my life and joy

While at the park today, I ran into the family of one of the girls who bullied me a lot in the fifth and sixth grades. I recognized them immediately because her younger sister looks just like her.

I introduced myself and her mother remembered my name from the days in which her eldest and I attended middle school together. I pet their dogs and told the youngest how much she looked like her sister.

It was a quiet and quick moment of grace. I’ve been thinking a lot about how my childhood bullies have affected me long after they’ve left my life, but encountering this beautiful family and only feeling joy and tenderness for them was deeply healing. I felt the Spirit nudging me to move on, to grow, and reminding me of how much I already have.

why you should all consider getting chickens
  • a small backyard, a decent fence and the will to make a safe coop for your fluffy dames is all you need to make it happen
  • they will eat your vegetable scraps and gobble down pretty much any kind of food waste, turning discarded crusts and mushy fruit into big fat eggs full of protein!
  • and depending on which breed you buy, they will lay an egg almost every day. free, nutritious food every morning! what other pet will do that?
  • it’s a misconception that eating eggs is inherently cruel, or that you need a rooster for your chickens to lay eggs! all the eggs you buy in supermarkets are unfertilised, which means there is no chance of that egg ever hatching. you’re not eating a potential life, your chickens will lay eggs regardless of whether there’s a rooster around
  • so only buy a rooster to go with your lovely ladies if you want baby chicks - otherwise, just get some girls and enjoy those omelettes!
  • the way cage egg farms are run is terrible, and you can’t always be sure that a free range farm is as idyllic as the picture you see on the carton. lots of sad chookies who can’t perch or scratch or eat grass and clean themselves. :( 
  • this way, you will always be certain that your girls are happy, healthy, doing what chicken are meant to do and eating what chickens should be eating, which means bigger and better eggs for you!
  • you can give eggs to your friends! give eggs to strangers! eggs for everyone!
  • tiny and furious lawnmowers. chickens LOVE grass, especially clover. if you have a small backyard, they will do all the work of keeping the grass trimmed. 
  • a caution, pls buy your chicken a friend - they will get lonely if you only buy one. my friend had two chickens and one died, leaving Gizmo all alone. she got depressed and stopped laying, so they put her in the rabbit hutch. now she has a best friend bunny called Jimmy and she’s very happy! she often sits on him and purrs.
  • chickens are good around most other pets - cats and chickens usually regard each other with mutual indifference and disdain, but they generally bond with dogs. however, if you know your pooch or kitty is particularly aggressive, make sure you check it won’t be a problem!
  • scratch scratch scratch, scratch party!!
  • one time I was cleaning out the stables and my chicken came over, saw that I was using a big rake and went !!!! scratch time!!! and she started scratching furiously next to me like she was trying to help
  • they’re very clean animals and will clean themselves every day with a dust bath and a thorough preening
  • when it starts raining it takes them a good 10 seconds to process what’s happening, then they RUN to shelter
  • gloriously stupid tiny velociraptor running
  • peck peck peck. is food? I check! peck. not food!
  • rip all snails and slugs that live in your garden
  • they will also go after mice and spiders
  • chicken poop is great fertiliser! when you clean out their coop, spread the poo on your garden and watch your flowers and veggies grow!
  • kiddos LOVE chickens!!
  • seriously, looking after chickens is a great job for little kids - any little fella can fill up their water and give them some food, and collecting a warm, fresh egg every morning is so rewarding for them!!! 
  • hours of entertainment watching their antics
  • some (not all) like a cuddle! the ladies will let you know what their preference is. they may also gently peck and groom you because they love you.
  • you can give them fancy names like lottie, ethel and lady beatrice so it sounds like they’re a supporting cast in a Jane Austen novel
  • in conclusion give a pretty chicken a happy home today
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“The great joy and honor in my life has been to know you. To call you family. And I am grateful - more then I can possibly say - to have had this time with you all”

A Court of Wings and Ruin - Sarah J Maas

OH SWEET LORD MORE OFFICIAL ART!!!!! IT LOOKS LIKE THE BANQUET AFTER EPISODE 12!!! <3 <3

-LOOK AT VICTOR’S FACE!!! HIS HEART MOUTH!! OF MY GOSH! <3

-YUURI BE LIKE “OH NO NOT AGAIN!” BUT ALSO SECRETLY LOVING IT

-WHAT THAT HELL IS YURIO DOING?!?! DODGING?! 

