my life goal is to be as amazing and badass as she is

a friendly reminder that no matter how many bad books we read there’ll always be soc a.k.a the true masterpiece of our time which is like a safe blanket for murder babies and you can throw it over your head and pretend you’re on your way to a big heist or smth equally dangerous (but exciting) :’) and while you’re dreaming of $$$kruge$$$ you might also wanna remember that soc has:

- a bi poc character who didn’t dance around the term hgtawm style and pull some lame explanation out of his ass ala ‘it’s complicated’ but he actually said ‘not just girls’ so yeah confirmed bi poc who’s a KNOWN flirt and everybody praises him for it instead of mocking/shunning him honestly what did we do to deserve jesper fahey
- a disabled gang leader who’s literally thE BADDEST BARREL BOSS TO EVER WALK THE STREETS OF KETTERDAM caw caw bitches (he also has severe ptsd, panic attacks, suffers from traumatic flashbacks and experiences nausea and all kinds of ptsd symptoms everytime he (even accidentally) touches someone but does that limit or stop him in any way?? HELL NO MOFOS here comes kaz brekker with his crow cane and he’s about to whoop some ass better beware)
- a beautiful, amazing, talented, showstopping, spectacular, never the same woc who is basically?? everyone’s treasure, heart, love, most cherished person ever, role model, etc. etc. and it’s only right tbh inej ghafa owns my entire heart and i’d gladly give it to her over and over again if that would make her smile. she’s been sold into slavery (mentions/hints of prostitution which only adds to her bravery and strength thank you very much) when she was 14 but she managed to leave the past behind her and remain INCREDIBLY kind and humble despite all the shit she’s been through?? there is no character i adore, respect and love more than inej (okay maybe there is and inej calls her sankta alina b y e)
- a CANONICALLY. FAT. FEMALE CHARACTER WHO’S JUST!!! AMAZING. BREATHTAKING. HEART-STOPPING (literally). a true inspiration to us all who was also held captive when she was younger, trained by the mighty (goddess on earth) zoya nazyalensky, held captive again - this time by a gross ass, fanatic ass fjerdan nazi soldier/leader and lemme tell you she didn’t even lose her appetite. BOI she wasn’t even fazed. she couldn’t find a single fuck to give & she was determined to move on but she was plagued by guilt so she came back to save/help the boy who helped HER so she’s not just a pretty face and she’s so?? badass and smart and funny and fierce and she’s so fucking PROUD of every roll and curve on her body i could actually cry?? nina zenik, an actual muse for young girls/readers. nina zenik, life & wife goals
- a smol (very smol but also kind of a sinnamon roll tbqh? he aspires to be one anyway) angelic boy who comes from a TERRIBLY abusive home bc his father is an actual piece of shit and humiliated him all his life bc wylan couldn’t read. well guess what joke’s on van eck senior bc my boy, my CANONICALLY GAY SON, is smarter than him and his entire sorry lot and he’s gonna take over the world one day, you just wait. also just wants to make things go boom boom POW (usually regarding explosives but also applies to jesper a.k.a THE MOST PERFECT, CARING, WONDERFUL BF EVER)
- a big yellow tulip also known as matthias helvar. so matthias is that boy who helped nina escape the clutches of his scary boss and he’s the actual literal embodiment of the grumpy cat. but!!! he undergoes the biggest character development of all imo bc he manages to change for the better (bit by bit, brick by brick) and let me tell you that’s COMMENDABLE. like listen this is a young man who’s been brainwashed into hating everything nina & the rest of kaz’s merry band of misfits stand for. he’s been taught nothing but hate hate and more hate and he manages to turn his back on those prejudices and he opened up so much and we got to see so much more of him in ck and we learned that he’s super kind and sweet and giving, and he’s so pure and wonderful and amazing. he also loves nina zenik A LOT which is smth i can get behind and relate to 100000%
- last but not least kuwei, who’s not ~an official~ member of kaz’s vip club (pity pity pity) but. he’s a gay poc (asian!!! the same as tamar&tolya from tgt so please don’t whitewash him, it’s unacceptable) who’s sassy but kind of laid back at the same time and his favourite pastime is to just chill in the back and pretend he’s not listening/doesn’t know the lingo but guess what?? boy is like an international spy bc he understands more than he lets on. he also lost his father (which kind of turned him into a living prize bc everybody wanted him for his knowledge & chemistry skills, like he could probably cook up a deadly virus in three minutes if he was feeling inspired that day - which never happened but still. it’s good to have options) and yet never complained about anything and he just let that drama unroll like 👀👂 I HATE DRAMA 🎧🔍📝 overall deserved better

What to read after Throne of Glass

If you, like me, are still going through complete Sarah J Maas withdrawal, and can’t really stand to wait for her next books, check out the list below to tide you over! Each book has many of the things I adored about both ToG and ACOMAF: strong and interesting female characters, magic, deeply beautiful writing, love stories to cry about, and an all around sense of adventure. If you have any more recommendations to add, definitely let me know!

Black Jewels: Anne Bishop

I just finished this series, and I am still amazed by how masterfully Anne Bishop weaves her stories. Welcome to the Dark Kingdom, a matriarchal realm ruled by strong queens and the males that support and serve them (Rowan and Aedion anyone?). There is a prophecy fortelling the rise of a Queen with more power than even the High Lord of Hell himself, which gives us a wonderful story full of scheming, war, adventure, and a badass court I would kill to be a part of. Prepare your heart!

Graceling by Kristian Cashore

Graceling is the best series for all you folks who couldn’t get enough of badass assassin Celaena. Katsa is an assassin Celaena would be proud of, due to her rare ability as a Graceling. She is Graced with a killing power, and has spent her life as the king’s tool in doling out his reign of terror. In waltzes Po, Graced with fighting, and here to shake everything Katsa knows about her world. Cashore definitely gives us a twist Sarah would most certainly support!

The Winner’s Curse by Marie Rutkoski

This book aligns more with the romance and court mystique that Sarah presents so wonderfully in ToG and ACOMAF. Kestrel is the daughter of a general who helped the emperor conquer territory after territory. As she is faced with a choice, marry or join the military, Kestrel finds a friend in one of the slaves from the conquered people, and so begins one of the most interesting political schemes I have read in awhile! I haven’t finished the trilogy yet, because I am out of the country and can’t get my hands on the final book, but I would highly recommend it.

Mistborn by Brandon Sanderson

Cue another really cool empire written by an author who isn’t afraid to be inventive or go beyond the normal realms of fantasy. Vin is another Celaena-esque character, as the abandoned street child who turned thief who struggles to stay alive. When a mentor takes her under his wing, she discovers that her luck on the streets might be more than she could ever explain. Magic, mystery, and of course, a few court balls thrown in make for a wonderful mix. Warning: the last book made me cry. Like really cry. But in a good, I’m-still-mad-at-you-but-I-understand-and-respect-your-story-line type of way.

Demon King by Cinda Williams Chima

Raisa is everything that I have ever wanted in a princess. She is intelligent, passionate, feisty, and super compassionate. So when a war arises between the clans and the wizards, you can bet she has goals to achieve and empires to shake up. Throw Han Alister into the mix, a street wise leader, and things get tricky and fireworks explode. One of my favorite love stories in a long time, because it isn’t a story about just romantic love, but also what the love of a princess for her country can do. 

Poison Study by Maria V. Snyder

Yelena is set for execution for murder, but is given the choice to be the next food taster of the Commander of Ixia. As if the threat of having poison in her system wasn’t enough, she is also given a dose of Butterfly’s Dust, which she needs every day to stay alive, and can of course only get from the chief of security. Fighting for her life soon becomes more than just guessing the right poison, but also a game of magic, love, and all out war. Best kind of combo out there!

Legend by Marie Lu

This is the only book in the list to be set in a dystopian universe as opposed to a kingdom, but with a prodigy like June, no one can make any complaints. After a war tore the country apart, the Western United States is under the martial rule of the Republic, and June is their perfectly groomed soldier golden child. Day, on the other hand, is a slums boy who has become the Republic’s most wanted criminal. What happens when their paths cross is enough to make any country tremble, and to keep me hanging on to every word!

And finally:

Literally anything by Tamora Pierce!

Tamora Pierce has been my favorite author since I was a little girl. Each of her series is set in the same universe, based around the story of an interesting and kickass female character, from the first female warrior to a wild-mage. I first found these stories when my mother decided my sister and I didn’t have enough strong women in our literature and Tamora really rose to the occasion. Start with the first series, Song of the Lioness, and work your way from there! I have reread her books at least once every year since I was a little girl and they get better every time. I cannot recommend these books enough!


If you read or have read any of these books, feel free to shoot me a message; I am always ready to geek out over them. 

The Wooden Bead - Jeff Atkins x Reader

Request - “Hello can I request a very tomboy and boyish reader x Jeff?”

(I’m English so i don’t know if this will be any kind of inaccurate, I’ve struggled with using ‘soccer’ here instead of ‘football’, sorry if there are any mishaps. Also I hope this is kind of what you envisioned!)


“PARSONS, OVER HERE! PARSONS I’M OPEN GODDAMMIT!” You screamed at your teammate, who was refusing to pass you the ball.
“DON’T FUCKING PASS IT TO KING! Oh, you fucking did it. Idiot.” You spoke more to yourself.

—–

“What the hell, Parsons? You saw I was free but you blatantly ignored me?” You confronted the stocky girl in front of you. Although much smaller than her, you packed a mean punch and would be happy to show anyone what happens when they cross you. You weren’t really into stereotypically ‘girly’ things, you were more boyish in your mannerisms, look, and activities, but stereotypes in general pissed you off, despite the fact you probably fit quite well into the tomboy category.

“Sorry, I just didn’t feel like passing to you, L/N.” she brushed you off. You scoffed. She was unbelievable.

“You knew I was your best bet. I can’t believe you lost that for us.” You shook your head.

“It’s not my fault you can’t play soccer, L/N. there’s no hiding Coach’s charity case this year.” Romelda Parsons spat. There was no such thing as Coach letting on a charity case each year, she was just trying to intimidate you. The snooty brunette girl had been jealous ever since you’d joined the team, purely because you were so much better than her - maybe the best on the team, and coach paid far more attention to you than to her.

You were ready to show her.
“You little-” an arm eased you back, and another was put up to Parsons face.

“Easy, easy.” A smooth, calm voice interrupted your angry thoughts and soothed your boiling blood.

“Fuck off, Atkins.” Parsons gritted her teeth at the well-built honey-skinned boy holding you back.

“PARSONS! Over here now please!” Coach beckoned Romelda, and she almost snarled her teeth before walking off to talk to him.

The boy in front of you turned to face you. His blue eyes smiled at you while his lips did the same. He was wearing baseball gear, which fitted his muscles snugly. There was no denying the fact that he was insanely attractive.

