i really hate easter/christmas/birthdays now
you know when you were like nine and everything was awesome and you would get that crescendo-ing feeling of excitement and you wouldnt be able to sleep the night before and you’d get up really early because it was special and amazing and awesome
but then when you got older (for me it was when i was 10 ;_:) and then that feeling went. there was no excitement. just the knowing that that day would be just like any other day, only people would treat it differently and you’d get given things for some reason.
and idk i just really hate them now and i wish i was still little and still had that excitement because i miss it i don’t find anything exciting anymore only concerts but they are rare