my mind is always full of you

my skin is crawling with discomfort. uneasy thoughts flowing through my veins. consuming myself in detachment.
i was sitting alone in a room full of people.
why must you always believe the things you hear?
don’t you know that people talk just to talk. speaking half truths and overly exaggerated facts to fill your mind with doubt and anger you.
say your goodbyes, and i’ll say mine.
maybe i’ll see you in another life.
just don’t doubt what i felt and what we had in this one.

There are probably a variety of reasons! First and foremost it might just be that I have a lot of followers and don’t have time to reply to absolutely everyone - and in fact when I have a look back through your tag(s) on my blog there are replies there for you, for a couple of memes. I try to reply to as many people as I can but I’m not always able to carry on memes as threads and I’m not always able to reply to everybody; I do have a couple thousand followers! Out of necessity sometimes I have to prioritise certain threads or replies over others. If you’ve been following my OOC life at all recently you’ll also know that my personal life is quite stressful at the moment and that’s distracting from my time to write as well, while I sort out part-time work, part-time volunteering, part-time caring, saving for a trip overseas, and full-time uni!

Also I hope you don’t mind me anonymising you - I thought it was probably a good idea :) I think it’s important to mention (and I’m sure this wasn’t your intention, but just so you know that this is how it came across!) that maybe this isn’t the way to phrase this sort of message - it feels a bit guilt-trippy. You’re totally welcome to ask about the progress of a thread or if we’re going to carry on an ask meme or anything like that, but try not to add those sad faces or make it out like I need to have some personal vendetta against you - it’s not that I won’t RP with you, it’s that I haven’t (really) RPed with you! I’m on Tumblr for fun, it’s one of my ways to relax from real life stresses and I definitely do try to write where I can. 

I hope that makes sense! Thanks for contacting me though, I always love love love when my followers communicate!

i just want to take this moment to imagine 20(?) year old Ichigo Kurosaki pining so much over Orihime that his friend who is literally a spirit living in a different world noticed and told him to confess his feelings

You cross my mind every minute it seems, whether it’s when I see something that makes me think of you or even just when it’s silent because you seem to be a part of me and I’m a part of you too. I hope that never changes. Because even in a room full of a thousand people or in between a million thoughts my mind will always make its way to you. You fill me with feelings I never knew I had. The kind of feelings that wake you up early in the morning and don’t let you fall back asleep. It took me a while to realize what you truly mean to me, under our friendship what seems like has been forever. All along you’ve been more important to me than I knew. It’s like the stars in the sky- you don’t realize their presence until you do. You make me feel so safe around you, despite everything. Your smile makes me incredibly happy. And darling, you make me basorexic. My desire for you is insane. But most of all, you make me feel at home, my love. I can’t stop myself from falling in love with you anymore.
And I can start every poem and every sentence with your smile alone. You’re sleeping right now and that’s okay. You don’t sleep enough. You’re always full of worry even if you’re trying to downplay the whole situation– it hurts less if we deny it, right? It only makes sense when we’re doing it right, so I’ve been trying to be more than just okay. I’ve been asking the heavens if it has a place for my mind, I’ve been asking hell if it’s ready for me. I bend myself into the sharp edges of every star, I still wish myself to bed. I track the time I spend on you because you’re always there even if I want to be left alone. Sometimes I trust myself, but most nights I just realize that I’m full of shit. Sometimes I love myself, but most nights I realize that I’ve got a long way to go and it’s this thing we call love– I’ve had enough of it, I’ve given so much away– but I never keep any for myself. They say the artistic lifestyle is bombarded by depression, they were right. They say the poet writes himself into a deep romance between the words of always kiss me goodnight and the stars are pretty tonight, they were never going to write us down correctly. They say that writers drink madness and smoke sentences made for lovers who can’t see that these words will never truly be theirs. I still break apart this lifeline to find myself in complete fear of myself– I’m really trying to be okay, I guess time is much needed. Sometimes I forget to love myself, but most nights– the tattoo of you is the closest thing that I have to a reminder of feeling better.
—  tattoos and painkillers
Mornings with the RFA(V/Saeran)

MOD SAERAN HERE :D i decided to do a random gif HC because i need to clear my mind :) 

