my life and joy

Turn On The Lights

I keep posting updates on the never-ending Ferris Wheel of shitty news and shitty mentions that is life as a lady on the Internet. This strikes me as an intensely self-indulgent thing to do, given that (a) the situation doesn’t change much, and (b) my opinion on it hasn’t changed, either. 

It’s especially self-indulgent because there’s a lot of joy in my life, too. A fairly unique joy, since I only ever wanted one baby, and my baby will progress to being a full-blown child soon enough. So, as penance, here’s who my baby is, nearly four months along.

The lights are starting to switch on for Lulu. You can see what kind of person she’s starting to be. I’ve always had the impression that we are who we are pretty quickly, that we don’t change much over the years. I have no scientific back-up for this, but I’ve heard that certain temperamental qualities, at least, set in early and don’t change: An introvert stays introverted, a morning person never becomes a night person. I was super-intense, talked in full sentences from the minute I started talking, and didn’t learn to walk for ages, because (my Mom says) I thought I didn’t have to; if you can talk, you can just ask people to pick you up. My husband was sunny and sweet and never stopped moving. We both had the architecture in place, we just had to add on things like skills and haircuts and favorite albums.

Lulu is incredibly serious, for a baby. (Capricorn rising!) She knows how to laugh. I’ve heard her laugh. She smiles constantly. She just doesn’t find either of us very funny. She has a specific face she makes wherein she raises both eyebrows, frowns, and sets her lower jaw forward, which both renders her face into a perfect square and makes her look alarmingly like a baby version of Frasier Crane. She gives the impression that she is carefully, rationally considering the universe and she is not quite sure the universe is exhibiting the best possible judgment. Which is fair.

That makes her sound dour, and she’s not. She likes her creature comforts. (Which, for a baby, are pretty much just “comforts.”) She beams the entire time she’s getting a bath or a massage. Every book in the world says she should be wanting independent play time right now, and every book is wrong, because she still wants to spend every single moment of her life being held, preferably by me. (Which is not a humblebrag: Her Dad can put her into her crib and spend the rest of her nap playing video games, but if I’m the one putting her down, she’ll mysteriously forget how to sleep anywhere but on Mom’s lap.) She gets bored with rattles or toys that light up, but she loves stuffed animals; her idea of a non-stop, hardcore play time is to just shove her face into her stuffed purple unicorn and coo at how soft it is. She gets bored right away with picture books, but she knows music, and she has preferences for her music: No matter how upset or tired she is, she will stop crying if you play “Humble” by Kendrick Lamar.

I don’t know who or what she’ll become, or what you can build on this kind of architecture. She’s an old-souled little baby; she acts like someone’s Mom who’s had a rough day at work and just wants a weekend get-away with the girls at a decent spa. But it is so, so much fun, every day, to watch her happen. My serious, affectionate, prematurely middle-aged little person, who likes touching fuzzy things and listening to music with inappropriate lyrics, who was kind enough to come into our family. One day, she’ll be able to actually tell me who she is, and what I’ve gotten wrong. But it’s nice, having her right now.

why you should all consider getting chickens
  • a small backyard, a decent fence and the will to make a safe coop for your fluffy dames is all you need to make it happen
  • they will eat your vegetable scraps and gobble down pretty much any kind of food waste, turning discarded crusts and mushy fruit into big fat eggs full of protein!
  • and depending on which breed you buy, they will lay an egg almost every day. free, nutritious food every morning! what other pet will do that?
  • it’s a misconception that eating eggs is inherently cruel, or that you need a rooster for your chickens to lay eggs! all the eggs you buy in supermarkets are unfertilised, which means there is no chance of that egg ever hatching. you’re not eating a potential life, your chickens will lay eggs regardless of whether there’s a rooster around
  • so only buy a rooster to go with your lovely ladies if you want baby chicks - otherwise, just get some girls and enjoy those omelettes!
  • the way cage egg farms are run is terrible, and you can’t always be sure that a free range farm is as idyllic as the picture you see on the carton. lots of sad chookies who can’t perch or scratch or eat grass and clean themselves. :( 
  • this way, you will always be certain that your girls are happy, healthy, doing what chicken are meant to do and eating what chickens should be eating, which means bigger and better eggs for you!
  • you can give eggs to your friends! give eggs to strangers! eggs for everyone!
  • tiny and furious lawnmowers. chickens LOVE grass, especially clover. if you have a small backyard, they will do all the work of keeping the grass trimmed. 
  • a caution, pls buy your chicken a friend - they will get lonely if you only buy one. my friend had two chickens and one died, leaving Gizmo all alone. she got depressed and stopped laying, so they put her in the rabbit hutch. now she has a best friend bunny called Jimmy and she’s very happy! she often sits on him and purrs.
  • chickens are good around most other pets - cats and chickens usually regard each other with mutual indifference and disdain, but they generally bond with dogs. however, if you know your pooch or kitty is particularly aggressive, make sure you check it won’t be a problem!
  • scratch scratch scratch, scratch party!!
  • one time I was cleaning out the stables and my chicken came over, saw that I was using a big rake and went !!!! scratch time!!! and she started scratching furiously next to me like she was trying to help
  • they’re very clean animals and will clean themselves every day with a dust bath and a thorough preening
  • when it starts raining it takes them a good 10 seconds to process what’s happening, then they RUN to shelter
  • gloriously stupid tiny velociraptor running
  • peck peck peck. is food? I check! peck. not food!
  • rip all snails and slugs that live in your garden
  • they will also go after mice and spiders
  • chicken poop is great fertiliser! when you clean out their coop, spread the poo on your garden and watch your flowers and veggies grow!
  • kiddos LOVE chickens!!
  • seriously, looking after chickens is a great job for little kids - any little fella can fill up their water and give them some food, and collecting a warm, fresh egg every morning is so rewarding for them!!! 
  • hours of entertainment watching their antics
  • some (not all) like a cuddle! the ladies will let you know what their preference is. they may also gently peck and groom you because they love you.
  • you can give them fancy names like lottie, ethel and lady beatrice so it sounds like they’re a supporting cast in a Jane Austen novel
  • in conclusion give a pretty chicken a happy home today
How to feel like an ancient empress

