my little dream home

i’m in my prime,
not withering and old.
but i refuse to play
your wicked games any longer.

i know this tether is unbreakable,
but you make me feel like i’m interchangeable.
you drew a target on my heart,
when did this become fatal attraction?

i don’t have the strength,
the energy,
nor the patience
to be held hostage by your love.

so baby please don’t despair
when i say that
i’ve found the courage to
let you go.

you were never meant to be tied down in the first place.

—  believing i could love you was my mistake, c.j.n.
Ellie Goulding Songs, Albums, Remixes, EPs, etc. (Last Updated July 8, 2016)

Lights (UK Version)

Guns And Horses

Starry Eyed

This Love (Will Be Your Downfall)

Under The Sheets

The Writer

Every Time You Go

Wish I Stayed

Your Biggest Mistake

I’ll Hold My Breath

Salt Skin

On The Digital Version through Universal Music you also get 4 live tracks from Ellie’s Metropolis Studios session:

Guns and Horses

Under The Sheets

The Writer

Starry Eyed

Lights (US Version)

Lights (Single Version)

Guns And Horses

Starry Eyed

This Love (Will Be Your Downfall)

Under The Sheets

The Writer

Animal

Every Time You Go

Your Biggest Mistake

Salt Skin

Your Song

Bright Lights

Guns And Horses

Starry Eyed

This Love (Will Be Your Downfall)

Under The Sheets

The Writer

Every Time You Go

Wish I Stayed

Your Biggest Mistake

I’ll Hold My Breath

Salt Skin

Lights (Single Version)

Human


Little Dreams


Home

 Animal


Believe Me


Your Song

The End (Acoustic) (Only on iTunes Deluxe Edition)

An Introduction to Ellie Goulding (UK Version)

Under The Sheets

Wish I Stayed (Acoustic)

Wish I Stayed (Acoustic Music Video)

Roscoe (Acoustic Music Video)

An Introduction to Ellie Goulding (Video)

An Introduction to Ellie Goulding (US Version)

Starry Eyed

Guns And Horses

The Writer (Live Acoustic)

Lights

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diamonds-are-for-dinner  asked:

Penthouse, bubblebath, champagne 🌹

penthouse: what would you consider your dream home? describe it.
The dream home to me is a little wooden & stone little one lost in the woods, with a garden to organize my picnic full of animals as doggies, hens, birds singing all day long and maybe even a little pond with funny ducks!! But also a little mansard in Paris, in the Montmartre district near to all the inspiring artist which is my absolute favorite place in the whole Paris, sharing my life with a puppy doggie maybe ahh what a dream! But honestly my dream home would just be a little place where I can feel safe and inspired ❤

bubblebath: do you have any routines before bedtime? like skin care etc. what are they?
Ohh yes yes, I entirely adore routines heh! As skincare before bed I simply wash my face with cold water and put some oil (currently adoring the rosehip one! So gentle to my sensitive skin!) on my face to feel cuddled, and when I want to feel extra cuddled I would put some vitalizing water on my body and hair (there’s this one I use on spring/summer which has lemon and grapefruit essences and makes me feel like I belong to a mediterranean garden I absolutely adore it🍋). Another thing I always do before bed is to read a book and write some letters or thoughts in my personal diary, it helps me to reflect on my mind and day and to be more thankful in life in general.

champagne: what topic could you talk about for hours?
About my dog! I love him so much it’s unreal gosh I would talk about him and all the memories of him dear to my heart for the eternity! But I also love to talk about nature with all its mystery and how I endlessly cherish it 🌾

Angel thanks so much for your questions!! Sending tons of kisses to you!!❤

Valentines day messages- 5sos preference

This pref is about messages the boys leave on your messaging machine on Valentines Day, I hope your valentines day isnt too miserable:) Enjoy!