Zen:

  • Each and every morning is always full of laughter 
  • expect a ton of playful teasing and kisses 
  • every moment is filled with smiles :) 

Originally posted by holms33-blog

Originally posted by astrology-gifs

Jumin:

  • YOU KNOW THOSE COUPLES WHO GIVE A LITTLE PECK TO THEIR S/O BEFORE HEADING OUT TO WORK 
  • YEAH THAT AINT YALL 

Originally posted by perfectfeelings

[BONUS]

Originally posted by stimulatedman

Yoosung: 

  • YALL WENT TO SLEEP!!!????\
  • NOPE
  • YOU GUYS WERE TOO BUSY PLAYING GAMES 

Originally posted by sumusboni

Originally posted by youtubersandothers

Jaehee: 

  • every morning was amazing between the two of you 
  • its always filled with laughter
  • they always say laughter is the best medicine!! :D 
  • but  you know 
  • yall had coffee together 

Originally posted by girly-lovee

Originally posted by pimpmybear

Saeyoung: 

  • this is how you wake up every morning c,: 
  • you pretend to hate it 
  • but he knows and you know YOU LOVE IT 
  • also 
  • he has his own way of sending you off to work c;

Originally posted by pleasingpics

Originally posted by perfectfeelings

V: 

  • he loves waking up in your arms 
  • he sees it as a beautiful blessing C,: 
  • best believes he records almost every morning 
  • when you are away on a business trip
  • or visiting family
  • he watches them because he misses you so much 

Originally posted by loveviral

Originally posted by irasshaiii

Saeran:

  • your guys mornings are peaceful 
  • just the two of you slowly waking up 
  • he loves feeling your skin because it reminds him that you are real 
  • his personal angel 
  • did i mention 
  • that it takes you guys forever 
  • to get out of bed xD 

Originally posted by painfulblisss

Originally posted by loveviral

Last night I managed to get honey caught in my hair.
Maybe this is the bees trying to leave a breadcrumb
trail for me to a better tomorrow. I know I’m always
looking for signs when there aren’t any, and I take
the universe personally because this is all a little too
storybook to be real. So when I tell you my tarot deck
keeps screaming LACK OF CLOSURE, I don’t mean it
as a metaphor. I mean that I might hide inside of my 
poems, but you always knew where to find me. Maybe
I have a fist full of healing crystals and a book of spells
I haven’t touched in months because they weren’t doing
anything to erase missing you. And I know it’s all mind
over matter and energy and collision but you came at me
like a freight train and I don’t think there’s any voodoo
that can undo the damage. So I drink teas I don’t like
and fill myself up with herbs I can’t pronounce, and I
get my hair caught in syrup to remind me that I’m still
stuck where I don’t want to be. And I do more research
on the meaning of flowers and threaten to just eat the
petals whole. I write about things nobody else follows
and I avoid certain words that will send me back to the
catacomb of you. I always avoid roses like a superstition
because even though you have them etched into your
body, I know you’d still forget to water them.
—  WITCHCRAFT, angelea l.
Imagine this

Riverdale goes on for years, like 6 seasons or so. And every single season we are met with more and more beronica scenes and the tension between them builds and builds.
Then it’s the season finale. All the unsolved mysteries are solved. But something still seems missing. The closing scene we are met with Betty and Veronica sitting on a hilltop watching the stars. Veronica speaks first.
“Betty Cooper, after all this time I have never been able to shake the thought of you. Of us. I’ve tried distractions, but you always come back to the center of my attention. I love you Betty Cooper. I always have and I always will.”
Then Betty is taken aback by shock. She takes a second to recollect her thoughts.
“Veronica, after all this time I’ve done the same. I’ve tried distractions but my mind comes full circle back to you.” They share a kiss, just like how their friendship started. There is a flashback montage to nearly every moment that Betty looked at Veronica with those eyes and every moment Veronica smiled at something Betty did. Then we are met with a message, from the writers. That’s says
“There we fuckin made them canon get off our fuckin back”
And then roll the credits.

anonymous asked:

Top 5 Haikyuu otp fights???