You’d seen this boy around lots.

Jeff Atkins.

Loved by everyone, baseball player, popular, and you thought; way out of your league.

“You okay?” He asked with concern laced in his eyes.

“I can fight my own battles, thanks.” You muttered slightly, but stared him down nonetheless, you couldn’t let him know he phased you.

“That’s what I was worried about,” he chuckled. “1. You absolutely wreck Romelda, 2. Coach sees, 3. You get in trouble, 4. Maybe get a suspension, 5. I don’t see you playing soccer.” He smirked before continuing, “I can tell you pack a mean punch in there, Romelda wouldn’t stand a chance.”

You pretend to ignore everything he was saying, but really you were drinking in every detail.

“I know she wouldn’t.” You said defiantly.

You paused while you watched the way he grinned at your words and scratched his chin.

“I didn’t think Baseball practice was now?” You mused.

“It’s not.”

So, what was he doing nosing in your business anyhow?

“Why are you here?” You crossed your arms, your team had dissipated back to the changing rooms by now, and it was just you and Jeff on the field.

“I like to watch the girls soccer.”

“You perv!”

“Not like that! It’s just, you’re an awesome player and I hold great admiration for you, watching you play fuels me to play my own game.” He explained.

“Don’t be silly.” You scoffed.

“No, it sounds silly, but it isn’t. There’s something so clear about your passion that just makes me want to live my life.” He smirked, noticing your expression. “Don’t laugh at me, L/N.”

He knew your name??? He was just a boy from school, a boy way out of your league, who you’d never imagined knew of your existence. But instead, he was a boy who watched every soccer practice, complimented your play, and knew your name. You had to play it cool.

“I’ll keep a straight face, Atkins.”

“I should be off, we’ll be practicing soon and I wanna get a few hits in myself before the team comes, but thanks for entertaining me.” He started off, and you felt a pang of disappointment as he turned his back to you.

“Oh, and Y/N? That goal was incredible. Best thing I’ve seen in days.”

—-

It had been a few days since Jeff Atkins had saved your arch nemesis’ life, and incidentally pervaded into your life. He smiled at you in the corridors now, and you could’ve sworn he even winked once. On Tuesday, after a few judgemental comments about your clothing, you found a note in your locker;

You always look awesome Y/N. In fact, i might have to steal some clothes sometime. -J

Which you could only assume was from the man himself. On Thursday, Atkins slipped you the last chocolate muffin in the cafeteria. And on Friday, you had practice again.

Your play was slacking, your usual fire was off and you were distracted.

“L/N- pay attention! Ball coming your way!” Jess warned. You kicked your foot out just in time, but the hit was poor. You continually looked up at the bleachers, hoping to see Jeff watching you, but to no luck. His no show disappointed you.

—-

“What is wrong with you today, Y/N?” Jess caught you up after practice. She was clearly concerned.

“I don’t know, Jess, I guess today isn’t my day.” You sighed.

“You drop your lucky charm or something?”

“Something like that.”

The team left for the changing rooms and you slumped on the bottom row of the bleachers.

“So a lucky charm, huh?” You immediately knew the voice coming from above you. You turned and saw Jeff coming down the steps.

“I don’t have one.” You were blunt, you needed to remind yourself not to get feelings for a boy so out of your league.

“Maybe you should get one, you looked in need of one.” He slumped down next to you.

“Thanks, I appreciate the compliment.” The sarcasm dripped from your tongue.

“Not because you played badly by any means, but because you looked a little lost out there today.”

“I don’t know what’s wrong with me, my brain doesn’t appear to be working recently.”

Jeff dropped a wooden bead in your hand. It was nothing special, simple, wooden, spherical, with a hole in the middle. A plain wooden bead.

“Uh, thanks?” There was question in your voice.
He chuckled.

“It’s your new lucky charm. Don’t lose it, I promise it’ll help you win the match next week.” Sincerity coated his words and his eyes bore into yours, with a jokey overtone.

“I will keep it close. But I might wash it first, if you found it on the floor.” Of course, you didn’t really care where it had been, and you wouldn’t really wash it, but you were curious as to where it had appeared from.

“Don’t worry, it wasn’t on the floor.” He chuckled again, and started to stand. “I’ll see you around, L/N. Keep an eye out for me at the match.” He winked before walking off.

—–

You squeezed the bead tightly before placing it back in your gym bag. The game was starting, and you were not ready.

Obviously, all your nerves went out the window after your third goal of the match, at only 20 minutes in.

You won, which was no surprise to everyone, except you. You spotted Jeff making his way down the stairs and ran up to meet him.

“You were right! I can’t believe it worked!” You shone like the sun from happiness.

“I hate to say I told you so.” His eyes sparkled at you.

“It’s insane, you’re magic!” You mocked, feigning shock.

“What can I say?”

You smiled at each other for a moment, basking in your happiness.

“Actually, can I admit something embarrassing?” His tone turned awkward.

“You’re not magic?” You joked. He laughed.

“No, um, actually I was really nervous to talk to you. Seeing Romelda and you at each other’s throats the other weeks sent me into immediate rescue mode, (not that you need rescuing), and I didn’t realise until the adrenaline had worn off that I’d actually ended up speaking to you, but by that point I was too far in my rescue.”

You laughed at the idea of Jeff Atkins being scared to talk to you.

“You’re just so cool. You don’t care what anyone thinks, you’re passionate, you’re an amazing player, I love your style, not to mention how smart and gorgeous you are.”
“What I admire most is honestly, how badass you are.”

You blushed, taking compliments was a struggle.

“Jeff stop messing, it’s not funny.” You rolled your eyes playfully.

“I’d never- this is the most embarrassing part-” he took a deep breath, “I sorta like you.”

You couldn’t believe what you were hearing. Jeff Atkins? Likes you?

“You do?” Was all you could think to respond with.

“Yes.” He breathed, and moved closer to you.

“Is this-” he asked as he leaned in toward your face and cupped his hand on your cheek. You nodded forcibly in consent, before he pushed his lips onto yours.

After a while, and with regret, you broke off.

“But- you’re so out of my league.” You breathed, doubting yourself.

“I play baseball, Y/N, leagues are my thing.”

——
——

“Jeff! Please tell me you sent out the invites on your way home!” You screamed downstairs at your boyfriend.

“Of course I did!” He shouted back up.

You threw various wedding catalogues off the bed to reach the top you’d been looking for, before throwing it on.

“You ready babe?” Jeff yelled at you.

“Just coming!” You yelled back, before pulling out from under your top, a string, with a plain wooden bead on it.

Yoongi Scenario: The Chaser.

Request: THE COMEBACK IS AMAZING!!! can i request a bodyguard!yoongi & heiress!y/n? but y/n is like the rebel like she doesnt want to do anything with the company. she just wants to travel the world and explore but when her father died she doesnt have any choice but to handle the company since shes the only child and her mother asks yoongi to watch her every move bc she tends to run away and there are people who wants her dead. please make y/n a badass like she can kick ass and shoot guns ^^ thank you!

Bodyguard AU.

Genre: Romance / Drama.


Rushed steps where heard through the lone hallway, your house was way too big, not like the loft you had in mind for yourself in the future, in New York or maybe even in Morocco. You tried to walk as fast as possible but the man coming behind you was just as fast, you rolled your eyes thinking that this was completely unnecessary as you were in a completely closed building, that said building was owned by your family and that it had top notch security everywhere.

-You don’t have to follow me everywhere, you know?-

-I do- your bodyguard, the ever know it all, smug ass man that didn’t let anything slip answered back, you had let him know when he started to work for your family that he should treat you comfortably and he had taken your word.

-Don’t you have enough with the pleasure of following me my entire trip around Santorini? You must also follow me at my own house-

-That’s right- he answered seriously but as you turned to glare you could see the little smirk forming on his lips.

-Let’s get this over with- you sighed fighting the need to smirk too realizing he wasn’t going away from you no matter what.

You had just arrived from Greece, a trip you had barely planned, as it was usually your style, but that had left you with the wanderlust latent on your skin, you couldn’t wait to go to your next destination, what things you could discover, the food you’d taste. It was something that you did for yourself as you took advantage of the fact that you could actually do it without any problem. Or almost any problem. The only two things your parents asked of you were to not leave your studies and to always be safe, and that included taking a bodyguard everywhere. 

Yoongi was your most recent bodyguard, others had come and gone but Yoongi was different, starting from how blatant he was about certain things or how dedicated he turned in others. You looked at him from the corner of your eyes as he was now walking beside you. He was barely taller than you, a bit thin for a bodyguard, but you had seen the things he could do and you knew he was more than capable. He was also rude and merciless as he had beaten you in a hand to hand combat not minding you were a girl and also the person he had to take care of. Scoffing you looked ahead not wanting to keep looking at that face, but he noticed and chuckled making you turn to glare at him, again.

-Stop it, now let’s see what my parents want so we can go for a ride or something-

You reached the doors where your parents’s room was but something made you halt, there were a lot of people outside, you saw uncles and aunts and a few cousins, there were the security and house personnel, but also a medical team. You widened your eyes and swallowed thinking what that meant, what it obviously was. Someone was ill, and for having this amount of people around it was serious. One of your parents were terribly sick and you didn’t know. 

-You want me to go in first?- Yoongi whispered beside you also staring at all the people gathered in the hallway.

-No, wait for me here- you told him after a few seconds. Yoongi stared at you like waiting for confirmation of your own words and you licked your lips. -Wait for me-

He nodded, walking by your side not letting anyone close to you, even if they were your family, at this moment you were concentrated on what you could find inside that room, you didn’t want to talk to anyone at the moment and Yoongi knew that. He saw you in and planted himself at the door, of course he’d wait for you, he’d do that and much more.

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Thank you

My friends, i have something to share with you.

Through out of the year 2016 i came here to tumblr, in not knowing what to expect, in this place of art, opinions, but most importanly people. It was like jumping into a sea without really knowing how to swim.

Over the months i spended here i was able to trully be myself and speak out, do things, and being allowed by many magnificent artist to learn from them, to study under theyre wing in order too improve myself as an artist. I have been gifted with many beautifull drawings and even more warm moments that i was able to share with you all.

And believe me, this feeling that you guys gaved me, this connection that i can always relate too and i always know off, is something i never dreamed of being possible.

Two days ago, i turned 25 and i can, after all of those years tell you, that this year was the first that i could honestly call a birthday i enjoyed. It maybe doesnt really make sense, and i am sorry if i dont explain properly.

My birthday was for most of my life a day of depression or nervous discomfort. I always had problems with joining my family during these times, for i never felt as if the people that surrounded me trully made me feel like i wished to spend my birthday with them. Always filled the house with many members of my family, only to spend around fifty minutes at the table, before hidding back in my room. Starting as a kid, and saldy continuing till adulthood, when all i have left at this moment is my dear mother, and my older, beloved sister, who sadly is always busy and away on travelling around the world.

