Dear all forgotten “I love you"s Let me tuck you into bed for the last time Three words that used to have meanings Whispered before dawn, between twilights, behind sheets, above intertwined skin and breath I’ll tell you stories how you used to move my life From the void into speeding my heartbeat I never saw you again after he replaced you with so many “I’ll never leave you” “You’re the best thing that ever happen in my life” “But I’m busy” “You suffocate me” “I’m tired of this and you” And finally “I’m sorry” Let me tuck you into bed for the last time dear all of the broken promises in a bucketful of empty words One day I’ll wake you up when you’re ready Maybe in another language Maybe in another world But once I put you on a silver plate, please remember that I still worship your meaning beyond any other words And I’ll spill you only for someone holy too
Carrie Fisher was a childhood icon of mine, as a young kid all I cared about in Star Wars was Princess Leia, she was the bravest, most awesome character in the whole series for me.
As an adult, she became a different kind of icon for me, her bravery and awesomeness took on a new tone, as someone who has struggled with mental illness and who has wanted more women to tell people to fuck off if they demand too much from them.
She was a survivor, she was supposed to pull through this, this hell year wasn’t supposed to take her from us. But it did and we’re all the poorer for it, but I wouldn’t trade having been a fan of hers for anything, she was funny and brash and open about her problems and charming as hell. She was one of the rare people to make it from “light of my childhood” to “light of my adult life”.
I’ll miss her so much. God speed to whatever’s after this life and I hope she finds peace there.
Just trying to get back into digital painting. It’s been so long since I’ve used my personal computer, it’s developed a serious layer of dust! Man! Going to try to paint something everyday for a while now though!
Oh, and bonus points if you recognize the book in the background ;]
A pig head and death threats were sent to the mosque prior to the mass shooting there that killed 5 Muslim people and left so many others injured. People just laughed it off and forgot about it. They were just praying, in their own place of worship, parents with their children…what in the world did we ever do to be treated as animals for a slaughter? This hatred towards Muslim people has been growing and growing at such an intensely frightening speed that I’m scared for my life when I walk at night. This idea that people think it’s okay to consider all Muslims as monsters, to generalize a population of over 1 billion people. Who let it get this far? Each one of you who waved away the fear Muslim people felt …who turned a blind eye to discrimination…who stood by and said nothing when the word Islam itself was turned into a synonym for violence and hatred by twisted media and ugly racist Islamophobes. This happened because the mentality of us against them was allowed to grow and Muslims were portrayed again and again as less than human until no one said anything against it and tit was accepted as the norm….this is why this is happening and I’m terrified.
What’s worse is that these shooters will probably be excused with the old “he wasn’t in the right mind” and their ethnicity and religion will never be made to apologize for their crimes. Not like we’ve had to do.