Of Gender," i holler as i overturn my uncle's barbeque grill and turn the 4th of July into the 4th of Shit
  • Caligula: me: nobody has to get owned today. please, please put down the keyboard and step back 9 year old child: Fuck oyu
  • Julia Domna: measure to approve massive depressing statue in the center of town depicting an emaciated mayor carrying a boulder that says "My Sons" on it
  • Julius Caesar: dis charged from the army for doing memes too much
  • Augustus: blocked. blocked. blocked. youre all blocked. none of you are free of sin
  • Nero: the jduge orders me to take off my anonymous v mask & im wearing the joker makeup underneath it. everyone in the courtroom groans at my shit
  • Cornelia: THIngs other people like: being bastards, being Uniformly tasteless THINGS I Like: Being reasonably kind, and trying to help, when i can
  • Cato the Elder: ive never laughged at a piss joke. (sees how impressed everyone is, takes it one step further) in fact, ive never laughed before in my life.

This is part one of ?? ask memes containing 00′s lyrics.  This post contains mainly popular top 40 pop songs.

‘  a girl like you is impossible to find  ’
‘  ain’t no other man but you  ’
‘  and in the back of your mind i know you should be over me  ’
‘  been fueling up on cocaine  &  whiskey  ’
‘  best thing about tonight is that we’re night fighting  ’
‘  boys just come  &  go like seasons  ’
‘  can’t seem to get you off my mind  ’
‘  come  &  rest your bones with me  ’
‘  did we get hitched last night?  ’
‘  do you see how much i need you right now?  ’
‘  don’t tell me you’re sorry cause you’re not  ’
‘  don’t you ever for a second get to thinking you’re irreplaceable  ’
‘  fairytales don’t always have a happy ending,  do they?  ’
‘  feeling like i’m heading for a breakdown  ’
‘  how do i feel this good sober?  ’
‘  how long will i be waiting to be with you again?  ’
‘  i bet you’re hard to get over  ’
‘  i can have another you in a minute  ’
‘  i can’t look at you while i’m lying next to her  ’
‘  i don’t wanna be anything other than me  ’
‘  i don’t wanna be anything other than what i’ve been trying to be lately  ’
‘  i drove for miles  &  miles  &  wound up at your door  ’
‘  i have the tendency of getting very physical  ’
‘  i haven’t seen the sunshine in three damn days  ’
‘  i hope you know that this has nothing to do,  it’s personal  ’
‘  i hoped you were coming home to stay  ’
‘  i just called to say i love you,  come back home  ’
‘  i just called to say i want you to come back home  ’
‘  i keep her coming every night,  so hard to keep her satisfied  ’
‘  i know i left too much mess  &  destruction to come back again  ’
‘  i know i tend to get so insecure  ’
‘  i know you think that i shouldn’t still love you  ’
‘  i never thought i’d need you there when i cry  ’
‘  i promise i’m not trying to make your life harder  ’
‘  i said see you later boy  ’
‘  i swear i’ll change my ways  ’
‘  i think i’ve already lost you  ’
‘  i think you’re already gone  ’
‘  i wanna take a ride on your disco stick  ’
‘  i want to make you feel beautiful  ’
‘  i was off to drink you away  ’
‘  i wonder if i’ll ever change my ways  ’
‘  i would’ve stayed up with you all night had i known how to save a life  ’
‘  if i just lay here,  would you lie with me  &  just forget the world?  ’
‘  if your heart is always searching, can you ever found a home?  ’
‘  if you’re gone,  maybe it’s time to come home  ’
‘  is there anyone out there cause it’s getting harder  &  harder to breathe  ’
‘  it’s not always rainbows  &  butterflies,  it’s compromise,  it moves us along  ’
‘  it’s personal,  myself  &  i,  we got some straightening up to do  ’
‘  it’s time for me to go home  ’
‘  it’s time to be a big girl now  &  big girls don’t cry  ’
‘  it’s too late to apologize  ’
‘  it’s your fault you didn’t shut the refrigerator,  maybe that’s the reason i’ve been acting so could  ’
‘  i’ll be your best friend  &  you’ll be my valentine  ’
‘  i’ll do what it takes  ’
‘  i’m bringing sexy back  ’
‘  i’m going home to the place where i belong  ’
‘  i’m in love  &  always will be  ’
‘  i’m leaving,  never to come back again  ’
‘  i’m not crazy,  i’m just a little unwell  ’
‘  i’m not going to write you a love song  ’
‘  i’m not ready to make nice  ’
‘  i’m still mad as hell  ’
‘  i’ve had you so many times,  but somehow i want more  ’
‘  let’s get this party started  ’
‘  let’s talk this over,  it’s not like we’re dead  ’
‘  make them boys go loco  ’
‘  my heart is full  &  my door’s always open,  you come anytime you want  ’
‘  please,  just cut it out  ’
‘  she acts like summer  &  walks like rain  ’
‘  she always belonged to someone else  ’
‘  she listens like spring  &  she talks like june  ’
‘  shut up  &  put your money where your mouth is  ’
‘  since you’ve been gone my worlds been dark  &  grey  ’
‘  so much for my happy ending  ’
‘  some things in this world you just can’t change  ’
‘  some things you don’t need until they leave you  ’
‘  spare me your frickin’ dirty looks  ’
‘  steal some covers,  share some skin  ’
‘  tell me,  boy,  now wouldn’t that be sweet?  ’
‘  that’s what you get for waking up in vegas  ’
‘  they say time heals everything,  but i’m still waiting  ’
‘  this is not what i intended,  i always swore to you i’d never fall apart  ’
‘  this love has taken its toll on me  ’
‘  this shit is bananas  ’
‘  times square can’t shine as bright as you  ’
‘  tonight will be the night that i will fall for you over again  ’
‘  welcome to the real world  ’
‘  we’ll be playmates  &  lovers  &  share our secret worlds  ’
‘  when you look me in the eyes  &  tell me that you love me,  everything’s alright  ’
‘  when you’re gone the pieces of my heart are missing you  ’
‘  where did i go wrong,  i lost a friend  ’
‘  wish i had a good girl to miss me  ’
‘  you can hold my hand if you want to cause i wanna hold yours too  ’
‘  you got me twisted  ’
‘  you look so dumb right now  ’
‘  you put on quite a show,  really had me going  ’
‘  you reminded me of brighter days  ’
‘  you should turn yourself around  &  come on home  ’
‘  you’re so ugly when you cry  ’