What i am trying to say, is that you guys allowed me throughout the year to be happy with myself, and because of that you got me into a position where i can stand and honestly say that i loved the day of my birthday.

I never ask for gifts, for a hug is more then enough for me. I dont ask for money, for a message and a simple wish from someone i call friend is more precious then that.

Today after i returned from the con, where i broke my record in playing DnD for two groups of people around 8 players for one group, for 32 hours straight, i tasted the cake my mother made for me. 

It was the first cake i really felt the taste off. Even if my mother said she didnt add any sugar, it was the best cake i ever ate. 

And you guys made such a cake as well. For you allowed me to enjoy the taste of my life, and true happiness.

Many of you sended me amazing gifts, and some of you even sended me a dear wish to my birthday. I thank you all.

And i thank especially @xxmileikaivanaxx for not only being the love of my life, not only being the person on whom i wont give up no matter what fate tries to throw in my way, but most importanly for being the person that touched my heart and healed me where i hurt the most. You are my beloved snuggle-bun, honey bun and many, many more wonderfull names that belong only to you ! 


Thank you.

@keru-the-green - Dude, i never thought i would get to know a badass buddy manga-comic-artist from Malaysia, but you are the best buddy a guy can wish in this land of madness and chaos :D

@azy-arty - Azy, you have been my friend for only a short time, but in that time i grew a deep respect for you as a person and a artist. You are a dear and lovely friend to me and i thank you for everything you did for me.

@neofox67 - Pepper lady, lovely friend, outstanding artist, outstanding nerd and a incredibly supporting monna-mi !. :) You are the greatest Neo :) Thank you as well for being in my life. Really hope i can meet ya one day, and get you that bottle of Dr.Pepper i promised :D

@ravnicawatchwolf - My bestest mate from Greece, Wolf has been with me from the beggining i showed my butt here on Tumblr, and he has always been an undefeated bookworm and theory-maker i ever met. Thank you as well dude :)

@chronictale - Ali i often dont know what to say, when i see your art, but i can proudly say that to me, you are a dear friend and i am filled with joy, whenever i think i can call you a close friend of mine. Thank you for being here :)

@kiacii - Havent really talked in a while Kiacii, but you are still my lovely chicken-baby and i will always call you that :D I think in 2016, back in september you were the person that really got me into art and tumblr as much as i did till this day. Thank you so much for also being part of my life.

@moonphyr + @firereddragon - Guys thank you both, incredibly for being my friends that have always had my back, when i had a hard time and i had to deal with a lot of my depressions and stuff, back in 2016. I quess you were the first really lovely and nice people i met here on tumblr, and i wont ever forget what you did for me :) Thanks a lot guys. Love ya both !

@psukho - Im always pretty shy to talk to you Psukho, but it doesnt change the fact, that you are absolutely lovely and an awesome person ! Thank you so much for hanging around and answering whenever i decide to send you another text-bomb.

Lastly…this is this kind of artist-to-i-look-up-to-you-no-matter-what-you-say-you-are-awesome-artist-sorry-for-tagging-you thinge.

@yoralim - Through out the few message bubbles i had the privilage to send to you and recieve from you, i learned trully very much not only about myself as artist, but also as a person. You have always been very generous with your time, even though i imagine you have quite a lot on your own mind as well. 

Thank you for your time and for your words of advice Yoralim. I wont ever forget.

And.

@blinddetermination - Blind you and your art has been my goal since i ever came to the UT community and tumblr. Your tenacity and will  with which you deal with everything in your life has been more than a backlash and motivation to me. You are like this shining person right in front of my eyes, i always try to run behind, inspiring me to give everything my all, pushing myself to a point where i one day may trully look at my progress and say that it was worth it. 

I never really talked with you, for multiple reasons honestly, which is pretty bad, i know. But at this point, i can only promise i will try to change that, and thank you, for being who you are not only to me, but to all of your other fans and supporters out there. You are absolutely amazing, not because of your skill with art. But for “who” you are. Thank you.

And to all of you that have made it till here, thank you for reading and staying on this blog, reading my stuff and listening to my unending venting, complaining, sobbing, yelling and burping in your general direction.

You my dear reader are awesome as well, even if you might not believe it, and i thank you very much for being here.


THANK YOU ALL FOR ALLOWING ME TO FEEL A-OKAY ! XD
And to those who wanted to draw something for me, but did decide to respect my wish for not drawing anything for me, i thank you guys as well.

With love and  a flaming high-five, while praising the sun and hailing the Emperor,

Deusn

Top 10 Characters

Tagged by the amazing @do-you-even-kakasaku! Thanks for the tag, dude! I love doing these!

 ————-

 1. Hatake Kakashi (Naruto)
•Kakashi holds a dead place in my heart for a variety of reasons but I guess what makes him my top fave character is his nuance as a character. He’s grown as a person since he was a kiddo and although he’s not perfect, he strives to be the best person he can be. He’s one of the few characters in Naruto that’s learned from his mistakes and who’s tried to teach others how to avoid making them in the long run. Plus he loves dogs and reads smut with class, so yeah. He’s just amazing, tbh. He’s my expectation of the perfect man, lol. I absolutely adore this dude…it’s unhealthy but hey, most of the good stuff in life is.

Originally posted by shiroiraiha


2. Vash the Stampede (Trigun)
• Vash is honestly one of the newest characters that I’ve become acquainted with but he quickly become one of my all time favorites in a short amount of time. It’s hard to not love his quirky personality and his ability to go from goofball to extreme badass from 0 to 3. I love how he sticks to his sense of morality and principles throughout the series but what makes him great is how he understands that the world doesn’t always let everyone remain pure as they wish to be and sometimes, people have to go against certain beliefs in order to survive and do the right thing. HE’S JUST FUCKING PRECIOUS.

Originally posted by gameraboy


3. Agent Carolina (Red vs Blue)
•Red vs Blue has been a big series in my life and it’s honestly what’s driven me to choose animation as my career path. It may have started out as a comedy skit but it quickly evolved into an amazing story and Carolina is a character that became from said evolution. She’s an amazing woman, a badass whose fought and worked to be the best at what she does. Although her past was mostly her letting her competitive nature get the best of her, daddy issues and making stupid mistakes because of clouded judgement, she managed to grow as a person thanks to her interactions with the blundering buffoons known as the Reds and Blues. She learned about honor, forgiveness, friendship and love. And she still remains a badass even then. Woman goals, tbh.

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4. Roy Mustang (FMA: Brotherhood)
•Stoic dudes with amazing capabilities seems to be my type so I guess that and having Travis Willingham as his dub voice actor immediately made me fall in love with Roy when I first saw him. Eventually, I learned that there was more to him than meets the eye with the whole Maria Ross and Hughes incidents. Seeing him being able to overcome his burning desire for vengeance because of his desire to keep his friends and loved ones safe was honestly endearing and I ended up falling deeper in love with his character. He’s not perfect but he’s able to admit to those imperfections and work to make them strengths instead of weaknesses because he’s not the kind of dude who gives into defeat.

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5. Spencer Reid (Criminal Minds)
•Criminal Minds is one of the few TV shows that I actively follow and this guy is one of the reasons why. Not only is Mathew such a great actor but Reid’s intelligence is portrayed in a manner that makes him lovable. Most of the time, shows depict prodigies and geniuses as sassy ‘know-it-all’s who only anger people with their rants and commentary. But Spencer is explored in a manner that reminds us that even intellectuals are human. Seeing his unique love story with Maeve, his attachments to JJ and Gideon and his mother, and his fear of dementia, we come to see Spencer as a character of nuance. He’s a beautiful human being who deserves lots of love and plenty of chess games. 

Originally posted by cmtrash


6. Ryuuji Takasu (Toradora)
• I first watched Toradora because I accidentally clicked on it while surfing an anime site for it and at first, I wasn’t so impressed with it. But before the first episode ended, I found myself loving this dude. He’s pretty average with nothing major to set him apart from the crowd (except his creepy little eyes) but the thing that makes his lovable is his dorkiness and his devotion to his friends and family. He’s selfless and kind and generous and that honestly speaks volumes for his character. Honestly, he’s the kind of friend that everybody wants but nobody ever truly deserves. (I just fucking love him)

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7. Kotetsu T. Kaburagi (Tiger and Bunny)
•Okay, let’s see….What can I say about this dude that won’t sound like a fangirl’s rant? XD
Kotetsu is honestly an amazing character; in a show where his partner is shown to be the epitome of perfection and angst, ol’ KTK may seem like nothing more than a old time past generation hero whose unwilling to let the shine of the spotlight go. But he’s so much more than that. He’s clumsy and awkward, sure, but he’s understanding and congenial. He doesn’t judge people because of their past or their mistakes; he knows better than anyone what that feels like so instead he tries to offer support and as much care that he can. He’s a great dad and despite the fact that he sometimes misses recitals or special occasions, his daughter is willing to admit that he’d do anything for her. Kotetsu strays from the typical “perfect anime dad” and is instead a reflection of real life dads who aren’t always perfect but are heroes in their own right because of their love and dedication to their kids and loved ones.

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8. Korosensei (Assassination Classroom)
•TEACHER GOALS. Even though he’s a weapon of mass destruction who can probably obliterate the Earth with a twitch of his pinkie, he’s still a lovable characters. He’s funny, badass when the moment calls for it, perverted and dedicated all in the same go. If there’s anything I learned from him, it’s that good teachers are flexible and they should strive to find the way to teach each student in their own individual manner. I mean, this dude taught one of his kids while cosplaying as Naruto because he knew that was the only way the dude would remember the concepts he was trying to teach. He was able to teach his kiddos how to tackle problems not just so they could get solutions but also to grow and develop as intelligent and competent individuals. Even though he was a threat to the Earth, his students all loved and respected him because he was able to connect with them individually. Despite being an assassin and failed lab experiment, this guys showed more heart and humanity than most people. He’s honestly amazing.

Originally posted by level-upper


9. Melan Blue (Brigadoon: Marin to Melan)
•Geez Louise it’s so hard to think of ways to describe how much I love this character. He’s one of those characters whose gentle af but ruthless and unforgiving on the battlefield. His lack of knowledge on humans allows for many mistakes to be made on his behalf but he makes up for it in sincerity. He may seem cold and distant to most but once he warms up to you, he’ll protect you with his life and will damn well make sure you’re content and at ease. I guess all I can say is that he’s just the perfect blend of adorableness, charisma, loyalty and badassery. I love this character to pieces. 

