my inspirtion

Maybe we were too young, too young to love. Maybe we relied on stupid teenage love stories that people like us dreamt of having. Or maybe our stars were never aligned. But dammit our love is one you’d remember even when your daughter comes home at 10:38pm heartbroken with mascara running down her face and bloodshot eyes, reminding yourself of the love we had, the love that was almost there, our love.
—  Excerpt from a book I’ll never write #84 // unforgettable j.n.g

anonymous asked:

Wait do you actually (still) think people only like you/your channel because of your cracks? You're so wonderful and your other videos are at least equally as good, it makes me a little sad you doubt that

well i dont rly think that my channel is “cracks” only, i wouldnt make so many videos with my face then right haha i said that because til today i get comments telling me to go back to crack, they subscribe because of cracks etc etc so yea in fact there are still ppl out there who dont like my other content but comparing the amount of comments i get about going back to cracks to the amount of comments that tell my i’m an inspirtational encouraging and fun person…i dont rly think my channel is worth the crack only hahah i can make people feel good and all happy using other methods as well

He asked me what I thought our relationship would look like in a month or in 10 years; I told him that, be it a month or 10 years, it will come too fast, and on any given day I will love him more than yesterday.
—  He asked about 10 years, but I was thinking about forever
I loved him, I really did. I thought he loved me too. He didn’t, he never had, all I was to him was a warm body. I didn’t matter, but he never let that on. Until one day I had enough. I left him. I left his cold heart on the curb where it belonged. When he came back, begging for me, it broke me. Where was this years ago when I loved him? Where was this when he used me? If I had let him back into my life, would things have changed. No, I’m not going to let him use me all over again. I am done.
—  Excerpt from a book I’ll never read #82 // anonymous
Adam Lambert Sentence Meme
  • “What do you want from me?”
  • “Just don’t give up on me.”
  • “But I think you could save my life.”
  • “Baby, you’re beautiful and there’s nothing wrong with you.
  • "I’m a freak, but thanks for loving me.”
  • “I want your body, mind, soul, etcetera.”
  • “I’m so sick of living for other people; took meeting you to realize.”
  • “I’ll give it to you ‘till you’re screaming my name.”
  • “Once I’m in, I own your heart.”
  • “Do you like what you see?”
  • “If i had you; that would be the only thing I’d ever need.”
  • “You’re everything that I want, but you don’t want me.”
  • “Just remember you are not alone in the aftermath.”
  • “Don’t be afraid of what’s inside.”
  • “I won’t give up on us.”
  • “Wait till they get a load of me.”
  • “'No trespassers’; yeah my ass.”
  • “I feel like I’m losing control.”
  • “Walk that walk like you don’t give a fuck!”
  • “We’re gonna party 'till they take us away!”
  • “Sorry I’m kind of drunk.”
  • “I’m not broken, but I need a fix.”
  • “I wish that this night would never be over.”
  • “If I had my way, we’d never close our eyes.”
  • “I don’t want to miss a second with you.”
  • “None of us are promised to see tomorrow; so what we do is our to choose.”
  • “Why can’t we just live life with no consequence?”
  • “Can you feel that kicking in?”
  • “I know you’re holding back; no more hesitation!”
  • “Don’t you dress it up tonight.”
  • “Take it off and try me on.”
  • “Cold as ice and as bitter as a December winter night; that’s how I treated you.”
  • “I sometimes tend to loose my temper.”
  • “I know it gets hard sometimes but I could never leave your side no matter what I say.”
  • “If I wanted to leave I would of left by now; but your the only that knows me better than I know myself.”
  • “If you were gone for even a day I wouldn’t know which way to turn.”
  • “I can be obnoxious sometimes, but try to see my heart.”
  • “You’re the only thing in this world that I would die without.”
  • “Your gonna see things you might not want to see.”
  • “I don’t wanna hide any part of me from you.”
  • “Baby, I can smell you on my clothes.”
  • “They say we’ll burn in hell, but I don’t think we will.”
  • “We can’t change.”
  • “I know what I’m after.”
  • “How do we take back what’s been done; what’s been said?”
  • “And I would give anything just to chase the dark away and start all over again.”
  • “All you want is to be wanted, long as you get it out of me.”
  • “Remember the first time we collided?”
  • “There’s a place where we don’t have to hide; we can dream all night.”
  • “I find it kinda sad that dreams in which I’m dying are the best I’ve ever had.”
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You guys know what.. I have been doing essay about Same-sex marriage recently!! #Chanbaek is my greatest inspiration LOLLLLLLLL!!!!

There’s a glimmer of hope in his eyes.
He hangs onto them…
Every word that comes out of your mouth
The way you have a slight smirk when you’re telling a funny story
He looks at you like someone put all the stars in your eyes.

He wishes for you
He loves that you’re so easy to talk to
He loves that you listen
You should see the way he looks at you when you’re talking
Almost as though he’s never heard anything quite so beautiful

He looks at you like you’re an angel
He’s amazed by your blissful elegance
He loves everything about you
He wants to be immersed in your beauty
And how could we know that??

