cute as fuck stuck in emo phase actually goth-emo mix which i dig he’s classic drives a fucking hearse in love™
super into theater!! misunderstood like would crash hearse for love relate deeply his room is so aesthetically pleasing SASS like really cute as fuck problematic fav who we just want him to be okay worked at the dot & i find that really appealing for some reason
some ignorant fool who doesn’t know everysinglething that’s happening in my unimportant life: so how are you :)
me: W E L L, i’m doing pretty ok with soft undertones of crippling depression and an aftertaste of some light anxiety. how are you debra???
i’ve never told my brothers how much they mean to me, nor have i ever told them that i always feel like the only time i can be near them is when i’m the shadow at their feet. i never told my mom that the reason i almost self harmed was because it felt like everything she said about my future was what made me fall. i never told my dad that even though he’s important to me the amount of care he doesn’t have for my future felt like nothing else in my life mattered.
i’ve told my friends everything, i’ve given them the pieces of my life that are important to me but i feel so unimportant to them. they’ve given me time, given me reassurances and hope and love but i feel unworthy of it all. i feel as if it’s wasted.
i’ve wasted my life, and it’s barely started. i could have gone to the art school. i could have gone through with the dreams i wanted. i could have done everything i wanted to, could have told everyone what they should have heard, but i didn’t. i could have, but i didn’t.