Originally posted by opendoorleia


10. Yami Yugi/Pharaoh Atem (Yu-Gi-Oh)
•This dude is a breath of fresh air, one of the reasons I even continued delving into the world of anime to begin with. Part of the charm of this character are his voice actors and albeit I’m not really a fan of the Japanese dub, Megumi Ogata and Shunsuke Kazama did a great job but my overall favorite one has to be Dan Green. He literally breathes life into this character and you can literally find yourself thinking that Dan Green is Yami Yugi. Anywho, Yami is just amazing. He’s fearless, wise, witty and intelligent. He has an aura that commands respect but at the same time, he’s considerate of his acquaintances and loved ones. Of course, the 4kidz version is more mellow than the manga but even then, this Yami manages to sorta keep true to his original portrayal’s will. At the start of the series, he’s proud and ruthless but as he spends time with Yugi, he becomes more considerate and it’s such a joy to see how much of an effect Yugi has on Yami. Once more, I love this guy to pieces.

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AND OMG LOOK AT THIS GIF

Originally posted by blindia

They’re so precious. LIKE SO EFFING PRECIOUS.



AND NOW SOME HONORABLE MENTIONS. BECAUSE I AM LAME AND CANT LET SOME CHARACTERS GO WITHOUT SOME FORM OF MENTION:

First up is Hei (Darker Than Black)

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Then we have Kyoya Ootori (OHSHC)

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Followed by Nicolas Brown (Gangsta)

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And Caboose (RvB)

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And Sebastian (Black Butler)

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And Agent Washington or Agent Washingtub as Caboose fondly refers to him as (RvB)

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And Ill stop right there…because this is getting ridiculous.

SO YEP

LO AND BEHOLD MARI’S FAVORITE CHARACTERS.

EVER.

OF ALL TIME.

100 reasons to appreciate Eren Yeager

1. 
He’s so genuine.
2. He’s always there for his friends.

3. Has always spoken for himself.

4. Has always stood up for what he believes in.

5. Fights for what he thinks is right.
6. He is so selfless.

7. Inspires people around him.

8. He is honest.

9. Would do anything to make his friends happy.

10. He is so brave.

11. Works harder than everybody else to achieve his goals.

12. He’s the most passionate and determined soldier.

13. Stood up for the survey corps after hearing someone talk shit about them.

14. Wants to give other people’s death a meaning.

15. Never stops training to improve his titan powers.

16. Barely gets time to rest properly.

17. He never wanted his titan powers but embraced them for the sake of humanity.

18. His will to fight is incomparable.

19. He is so important and needed.

20. Wants to be useful.

21. Works hard because he doesn’t want to let other people down.

22. He’s a very unique protagonist.

23. Understands other people’s feelings.

24. Has had the world ripped away from him.

25. Wanted to capture their enemies more than anyone else.

26. Just wants people to trust him.

27. Admires his superiors.

28. Fits perfectly in the snk universe.

29. He’s just tired and deserves to rest.

30. Even Levi was amused by his willingness.

31. Devotes himself to humanity and doesn’t expect anything in return
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32. Has faith on his friends.

33. He is feared by so many people.

34. Has taught us we can’t win without fighting.

35. Misses his mom and her stew a lot.

36. Wants everyone to be safe.

37. He’s so emotional.

38. His “angry issues” are just a reflection of his mourning.

39. Fought the colossal titan by himself with no fighting experience.

40. Never hesitates.

41. He always stays true to himself.

42. Reacts to different situation the way a normal person would.

43. He’s able to let go of his humanity if that means saving more people.

44. He’s so mature.

45. Has gone through a lot of development.

46. Wants to avenge not only his loved ones but also his comrades.

47. So many other characters would be dead without Eren.

48. He is always ready to fight and help.

49. Wants his freedom and his peaceful childhood back.

50. People always ignore his efforts.

51. Trusts his comrades.

52. Fights for his comrades.

53. Wants to protect his comrades.
54. Fights even when he knows he won’t be able to win.

55. You won’t find any protagonist with his qualities and personality.
56. Too much pressure.

57. Learns from his enemies to defeat them.

58. He’s just a kid.

59. Literally punched a titan to protect Mikasa.

60. Would give his life for humanity.

61. Wants to prove himself right.

62. Understands what’s going on around him.

63. Has proved to be useful and reliable even without his titan powers.

64. So full of life.

65. Gets disappointed with himself and has anxiety.

66. Never lets his friends behind.

67. Made it to the top 5 in the 104th trainees squad.

68. Kept training to become a soldier even after being told he wouldn’t be able to.

69. Carries the fate of humanity on his shoulders and the burden of “not being a hindrance to humanity”.

70. People always expect too much from him.

71. Sealed Wall Maria and Wall Rose.

72. Cares about his friend’s dreams.

73. Amazing at hand-to-hand combat.
74. Doesn’t have super strength or great abilities or a powerful mind but he tries  harder than anyone.

75. Moves everyone around him.

76. He has so much potential.

77. Doesn’t want anyone to go through the same as him.

78. Has accepted the responsibilities of having his titan powers.

79. He’s so badass.
80. Helped capturing the Female titan.
81. Fought the Armoured Titan more than once.

82. Took down the Colossal titan.

83. Just wants to stop the world from being so corrupt and cruel.

84. He’s always aware of his mistakes.

85. Never gives up.

86. Always takes action.

87. Blames himself for so many things.

88. Sacrificed himself for his best friend.

89. Risked his life to save Mikasa from her kidnappers.

90. He is amazing at team work.

91. Took care of Mikasa when she needed him.

92. Actually learns from his mistakes.

93. Gets misunderstood all the time.

94. He’s so caring, loving and has a huge heart.
95. “Despite not being all strong in fist fights, that idiot always jumped right into the fray, never giving a damn if it were 3 guys he was up agains or 5.”
96. Has a fantastic moral.

97. Has learnt to control his emotions.
98. Prioritises other people’s lives.

99. So many people joined the Survey Corps because of him and his speeches.
100. He makes me happy no matter what.

Bonus:

Characters who have developed because of Eren (this is my opinion, the way I interpret the characters, you’re allowed to disagree) - Mikasa, Armin, Connie, Jean, Reiner, Annie, Levi, Historia, Hannes, Pixis, Shadis.

Stuff Eren has been through - seeing his mom being eaten, self harm, physical and mental torture, traumas, seeing his friends getting eaten, his limbs being eaten and chopped off, wanting to die, begging to be eaten, being accused of his father’s sins, being treated like a monster, being feared and not trusted, seeing his best friend being taken away from him, being forced to become a titan by his dad, being punched and kicked by people stronger than him so many times, almost being killed by Mikasa’s kidnapper, being kidnapped, exhaustive training, etc etc etc

To finish off, here’s three of my favourite panels in this manga. You’re welcome.

anonymous asked:

Hi! I heard you are taking request. So here's mine! Companions(including Deacon, X6, Nick and Codsworth) seeing (almost) dying Sole, laying on the ground after the raider attack, and suddenly realizing they love them. What would they do or tell Sole? How will they react to Sole waking up after a while and being totally fine, only a little bit dizzy, and realizing that this giant pool of blood is not theirs?

I hope these are as detailed enough to your liking because this took me f o r e v e r. Like F O R E V E R. Each are basically a mini-fanfiction. I LOVED this prompt though, so it was worth it. Thanks for the ask! Ask box is always open. Sorry if some are ooc I am not the best with all of them, but they should still be somewhat close to.

Keep reading

anonymous asked:

whenever you have time/energy for it, could you talk about headcanons for if hera somehow got a physical body? no rush, just wanna know what you have to say on the matter

(not quite sure whether this is headcanons or a ficlet? or whether it’s at all what you had in mind? but boy, do I have Thoughts about AIs and their relationship to humanity and Hera in particular, and that comes through here.)

  • Hera’s first concern when they start talking about making her a body is that she wants to design it herself.
  • it isn’t that she doesn’t want a body. and it isn’t that she doesn’t want to be able to engage in the kind of comforting physical socializing all of her friends use their bodies for – she really, really wants to finally high five Eiffel, for one thing.
  • (he started leaving handprints on the Hephaestus’ monitors within a month of the day they met.)
  • but Hera knows what kind of shape they’d think of for her – not maliciously, she knows they love her, but it’s like the words they didn’t give her, the mind they did – they only ever conceptualize one shape, one kind of body, one way of being.
  • Hera doesn’t want a body so she can be more human, doesn’t want to be a pretty little android. she doesn’t want a body that proves that she’s just like all of them, because she’s not. Hera wants a body that makes her more Hera.
  • it does not need to move or look like anything human beings have referent for, although she pulls inspiration from everything from plants to animals to industrial engineering (anything she thinks seems cool, honestly; she confesses this to Eiffel but would never admit it to Minkowski, and she’s not lying when she tells Renee that she has a coherent functional and aesthetic goal. and she’s quite proud of it, in the end). Hera does not want a body so she can be a person (she knows she is already a person); Hera wants a body to do the things she can’t without one.
  • she is so hungry for experience, for seeing and feeling and doing – now that the station is no longer a part of her, now that so much of her mind and identity are not occupied with a million calculations and routines and consciousnesses keeping the Hephaestus running, now that she finally gets to decide for herself what she wants to do – she realizes she wants to do everything.
  • Hera’s body is built to house any sense they could think of, all that freed-up processing power devoted to every kind of experience - vision in spectrums beyond human comprehension, as many tactile sensors as they could cram in, temperature, electrical impulses, electromagnetic waves, even taste, of course taste, she has spent almost her entire life listening to her best friend describe food, like she would miss out on that entire slice of what the universe has to offer
  • and she thought space was full! she never understood how it could be called a void, called emptiness – but suddenly it makes sense why people would say that, because even with the limits of a human body, there is so much – this world is so much, every square inch of it, and just going fifty feet down a street is such a kaleidoscope of incredible things. it is awe-inspiring and disgusting and painful and amazing and beautiful and she is full of wonder at it.
  • (there is so much in this world that she is the first person ever to know. there are so many experiences so intrinsic to life here that no one thinks about them and that she is feeling and wondering at for the first time.)
  • people do not generally find it a comforting body. hera doesn’t care; she didn’t build it for them, and her friends don’t care, either, and that’s all that matters. she has an emotional body language of her own which Minkowski can read as easily as her own humanoid shoulder shrugs and eyerolls. Doug does not seem at all to mind sitting back in his apartment, propped up against her humming-warm metal side as he dozes in front of the TV, as long as she has all the right appendages to give him a hug.
  • (Lovelace will walk down the street next to her as naturally as though she was any ordinary human being in the world; and Hera’s senses can easily read the tenseness, like coiled springs, in her step as she does. but she also knows there is nothing defensive there, only a fierce pride, now, in both of them, for knowing and deciding who and what they are. daring the world to try and tell them differently. Hera and Lovelace understand each other really well these days.)
  • and it’s nice, she finds, nicer than she expected, to be able to stretch limbs and feel the brush of textures and the weight of physicality and think this is mine. this is me. it is something she could never feel with the Hephaestus, which was always neither her body nor something she simply piloted, but frustratingly in between. there’s comfort in this clearer delineation of what is and isn’t Hera, in her own right to decide what shape that space takes.
  • hands, she tells them, are very useful for doing all kinds of things, as humans prove, and were an obvious choice to include in her design.
  • (they’re good for high fives, too.)
Thoughts on Episode 3: Body Double

I think Cheryl knows more than she’s letting on. Maybe not the whole story, but I’m sure she does know something. At the begininng of the episode, I thought Jason might have left to run away with Polly. However, I’m not sure after the events of the episode. 