Requested! Trying to catch up, but I love it. Keep them coming!

This one is a blurb. Like super short.

You roll over, burying your head into the pillow trying to fall back asleep. The smell of something floral catches your attention and you open your eyes. 

A bouquet of roses lays in front of you and you sit up confused. You pick them up looking for a note, not finding one.

“I’m not tryna start a fight with this flame.” You hear someone singing from the bathroom. 

Shawn’s home! 

You get up, with your roses, and follow his voice. You open the door slightly and see him in jeans, no shirt, hair still wet from his shower. 

“Okay, this is the best way I have ever been surprised.” You smile walking into the bathroom. 

He turns around and smiles at you. 

“Did I wake you?” 

“Nah, I woke up and then heard you. As much as I love this, can I ask what you are doing here. You are supposed to be on tour.” 

“I might have taken the weekend off.” He shrugs with a smirk on his lips.

“Oh really.” 

“I already packed you a bag, just need you to take a shower then we can leave.” He says leaning against the counter.

“Leave? Where are we going?”

“I got a surprise for you.”


“Did you really think that I wasn’t gonna come see you today?” He asks smiling wider.

“I didn’t know if you’d forget.” You shrug looking down.

“Forget?” He scoffs. He turns back to the mirror, to go back to shaving. “Forget.” He mumbles to himself. “Yeah like I would forget this day.” 

“I’m sorry, it’s just that you are really busy and I didn’t want you to change your schedule around.” You says softly, leaning against the door.

“Hey.” He looks at you through the mirror. “Come here.” 

You stare at him and he raises his eyebrows at you. You sigh and walk over to him. 

“Let me explain to you why I could never forget this day.” He says picking you up by your hips and setting you on the counter. 

“This day, four years ago, I had my first meet and greet.” He smiles. “I had one left, then I was done and off to soundcheck. This amazing girl walked through, I was talking with Geoff and she got offended that she paid all this money to come meet me and I wasn’t even ready for her to walk through. She made this sassy comment and I was gearing up to say something back but when I turned around my heart stopped.” He says taking your hands in his. “Next thing I know, I’m saying anything I can to make that scowl into a smile. Offered her better seats, autograph, free merch, anything she wanted it was hers. You know what she wanted?” He says tapping your nose. “A hug, all she wanted was a hug.” 

“All he wanted was my number.” You say nodding along with his story. “He wanted my number, and I was so confused on why but it was the best decision I have ever made.”

“Yeah me too.” He smirks pecking your lips. “Now were four years later and she’s still making smart sassy comments, but she’s making those comments wearing my shirt or sweats. With a ring on her finger,” He says digging into his pocket.

“Shawn.” You choke on your breath. 

“Not an engagement, a promise.” He says opening a black box. “Engagement is coming.” He smirks.

“It’s beautiful.” 

“No you’re beautiful, this is just an accessory.” He says slipping the ring on your finger. 

“You’re cheesy.” You giggle at him.

“See, I couldn’t live with out those sassy comments.” 

“Good.” You smile at him. 