Well you should see the way he looks at you when you’re talking…
His looks explain it all.

— 

4:19am // “You should see the way he looks at you when you’re talking….”

S/O to whomever submitted this sentence into my ask box… I’m sorry I accidentally deleted it from my ask box, I didn’t mean to! However, I hope you enjoy this!

Do I matter that little
Because I matter to myself
And I need you to see that I’m scared and running out of ideas. I can’t do this if you’re not going to help me. I’ve survived a lot and been knocked down
And been hit over the head while being told to smile by some so close to me who used to bring protection on cold and stormy nights and by some I’ve laid my head on that I’ve Met along the way hoping to find peace.
So I will continue to fight because I just don’t know what else to do but I’m slowly realizing that I may be the only one wanting to fight.
And if so and if I matter this little in the eyes of others who should be there to help me, then don’t cast judgment when I give up and then they all look around and wonder where I went because I was gone long before you noticed I was missing.
—  Excerpt from a book I’ll never write #81 // @jokerscurve

anonymous asked:

We weren't ever real. It was a secret and I attached myself way too fast.

We weren’t ever real.
The laughs were fake.
The memories are gone.
The months were a waste.

I’m alone at 2 in the morning
I’m alone at 4 in the afternoon.
I’m having breakfast by myself
And it’s hard making dinner for one

The promises you made
The future we saw
It was all a lie
And that’s heartbreaking

I invested time into you
I saw a future with you
But we weren’t ever real
To me we were
But to you we weren’t

anonymous asked:

We both love each other but together we're toxic. Bad for each other.

I’m tired.
I’m so tired of fighting you on everything.
I fucking love you so much,
But we’re so bad for each other.
It hurts to be near you.

It’s like someone dangling a diamond over a lake full of eels.
I want to go for it, because diamonds are beautiful
But I know I’ll miss the diamond and be electrocuted to death.

I’m so conflicted with our back and forth banter
Because on one hand we could be beautiful
But on the other hand, we are so toxic
You could kill me with your words
I could kill you with my actions.

I love you, my dear
I love you so much
And I know you love me
But we’re so toxic
And I’m afraid that we won’t make it out alive in the end.

anonymous asked:

Why did you never tell me

“Why did you never tell me?” He asked. Our hands were clasped together, and we were walking the downtown streets together.

It was our four month anniversary, but we’d been friends since forever.

“Tell you what?” I responded, confused as to what he was referring too.

He stops and pulls me to the side so that we don’t disturb anyone else walking. He grabs my hands and looks me in the eyes.

“Why did you never tell me that you loved me? All those months ago, when we were just friends… why did you never tell me?”

Confused, I looked away to gather myself before responding. This was the most random moment that he could’ve brought this up.

“Because every girl in high school has this dream guy that is so unattainable but she can’t help but have a crush on him. And you were my unattainable crush,” I blushed as I continued, “Plus you were one of my best friends, and I was afraid I would’ve ruined us. But I didn’t ruin us, did I?”

He shook his head, his radiant smile coming to the surface, “No,” he said, “you didn’t ruin us. If anything, you made us even better.”

Kissing my cheek, he grabs my hand and pulls me with him as we continue on our late night stroll.

Sorry I’ve been MIA for a few days. School is kicking my butt!

It's always raining these days

I always associated the sound of rain with the feel of us.
Gentle and caring
Not too overbearing
Just…perfect.

But torrential downpours flood lives and lungs until the water makes up all of you and your breaths are droplets dangling from the edge of an eyelash.
Blink
They roll down
Blink
They’re no more
Blink
I am no more
And I always thought drowning was a peculiar way of death
Because death and water are best friends you see
70% of the human body is made up of water
70% of the human body is already dead
And if you start handing out the remaining 30% to fantasies of strangers and other halves and kisses in the rain-you’re killing yourself.
Because the afterlife isn’t heaven or hell -it’s a sea.
With deep waters and shallow ends and not enough room.
Not enough room to house our memories of blue walls and hurried breaths and a very sudden passionate hate for clothing.

I can’t hear anything but the rain.
30%
Suddenly I hear the deep timbre of your voice
27%
You walk in the room wearing that black shirt I hate but love to see on you
25%
You move closer and my heartbeat accelerates debating the decision to run away or stay
20%
I can SMELL you now
16%
You bend down and whisper but my ears lose track of your words because the sound of our heartbeats drown out the rain and shroud your voice
13%
I can feel the heat from your body envelop me in a warm tight hug
10%
Why are you walking away?
8%
I’m sorry. I don’t know what I did wrong.
Please stay.
5%

And my subconscious digs out the whisper in your voice that said-
“I love you but I can’t.. I just can’t do this anymore.”
And I’m trying so hard to cling to this 5% of me. To not give you the rest of me.
You say you love me but you’re still leaving.
Blink.
Zero.
Gone.
You see I always associated the sound of rain with the feel of us.

And I still do.