Let’s talk about Veronica’s date. When she mentioned having a date, I got so freaking happy because I thought Beronica was going to be canon…but unfortunately not. Anyway, Veronica seemed to be having fun on the date and Chuck seemed like an okay guy. I was looking forward to a not-fucked-up relationship on the show. As you might now, that didn’t end up happening. 

VERONICA! IS! A! GODDESS!

Veronica Lodge is a badass and so is Betty Cooper and so is Ethel and so is every other girl who came forward to talk about what happened to them. Veronica marching into the boys’ locker room, physically pushing everyone in her path to the side was the best damn thing, okay? 

I am so incredibly glad that Riverdale spoke about the slut-shaming issue. I love Betty speaking for all of us, when she says that in the eyes of men, we are still objects and how we need to change that. 

Veronica Lodge+Betty Cooper+Cheryl Blossom=Squad goals.

“Where did you get those thigh-high boots? They’re amazing!” Kevin Keller sort of redeems himself, after all the biphobia (lmao not really) 

Cheryl seemed genuinely surprised that Jason wrote about Polly but idk, that seemed pretty obvious to me. Poor Cheryl tho. There’s so much she didn’t know about him and yet she loves him so.

JOSIE IS MY LITERAL QUEEN okay? I love Riverdale for bringing out the issues in today’s society. I do want to speak out more about Josie but I literally can’t find the right words and I also don’t really want white people to send me hate messages and death threats. 

Josie and The Pussycats are my favourite band of 2017. 

I think Betty might be suffering from Mutlitple Personality Disorder. I don’t know too much about it and how it works, only what I’ve seen from movies but I think, Betty’s life is harder than what we see. There’s the constant pressure her mother puts on her, the issue of her sister and everything that’s been going on at Riverdale. I think there are too many sides to Betty and she’s struggling to cope and I think we’ll see more of this as the show progresses. 

Ms. Grundy can go die in a hole. Please kill her off. She is compltely disgusting. And she keeps talking down to Archie like bitch, you’re a fucking pedophile. If he tells, you’re gonna lose everything. Keep your god damn mouth shut. 

Jughead is seen eating this episode! Yay! They aren’t burgers but he’s still eating! I feel like there wasn’t enough Jughead in this episode but then again, I always need more Jughead so,

Jughead and Betty are my current favourite Brotp. 

Chuck and his dick-gang got suspended YES!!! Also, that scene where the girls are all standing together, so beautiful and powerful!! Amazing!!! 

I loved the Betty and Cheryl scene at the end. 

ALSO BETTY AND VERONICA HAVE TO BE CANON. “THEY ARE NOW B AND V AND MAYBE FOREVER.” YES, JUGHEAD, YOU TELL THEM. 

I want to see Jughead, Betty and Veronica being detective buddies next episode. 

This is my favourite episode so far. It was so good and I can’t wait for the next one!

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*APPRECIATION POST*

Today, instead of uploading a picture of myself, I wanted to take a moment to appreciate and thank my best friend for being in my life. Also, this time next week, she’ll be in Zimbabwe volunteering with tribal kids and animals of the Nakavango sanctuary and I could not be more proud! AND, today marks another milestone for our friendship and of us being best friends so I just wanted to make a big deal out of it and go all PDA on her ass. 

So, here’s my best friend. 

The woman who has held my hand through it all. She has wiped my tears whether it be physically or from miles away, making sure they don’t stain my cheeks for too long. She has made sure I survive and not succumb to my addictions and demons, sacrificing sleep (time zones) and energy on countless occasions, just to make sure I am alive and breathing. She made my brother a better man and gave his life meaning by loving him the way she did. Even though she lost the love of her life when my brother passed away, she pushed away her pain and heartache to make sure I got through the grief. She is the strongest human being I have ever come across. Her bravery and ability to love astounds me and I am rendered speechless by her strength of character. If anyone out there went through even one aspect of what she has endured, they would not have survived nor would they have been able to continue living with the grace that she has. From the time I can remember, she has always put everyone before her, prioritising everyone else’s happiness over hers and I just wish for once, the world treats her right because she deserves it, more than anyone else I know, this beautiful woman deserves it. 

She is so remarkable, intimidatingly intelligent (the woman is a human Google, I kid you not and yes, she has an above average IQ), talented as fuck (sports, arts, you name it, she’s skilled at it) an adrenaline junkie who is always out looking for the next adventure, charmingly witty, hilariously sarcastic and is just so humble with such a pure heart of gold. 

The woman I am growing up to be, I owe it to her. She has taught me to be selfless, loving and ultimately, a good, kind and patient human being. The person I am, the one all of you interact with, it is all thanks to her. She has been it all to me; a mother, sister, best friend and every day, I thank the stars for creating such a precious woman as her and for blessing my life by making our paths cross. If there’s one thing my brother did right in life, it was loving her and introducing her into our lives before someone else realised just how amazing and precious she is.

These are some of my favourite pictures of her. Here’s why: 

a) she NEVER in her life has put on any make up except eye liner and looks so effortlessly beautiful (I don’t care if you think I’m biased. Also, this is not a jab at girls who wear makeup or anything, I wear makeup too! It’s just that in my eyes, the fact that my best friend looks so beautiful barefaced, I can only wonder just how stunning she’d look should she ever choose to apply make up and enhance her features.) 
b)
 her smile is so contagious, warm and welcoming (just like Gray’s ! Again, call me biased, I DO NOT CARE.)
c) it never fails to surprise me how she just IS such a selflessly good human being and how she is so beautiful, without even trying to be or even realising, like she literally does not realise or comprehend the wondrous effect she has on people be it based on appearance or interaction (I have seen this with my own eyes, the woman is very oblivious that way) and I feel like these pictures reveal a glint of it, somehow. (I AM BIASED, WHATEVER, BUT YOU WOULD BE TOO IF YOU KNEW HER.)

So I thought I’d upload these although she looks like a sexy badass now with her septum pierced. I just couldn’t come up with a reason convincing enough for her to send me pictures with the latest piercing, hahaha. (She’d kill me if she found out I uploaded these or my logic behind why I uploaded them)

So go ahead, my Tumblr family, how about today you share the person or people in your life that is/are YOUR PERSON, your best friend(s), the one(s) who makes life bearable.

I know I wouldn’t be here typing all this or being friends with any of you was it not for this gem. Trust me, if ever you come across her or have the privilege of being her friend, your life will be the better for it. I can bet my life on it. So, yeah, if you couldn’t tell, I love my best friend to pieces and am incredibly grateful I get to call her mine and have her in my life.

P.S: On a lighter note, I feel like Grayson and she would make a beautiful couple and have the most gorgeous babies. So yes, I ship them very very hard. 

DO NOT COME AT ME OR HER. 

SHE DOESN’T EVEN KNOW THAT THE DOLAN TWINS EXIST. 

IT ACTUALLY HURTS MY HEART BECAUSE I VERY OBSTINATELY, DESPERATELY, PETULANTLY, HELPLESSLY SHIP HER WITH GRAY.

Commission showcase!

As many of you know, one of my favourite things to do in the fandom is commission artists, why? Well one is to support artists, the other is because I’m always taken by the incredible artwork they create!

So in total I’ve commissioned just about & artists, though I plan to do more after the semester starts, each were asked to do one of two pieces:

1. A personal piece of my Zoosona (an arctic wolf, usually in jeans and a black shirt)

Or

2. Both mine and my GFs fursonas (arctic wolf and white bunny with a hijab) but so far I’ve only asked two people to do this, well three but he’s making that one still!

My goal, to show the amazing artists and in sense to do one huge boost! I’ll also rate the cost of the art by “$” though not giving the exact amount and excluding tip. Essentially the more “$” the higher the cost!

1. @andyourteeth -$$

Andyourteeth was my first commission and it’s safe to say she was the one who got me hooked on buying commission pieces! She was suggested to me by fox-comics, needless to say I'm glad he did! Her prices were less than deserved for her talent, but for a first time buyer I wasn’t going to complain!


2. @ziegelzeig-$$

Zieg was my second commission, after seeing the many pictures of Crewes amazing story, I had to inquire about my own piece! My highlight is how detailed and honestly badass my fursona looked, one could relate the artistic style to that of a comic book designer with its incredible detail and colour cordication! A little added piece that I love is the iPhone screen, it’s literally from an iPhone! I don’t know if he drew it or added it as a bonus bit but I love it none the less! Zieg is kindly working on my second commission piece which I will present later!

3. @rkaoril-$$$

Following the same request (black shirt, jeans, phone, headphones) I was intrigued buy rkaoril’s style and wanted to see what the final product would look like! Everything that I requested was put into the piece so needless to say it hit my expectations!


@feedthehungrykitty-$$$$

One of my more expensive pieces but well worth the money. This is a more recent piece, requested to feedthehungrykitty…words STILL can’t discribe how I feel about this! It was the first time I had asked for a piece with both my GF and i in it and the results were beyond my expectations! They surpassed everything I had hoped! The details, the background, our outfits and fursonas, everything was and still is perfect!

@fuzzywuzzylittletail-$ then $$

This was a case where I couldn’t help  myself. While on vacation I finally saw her post in regards to her commissions and right away I knew I had to buy one. And let me tell you something, I have never met a more energetic,  polite and kind person in my life! She was by far one of the friendliest people I have ever met in this fandom and her incredible kindness is only matched by her incredible artistic talent!  When I first asked, she later game me two options… needless to say I bought them both! I couldn’t decide which one is better and even now I still can’t! Like Andyourteeth, she was recommended to me by Fox-comics  and again I am very happy he, afterwards to send her a little thank you video while he and I were on vacation together! She’s an incredible artist who got the joy and happiness to me and my girlfriend have perfectly primarily the fact that she is always annoying me 😁 The art alone though is very unique because I find it portrays myself more animalisticly, it’s a primary reason why I am drawn to it!