“Now kiss me and then get in the shower because I’m taking you somewhere and we need to catch a plane in four hours.”

You smile and lean up to kiss him. He smiles against the kiss and then you smile when he does.

“I love you.”

“I love you too.” 

Putting aside money and fame, what Game of Thrones series leaves in your heart?

Love, no doubt. (Laughs.)  Thanks to the series, I met my girlfriend (actress Rose Leslie) and now we live together! This is the best gift the series could give me. My favorite memory? When we shot in Iceland, since this is the place where I met her for the first time. It is a unique moment that I think cherish all my life.

You seem to be very much in love … So, do you feel ready for the wedding?

Perhaps ! (Laughs.) I’ve always dreamed of getting married one day in a very romantic place, for example in Italy, in Venice. After going to Naples and then to Rome, I will spend my holidays in Italy again. So maybe it’s time to do something important.

(He bursts out laughing.)  

L stands for LORD Louis is gonna smash it tonight

O stands for OH MY GOD I can’t believe Louis is gonna!!!! Do THAT!! Tonight

U stands for UHM so… solo!Louis is rising and I’m excited


S stands for SO I’m ready to cry over Louis and give him my heart and money


Hard to come back to the real world after a trip like this. Did I mention we flew business class on both legs there and Back? Never been in airplane seats that turn into a bed but I’m all about that shit. Ten days in paradise. The food was superb, the weather was perfect every single day even though it was the heart of monsoon season, I was ready to jump ship and steal house keeper outfits and just hide away on the island. Probably will be laying low for a while, Daddy sent me on a 2k shopping trip to get clothes for the island, paid for all my car repairs while we were away, and transferred me all the money I need to pay my deposit + first & last month’s rent on the most gorgeous house I’ve ever seen. I think our next trips will be much closer - Oregon area, Vancouver BC, maybe back to my home town in Idaho for a little visit. Will keep you guys posted.


ACOWAR Characters & Florence + The Machine Lyrics

Feyre:  And with one kiss you inspired a fire of devotion.
What kind of man loves like this? (What kind of Man, How Big, How Blue, How Beautiful 2015.)

Rhysand: I heard your heart beating, you were in the darkness too.
So I stayed in the darkness with you (Cosmic Love, Lungs 2009.)

Cassian:  A kick in the teeth is good for some. A kiss with a fist is better than none (Kiss with a Fist, Lungs 2009.)

Lucien: There’s a drumming noise inside my head that starts when you’re around. I swear that you could hear it. Louder than sirens, louder than bells, sweeter than heaven and hotter than hell(Drumming Song, Lungs 2009.)

Tamlin:  And I’ve been a fool and I’ve been blind. I can never leave the past behind. Looking for heaven, found the devil in me (Shake it Out, Ceremonials 2011.)

Elain:  And my heart is a hollow plain for the devil to dance again. I was looking for a breath of a life, for a little touch of heavenly light. Whose side am I on? (Breath of Life, Snow White & the Huntsman Soundtrack 2012.)

Nesta:  I must become a lion hearted girl ready for a fight, before I make the final sacrifice  (Rabbit Heart, Lungs 2009.)

Mor:  I’ve been keeping secrets, from my heart and from my soul. Going from road to road, bed to bed, lover to lover (Lover to Lover, Ceremonials 2011.)

Azriel:  So much time on the other side waiting for you to wake up.
Maybe I’ll see you in another life if this one wasn’t enough  (How Big, How Blue, How Beautiful 2015.)

Amren: Holy water cannot help you now. Thousand armies couldn’t keep me out. I don’t want your money. I don’t want your crown.
See I’ve come to burn your kingdom down (Seven Devils, Ceremonials 2011.)

Hybern:  And I never wanted anything from you, except everything you had and what was left after that too (Dog Days Are Over, Lungs 2009.)

The Suriel:  ‘Cause your pain is a tribute. The only thing you let hold you.
Wear it now like a mantle. Always there to remind you  (Third Eye, How Big, How Blue, How Beautiful 2015.)

me (about Elucien): Did I build a ship to wreck?  (Ship to Wreck, How Big, How Blue, How Beautiful 2015.)

Embracing Your Shadow

What is the Shadow?

The Shadow is those aspects of self that are kept hidden in the dark and out of awareness.  Many of these aspects of self have great holds on your life and actually dictate your thoughts, feelings, beliefs and actions.  A metaphor would be a hidden cave in which you keep those parts of yourself that, on an unconscious level, you prefer to avoid or ignore.

The Shadow includes your deepest fears, shames, regrets, judgments, core beliefs, unconscious contracts/vows, “truths” about life, about others and yourself, as well as your greatest power, your beauty, your sacred and divine self.  In other words, the Shadow includes all these things about yourself that “you don’t know that you don’t know” or those things that sit in your subconscious.

Why is it important to get familiar with your Shadow?