Why are you doing this to me (ಥ﹏ಥ)

1. Hinata and Kageyama. In which we all were Yachi Hitoka. One of the things that always comes to mind when I think about this fight is her eyes full of tears seeing Hinata talking about Kageyama, calling him his partner despite having just been through the ultimate breaking point in their relationship. It was hard and heartbreaking but still it’s my favorite fight of all, because it finally made them (and all the team with them) realize the extent of their relationship and how much they need each other to play, to be happy, and to grow.

Originally posted by lauleemc

2. Asahi and Nishinoya. Angst is the way to my heart and their fight made episode 9 my overall favorite of the first season. We never saw any of them as furious as they were during this fight, and the most heartbreaking thing is that they both thought they failed the other and their entire team, that they were not good enough. And none of them can stand it. We know this affected Asahi way more than Noya, but, even if it seems the exacts opposite, this fight showed how unbreakable their bond is, how loyal they are to the other, so much that Noya decided to never win a match without him. Ever. He’d give up his talent and his future because of him. And every time I think about it I die

3. Oikawa and Iwaizumi. A fight that changed Oikawa’s way of thinking forever and showed us that sometimes Iwa truly has to use the hard ways to make that obsessive mind that’s Oikawa Tooru understand an easy but still life chancing concept that’s “the team with the better six is stronger”. The aftermath of this brief fight is amazing, with Oikawa saying: “I suddenly feel invincible” and Iwa being all concern of having hit him too strong. This is…the most iwaoi thing they have ever done. 

Originally posted by kagurane

4. Tsukishima and Yamaguchi. When they fight I’m ALWAYS rooting for Yams like hell. You tell him boy! You know it’s not my top, but still no one gets a grip of Tsukki like Yamaguchi does, especially from season 2 on. I love how, even if he respects him a lot, he’s not afraid to take him by the shirt and yell in his face the always iconic “What else do we need besides pride?”, hitting like a hammer in Tsukishima’s already cracked wall. This fight made all Tsukki’s limits crumble, it lit the flame inside him, it brushed all the pain his brother cause him in the past, but mostly it showed us how very very cool Yamaguchi really is. A+

Originally posted by fabelyn

5. Yahaba abd Kyoutani. This is more of a confrontation that a fight but still (I have realized that there aren’t so many fights ??? HOW ???). This is a softer version of the iwaoi fight, in which Yahaba only needed a slam against a wall and some cutting words to make Kyoutani understand what means to be a true part of the team. Yes, this is Yahaba letting out his “future captain” side, but you know, it’s the first fight that creates the bond…and I sense that these two will have a lot to entertain us with next year…

Originally posted by yoonbums

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Restless

I’m always a little bit restless nowadays. That’s a problem. Some days I spend hours pacing circles into the carpet, some days I knock rhythms into desks, some days I can’t think calmly unless I’m running full tilt, tears from cold air drying on my face.
I think I bargained away my stillness at some point but my mind is whirling, spinning, jumping from idea to idea, thought to thought to thought, whiplashing from memory to prophecy so fast I can’t tell what’s real. Can’t remember what I got in exchange.
Doesn’t matter.
People call me Blue. They call me Ink. I write with the speed of a plague and it’s fury but I don’t think that’s new. I can’t remember a time I didn’t fall asleep without words spinning into creation under my tongue. Can’t stay still enough to remember much at all, really.
There’s an old black cat on campus with one blind eye bit two others that work well enough. He likes fish, and chicken as long as it’s raw. He sniffs at my iron chain around my neck disdainfully every time I talk to him. I can’t find it’s clasp anymore. I don’t think there ever was one.
Doesn’t matter.
What does matter are all the poems tacked up on my dorm walls. What matters is the level of cream in the mug outside and the amount of blue pens I still have. What matters is salt on the windowsill and doorway threshold. What matters is that even through the endless momentum I experience, I can still remember my true name. What matters is that They can’t seem to touch my writing at all.

(X)

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To whoever loves me next

I want you to know that I’m literally a mess. I have days where I get numb and am full of sadness, I want you to know that it just happens. My mind is chaotic and dark, it’s like a continuous thunderstorm inside there, it really isn’t the prettiest, but I promise if you see inside and took a seat it would be a better place. There are days where I’ll need constant reassurance because I won’t think I’m good enough for you, I’m insecure about that. I’ll always believe that you’ll leave because that has been instilled in my brain.