*Wear velvet, silk, fine fabrics

*Take long baths with milk, honey, and olive oil

*Wear perfume with frankincense or rose or myrrh or neroli

*Wear gold and pearls and precious stones

*Paint your nails red or gold

*Put lavender satchels in your drawers

*Have good posture

*Give yourself a facial massage

*Speak with confidence–no one has the right to overpower your voice

*Rub a body oil into your skin when you get out of the bath

*Use a face oil with your moisturizer

*Wear a watch and be punctual

*Listen to those in need

*Clean and declutter your space

*Smile–but only when you want to

*Braid your hair

*Read novels or folklore/myth or poetry

*Be kind to children–have no sympathy for those who would hurt them

*Use cosmetics with pearl powder

*Go to bed early

*Eat well

10

“Hi, I’m Chuck! Here’s a few things you might need to know.”

September 24th, 2007 ♥ 10 years of Chuck.

10

“You should just keep it simple and never be torn up by anything that’s out of your hands. Because what you realize being in this business, so much of it is. And I’m actually glad I was sort of ignorant to that. Starting I had a different fire, different passion about it. I was going in to get every job. And whereas now I know the odds are insane. So it’s really about because you love doing this. Whatever it is you wanna do. Stay passionate about it, stay fearless. And don’t care what people think.” - Happy 26th Birthday, Dylan O'Brien!!! (August 26, 1991)

Flower meanings I wanted to get out there. It seemed pretty cool to me but was a lot of work as I couldn’t copy and past my research from websites. Use it for a florist AU or somethin’ I dunno have fun

Alstroemeria - Wealth, prosperity, fortune, friendship

Amaryllis - Splendid beauty, worth beyond beauty


Anemone - Fading hope, forsaken, anticipation


Anthurium - Hospitality, happiness, abundance


Aster - Patience, a love of variety, elegance, daintiness


Bird of Paradise - Joyfulness, magnificence, wonderful anticipation


Bouvardia Double - Enthusiasm, zest for life


Calla Lily - Magnificence, beauty, purity, innocence


Carnation - Pride, beauty


Red Carnation - Love, pride, admiration


Pink Carnation - Love of a woman or a mother


Purple Carnation - Capriciousness


Yellow Carnation - Disdain, rejection, disappointment


White Carnation - Innocence, pure love


Striped Carnation - Refusal


Chrysanthemum - Fidelity, optimism, joy, long life


Red Chrysanthemum - Love


White Chrysanthemum - Truth, loyal love


Yellow Chrysanthemum - Slighted love


Daffodil - regard, chivalry, rebirth, new beginnings, eternal life, unrequited love


Daffodil (Single) - Foretells a misfortune


Daffodil (Bunch) - Joy, happiness


Daisy - Innocence, purity, loyal love, “I will never tell.”


Gerbera Daisy- Cheerfulness


Delphinium - Big hearted, fun, lightness, levity, ardent attachment


Freesia - Innocence, thoughtfulness


Gardenia - Purity, sweetness, secret love, joy, conveys loneliness from the giver


Gerbera - Cheerfulness

Gladiolus - Strength of character, remembrance


Lavender Heather - Admiration, solitude, beauty


White Heather - Protection, wishes will come true


Hyacinth - Playfulness, sporty attitude, extreme rashness, constancy


Blue Hyacinth - Constancy


Purple Hyacinth - Sorrow


Red/Pink Hyacinth - Play


White Hyacinth - Loveliness


Yellow Hyacinth - Jealousy


Hydrangea - Heartfelt emotions, gratitude for being understood, frigidity, heartlessness