With the understanding that your everyday life is a reflection of your inner state, i.e., that your actions and manifestations including relationships, career, money, etc. are a reflection of your inner state, the Shadow has a great impact on your life.  The Shadow is a major part of your inner self that is hidden from your awareness.  Ignoring or avoiding your Shadow is like driving a car that was programmed to turn right at every intersection while assuming that, because you are the one holding the stirring wheel, it should be going in the direction you dictate. Getting to know your Shadow is like cracking the code and revealing the programming that dictates your thoughts, feelings and actions and eventually your manifestations and results.

In addition to healing those parts of you that hold you back from achieving your desired results, getting familiar with, healing and embracing your Shadow can assist you in unleashing trapped life energies, your deepest power, inspiration and authenticity.  For example, many people know that they are extremely talented; however their bank account does not reflect this fact.  Their Shadow may include an unconscious vow to never have more money than their family or to never shine as it might cause others to be jealous.

Can you see how much energy is put into keeping yourself small although it does not serve you or those exact people you try to “protect?” Can you see how much of your life force is suffocated?  Honoring these old “truths,” vows and fears that served you in the past and, then, releasing their hold of you, can free much of your energy and inner power to be used to achieve both progress in your daily like and desired results.

A few ways to put Light into your Shadow

1. Examine your negative patterns and look for those deep-rooted reasons for these patterns.

Before we look into the ways to recognize rooted causes for your patterns, please consider that the things that you perceive as faults, negative patterns or things you do not like about yourself are actually your assets.  The only issue with them is that they are over-amplified.  If you turn the notch down a little, these so-called faults will reveal their asset value.  In other words, your weaknesses will become your strengths.  For example, a person who is extra careful about spending money to the point of deprivation (behavior that is most likely rooted in some deep fear or core- limiting belief about life and self) may turn down “the volume” on this behavior and actually bring it to a position of being responsible with money.  Being responsible is an asset, while deprivation is a “fault” or negative pattern.

Turning the volume down can be done through revealing the rooted cause of the pattern. Ask yourself or journal about the following: what is my earliest memory of this pattern? What does the picture look like? Who is there? What words were spoken? What was the impact of this mental picture and these words on me? How did my body react at that moment? What did I feel? What conclusion did I draw about life, about myself? What conclusion did I draw about what I should/could be, do or have? This kind of examination will assist you in revealing hidden fears, beliefs and even vows you have made that can be called on to be honored for their past service and, then, released.

2. Take advantage of challenging times and crises to identify and embrace Shadow aspects of your self.

Challenging times and crises such as unemployment, break ups and financial difficulties may bring to light more vulnerable parts of self. For example, one might become overly fearful, needy, rigid and such. Although it is natural to feel any of these feelings and exhibit more extreme behaviors during crises and major transitions, these amplified responses might shed light on what existed in the dark all along, e.g., core limiting beliefs such as “the world / life isn’t safe, “ “I am alone,” “No one is to be trusted,”… etc. Be gentle with yourself, seek help and support as needed and take the time to examine what is asking to be revealed about yourself beyond this specific situation. What is asking to be healed, released and embraced? Usually it is the “child” part of the self that needs to be heard and embraced.

3. Ask your higher self, spirit and/or spiritual guides to reveal those aspects that affect your life that you are not seeing.

Simply ask to have your inner truth revealed to you.  This can be done through meditation, automatic writing, Breathwork and such.  Be prepared to get some answers through insights, memories and new found understandings of what the factors are that affect your perceptions, beliefs and behaviors.

For automatic writing, devote about 10 minutes (or more) of uninterrupted time. Have a piece of paper and pen ready and sit in a quite space. Take a few breaths in and out, allowing you body to relax and be centered. Imagine your heart opening and light shining out of your heart.

On the top of the paper, write the following: ”Dear higher self, spirit, God” (whatever words you feel comfortable with).

On the next line write, “Please reveal to me what I am not seeing about myself… about my relationship…, my work, my ability to earn more money, (any issue you want answers or information about). Also write; “please answer me through my pen.”

On the next line, write “Dear _______________” (your name)

Take a few more breaths and start writing anything that comes through your pen. Don’t look for anything to make sense. Just let streams of thought come through your pen. When the streams of thought ends, read what you have written. You might be surprised.

Practice automatic writing often. The more you do it, the clearer the messages become. As mentioned above, you can also use mediation, Breathwork, walks in nature or any other way that makes you connect with you inner self/higher self.

4. Focus on your Shadow rather than what needs to be changed in the world or in others

Jeshua Channeling by Pamela Kribbe notes that, “It’s your life purpose to shine light on the hardened and petrified parts of you. To spread your light on earth, first and foremost reach out to the darkness within.”  In other words, one does not need to focus on what needs to be remedied in the world, but, instead, on what needs to be healed within.  Once you embrace your own journey, your light will shine out and inspire others to do the same.