I’m sorry if it takes me a while to open up to you, I’m scared of letting people see me, see my soul and mind. Just please be patient with me. I have times where I get overwhelmed and I start to get anxious, just take my hand and say nothing, I just need to know you’re there. I always think of the worst possible outcome, it’s just how I’m wired. I’ll always expect you to get tired of me because I know I can be quite a bit to handle.

But even with all of that I’ll promise to love you with all my being, I promise that I’ll remember the small things such as why you love the smell of rain, why you can’t sleep at night, why you prefer talking to one parent over another. I’ll remember every little detail about you, and I’ll make sure you know you’re loved. Ill make you breakfast in bed, and watch the thunderstorm roll in on the front porch with you, even though I hate them. I’ll have your favorite flower as the center piece on the dinning room table. I’ll always remember your birthday, even though I hate mine. I’ll remember to text you and tell you I love you, tell you I’m thinking about you. I’ll take you on cute little adventures and enjoy every minute I have with you.

So whoever loves me next, I’m sorry for all the bad, but there’s so much good as well.

the signs as indie artists

aries: the 1975
You got something to say?
Why don’t you speak it out loud, instead of living in your head?
It’s always the same.

taurus: hozier
I have never known sleep like this slumber that creeps to me
I have never known colors like this morning reveals to me

gemini: lana del rey
Yeah my boyfriend’s pretty cool
But he’s not as cool as me

cancer: bastille
Your body lies upon the sheets
Of paper and words so sweet
I can’t say the words

leo: arcade fire
Kids wanna be so hard
But in my dreams we’re still screamin’ and runnin’ through the yard

virgo: chvrches
With understanding
You won’t let it cast you down
A mind full of questions
A current to purify

libra: lorde
And I like you
I love these roads where the houses don’t change 
Where we can talk like there’s something to say 

scorpio: arctic monkeys
Secrets I have held in my heart
Are harder to hide than I thought

sagittarius: vampire weekend
Though we live on the US dollar
You and me, we got our own sense of time

capricorn: the neighbourhood
If what they said was all pretend then it’d be different,
If it depended on if anyone was listening,
And I was listening.

aquarius: catfish and the bottlemen
Fuck it if they talk
Fuck it if they try and get to us

pisces: bombay bicycle club
I can feel you already there
And I can see you with my eyes shut
you’re running in my head and I can’t keep up

2

- You hate me.
- I never have. Not for a second. I have always loved you.
- Prove it. There’s no way you can.
I am satisfied that I’ve thrown out the unwinnable challenge. He rolls onto his side and rests his cheek on his bicep. My heart is pounding.
[..] I start to laugh and point, but he grabs my ankles and drags me to the end of the bed. There’s a full-length mirror, and I see myself, at long last sitting on the bed in his robin’s-egg bedroom. His walls are the blue of my eyes. I’ve been a bit slow.

2

You were supposed to promote the others Koto-

Ahem.