Michael: “Hey Loserrrrrrr,It’s your best friend michael.” He slurs. “Do remember me? We had plans tonighttt. We were going to party until the sunrise but you were out with that jock guy T.J. How can you even stand him? He is such an asshole."He growls."but you love him..so I’ll be nice. Well you two are probably making out in his car somewhere I am at home waiting for you to come over but you are sooo late. Incase you don’t remember what we were going to do. We had that drinking game that we invented before you and T.J. became a thing. It was for when someone complains about being single we take a shot. I have had 10 shots so far. Is this complaining?Should I take a shot? Anyway your voicemail was the first time I have heard your voice in weeks. You must really must like this guy… ” Michael whispers. “I’m just some guy sitting in his parents basement,drunk leaving a voicemail on the phone of the girl he loves on valentines day. Yeah,I love you (Y/N)  Um I should go my pizza’s heree. Talk to you later loserrrrr”

Luke: “Hey babe sorry if I woke you up while I was leaving this morning.Long night? I’m going to pick up your Valentine’s Day surprise. I know you said no big surprises but I couldn’t resist. Plus there is a benefit for the both of us. I get to spend the rest of my life with you and you get a pretty ring. Damn it. Well the surprise is ruined now. I was expecting Michael or something to ruin it not myself… Uhm at least he doesn’t know about the puppy and romantic dinner part . Fuck, I did it again! Well you might as well start getting ready I guess..  Happy Valentine’s day babe. I’ll talk to you when we get home meaning the puppy and I .There’s heart shaped pancakes on the counter. I loooove you.”

Calum: “Um hi (Y/N), I hope everything is going okay.” Your ex Calum sighs.  ”You are probably asking why is this asshole calling?  but please before you hang up…hear me out. Today luke was watching that terrible romance movie that we went and saw for our first date,a year ago. It was like suddenly I was back there in that cheap theater,eating stale popcorn,giggling at how bad that douchebag’s actor acting was.but despite how terrible it was we kept going to it every weekend because that is all we could find to do in that little town.   I don’t know why its suddenly hitting me now,but I want that feeling we had those nights back. I want the uncomfortable seats and the fear of getting lice back. I want to hear your giggles in my ear and the warmth from your whispers against my cheeks back.” There was a long pause.  ”I guess I want you back. Um Happy Valentines Day (Y/N). Call me back when you get a chance. Talk to you soon

Ashton: “Hi sweetheart. It’s Ash. You are probably sleeping right now. I just wanted to call and say happy valentines day before I go on stage. It’s still unbelievable that I have the privilege to call such a stunning woman my wife and the future mother of my children. Six years ago I only dreamed to meet such an incredible girl like you and here I am leaving a voicemail for my dream girl. You have been such a huge support to my career and so accepting of everything extra that comes with it including fan hate and the long distance relationship even being pregnant with twins at 8 months you still want me on tour,living my dream. But truly darling my dream is being home with you and our little family,happy. I am so lucky to have someone that the boys love ,my family loves, and most of the fans love you” he chuckles. “But most importantly I love you. I’ll text you after the show. Goodnight (Y/N)”

Masterlist 

Requests

Lucrezia Borgia; Innocence Lost. “your eyes, you no longer walk on air” {LISTEN}

gods and monsters - lana del rey / in the land of gods and monsters i was an angel, living in the garden of evil/ innocence lost
buy the stars - marina and the diamonds /
 all my life I’ve been so lonely all in the name of being holy, still you’d like to think you own me

my body is a cage - peter gabriel/ i’m living in an age that calls darkness light/ my body is a cage that keeps me from dancing with the one I love
sweet dreams - emily browning / some of them want to use you, some of them want to get used by you, some of them want to abuse you
born to die - lana del rey / feet don’t fail me now, take me to the finish line / I’m hoping that the gates, they’ll tell me that you’re mine
my skin - natalie merchant / I’m a slow dying flower in the frost killing hour, the sweet turning sour and untouchable
i am not a robot - marina and the diamonds / you’re vulnerable, you’re loveable but you’re so troubled
so cold - ben cocks / it’s so quiet here and I feel so cold, this house no longer feels like home.
dream - by priscilla ahn /I was a little girl alone in my little world  who dreamed of a little home for me,  i asked God who I’m supposed to be
little house - the fray / something you want to forget about, a part of you that’ll never show, you’re the only one that’ll ever know
paradise - cold play / when she was just a girl she expected the world, but it flew away from her reach