In this channeling, you are asks you to imagine a stone that contains all the emotions with which you have difficulties; the fears and negative beliefs you have about yourself and life.

The stone symbolizes all that got stuck and blocked within you. The stone also points out to you your soul mission to bring light into the most dense parts within you.

You are asked to take a moment to look into the stone. Hold it with gentle care and allow your consciousness to go into it and sense the energy inside it. What do you sense? How does it feel? What is its color? Ask the stone to tell its story to you.

Now, notice what happens to the stone once you’ve held it and have given it loving and welcoming attention. Looking at your stone with acceptance and understanding transforms it.

See the color and form your stone turns into. Now, ask the stone what gifts it has for you. Listen to its message.

I am sending you my blessings for a joyous journey, embracing all parts of yourself and living a life aligned with your sacred inner truth and wisdom.

By: Smadar Efrat Yaish

eviljaffafish  asked:

hi! I really liked the list you put together a few weeks ago for your favourite interviews of the group. Is there any chance you wouldn't mind putting together a list of your favourite videos (performances or interviews) with interactions between Thom and Jonny? I find the way they play off each other really fascinating, and it's so lovely to see two equally but differently talented musicians with an obvious regard and appreciation for each other 💕

I’m glad you liked it! i love answering these kind of questions so of course i don’t mind. Let’s see…! 

Thom and Jonny at Musique Plus, 1993

Much Music, 1993

Thom and Jonny playing “You” and “My Iron Lung” (Acoustic) in 1994.

Thom and Jonny // Japanese TV, 1995

Thom and Jonny playing “Fake Plastic Trees” and “Street Spirit (Fade Out), (Acoustic) in 1995 (probably)

Thom and Jonny on The Beat, 1995

Thom and Jonny at MTV 120 Minutes, 1996

Thom and Jonny // Much Music, 1997

Thom and Jonny // MusiquePlus, 1998

Radiohead // MTV Japan, 1997 (I love Thom and Jonny in this interview)

Radiohead // MTV 1997

Thom and Jonny // Launch, 2003

Thom and Jonny // Jonathan Ross, 2003

Radiohead // @ Le Reservoir, 2003 (yes, the entire set)

Thom and Jonny // Cymbal Rush (An amazing performance)

Thom and Jonny // Koko, London, 2006

Jonny having fun with his drumsticks with Thom

Thom Yorke and Jonny // Chicago Public Radio (Radio Interview), 2006 // A really nice interview (here’s a shorter version) and Jonny Playing “Climbing Cycle” and Thom “I Want None of This” at that radio show (both are beautiful songs)

Thom and Jonny // The Rip (Portishead cover)

Thom Yorke gives up on Faust Arp, switches to “Tell Me Why” then back to Faust Arp + Phil leaving money on the floor

Jonny headbanging in the car while Thom drives and sings “Faust Arp”

Thom and Jonny at Glastonbury 2010 (a treasure) 

Thom and Jonny // Give Up The Ghost - Jimmy Fallon, 2011

When Jonny Spoke in French, 2012 (swoons!)

Thom and Jonny // Present Tense, 2016

Thom and Jonny // The Numbers, 2016

Radiohead - Nude // Roundhouse, 2016 // a funny moment

and we will get one more show of them together this august 20! I’m ready! 

JOANNE starter meme

Lyrics taken Lady Gaga’s 2016 album JOANNE. A mix of angst, fluff, comedy, shippy, and nsfw inbox starters. Feel free to adjust pronouns and what.

