Don’t wait for us - Sirius Black x Reader
Request : @underworldsheiress
I thought about one request but I think you have too much. But the idea was the reader and Sirius likes each other but try to hide this. So Sirius tries to get choose to her as Padfoots and one day she changes in front of the dog. (But I don’t know what Sirius do about it like he can change or he just remember the scene for the rest of his life). Lol this is strange, love your writing
Warnings: My English. Idk what else. Not that great?
Gif/image are not mine. Credits to their original owners.
~When two people love each other but are too shy to admit it, yet they show it anyway.
~a love that doesn’t have a chance because it’s not nourished.
You hadn’t even realized it. You couldn’t bring yourself to admit it. You couldn’t even say it to yourself. Because, if you put into words, it’s real. And you weren’t quite sure if you wanted it to be real. How would you act if it was? How many things would change?
No, admitting it was not a choice. So, you hid it, tucked it away, behind the walls you built in your heart. Yet, everything screamed differently. Every action revealed how much he meant to you. Only to those who paid attention, though. You were oblivious to his feelings, yet you were sure that someone like him could never look at you the way you wanted to be looked at. You were always observing him.
You weren’t that close with his group. Sometimes you would hold a small conversation with Remus. He was the friendlier one. Always kind and sweet. James with his obnoxious behavior would ask you about Lily. He may appear to be cocky but he was caring and gentle when it came to you and other students he didn’t hold grudges against. Even Peter had asked you about Mary. He was a shy but really sweet boy. He hadn’t asked you about someone. Not that it was necessary. He already had everyone. And it killed you. You knew that he didn’t do it on purpose even if that was what he wanted people to think about him.
You were sitting down with you back against the tree trunk, close to the edge of the Forbidden Forest. You were staring absentmindedly at the cloudy sky. You loved rainy days. They reminded you of his eyes. You loved the scent of the earth before, after and during the rain. It smelled a bit like smoke and dirt. Like him, in a way. You loved how the sky would go almost black and it would hold a million different shades of that color. Exactly like him.
It wasn’t that he didn’t pay attention to you. He did. He was flirting with you and he was a bit kinder towards you. He wasn’t suggestive or provocative. Because he didn’t want to sleep with you, you thought.
You slightly jumped when a bark was heard. A big black dog was there, waiting. He had a puzzled look and it felt strange because it was just a dog and that look was too human…ish. “Well, hello to you too” you greeted him, avoiding the urge to facepalm. You were talking to a dog. Something about him… Felt so familiar and oddly enough, calming.
The dog didn’t hesitate. He made his way towards you, slowly but confidently. When he reached you, he placed his head on your lap. It made your heart skip a beat… Like someone else was there. Someone with gray eyes and a chaotic mind. You brushed the feeling off and started petting him. You felt him relaxing under your touch and it made you smile. Your mind wandered around the same old thoughts.
“I love the rain. It’s sincere. Unlike people, it can never lie” you whispered. The dog nodded his head. He freaking nodded his head like he could understand you. You continued to whisper random things to him. Like how much you liked the different shades of black. But not why.
You would never admit why.
Eventually, it started raining. You had to get back inside but you couldn’t muster to leave him alone, so you stayed. He hadn’t seemed to notice it was raining until you sneezed. His head snapped up to your face and gave you a disappointed look. How was it possible? He removed himself from your lap and touch and started barking at you like he wanted you to go inside immediately.
“Fine, fine!” you said while you got up. You wanted to take him inside as well but before you could even look at his direction, he was gone.
Since that day, you had practically adopted the dog. Somehow, he had found you inside Hogwarts- it was ridiculous, really. It seemed like he was more of a person that many people you knew. You would let him climb into your dorm some nights that was too cold outside. You simply couldn’t let him freeze. He would even sleep right beside you when you were sad or feeling down.
You had bought some treats but he was more of a human-candy dog. Even though you knew he shouldn’t eat human food, you couldn’t resist.
You were sitting on your bed, trying to study. You didn’t pay any attention to the dog and he was annoyed. He barked at you, desperately seeking your touch but you laughed it away.
Then Lily walked in. Great, now you could never get your homework done. She smiled to the dog. She knew about him. Actually, she knew more than you did.
“We are going to a party. Be ready in 15’” she simply announced. You pouted and gave her the puppy eyes.
“But I don’t want to” you said, hoping that she would leave you be.
“And I don’t care. Get ready” she demanded and got out.
“She is insane” you murmured to yourself but got up and made your way to the bathroom. You could swear, the dog was smirking. You did your best to be quick. After just ten minutes, you were walking back into the room, wrapped in a towel with your hair falling onto your shoulders and your back, dripping water.
‘What do I wear’, you thought, going through your clothes. When you found something that seemed decent enough, you turned to the dog.
“Turn around”. It was mad. Pure madness and you knew it. Asking a dog to turn around because you were changing clothes. But that didn’t stop you from repeating it about ten times before you give up. You turned, your back facing the dog and let your towel fall down. You were about to put on your underwear when you heard a groan. A human groan.
You were naked and someone was in the room. And all of the sudden, you found yourself pinned down against a wall. Your eyes were wide open but you couldn’t see.
“Breathtaking” you heard. Your heart began to race and skipping beats at the same time. It couldn’t be. You focused your eyes on the face that was inches away from yours.
"Sirius?“ you almost screamed. He was there. You were naked. Where was the d-
"Oh Merlin! ” you gasped in realization. He just kept looking at you like he wanted to devour you. He was the dog. He was the damn dog.
You felt your legs give out. He wrapped his hands around your waist, supporting you.
You locked eyes with him. For a second nobody breathed, everything stood still. And then you crashed your lips to his. It has been way too long since you had first imagined this. He kissed you back with hunger. You would have never guessed that he-
“Sirius, wait” you said breaking away from the kiss. He looked at you confused but at the same time, understanding.
“I am not- I don’t want the one night deal” you truthfully said even though you were naked and needy. You needed to sort this out.
“I have liked you for a year before you met me as Padfoot. Now, I think it’s more than just like” he whispered, his breath falling on your lips. You could barely answer 'good’ before you threw yourself at him.
This time your hands moved faster, unbuttoning his shirt and roaming his torso. His hands traveled to places you had only dreamt of.
“You have no idea how long I wanted this” he husked.
"We shouldn’t wait for them. I mean, listen… “Remus trailed off. Voices, very inappropriate voices, were audible.
"They are loud” Lily commented with a smile.
“Yes, yes they are” Remus answered, trying to hide a smirk.
“So, Lily-flower, care to imitate them?” James said, wiggling his eyebrows. Remus facepalmed.