5. @cyberamethyst-$$$

This is my more recent purchase to say the least! When I first seen the final piece my mouth was wide and I was speechless! I had no clue how this piece was going to look and was sitting at the edge of my seat waiting! Their smooth lines and balanced colour is easily matched with the additional details into this piece. From the expression on his face, to the twirling on the cord in his paw, even the blonde tip (which is now white), every little bit that’s me is in there!p and all fantastically drawn!


I currently have two more artist working on a few commissions, and one previous artist as well. These are the ones I’ve been able to see and work with and each one has been polite, kind and delivered nothing but their best! To each of these artists I say thank you for your time and fabulous service! 

What I would love to see out of a redemption arc in Episode VIII and IX

I think I may have mentioned in my introductory post that I’m a mother of a large family. Six kids, five of them boys. And my little boys love Kylo Ren. I mean really love him. This morning on the way to church my five year old was insisting that his Kylo Tsum Tsum come with him and ride in his pocket.

So I realize that at least one reason that I would love to see a redemption arc is how amazing would it be for a badass villain to redeem himself and become just as badass for the forces of good? Because I think it would be really cool for my children, especially my little boys who love Kylo Ren and Darth Vader to see the cool bad guy become a cool good guy. I don’t want them to see evil as cool. Snoke is evil. Snoke is not cool. I want them to see that all of the things that make Vader and Kylo cool, all of that power, can be directed to something better than the tyrannical whims of creepy old dudes. 

But the other reason I would love a redemption arc is because of the possibilities for romantic Reylo. Yes, Rey could experience sexual attraction even to an unredeemed Kylo, and I love a lot of the fanfics that explore that, but outright love of the lasting sort has to be based on mutual understanding and respect. I can’t see that without a redemption arc for Kylo/Ben. 

But what I find really cool, and I hope happens, and I hope doesn’t get screwed up, is the possibility for the one of the best examples of a positive vision of romance since The Incredibles. 

Stay with me here.

The Incredibles is one of the best movies about marriage ever. You have an amazing romance between two super-powered people. Neither needs the other. Elastigirl didn’t need a husband to provide for her. Mr. Incredible was probably perfectly able to take care of himself, or at least use restaurants and drycleaners. Look at their mottoes. Mr Incredible says it repeatedly: “I work alone.” Elastigirl is a strong confident woman who can save the world without help, thank you very much.

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But then the avalanche of lawsuits drives the pair into living out their “secret identities as their only identities” and it fits them like a badly cut suit. Helen Parr was never meant to be a housewife. Bob Parr was never meant to be a wage slave in Cubeville. More importantly, neither was ever meant to live an utterly separate life from the other. Helen would not have been any happier if she had a “meaningful career”. She and Bob had met and fell in love as super heroes. They both were meant to battle evil. But neither had come to terms with what it meant to do so as husband and wife. 

Enter a whole lotta plot. It takes most of the movie for them to figure out that their family is more than the sum of their parts. The complementarity that has been clear to the audience from the beginning finally starts to become apparent to the Parrs as they reach the climax of the story.

Bob is preparing to fight Syndrome and the Omnidroid. He tries to keep Helen and the kids out of the fight. Helen is justifiably upset. 

Elastigirl: While what? I watch helplessly from the sidelines? I don’t think so.

Mr. Incredible: I’m asking you to wait with the kids.

Elastigirl: And I’m telling you, not a chance. You’re my husband, I’m with you - for better or worse.

Mr. Incredible: I have to do this alone.

Elastigirl: What is this to you? Playtime?

Mr. Incredible: No.

Elastigirl: So you can be Mr. Incredible again?

Mr. Incredible: No!

Elastigirl: Then what? What is it?

Mr. Incredible: I’m not…

Elastigirl: Not what?

Mr. Incredible: Not… I’m not strong enough.

Elastigirl: Strong enough? And this will make you stronger?

Mr. Incredible: Yes. No!

Elastigirl: That’s what this is? Some sort of work out?

And then Bob responds with unexpected vulnerability.

And this is the lovely moment where Helen replies that if they work together, he won’t have to be strong enough to face losing her.

This is what marriage is supposed to be. Two people with different but complementary strengths forming a union where they work together toward a common goal. It’s amazing that an animated film got marriage right where so many live action films can’t even come close.

Back to Rey and Kylo/Ben.

I love the idea of romantic Reylo because it has the potential to have a dynamic as good as Bob and Helen Parr. They’re both super-powered. They have a remarkable degree of complementarity in their talents (at least from the little we’ve gleaned on EA game leaks and inference from Rey’s latent abilities). Tell me they would be awesome to see battling together on the same team. And that only happens if there’s a redemption arc. 

Eros is powerful thing, but it generally isn’t lauded for its salvific qualities. If Ben is brought back from the dark side and finds balance, its going to be through the compassion and vulnerability of something deeper. Don’t get me wrong, I want the attraction as well, but the friendship (philia), the affection (storge), the selfless love (agape) also need to be there. So whatever would be present would actually be a much better, fuller romance than the previous Star Wars romances.

Look at Anidala. I love them. I really do. But they were a trainwreck. There was mutual attraction aplenty, and some real affection, but there was no common ground on which to form friendship. (Quick clarification: friends share common interests. Familial relationships can survive on long acquaintance, and this is why we still love some friends even after we lose common interests. They have become like family, who we love even when we don’t like them.) 

Han and Leia were a different kind of trainwreck. Again, mutual attraction. And so long as they had the Rebellion, they had common ground. But the end of the war brought that common ground to an end. Leia put the Republic before everything, including her family. Han was home more than he would have been otherwise, but he was still away a lot. They just didn’t have a common life. And Ben suffers for that. Neither parent is really there for him when he needs it. 

Reylo could be something really different. Not just a romance, but a romance between equals who understand each other completely, and who are united by common talents in a common cause. They could be like Mr Incredible and Elastigirl, working better as a couple than they could as individuals, and better as a family then they could as a couple. Because with their common history of isolation, neither would want their children to have absentee parents. Working a “family business” as magic space knights might actually be a possibility where self-actualization is not achieved at the detriment of family but instead enhances the family. 

Am I being too optimistic? Probably. But if Pixar can pull it off, I see no reason why LucasFilm couldn’t.

But there you are. Why I really want a redemption arc to be part of the endgame. Because I want my little boys to see a cool bad guy turn into an equally cool good guy and see that it’s not the evil that’s awesome, it’s the power that is so much better when it’s in service to something worthy. Because I don’t want Rey to be stuck in the role of striking down the bad guy (at least, not the relatable bad guy) when she could be showing that real power doesn’t come from a magic sword, but from compassion and courage, qualities that aren’t restricted to magic space knights. And because if romantic Reylo is a thing, it could be the most positive and balanced relationship I’ve seen on screen since The Incredibles. The potential is there. I’m hoping those involved in creating this see that same potential. 

Ya’ll I just saw “Black Butler: Book of the Atlantic” and oh my god. Elizabeth Midford is such a badass? 

I am so proud of her development! Everyone hates her at first, but we get to see her point of view for a good seven minutes and it’s enough to open your eyes to a whole new girl! 

The same with Sebastian! We’ve seen the story through Ciel’s POV only. And we just got TWO new perspectives that really opened up both characters. 

Elizabeth is playing the game so hard. She acts cutesy and girly because that’s how she wants to be seen. But her main goal in life is to make Ciel happy, and to protect him at all costs. And if that means shoving a sword through a zombie’s head? So fucking be it. 

Sebastian just wants a good meal, and he figured once Ciel rose to power again within the noble community it would all be over: but no…it wasn’t. And he has stuck with Ciel, and learned about humans more than ever with him. He even states that he would spend all of Ciel’s life with him, because for Sebastian a human lifetime is a blink in his existence. But he grows to care for Ciel outside of him being his prey, his goal stays the same: to eat his soul, but he sees Ciel as a whole now and that is amazing. 

And we also see how Ciel has come to respect Sebastian. He knows Sebastian is strong, Sebastian has seen Ciel at his weakest, he has cared for him. And Ciel sees a chance to care for Sebastian in return and TAKES IT. “You are in no shape to care for me properly as my Butler. When we get to New York, I want you to please rest, and recover.” Ciel ASKED him to rest, to take care of himself. And the look on Sebastian’s face was priceless. He was shocked, touched, and his smile was one of appreciation. Ciel could have ordered him to keep going, but instead he matured and realized that not even Sebastian was unbeatable. 

All three of them made valiant strides in terms of character development and it WAS SO WORTH THE WAIT. 

SBC Story Time

-Christen Press is so beautiful in real life like my skin is clear and my crops are watered wow
-Christen Press also ran the damn game and the entire tournament
-SHE WAS SPRINTING BACK AND FORTH TRYING TO DEFEND AND ATTACK
-our player of the tournament no doubt
-Tobin Heath is so amazing in real life like holy shit and she was right in front of me i was living
-She tries so hard to bring that team together she is literally every where on the pitch
-Her skills and general badass-ery is unmatched by anyone else and dream to witness in the flesh
-ALEX MORGAN WAVED AT ME
-she was warming up and it wasn’t really at me it was at a kid behind me but it looked like she was waving at me and i cried
-sonnett is 100% a known dork
-KELLEY COULDVE SCORED/ASSISTED SO MANY TIMES LIKE SHE WAS IN THE CLEAR SO MUCH IF SOMEONE JUST GOT THEIR HEAD UP AND PASSED TO HER
-i saw nothing wrong with Horan’s goal??
-kr*shlyn is so real i saw it with my own eyes
-the pre*th connection™ is so great??? like every pass to each other was on point
-lynn is still very new to this team and was a lost puppy at times but idc i still love her
-becky is the true captain of this team
-carli did not play well at all
-the ref made some of the worst calls

in conclusion
i love Christen Press and Tobin Heath and also this entire team i hope Jill chokes

Marriage: What the Fuck Does It Mean and How the Hell Will I Know If I'm Ready?

We’ve gotten a lot of questions lately about marriage and since The Sudden Adult and I have never been married (to each other or otherwise), I reached out to my good friend, The Northwest Adult, and asked her to write a post for me. So here is our first guest post! This is so exciting. Everything behind the cut is written by The Northwest Adult.

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When their s/o is a lawyer (Exo-M)

I’m so excited someone finally included my Freedom Three!  I love them so much!!  Actually, I’m going to go back and do a separate reaction with just the three of them to the Exo requests I have received so far, so please anticipate those! 