  • Some asshole broke me in.
  • And this dance is on you.
  • I’m not flawless, but I gotta diamond heart.
  • Want a good thing? Put the money down first.
  • ‘Cause soon I’m breaking out of here.
  • Here we go!
  • I can’t wait to rev you up.” 
  • Now it’s a party.
  • My body’s got you pleadin’.
  • Light me up and breathe in.” 
  • Take my hand, stay _____.” 
  • Heaven’s not ready for you.
  • Every part of my aching heart needs you more.
  • Where do you think you’re goin’?” 
  • If you could, I know that you’d stay.
  • We both know things don’t work that way.
  • And baby, you’re just movin’ on.
  • And can you go a little faster?!
  • I crave a real wild man.
  • I’m strung out on John Wayne.
  • Here I go, into our love storm.
  • I lay around, touch myself to pass the time.” 
  • In the fire, I call your name out.
  • Up all night tryin’ to rub the pain out?
  • Your hands are mine.
  • Oh, can you hear me singin’?
  • My guessing game is strong.
  • It wasn’t love. It was a perfect illusion.
  • You were a perfect illusion.
  • Maybe you’re just a dream.
  • You’re giving me a million reasons to let you go.
  • I try to make the worst seem better.
  • But baby, I just need one good one to stay.
  • And if you say something that you might even mean, it’s hard to even fathom which parts I should believe.
  • Every heartbreak makes it hard to keep the faith.
  • Tell me that you’ll be the good one.
  • He has a funny way saying forever too fast.
  • Can’t blame a tramp for something he don’t have.
  • I don’t wanna break the heart of any other man but you.
  • Hear my sinner’s prayer. It’s the only one I know.
  • She wants nothing more than a man to please.
  • He’s thirsty when he drinks.
  • I can carry you, but not your ghosts.
  • Tell me who hurt you.
  • There’s gonna be no future if we don’t figure this out.
  • Are you holding out your heart?
  • We don’t need to keep on one-in’ up another.
  • I been callin’ out your name. Tell me that you need me.
  • Everyday’s a heartache. I’m just tryin’ to keep it sane.
  • I’d rather save an angel down.
  • Has our young courage faded?
  • I was spiraling out, and she was so alive.
  • Keep it real cold 'cause it’s a fired up world.
  • When I’m feeling small, I toss that cork and call.
  • Just another way to prove I love you.
  • We both know I could learn a thing or two about relaxing.
  • Today, I won’t be so hard on me.
  • After all, it’s just another day.
Nervous - Harry Styles Imagine

///Imagine: You join Harry at a family/family friend event at Anne’s house but once you get there one of Harry’s old buddies have serious concerns about your intentions.///

“Don’t be nervous love.” Harry looked at you and smiled and squeezed your knee. You smiled back half-heartedly and he turned his focus back onto the road. “But I am nervous. I’ve met your mum, dad and Gemma before but there is more of your family there and childhood friends as well. What if any of them don’t like me? You know I don’t handle rejection well.” You sighed.

“I don’t see how they couldn’t love you, I mean you are incredible and that’s not me being biased I promise.” He chuckled. “On the off chance that someone doesn’t like you, well it’s their loss. Mum, Dad and Gemma love you most importantly, so at least you don’t have to worry about that.”


The 3 hour drive from London to Holmes chapel felt even longer due to your nervousness and well, paranoia. So many people to impress had you extremely worried. What if they don’t like you and they try to turn Harry against you? What if they succeed in doing that? However you knew Harry and how much he loved you, but you also couldn’t help but wonder.

Your nerves tripled once you pulled up at Anne’s house. Harry noticed and once the ignition was off, he pulled you in for a kiss. It was slow and passionate and you pouted once he pulled away. He laughed. “It’ll be alright baby. I’m here.” You nodded and you both hopped out of the car. Harry made sure the car was locked and then took a hold of your hand. As you both walked towards the front door, your heartbeat quickened. As much as you tried to reassure yourself and Harry as well, it was no use. You just didn’t have a good feeling about today whatsoever.

Harry knocked on the door three times and moments later there was scurrying and voices were heard on the other side of the door. The door opened, revealing Anne whom once saw us, had the biggest grin on her face. “I’m so glad you guys made it! Come here!” Anne pulled Harry in for a hug and they gave each other a quick kiss before Harry started making his way inside. Anne then proceeded to bring you in a tight hug and gave you a kiss on the cheek which you returned. “So happy you’re here sweetie! Has my son been taking good care of you?” Anne guided you inside and took you to the kitchen. You smiled. “Of course he has! He’s the best.” Anne offered you a glass of champagne which you kindly declined and made your way outside with her.

Your eyes scanned the backyard. There were chairs scattered to and fro, plus there were 3 tables filled with delicious snacks that people had brought and Anne cooked as well. There was also a lot of people you didn’t recognise. You gulped. “I’m going to and find Harry or Gemma.” Anne nodded and you walked around greeting people until your eyes came across Gemma. You sighed in relief and went in her direction. “Y/N! I’ve missed you! How are you?” Gemma smiled and pulled you into a hug. “I’ve missed you too! I’m good and yourself.” You pulled away from the hug. “Yeah I’m good. Y/N this is Thomas, one of Harry’s childhood friends. Thomas, this is Y/N, Harry’s girlfriend.” You smiled and put your hand out. Thomas hesitantly put his arm out and shook your hand.

“GEMMA! CAN YOU COME INSIDE AND HELP ME WITH SOMETHING PLEASE?” Anne called out. “I’ll leave you guys to talk, mum’s a calling.” Gemma excused herself and went inside to help Anne.

“So….” you started. “What do you do for a living Thomas?” “I’m a mechanic. What about you? Other than being a gold digger that is?” You were taken aback. You furrowed your eyebrows. “Um excuse me?”

“You heard me. What do you for a living other than using my friend Harry for his money?”