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Kid Cudi Lyric Starters

“ if i fall, if i die, know i lived it to the fullest ”
“ i’m on the pursuit of happiness ”
“ everything that shine ain’t always gonna be gold ”
“ i’ll be fine once i get it ”
“ i’ll be good ”
“ tell me what you know about dreamin ”
“ you don’t really know about nothin ”
“ tell me what you know about night terrors ? nothing ”
“ you don’t really care about the trials of tomorrow ”
“ you’d rather lay awake in the bed full of sorrow ”
“ i keep stress in my mind ”
“ i look for peace, but see, i don’t attain ”
“ what i need, keeps this silly game we play ”
“ i try to run, but see, i’m not the fast ”
“ i think i’m first but surely finish last ”
“ he’s all alone, some things will never change ”
“ hold the phone ”
“ the pain is deep ”
“ the girl he wants don’t seem to want him too ”
“ it seems the feelings she had are through ”
“ he seems alive though he is feeling blue ”
“ get drunk, make bad decisions ”
“ are you recording this ? ”
“ this is gonna read great in print ”
“ i wanna dip you in chocolate ”
“ let me ask you a question; have you ever had sex with me ? ”
“ oh yeah, nice censor ”
“ she said i don’t spend time like i really should ”
“ she said she don’t know me anymore ”
“ i think she hates me deep down, i know she does ”
“ she wants to erase me ”
“ i keep on running and nothing works, i can’t get away from you ”
“ i keep on ducking you, nothing helps ”
“ i can’t stop missing you ”
“ it’s like i’m her new nightmare, she can’t escape me ”
“ it makes me feel a bit complete ”
“ i missed you so damn much ”
“ i wish we could start over ”
“ no matter where you go, you might see me ”
“ i know i’ve seen you before, but i don’t remember where i seen ya ”
“ oh, i remember now. you’re something that i dreamed of ”
“ sure enough, a week later i’m in extra love ”
“ but all things good gotta come to an end ”
“ the only thing missing at this point is bonified chilling time with you ”
“ i feel your side of the bed and it’s cold ”
“ i want you, girl ”
“ i need your body right here ”
“ won’t you teleport to me ? ”
“ you call out to me through the light ”
“ the moment when i realize it’s all in my mind, it’s the moment i hate the most ”
“ somebody help me ”
“ can i anyone hear me ? ”
“ is there anyone there ? ”
“  i can’t close my eyes without you by my side ”
“ you wanna be one of them ”
“ tell me where you’re going ”
“ tell us where you’re heading ”
“ tell me some of your stories ”
“ tell us of your travels ”
“ i’m on my way to Heaven ”
“ can we tag along ? ”
“ when will the fantasy end ? ”
“ when will the heaven begin ? ”
“ everytime the moon shines i become alive ”
“ i’m feeling strange ”
“ nothing’s right ”
“ i’m feeling stronger, more alert ”
“ i smell a scent, i know i’ll find it soon ”
“ she has the cure ”
“ i hope she saves me from the curse i have to beat ”
“ i am the lone wolf, i’ll go where i wanna ”
“ even when i stray away, the light never left me ”
“ i learned to follow my instinct ”
“ don’t lie to me ”
“ tell me where did you sleep last night ? ”
“ i will shiver the whole night through ”
“ where will you go ? ”
“ i’m going where the cold wind flows ”
“  but his body never was found ”
“ you wanna tell me something ? ”
“ then let it please be true ”
“ what you want from me ? ”
“ will i be satisfied ? ”
“ i found you, now will you be true ? ”
“ if you love soft, then you’ve already lost ”
“ you should let down your guard and follow your heart ”
“ will you build me up just to break me down ? ”
“ i need stability ”
“ i need some consistency ”
“ i can protect you if you protect me ”
“ i’m going blind downhill ”
“ there’s notthing that no one can say ”
“ i’m gonna find my will to live ”

“It has been 5 years now
We are still deeply connected in each other’s heart, minds and souls.
He was like a prism, full of feelings, emotions.
He is the rainbow and I am the clouds.
He made my pale grey world colorful, warm… he changed my universe with his beautiful colors , with his unforgettable smile
and his effortless essence.
All I know is that you, Harry, the only man that is on my mind,
the only man that is in my soul, the only one who truly and unconditionally has my heart for whatever lifetime this world has to offer us.

Always and Truly yours forever , Louis ”

(AU where Louis writes a monologue about Harry)

A Figure of Speech

Spencer decides to act on what Reader says, literally.

OH MY GOD did you see how many notes ‘Ready’ got?? I was literally screaming. Like I have gone from getting 9 notes at most to 60+. Absolutely mental. 

Anyway, here is my first smut! And it’s not a little smutty, it’s full on hardcore smut. As always, likes, feedback and requests will make my day happier!!


Triggers- SMUT

Word Count- 935


You were sitting on your couch in your apartment with your best friend, Spencer Reid. After a long, hard case, all you wanted to do was slob around on the couch. Somehow, you ended up playing a fierce game of chess with the master of chess himself, Dr Reid. 

‘Fuck me!’ You shouted after he won his seventh game in a row.

'What did you just say?’ Spencer had a quizzical look on his face.

You laughed. 'Sorry, I just said 'fuck me!’

Spencer smirked. 'Okay then.’

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