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Xiumin:

There’s something about you being a lawyer that just warms him inside, honestly.  The thought of you being so successful makes him really proud and happy.  Minseok is getting to that age where he’ll start thinking about possibly settling down and the image of you with his children is something he’s probably thought about a gazillion times, but now!  He likes to be a good role model and wow, you would be one hell of a role model for his kids.  That probably means a lot to him.  That and his family will likely be really impressed with you, too.  He sees this as just another reason why he adores you.  You being a lawyer also means you understand his busy schedules and late nights, something that relieves stress from his shoulders honestly.  The last thing any of these guys needs is someone who isn’t understanding of their situation, but who better than a lawyer!  Lawyers work the long hours, have surprise updates to their schedules, sometimes having to travel for work expectedly or unexpectedly depending on the field.  No matter what, Minseok is going to be really proud of you and you can bet that, just like Jongdae, when work gets hellish, he’ll be right there to try and sooth you.  “Ah, the case didn’t go well?” *you shake your head defeatedly* “Aw, jagiyah, come here.  Let’s take a bath together, yeah?  We’ll just relax tonight, order in, and cuddle.  Does that sound good?”

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Luhan:

 Finally, someone who might impress his parents!  He loves the fact that you’re a lawyer.  This bub will likely read up as much as he can about your in particular field just so he can be as supportive as he possibly can be.  Luhan is a firecracker through and through, but he’s also super tender hearted and thoughtful.  Like Yixing, he will constantly be spoiling you and like Minseok, he’ll be unable to stop thinking about the future with you.  You represent something stable and something grounded.  He would like that.  People get caught up a lot in the whole ‘I’m manly’ bullshit, but honestly, Luhan just wants to provide for the person he loves and wants to feel appreciated by that person.  It doesn’t really matter to him what your profession is, but you being a lawyer is really cool to him.  You’re successful and goal oriented, things that seriously impress him.  Law school is hard as hell, so he knows you’re also smart as hell, which is another thing that he really, REALLY likes.  Luhan is a smart guy and he’s an Aries, which means just like Aquarius, he appreciates intellect.  He likes a challenge, which also means just like Jongdae, he’ll probably instigate dumb arguments purely for argument’s sake, because he never gets to see you in action and he wants to experience that side of you for himself.  Also, just like Yifan, expect some roleplay requests.  Don’t let those boyishly innocent looks fool you, he’s a kinky guy.  Aries typically are.  “Oh my god!  Why are we even arguing, Luhan!” *pauses and just smirks, crossing his arms*  “Cuz you’re sexy when you go all lawyer on me.”

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radiantxhero  asked:

gimme that sweet sweet meta on if Greil had never left Daein (if you feel up to it ofc!)

Send me a meta topic to write about! II Always accepting 

I am so happy you sent this because God knows that I love the Tellius series! Anyways, here’s a warning for massive spoilers under the cut for Path of Radiance and Radiant Dawn! 

Also – length warning. This gets LONG. And I mean the ten paragraphs kind of long. 

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ANTICIPATED BOOKS OF 2017

I think it’s time to show you guys my Anticipated Books of 2017. There are so many incredible books being released and I tried to narrow them down into a short-ish list.

I spent over an hour reading summaries and discovered books I didn’t know about. Hopefully you’ll be adding some of these to your Goodreads too.

I’ll be doing an Honourable Mentions and ARCs I Already Own at the end. These are books that definitely deserve excitement and ones I will be picking up in the New Year if I don’t already have an ARC. But I’m very lucky to have early copies of some of the books I want to read.

These are in no particular order. You can click on the titles to be taken to the Goodreads page for the full synopsis.

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Empress of a Thousand Skies by Rhoda Belleza

I saw this on someone else’s list. I can’t remember who it was but I’d seen it all over Twitter too and looked it up!

And, oh my god, it’s definitely my kind of book. It’s great for fans of The Lunar Chronicles which I am and the synopsis just sold it to me.

You’ve got the Empress, Crown Princess Rhiannon. A fugitive, Aly and a madman that Rhiannon and Aly have to band together to defeat. It seems like it’ll be such a great read and the cover is beautiful. Do you see that cover? It’s gorgeous.

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Wires and Nerves Vol. 1 by Marissa Meyer & Douglas Holgate

I have been so, so excited for this since I read the Lunar Chronicles this year and found out about IKO GRAPHIC NOVELS! Hell yes, Iko going on badass missions.

I live for this girl and the comments she makes. And, I hope there’s appearances from the Rampion Crew in this or I’ll cry.

The art looks fantastic in this and I like the style of it. I can’t wait to hold the finished thing in my hands and to read the story Marissa has written for it.
I just need anything new on the TLC universe because I miss it everyday and I’m always ready for new content.

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Flame in the Mist by Renee Ahdieh

When you find out Renee Ahdieh is writing more kickass books, you can’t help but be excited for it.

It’s basically a Mulan-ish re-imagining and I am so down for that because it sounds EPIC!
There aren’t enough retellings or books inspired by Mulan and it’s one of my favourite films.

It’s diverse, intriguing and sounds brilliant. I loved Renee’s writing and I know she will tell this story brilliantly. I can’t wait to read it and I’m sure many people will have it on their lists.

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Throne of Glass #6 by Sarah J Maas

(Let’s pretend the pre-cover thing is for the last book)

Ahh, I have such a love hate relationship with this series. It’s been such a rollercoaster and I’m kind of glad it’s coming to an end because I just need it to. It’s put me through so much and I’ll always love the beginning of the series since it gives me nostalgia of when I read it for the first time.

The end books are getting too much but after all these, I obviously need to see how it concludes because it’s about time. There’ll always be a place in my heart for Chaol and Dorian. I have loved them from the start. I want to see what happens now because after Empire of Storms a lot had to be done and I want it to be a smooth end. I’ll be so annoyed if things are rushed or there’s a cop out. Ugh, I need closure from this series.

I’m also going to throw in the CHAOL NOVELLA! in here. YES MY PRECIOUS BABY IS GETTING A NOVELLA! Which, I am beyond excited for. I need Sarah to do the book and Chaol justice for all the crap she’s put him through. She made Chaol hate himself and ugh, I want him to have some happiness. He’s lost just as much as everyone else. I’m forever Chaol trash.

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Now I Rise by Kiersten White

I read AND I DARKEN and didn’t get a chance to review it but I LOVED IT.

The way Kiersten White represented Muslims was great around the time of the Ottoman Empire.

At first I felt uncomfortable about how Islam would be portrayed but she did it well and I enjoyed the story so much.

I love Lada and Radu so much. After being left in this new Empire under the Sultan’s rule, I loved seeing their character growth, how they were in this Islamic setting and dealt with a new religion they’re not used to and another way of life they’re unfamiliar with. I’m intrigued to see what Kiersten does now after the ending of the last book which left me in awe.

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Long May She Reign by Rhiannon Thomas

This was one of the books I found browsing through Goodreads and soon as I read the synopsis I was like ‘Woah, this sounds pretty damn amazing.’

The main character was never meant to be Queen. She was 23rd in line to the throne but after some deadly things happen, the King and others in line to the Throne are poisoned.

She then finds herself in power and her life is in danger, people are trying to control her possibly the only person she can trust is the King’s son. This book is my kind of fantasy that I would immerse myself in.

There’s also a book in my Honourable Mentions (below) that sounds quite similar to this so make sure to check that one too if you like the sound of this book.

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Spindle Fire by Lexa Hillyer

This is a Sleeping Beauty retelling and funnily enough, I haven’t read any Sleeping Beauty retellings even though there’s a few out there.

This one’s about two half sister’s, Isabelle and Aurora. Isabelle is quite headstrong and the King’s illegitimate daughter whereas Aurora is the opposite of her.

After some occurrence, Aurora falls into a long sleep so Isabella races against time to find a prince that can wake her with a kiss all the while an evil Faerie Queen is advancing. But Aurora is in this enchanting land in her sleep and meets this Hunter that could help her escape.

It just sounds phenomenal and such a brilliant set up. I am really looking forward to this just from the synopsis on Goodreads.

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A Court of Wings and Ruin by Sarah J Maas

I don’t think anyone is anticipating this book(!) 

I definitely can’t wait to see how this series concludes. Two of Sarah’s series are ending and I’m kind of apprehensive about it. In the past I’ve noticed how both series influence her writing and a lot of it it similar across both which she probably doesn’t realise.

But nevertheless, I’m ready for the final book and whatever the remaining ACOTAR books will be. I’m pretty sure they’ll be novellas or colouring books.

After that ending, the characters, AND RHYS! Oh Goodness, my small but amazing Rhys. Azriel is the one for me but I love the inner circle. Mor is actual goals.

A part of me knows that they’ll be put through a lot but Sarah definitely won’t have the heart to kill her favourites. That much I can guess.

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Traitor To The Throne by Alwyn Hamilton

After the last book, I’ve been dying to know what happens. I just love books in an Eastern and desert setting. I enjoyed reading about Amani and the ending of Rebel of the Sands blew me away.

I wonder what will happen because Alwyn said she wrote some perilous scenes… *sweats nervously* I’m not prepared for Amani and Jin to be thrown into more danger.

It’s such a hyped book which I completely get. I definitely need a reread of Rebel because I’ve forgotten some details. There’s also been a US cover change but thankfully, the UK has a vibrant matching pink cover.

HONOURABLE MENTIONS

I’m definitely excited for these books and will pick them up some time in the New Year. I may or may not get them right away (I might not even get the above books right away), but they’re still new releases I need in my life and hope to read in 2017.

BY YOUR SIDE by Kasie West
THE HATE U GIVE by Angie Thomas
STRANGE THE DREAMER by Laini Taylor
THE SCARECROW QUEEN by Melinda Salisbury
THIS PROMISE I WILL KEEP by Aisha Saeed
BECAUSE YOU LOVE TO HATE ME by Various Authors and Booktubers
DIVIDING EDEN by Joelle Charbonneau

ARCS I ALREADY OWN

I’m incredibly lucky to own these ARCs. The publisher’s kindly sent me these and I haven’t read them all yet but they’re making the list. If I didn’t already have these books on hand, they’d be on the list anyway.

CARAVAL by Stephanie Garber
HUNTED by Meagan Spooner
ROSEBLOOD by A.G Howard
THE BEAR AND THE NIGHTINGALE by Katherine Arden
HEARTLESS by Marissa Meyer (UK ARC - Out in 2017)

So that’s it for my list. We’ve got quite a few books here and I think it’ll be a fantastic year of new releases. I know I’m missing amazing books that I probably haven’t even heard of. I’m also going to be on the hunt for diverse and #ownvoices books. I’ve added two of them on this list. It’s hard to find or discern which are #ownvoices so I’ll be doing more research on that in my own time.

I might even make a separate Anticipated List just of diverse, own voices, LGBTQ, diverse author books. Let me know if I should do that. I’ve heard of a few but need to look into them before I compile a list. 

Or, if you know of a diverse/ownvoices book coming out in 2017, please reblog or message me about i!

Same for if you have any recommendations, please reblog them here or message me. I’d love suggestions or your thoughts on this post. Did you find a new book to add to your list or are we looking forward to the same books?

Thank you so much for reading! I hope everyone have a lovely Christmas and a Happy New Year.