-PHICHIT BEING HIMSELF BASICALLY (INSTAGRAM LORD)

-OTABEK STARING AND CONTEMPLATING HIS LIFE CHOICES

-JJ AND ISABELLA BEING ALL CUTE AND STUFF

LET’S PARTY INDEED!!!

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“One of the joys in my life is that in the space of a few months I can go from playing a depressed mother to a Restoration strumpet to a wartime screenwriter […] I live these different lives, asking myself, ‘Can I go to that length? Can I push myself further?’ It’s a way of exploring myself. You’re always learning with each role.” - Town & Country Magazine (2017)

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(spotify & playmoss)

songs that make me nostalgic for things that never happened.

run / daughter ; suburbia / troye sivan ; drive / oh wonder ; your best american girl / mitski ; all i want / kodaline ; a better way / andy hull & robert mcdowell ; liability / lorde ; sad dream / sky ferreira ; mess is mine / vance joy ; first day of my life / bright eyes ; always gold / radical face ; swingin party / lorde

migumiglorious replied to your post “You mentioned in your tags on your post that you are in the upswing of…”

Oh my god “try harder” is what all my teachers and counselor told me for the four year duration of middle school whenever I said I didn’t understand the material in class or when I said I couldn’t focus and it was h e l l. Honestly I think teachers say that cause they think students are lying, so that they can go “Oh I did my job I didn’t ignore them” when in reality they’re still doing that. I get close to flipping my shit every time I hear someone say it now.

Try harder has been my mantra through all of my childhood right the way through to my adult years. Try harder. 

Like honestly the whole time I was at university I was having a perpetual meltdown, there was no way I could have possibly tried harder. I graduated with a 2:1 with honors (I have no idea how to translate that for the Americans, sorry, it’s pretty good though, like not 4.0 good but Up There) and the first thing my professor said to me, with a big ole smile on his face was “now imagine what you could have done if you’d just tried harder” and all I could hear after that was the Kill Bill siren in my head. Like I’d just coasted my way there, and hand’t spent four years torturing myself, crying daily and completely destroying my personal life to try and keep it together long enough to reach graduation day.

And that’s a summary of my entire school life right there, with report cards that say “Joy is extremely clever but just doesn’t try hard enough”, “could be wonderful, if she only tried harder.” And it took until last year when I was joking with @jeneelestrange that it’s odd that I know all the things that I know because I’m not all that clever, and haha isn’t it funny that I’m able to remember these things despite this this and this, and there was this moment of pause which you could hear even over the internet before Jenee very gently nudged me with “hey…uh…that uh…that’s a learning disorder, you have a learning disorder” and I went haha no I just don’t try hard enough, I’m just not all that clever…right? I’m just stupid, right? Why else do I struggle so much with academic things…

Wait, what do you mean ADHD gets overlooked in girls because it presents differently than in boys? What?! What do they mean it’s hard?!?! WELL WHY DON’T THEY TRY HARDER?!!

I got a commission to draw a daiMACura, and here it is :) I had a lot of fun with this one. Thanks to patchesotron-art for commissioning me, this was a total blast!!! After they order one I may see about making prints myself ;)

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He surveyed them all again- and held out his hand to Cassian. Cassian took it, and held out his other for Mor. Then Mor extended her other to Azriel. Azriel to Amren. Amren to Nesta. Nesta to Elain. And Elain to me. Until we were all linked, all bound together.

Rhys said, “We will walk into that field and only accept Death when it comes to haul us away to the Otherworld. We will fight for life, for survival, for our futures. But if it is decided by that tapestry of Fate or the Cauldron or the Mother that we do not walk off that field today…” His chin lifted. “The great joy and honor of my life has been to know you. To call you my family. And I am grateful- more than I can possibly say- that I was given this time with you all.”

*opens and closes mouth* okay, which one of you added my author name to a list of bisexual representation in literature and has me listed as ‘satirical pansexual’ because a) if that’s not a Google translation error that’s the best description ever and b) if that is a Google translation error that is the best description ever lmao

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I. Am. A. Giant. Sap. For. Pure. And. Positive. Sibling. Interactions.

(aka: oh god there’s three of them now and vex and vax love her so much i can’t stand it she’s so important to them she’s important to me she’s beautiful.)