my life story hahaha

anonymous asked:

i currently have a major crush...but im almost embarrassed about it bc i feel like everyone has a crush on him and im somehow lame for falling into the trap too lol. either way we just met through a mutual friends and every time we talk i get that ~feeling~, its honestly the best and the worst all at once! ahh

HAHAHA story of my LIFE last year holy shit. everyone was into him and I was like really? me too?

Love can wait, somebody said.

And a thousand more reasons surged in my head, drifting on the way his eyes blinked, or how he breathes with his lips slightly parted. Love creeps with that shallow presence, hiding behind every smile he made that caught me off guard. It doesn’t know how to wait, instead it surprises me how his laugh sounded a lot like coffee in the morning, caffeine to wake up my eyes and make me feel alive, and every day I woke up with that growing longing to hear it. To see him. Because I want him, and I don’t know how that happened.

Love was that kid crying for a lollipop he cannot have. It was already there like how the moon was always with his star friends, hanging out in that black shadow of the night whenever I looked up. I couldn’t stop the morning from coming, like how I couldn’t stop love from giving my butterflies the chance to grow in my stomach. Love came to me in a stubborn manner I didn’t know how to shake once it has found me, and all I could do was accept it was already there.

Love didn’t wait. Even if it meant lying to my feelings that it was fiction, that it was written in my veins but it wasn’t a real part of my world.

So I thought, no. Love never slipped the chance to grab a hold of my vulnerability to want and need it. It didn’t wait, instead, I should.

—  excerpt // s.c

hello darlings! towards the end of each year on tumblr, i make a follow forever to thank the people who make my dash such a lovely place. even though the graphic says this is my ‘first’ ff, i’ve actually been using this dumb website since august 2010 (yeah i know what even) and had over multiple ffs. over my five years on here i’ve had a total of four accounts that ran nine blogs (i think? i can’t even remember anymore). i’ve literally been in every ‘big’ fandom that you can think of; including some such as the harry potter fandom, glee fandom and yes even the one direction fandom.

however, i have never been apart of such a wonderful, excepting and loving community as the exo fandom. before i found exo, i started to hated my time on tumblr - it was like a burden to me… running a blog that had a good sized following just because i didn’t want my follower count to go down. i was so close to ending my time on tumblr, but then i watched call me baby and my life changed. over the four months i’ve been running this blog, i have changed for the better - i’m happier. and that is thanks to both exo and you lovely angels, my followers/this fandom.

never before have i been welcomed into a fandom with such open arms. i have gotten to know more people during my short time on this blog, than i have on all my other blogs that i’ve used for 5 years. to those who have taken some time to get to know me or to just chat, thank you so much - it really means a lot.

recently i reached 200 followers, which isn’t a lot i know… but in all honesty i don’t care about my follower count anymore. i’m here to enjoy my time. c: so i would just like to thank not just my followers, but also the blogs i follow for making my day and dash that extra bit special. i love you all very much!

ok so under the cut are the blogs that i follow! thank you for making my dash so awesome! <3

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