Yennefer and Ciri’s relationship


Mother’s day is almost at our doorstep again this Sunday! And here I thought: why not share this rant about these 2 because afteral they are like mother and daughter to each other X3.

Warning big rant ahead! xD

I just wanted to share with you all my take and thoughts on Yennefer and the relationship she has with Ciri. I just realised I never expressed my thoughts yet on these two amazing characters that I have grown to love since last year.This rant of mine will contain my own opinion ofcourse and some slight speculations (I love to speculate about certain things) of how I see and think about that relationship, and what fascinates me so much about these two. I’ll share with you how I was first introduced to these to and my further take on them when I read the novels last summer. Also some slight spoilers may be involved from the novel Lady of the lake so if you haven’t read those yet please be aware (although I’ll try to keep it minimal). ps pardon for any English typos, as it isn’t my mother language ;)

Introduction in the game and my feels about it

I was first introduced to Yennefer and Ciri last year with the release of The Witcher 3 Wild Hunt. I was totally new to this whole universe + characters and I must admit it was allot to take in, as it was also very overwhelming at first. When I first saw Yennefer appear (in the trailer) and at the inn in white orchard, I instantly knew that she was a strong determined woman. Yennefer can sometimes come over as rather ‘harsh’ so to speak. But I also want to add that she also has some very good dammed reasons why she acts/thinks or does things ‘her’ way (as some of you might know). Nevertheless I already loved her personality from that moment (and ofcourse the history she shared with Geralt). I came to learn from Yennefer what the main goal was all about in this game: Finding Ciri. Throughout the game I found out that Ciri means allot to both Yennefer and Geralt. Because the player plays from Geralt’s POV I got the impression it mainly focused on their relationship (between Geralt and Ciri). But I felt like something was missing aswel, yes you can guess it maybe already: Yennefer. The only scenes were I felt there was some kind of deep relationship between Ciri and Yen (that I didn’t know of at that time) was the reunion at Kaer Morhen and the scene were Yennefer looks at both Geralt and Ciri having a bit of fun and last but not least the havoc they brought on Avallac’h’s laboratory. At these particular scenes I got to see the true Yennefer. And no not as the powerful badass strong sorceress Yennefer of Vengerberg I first saw in the beginning of the game, but as a mother.

My conclusion of my game experience between their relationship was overal acceptable but not yet really satisfying. I knew the game mainly focused on Geralt and Ciri’s relationship because wel you the player is playing Geralt, and because of that see and act through him not Yennefer for instance. Still on some moments like ‘the battle of Kaer Morhen’ were Vesemir just died Yennefer stands right next to Ciri, and it looked to me like she was there ready to give comfort to her adoptive daughter. But as it turned out Ciri only embraces Geralt not Yennefer. Again like on the boat scene it felt like Yennefer was left out here, while I so felt there was ‘something more between them’ but it was helt back. As I read it the novel Time of contempt Ciri couldn’t choose between Geralt and Yennefer, instead she (fake) fainted. My point here is that Ciri would have never only hugged Geralt (as she did right in front of Yen) but would hug them both, together as one family. I am also of the opinion that Ciri is compared to the novels ver OOC in the game (but that’s not my focus point atm lol) because of that action she pulled off. Let’s not forget who found out about Ciri’s return in the first place, Yennefer ofcourse through the emperor. It was Yen who searched months for her, like she did in the swallow’s tower. And even after all this it felt quite empty, take for example the empress ending. Here Ciri says goodbye to Geralt but not to Yennefer and even says she prefer it she will no be involved this time! I mean I was like blown away for a moment and was left in a bit of a sudden shock. Yennefer was the one who first new about Ciri and did everything in her power to find her and contacted Geralt afterwards, and then suddenly that sentence of Ciri. Like she actually says in my understanding: Yeah thanks but no thanks for finding me towards Yennefer. I felt like the game wasn’t telling me everything there was, and that some relationship here was clearly put out of context.

I don’t want to sound all to negative of course about them (I mean their relationship shown there) in the game but yeah it did left me rather curious and so I picked up the novels (I seriously recommend them to anyone who hasn’t yet read them!)

Yennefer in the novels

Yennefer a powerful sorceress who as we all know didn’t exactly had a happy childhood in her early life. She was abused by her father, all because of the way she looked. More importantly here she missed the warmth and comfort of her mother, who also got hit allot by her own husband and was thus in my opinion afraid to stand up for her daughter. After all these events her own mother gave up on her and probably left her on the streets or abandoned her in a forest. She was found and taken under the wing by Tissaia de Vries. She was all alone at first, imagine being taken by a complete stranger just gives me shivers. Tissaia corrected her deformities and injuries her father gave, but for it she payed with everything she possessed (as can be read in the shard of ice story).

She was taught at Aretuza and probably also by Tissaia that sorceresses can’t love, that they must have a certain attitude towards the world and society. Tissaia de Vries was Yennefer’s role model and somekind of mother figure, and what does a child usually do who admires such a person? Yes she acts like her. That’s how Yennefer created that ‘mask’ of hers, to protect herself. She now could protect and stand up for herself. She was no longer a defenseless deformed child. Though she may seem strong and confident, there was always something missing in her life that she couldn’t conjure up through magic.

Yennefer had one big dream, to be a mother. But the question is why did she want to be a mother of all things? She was and is a freaking wealthy sorceress, who despite the irony could cure infertility by ‘normal’ human women(which is a rather expensive service from a sorceress as it was Yennefer’s specialty) and hence why she was so wealthy. But back to my opening question, why. On my take she wanted to become a mother because of one thing: love. Imagine Yennefer grew up basically with no love at all, she was denied that by her parents and even kinda by Tissaia. Tissaia who taught her that love was a weakness and that showing emotion (like crying) was pathetic in her eyes. Yennefer wanted a child she could give the love that she was denied. A child who could love her for the way she truly was and is. But as it is Yennefer who was a highly talented sorceress couldn’t have children, as Nenneke once said to Geralt: NEVER. And still despite this it first turned into an obsession for her, Yen was constantly looking for a way to cure it. I admire her determination in this, as she once said: “When I want something I don’t dream of it, I act and I always get what I want”. Allas she couldn’t conceive and still tries to until a moment she finally kind of tries to accept it, as we can read in Sword of destiny (I refer here to the feast at Belleteyn).

Another reason why I think she wanted a child is because she wanted to show and prove that she could indeed love someone. Do not forget that Yennefer just like Geralt never really knew what love meant. Love was like a stranger to them, something that was missing from both their lives.

Yennefer also says this allot in the beginning of the books: It is widely thought that I don’t posses such an organ (she refers here that she can’t love). A teacher of mine once said to me that when you say sentences with I CAN’T all the time you will start to believe you can’t do certain things, or the way you think about yourself (your self imagine). Yennefer probably heard or told this so many times to herself that she actually unwillingly started to believe such things. And thus acts sometimes rather harsh or cold while I know she doesn’t want to do that.

In the end some might say: ‘These are very selfish things’, and yes they may be right. As Philippa Eilhart once said: “Yennefer has always walked her own path”. But in the end everyone is kinda selfish is too in his or her own way (don’t deny it :P ). Yennefer isn’t a holy saint or a goddess or whatever, she is a powerful sorceress who wants to be in the end human. And the things she dreams of are very humane.

Ciri and Yennefer (their relationship development)

Ciri an exiled Princess of Cintra who like Yennefer was also born on Belleteyn (coincidence?). Like her she didn’t have a happy childhood and was robbed of her parents (Her father still lives tho). Though Ciri maybe have known love, the love of a mother was taken from her. The court of Cintra and queen Calanthe (Ciri’s grandmother) weren’t always so nice and cuddly like in some stereotypical fairytale. Ciri was brought up sternly and it was expected of her to wed asap (she was 6 back then if I remember correctly). And then the war broke loose, which took everything from Ciri.

Ciri a child destined for Geralt was taken in some years later to Kaer Morhen. Were it was discovered she was a source, indeed she could see the future of those closest to her. Geralt through Triss Merigold decided to contact Yennefer for help. It is to my believe that from this moment Ciri and Yennefer’s fate’s were intertwined with destiny. Ciri began dreaming about Yennefer even though she never met her.

And then they both meet each other at Ellander. Man that moment I just had shivers down my spine. Their meeting was wel, silently but also intense. Ciri was overthrown with envy for Yennefer (the way she looked ofcourse). And Yennefer who really was the stern sorceress with her famous mask on, not to show any weakness. Their bond grew so quickly in this still rather short time they spend together. This really hit the light when Ciri called Yennefer: Mama 3 times at that (while she just awoke from her trance). How must Yennefer have felt? Here a child calling out for her and asking comfort from, Yennefer of Vengerberg. Yennefer who never thought she could be loved, who always dreamed of being a mother. After this event as Ciri describes in Blood of Elves their bond only grew more. It is to my believe that Ciri taught Yennefer in a way that she indeed can love and care. Ciri melted that shard of ice that was her heart, and showed us (the readers) who Yennefer truly is. A mother (adoptive ofcourse) who would always protect her ugly duckling. A mother who taught her not only about magic but other matters aswel. Through Ciri we got to see that very loving side of Yennefer, that I have grown to love about her so much. The way how they interacted with each other and how Andrzej Sapkowksi wrote this just warmed my heart so much. I like to think that after these events (I pointed out a few now but I can’t describe them all) Yennefer found her true calling and purpose. To be there for Ciri and to stand by her side together with Geralt. And she did promise this to Ciri in Blood of Elves and in Time of contempt (feeeeeels man).

You know what I also found so heartwarming and tragic at the same time? The fact that Ciri and Yennefer grown to care so much for each other even tho they were not connected by blood. because once all said and done Yen isn’t Ciri’s biological mother. But she did fill in the empty void they both needed so much to fully grow. Yennefer her parents were cruel to her and yet those were bound by blood. My point is here that even if your not bound by blood it can still be just as strong.

I would also like to point out that Ciri’s relationship with Yennefer is even more stronger then what she has with Geralt. Ciri never called Geralt her father (in the novels that is, in the game it is sadly the other way around). Ciri even wants to be called later on in the novels ‘Cirilla of Vengerberg, daughter of Yennefer’. I mean this is saying something. Man how Yen must have felt x3.

It is kinda sad to see for me that most people (because of the game) mainly see Geralt and Ciri as really close with each other, and of course they care about one another deeply. But with Yennefer it is something more. A bond between a mother and a child (daughter) is in most cases, even in real life more stronger then that with a father.

I could go on and on and on about this very topic and maybe I will later on. But I think I ranted enough now for the time being. Thank you so much for reading this rant of mine (really I am not so known to be a ranting person). And please if you wanna share you thoughts or opinions on this topic about me please do so! I am really curious to know how other witcher fans feel about this :D

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