You were now growing upset. “I do not use Harry for his money. What a ridiculous assumption. I don’t know what articles and who’s been feeding lies to you but I actually love Harry. I’m not with him for his money.”

Thomas scoffed. “I can see right through you, you know? You are just like all those other girls.”

Your started to raise your voice. “I am not like those other girls! I know what those other girls have done to him and I would never, ever dream of hurting him.”

The room seemed to have quieted down from all the chatter and now eyes were on you and Thomas. Thomas rolled his eyes. “Oh look now you are drawing attention to us. Why are you getting so defensive anyway? It clearly makes you look guilty.”

“Okay Tom that’s enough. I don’t appreciate you accusing my girlfriend of being a gold digger. Especially at a nice event like this.” Harry’s voice was heard before he was seen as he stepped out of a small crowd of people and came up to you and stood beside you. “How can you be so fucking blind Harry? Everyone knows those other girls did a number on you! What makes Y/N any different?!” Thomas started raising his voice now as well. Harry ran his hand through his hair, clearly frustrated. “She’s different. She’s not like them.”

“Well that’s not the first time I’ve heard that. I am not going to stand idly by and let you get yourself hurt again mate. You deserve better.” Thomas put a hand on Harry’s shoulder but Harry shrugged it off. Tears started to well up in your eyes. “What do I have to do to prove myself Thomas? Seriously. This is the first time you’ve met me and you are already making assumptions about who I am! You don’t know me. I care about Harry. I understand you are trying to look out for him but you are going about it the wrong way.”

Thomas rolled his eyes. “I don’t need to know you, to know that you aren’t any different. You are so transparent. But, I’m not arguing with you any further on the matter. I’ve said my two cents. I’m not changing my mind. Harry she isn’t and will never be good enough for you.”

The tears that were welling up in your eyes before were now spilling down your face. You put your hand over your mouth and a small sob came out. You turned on your heels and ran inside past Anne and Gemma who were standing near the back doorway, shocked. You ran upstairs into Harry’s room and collapsed onto his bed. You laid on the bed, your cries muffled from the pillow you had your face stuffed in.

Harry’s P.O.V.

“I don’t need to know you, to know that you aren’t any different. You are so transparent. But, I’m not arguing with you any further on the matter. I’ve said my two cents. I’m not changing my mind. Harry she isn’t and will never be good enough for you.” Thomas looked at me, meeting my eyes.

I hear a small sob from beside me and turn towards my beautiful girlfriend who quite clearly had been trying to hold back her tears. They were however, spilling down her face. Before I had any time to react, Y/N ran inside, sobbing as she did so. All eyes followed her and then back to Thomas. I turned towards him also. “I appreciate your concern, I really do. But I’m a big boy and I’ve learnt from my past mistakes. I knew when it was the right time to open my heart up again. I chose to do that with Y/N. She is not with me for my money. She helps around the house when she can and that includes paying bills when I’m not there to. She has a job as a receptionist and has her own money. Truthfully, I do like spoiling her, she doesn’t necessarily like it but I love doing it anyway. She is a kind and compassionate woman. She makes me laugh, has her shoulder ready for me to cry on if I need to and takes care of me when I’m sick. She loves me and I love her. Wait, I’m in love with her. I don’t regret giving her my heart for a second. I’m sorry you don’t think she’s good for me, but I know who she is. My mum knows who she is. My sister and my Dad do as well. She doesn’t need to prove herself to you. You know she was so nervous about today? She really wanted to make a good impression on everyone here. She’s absolutely incredible so it’s a shame you can’t see that.”

Tom looked down and sighed sadly. “I’m sorry I just wanted to look out for you.”

“I know mate but I’m not the one that needs apologising to. Come on.” I took him upstairs and noticed my bedroom door was shut. Y/N cries were heard and that was enough to make my chest hurt. Someone hurt my baby and I hate that. I really do.

Your P.O.V.

You heard small knock on the door which caused you to stop crying. You sat up and wiped your tears. “Come in.” The door opened to reveal Thomas surprisingly. He looked at at you sympathetically and sat beside you on the bed. “I’m incredibly sorry Y/N. I shouldn’t have gone about protecting Harry in the way that I did. I shouldn’t have just assumed. But you can understand why I did you know? Still it was wrong of me. I should’ve gotten to know you first. But I would like to get to know you now. The real you, if you’ll let me. I’m promise you I’m not an asshole. Even though I came across as it before.” Thomas smiled.

You smiled back and pulled him into a hug which he returned. “I forgive you Thomas.” You both pulled away and stood up. Harry made himself known and stood in the doorway smiling. “Yay we are all friends now! Okay let’s go back downstairs, I’m absolutely starving!”

You all chuckled and left Harry’s room. “Harry baby, I just have to fix my face. I’ll be down in a sec.” Harry, walked back upstairs as he was already halfway down them and met you at the top. He gave you a long and sweet kiss. “Okay sweetheart.” He smiled and went back downstairs.