Iris - Eloquence


Purple Iris - Wisdom, compliments


Blue Iris - Faith, hope


Yellow Iris - Passion


White Iris - Purity


Larkspur - Levity, lightness, fickleness, haughtiness


Lilac - Youthful innocence, confidence


White Lilac - Humility, Innocence


Field Lilac - Charity


Purple Lilac - First love


Lily - Purity, refined beauty


White Lily - Modesty, virginity


Orange Lily - Passion


Yellow Lily - Gaiety


Lily of the Valley - Sweetness, purity of heart


Easter Lily - Virgin Mary


Orchid - Exotic beauty, refinement, thoughtfulness, mature charm, proud and glorious femininity


Peony - Bashfulness, compassion, indignation, shame, happy life, happy marriage, good health, prosperity


King Protea - Change, transformation, daring, resourcefulness, diversity, courage


Queen Anne - Haven, sanctuary, complexity, delicateness


Ranunculus - Radiant charm, attractiveness

Snapdragon - Graciousness, strenght, deception, presumption

Statice - Remembrance, sympathy, success

Stock - Lasting beauty, happy life, bonds of affection, promptness

Sunflower - Pure thoughts, adoration, dedication, dedicated love, haughtiness

Sweet Pea - Delicate pleasure, bliss, departure after having a good time

Tulip - Declaration of love, fame, perfect love

Rose - Love

Red Rose - Love, longing, desire, respect, admiration, devotion

Deep Red Rose - Regret, sorrow

White Rose - Purity, chastity, innocence, new beginnings, sympathy, humility, spirituality

Yellow Rose - Exuberance, joy, warmth, welcome, friendship, caring, purely platonic emotions

Pink Rose - Gentleness, admiration, joy, gratitude, appreciation, elegance, grace

Orange Rose - Passion, energy, desire, pride, fervor, fascination

Lavender Rose - Enchantment, love at first sight, majesty, splendor, fascination, adoration

Blue Rose - Elusive, unattainable, mysterious, desire, I can’t have you but I can’t stop thinking about you

Green Rose - Harmony, opulence, fertility, best wishes for a prosperous new life or wishes for recovery of good health

Black Rose - Death, farewell, elusive

Mixed Roses - Mixed feelings, I don’t know my feelings yet but I care about you enough to send roses

Moss Rosebud - Confession of love

Thorn-less Rose - Love at first sight, early attachment

Leaf Rose - You may hope

Hibiscus Rose - Delicate beauty

Burgundy Rose - Unconscious beauty

Christmas Rose - Relieve my anxiety

Dog Rose - Pleasure and pain

Damask Rose - Freshness, Persian ambassador of Love

Garden Rose - I am from Mars

Tea Rose - I will remember always

Rose of Sharon - Consumed by love

Carmine Rose - Deceitful desire

Cardinal Red Rose - Sublime desire

Amaranth Red Rose - Long standing desire

Wild Rose - Simplicity

Musk Rose - Capricious beauty

Rosa Mundi - Variety

Single Red Rose - “I love you”

A Single White Rose - “My feelings are pure”

A Single Yellow Rose - “You bring joy to my life” “Let’s be friends”

A Single Pink Rose - “I like you”

A Single Orange Rose - “I am proud of you”

A Single Peach Rose - “Thank you” “I sympathise with you”

A Single Lavender Rose - “I am enchanted by you”

A Single Blue Rose - “You seem like an unattainable dream”

A Crown Of Roses - Reward of virtue

A Bouquet Of Roses - Gratitude

A Rose In A Tuft Of Grass - There is everything to be gained by good company

One Red Rose - “I love you” “You are the one for me”

Two Red Roses - “Let us be together”

Three Red Roses - “You and me and our love for company”

Five Red Roses - “I am halfway in love with you”

Twelve Red Roses - “Be mine”

Twenty Five Red Roses - “Congratulations”

Fifty Red Roses - “My love for you is limitless”

OH SWEET LORD MORE OFFICIAL ART!!!!! IT LOOKS LIKE THE BANQUET AFTER EPISODE 12!!! <3 <3

-LOOK AT VICTOR’S FACE!!! HIS HEART MOUTH!! OF MY GOSH! <3

-YUURI BE LIKE “OH NO NOT AGAIN!” BUT ALSO SECRETLY LOVING IT

-WHAT THAT HELL IS YURIO DOING?!?! DODGING?! 

-PHICHIT BEING HIMSELF BASICALLY (INSTAGRAM LORD)

-OTABEK STARING AND CONTEMPLATING HIS LIFE CHOICES

-JJ AND ISABELLA BEING ALL CUTE AND STUFF

LET’S PARTY INDEED!!!

I got a commission to draw a daiMACura, and here it is :) I had a lot of fun with this one. Thanks to patchesotron-art for commissioning me, this was a total blast!!! After they order one I may see about making prints myself ;)