my life is crazy busy right now

I’ve been melancholy lately. I feel it mainly when the craziness of my busy life quiets for a bit and things get still.

Sunday Confession: it’s not been just lately. It’s been a little over a year now and I know why.

It’s time to let go. Appreciate what I have right here in front of me. Accept that some things just aren’t meant to be

The past steps on the heels of the present, and I’m wearing fucking flip flops.


Writer says: So I had this crazy idea one day and I just had to work on it. Here ya go!

Writer means: So I had this crazy idea either right before getting in the shower or right before falling asleep so I grabbed my fucking laptop and shat all over it to create the steaming pile of crap that I now lay before you. I don’t even know if it’s good anymore. I haven’t slept in two days.

Writer says: Wow, real life’s getting busy! Sorry on the slow updates.

Writer means: My life is a literal storm of shit at the moment. Why did I decide to do this. Why am I still doing this. Everything around me is spinning out of control and I am staying up ‘til 5:30 in the morning every night to create a piece of work that will only get two comments and 12 demands for quicker updates. I hope no one’s mad at me, all I wanted to do was write.

Writer says: Wow! Would you look at that! I updated on time! Please enjoy!


Writer says: This chapter was a toughie. Glad it’s finally done!

Writer means: I don’t know if this is good or not. I honestly don’t fucking know. I’ve read the same words over and over and over again and I just couldn’t look at it anymore. My beta said it was ok but I’m not confident but HOLY SHIT I JUST NEED TO STOP WRITING THIS FUCKIGN CHAPTER.

Writer says: Thanks for reading!

Writer means: Please, oh please oh please oh please leave me a review. A comment. Anything. Please tell me you’re out there. Please tell me someone is reading this.

Writer says: I just want to say that real life is getting pretty hectic right now. Please try to be patient with me, I know you guys want updates. Thanks! :)

Writer means: FUCK. YOU. Who the fuck do you think you are, demanding shit from me?! You don’t know my life! I have a very busy life! I create shit for free, you entitled son of a pig-fucker! STOP LEAVING ME COMMENTS TELLING ME TO UPDATE SOON OR I SWEAR TO GOD I’LL PUKE ALL OVER MY COMPUTER 

Writer says: What’s gonna happen next? Who knows? Hee hee ;)

Writer means: I have no fucking clue what the next chapter is going to look like. What’s my plot? I don’t know. I feel no emotion.

Writer says: Please leave a comment! It helps me write!

Writer means: I am begging you to leave me a comment because I swear it’s the only thing that’s keeping me motivated right now, I hate the work I put out and I need reassurance that people are actually enjoying this.

Writer says: I hope you enjoyed that chapter, big things are coming up! ;)

Writer means: Buckle up bitches, someone’s gonna die.

Writer says: I know I’ve missed a few updates, but I swear I plan on finishing this story! 

Writer means: *high pitched eternal screeching*

Writer says: Here we are at long last! This has been one wild ride. I want to thank you all so much for your support and love, I adore each and every one of you. I am so happy to say that this story has come to a wonderful close.

Writer means: My body is numb. Voices call out to me from the void, but I can no longer hear them over the beating of my racing heart. I am stressed to the point where I feel no relief. The story is done. It’s fucking DONE. I loved it, I hated it, it was a fucking storm of horror and pain. I can no longer see color. Now I can at last relax and…wait……wait a second………..holy shit I just thought of the best idea for a one-shot that’s totally gonna turn into a 50 chapter slow burn AU fic leT’S FUCKING DO THIS

x;; Whoop whoop! Thank you to my 16 or so followers! You are all the lights of my life right now. I am sincerely grateful that you have all been so patient with me. I promise I’m steadily making my way through the game. Prompto will be 100% open for business before you know it!

Until then, I’m sending out memes like crazy and plotting with anyone who’s interested once I open this lil babe up. So like the post and I’ll either send you a meme, message you for plotting, or BOTH!

Thanks a lot!

I know I keep disappearing which I really need to stop doing lol. So much has happened that I need to update you all on. So my wedding got moved to march 11th which is huge because that is literally a month from now! It’s so crazy but I am beyond excited for it. I got a new job …yes…AGAIN. Hey a girl has to find her way in the world it’s really hard to find your place after graduating college, some people are lucky with landing their dream job right away but some like me have to work hard to get there. I have recently started a photography business which I will share that with you as soon as I finish telling you my life story lol. I’m debating if I should share with you all my wedding dress but the only way I’ll do that is if I get requests :) I’m so excited to share with you guys all of my new photos I’ve been taking I hope to inspire all of you…Apart from me doing  photography on the side I am also a marketing coordinator/ graphic designer so yes I am still moving up with that career choice. I’m the happiest I’ve ever been! I literally have so much I want to tell you all but I can’t even think straight haha. Message me if you have any cool questions :) Love ya! xoxo Ash


so, I guess I should list this blog as semi-hiatus?

I dunno.

So officially I’m in arizona now. Yay. I’m trying to find a job so I can have money for my trip to England. By the way, I have a departure and return date set in stone now. April 4 I leave to London and return to Arizona on July 3. Before I leave I have to also apply for school at the local technical college since I will be gone during the months of enrollment. Life is crazy busy right now.

I’ll be in and out when I can. I’m not going to commit to any long term roleplays because I know I will not be able to deal with them right now. I will still do memes and starters and the like and feel free to send in stuff, just know that I am going to be away a lot for the time being.

Cuddling is Warmth, Warmth is Safe, and Safe is Phil

Summary: Dan talks about the most important thing in his life.

Warnings: probably mentions of depressing thoughts and nightmares and intercourse and stuff, also the video, but theres nothing else just complete fluff that will kill u

Words: 969

A/N: im on a roll im writing so many fics and not finishing them wtf is wrong with me yolo but i am back in business i just had a lot of homework and im procrastinating right now wow what is my life also im on mobile so theres no read more ill edit it later i promise

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okay, so. recently, life has felt all sorts of weird and work has been crazy busy. lots of 12+ hour days in the office, driving home with a sore neck and shoulders, and falling into my bed to wake up and do it again. i love my job - i really, truly do - but this gets exhausting after a while. you forget to take care of yourself, falling asleep is hard because your mind won’t turn off, and your personal life gets tossed aside.

i’m at work right now at almost 9:30p (and will be here for another hour or so) and i haven’t eaten dinner, save for a muffin. today, in general, has kind of sucked. my heart feels all out of sorts, i’m tired, and i feel somewhat… forgotten or set aside. 

then i receive a text a few minutes ago that says “have you eaten dinner? because i just ordered a pizza for you and it’s on its way to you right now.”

look, i know how ridiculous this next statement will sound, but i needed this simple act more than i would like to admit. i was remembered, chosen, and cared for all in one motion. i am loved, and i simply needed to be reminded of that by more than just words. thankful, thankful, thankful for the people God has put into my life that know my heart so well.