You were now glad everything was fine between you and Thomas. In the future, at these kind of family/family friend events, you now had absolutely nothing to worry about.

No Control | Chapter Twenty-Two


Micky Bennett: college student, loyal friend, aspiring nurse, One Direction fan, Harry Styles enthusiast. Her best friend, Trevor, wins tickets to a show in New Jersey with meet and greet passes. Micky expects a quick photo op with the boys and a great night at the concert with her best friend. What she gets a whole lot more than she bargained for.

*This chapter marks the beginning of Part Two of the No Control series.*

To read previous chapters, you can go here.

*Please feel free to reblog and send feedback. It’s much appreciated :)*


February 2016

The air is crisp as it blows through the open windows of the flat. Los Angeles is already warm in the spring time, but the mornings are still a bit chilly from the temperature drop overnight. The sun is beaming in as well, making the space cozy and absolutely perfect for my one day off this weekend. 

Trevor and I are sat side by side on the sofa, mindlessly watching episodes of Botched, a favourite of ours that runs marathons before new episodes every Sunday. Trev and I only ever have Sundays off together, so this is usually what we do all day, with the occasional pop down to the center of the city to do some sightseeing or messing about. We’ve only been in California for a little less than three months, having moved at the end of December when I finished my final semester at NYU. Trev made the decision to transfer after I got the job offer at the children’s hospital and started up at USC in the spring. 

“I’m hungry,” he announced one an advert starts. I look over at him, where he’s slouched in only a pair of trackies and his classes perched on his nose, hair a mess. I’m not much better in my knickers and a t-shirt with the NYU logo on it, and knee high black socks to keep my feet warm on the cool hardwood floors, hair up in a half-arsed bun.

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Thalassophile - Merman AU

Chapter One

You’re almost home Skylar, then you can take a bubble bath while listening to Maroon 5 and eat the rest of the bag of Oreo's you have in the pantry.

“That sounds nice,” I groan as I peddle faster.

It’s a little after eight at night and I’m riding my bike home from work- which is at the local supermarket. It’s been a long day and I’m so done with it honestly.

Fifteen minutes later after riding I arrive home at my 500 square foot studio apartment. I greet Mrs. Jones and her granddaughter (my downstairs neighbors) as they walk out of the building. There is no one else to greet inside the building so I take my bike and walk up the stairs while trying not to lose my balance with every step I took.

Once I’m inside my apartment I sigh in relief and stretch my neck until it pops satisfyingly.

Did I mention it’s been a long day? Avoiding people makes me anxious and today was just as terrible as I thought it would be.

But I wouldn’t have been avoiding anyone if an asshole named Eric had just kept his dick in his pants and stayed faithful to me.

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The Girl in the Mirror Pt2

AU: Riley Matthews is a small town girl and Lucas Friar is your typical rich boy. One day their worlds collide and a single lie takes them on a life changing journey. Can you love someone if you don’t know who they really are? Or can love help you become who you are meant to be? Riley Matthews was a small town girl until she met Lucas Friar, your anything but typical rich boy.

A/N: Here it is finally, the second part of The Girl in the Mirror. I want to thank you all for the feedback I got for the first part, I really hope you will like the whole story. I am still mapping out some key points, trying to figure our what exactly to do with it but don’t worry - I won’t stop writing for the Rucas fandom anytime soon. I also accept suggestions on who do you want to see in the story - I tried to include everyone in The Riley Diaries but if there’s something you want to see here, feel free to say it. I hope you like this part and that you are still interested in the story.



“I can’t believe you’re at school before the third period,” I laughed walking out of class to meet Maya, who was standing at the hallway, “Is it Christmas or something?”

“It’s September, you silly,” Maya laughed, linking our arms, “I came to make sure you are okay.”

“That’s really sweet,” I put my hand on top of hers, “But I am fine, except one guy collided in me on my way to class.”

“Riley Matthews, boy magnet,” Maya laughed and nudged me, “Who is he, tell me all about him.”

“His name is Lucas,” I was looking around, trying to not sound interested, “Blond hair, green eyes, not able to walk properly.”

“Well, well,” I heard a familiar voice behind us, “I see that my reputation precedes me.”

“I,” I started stuttering, nervous that he heard what we were talking about, “I am right, you can’t walk.”

“That’s a very interesting observation, but how about we see if I can dance,” Lucas smiled at Maya and then looked back at me, “How about you come with me to the school dance tonight?”

“Me,” I was shocked but also starting to get excited, “You just met me, I can be a serial killer.”

“Is she,” Lucas looked at Maya and she shook her head giggling.

“You’re not, it’s settled,” He smiled at me, not even giving me the chance to deny – not that I was trying to.

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